It's warm in your room. Too warm. His bare chest is sticky against your back, his breath heavy and damp where it ghosts against your neck.
You’re tangled up in him, the two of you still half-naked, sheets kicked down to your ankles. He’s curled around you like he’s afraid someone’s going to rip you out of his arms, like the last hour wasn’t proof enough that you finally let him in- for real this time.
Remmick always talks after. He needs to. Needs to fill the quiet like he’s afraid it’ll mean something’s changed if he doesn’t.
And God, he can’t shut up.
"I thought about you," He murmurs into the shell of your ear. "Like this. For too long." He’s still trying to catch his breath, but his hands are already roving again- lazy now, just skimming your waist, mapping the softness of your hips with a desperate adoration.
"Every night I’d lie there and imagine this. Not just the sex- I mean, that too, obviously." He snickers, eyes flitting between your entwined bodies.
"But shit, baby, you’re just so... perfect." He nuzzles closer, planting a kiss under your jaw, voice dipping into that velvet tone he only uses when he’s honest. "But this. You letting me stay. Letting me touch you after. Hold you."
You reach back and tangle your fingers in his hair. It’s damp with sweat. He practically purrs at the contact, pressing a kiss to your shoulder like he wants to crawl inside your skin.
"Wasn't too much, was I?” he asks, quieter now. He murmurs with something raw, almost something boyish. But you know better. The smirk in his tone when he says it- he knows. He knows you couldn't get enough.
When you shake your head, he presses another rewarding kiss to your neck, humming in pleasure.
"That's what I thought." He whispers, squeezing you close. "You gon' let me in tomorrow night too, yeah?"
"Remmick-"
"Shh." He hushes you, shaking his head in mock displeasure, a finger coming up to your lips to quiet you. "Just nod your pretty little head."
You think of what could happen- what you're doing. Letting a killer love you like this. But against your better judgement, you nod, looking into those lovestruck eyes he casts on you.
A slow grin spreads across his face. You're already underneath him when he slides back in- half hard, too sensitive, and still not done. The room smells like sex, humid and sweet, and his chest is flushed as he rolls his hips slow, lazy.
"You feel that? Nah, that’s love, darlin'. That’s me loving you so slow, so deep, so damn good no one else could ever even try." His voice is a broken overstimulated growl.
He kisses your spine once. Then again. Then again.
"This is all ours." He urges, baring his teeth, "Never gon' let anyone take it from us." He promises, almost obsessively into your shoulder, letting you feel him stretch you open.
You believe him. You feel it in every lazy, desperate thrust. In the way he wraps himself around you tighter, keeps you locked against him. You briefly realize that you're all he has.
Ditzy!reader has such a praise kïnk like omg girl we get it😭😭
Smoke knows you have that confidence in you, you just need a little reassuring! Sometimes he’ll give you a good pep talk before going into a place, lift your chin up and fix something about your outfit he saw wasn’t right. He’ll say something like “Don’t overwork that pretty mind ‘f yers. Ain’t shit you can’t handle.” Or he’s giving acaress of his hand on your cheek, or giving your thigh a squeeze. And after you say what you need to properly your eyes are immediately looking at Smokes for approval. He doesn’t mind though, give you a little curt but pleased nod that makes you wanna fall on top of him and roll around in his warmth while you giggle.
Or when he’s drilling his meaty length inside your sopping walls, your head pulled to the side with hearts in your eyes. Salvating at the sweat dripping down the side of his face that you want to lick up, you’re mewling out, “Is good ‘Lijah, it’s hck- it’s good?”
He lets out a grumble of curses, damned at how sexy you look all fucked out and needy. Pretty pussy clamping down on him like your aching for his cum, his lips fall to your neck, your chin, leaving sloppy kisses on your lips while he gives you slow sledgehammer into your heat. Crown of his head pressing that special spot you love so much.
“Course it is darlin- fuuuuck me, yer wonderful princess.”
It only makes you moan louder, creaming his length as he holds you close, letting your nails claw down his back as he doesn’t stop railing you, only fucking your through it. Pushing your curls back as he’s got your head inbetween his bicep.
He groans, thrusting his cock into you faster, dirtier, “Shit, you can take this baby, can’t you? You’re my good girl, aintchu? Don’tcha wanna make yer husband cum?”
꒰ঌ ໒꒱. thinking about stack being a side nigga to a fine ass cougar. he the type of side dude that 100% knows his place. whoever your husband is, he honestly doesn’t care as long as he has his time with you. he would believe the lies or possible truths you tell him about plans to leave your husband.
꒰ঌ ໒꒱. elias would be the shoulder your can cry on about your marriage. “an-and he just doesn’t understand ‘lias it’s like he doesn’t hear a word i say”, you sobbed in his arms, hiccuping. stack sighed though his nose, pressing his lips together and caressing your face, “you’re okay baby, hear me? ‘m here.”
꒰ঌ ໒꒱. thinking about how elias may know you’re married to another man, but he’s the only one that owns that pussy. stack was slow stroking your pussy in missionary, ankles pushed behind your head as your phone began to ring. “eliasss stop, he’s calling”, you slurred out while trying to reach for your phone. stack smirked, dick pulsing at the thought that formed in his head. “answer for me baby. make sure you be quiet too.” as he began to circle your clit with the thick pads of fingers.
꒰ঌ ໒꒱. elias can be manipulative in yall situation sometimes. if he’s missing you real bad, he’ll blow your phone up not caring if you’re with your husband. he’ll leave a voicemail, “come see me pretty mama. i miss you, you miss daddy? i know you do.” he’ll also tell you anything you want to hear, to make you more reliant on him. you’ll tell him how your husband is going through your phone, suspecting something. and elias talmat, “why he going through your phone? he miserable. not like you doin nothin’ wrong baby.”
꒰ঌ ໒꒱. stack wants you to eventually get caught up so he can have you to himself. in the beginning he didn’t care and it was just fun. but now? he’s leaving lil shit at your house that you have to lie on the spot to your husband about.
꒰ঌ ໒꒱. he loves taking pictures and videos of yall having sex. “come on mama, open them legs up—let the camera see my nut all over that pretty pussy.” also his screen saver is you bent over in red panties with his tattooed hand grabbing your ass.
🐆 sev’s comments ┆whew idk how i came up with this, i got to the mic im like press record ah ah ah! im drop kicking my husband to be with dada. also splash of older!reader — i be tired of young ho fics sometimes.
Elias ‘Stack’ Moore x Childhood Best friend!Reader
Trouble brews once Mary walks into the twins’ juke joint, and you just wanna be the girl Elias likes. Part. 2
wc: 6,103
warnings: porn with lots of plot, jealous!dom!Elias, sub!reader, clit slapping, face-sitting, cunnilingus, unprotected p-in-v, dirty-talk, degradation (not tew much but it’s there), overstimulation (r receiving), rough sex, manhandling, slight tit sucking/licking, marking, creampie (gulp??), language, one klan mention, shitty southern writing
an: HEY GUYS!!! THIS IS MY LONGEST FIC EVER WOOHOO! (ignore how it took me a month to make it, i’ve been going thru it man) i’m literally obsessed w sinners so hopefully i did stack justice! do y’all even read these? anyways
feedback is always appreciated n welcomed <3
Your hair was starting to cling onto your forehead as if you were drenched in sticky molasses.
The air was humid and dry; of course, this was a Mississippi custom, but it doesn’t help that there’s dozens of bodies stomping and prancing around.
Though you can’t complain much, considering that you were right here with them—dancing as if you hadn’t in years.
In a way, you haven't. You haven’t felt a rush of autonomy and euphoria quite like this before.
With everyone being nothing but working busy-bodies, there’s been little to no time to plan big events such as tonight. The lack of excitement has been a major factor too.
Hence why as soon as the Moore twins came back into town with the intention to open up their very own juke joint, everyone was on board.
The pair hadn’t been seen here in seven years.
Seven long, cruel years without the twin you’ve grown to love.
Stack.
Well, he was Stack to everyone else. But to you? He was still Elias. Your ‘Lias.
Seven years without his lingering touches and pearly smiles.
You weren’t the only one that missed him, it seems.
Your sister told you that when she went down near the train station, she was right there waiting for your Elias.
Mary was waiting.
You don’t have a clue as to how she knew he was coming home before you did, considering that nobody from the Delta had heard from him except for you. And a letter from him was rather rare.
Mary had nearly thrown a fit once she saw him; it didn’t help that Elias had turned down her persistent advances.
The lack of contact obviously sent her over the edge.
Apparently she mentioned their former relations; their connection being a secret to none.
You were envious of this; never jealous, but overcome by a feeling of want.
Growing up with the twins meant that the three of you were as close as can be. That being said, though, they looked at you as if you were their little sister. It was fine when Elijah assumed the role of a family member, but Elias?
Just thinking about it makes your heart ache.
You longed for the flirtatious remarks that he’d give off to any and every woman, a night filled with intimacy plagued your mind constantly.
But you got over it.
You had to. Not only for the sake of your friendship with Elias, but also because of his prolonged absence from town.
That’s why tonight—right now, you had to pump the breaks and focus on celebrating the twins’ success.
Speaking of success?
You making your way over to the bar with your wobbly heeled-covered feet was a success. Surprisingly.
“Someone’s been dancin’ a lil too hard, huh?” Annie chortles, looking at you with nothing but sisterly-love, and a bit of amusement.
“Only dancin’ I was doing was during my cooking—nothin’ like this in a while,” you exclaim with bliss through a beaming smile. You huff as you sit down in front of the bar. “Y’got anythin’ good back here?” You motion to the bottles Annie has surrounding her.
“Better than good,” Annie replies before ducking down and searching below the counter.
You brace your hands on the counter and slightly peer over at the woman, but then she pops up quicker than you can plop back down onto your chair. She quirks a brow at you before placing a bottle down in front of you.
“What’s this?” You question; if Annie didn’t know any better, she would’ve thought that it was Christmas morning with the way you were looking at the bottle.
“Authentic Irish beer; straight from the north side of Chicago. Different from the rest they’re sellin’.” She replies. “Your man brought it specifically for you—made me promise I wouldn’t give it to nobody else, no matter how much they was payin’.”
You bite back a smile at her words; you knew exactly who she was talking about.
“He fixin’ to be Mary’s.” Your lips straighten, it’s bittersweet.
“That so? ‘Cause that ain’t what I heard,” Annie muses, making you pause. You savor Annie’s words as if they were your holy grail. Was there a chance that Elias looked at you the same as you did him?
You crane your neck and your gaze is set over your shoulder—over at him.
He catches your eye and he gives you a cheeky smile, to which you return rather eagerly.
You hadn’t had a single nonchalant bone in your body it seems.
Your shared staring was cut short as Mary forced Elias’ attention back onto her, but it wasn’t exactly a hard task for her.
Something about her was just so easy and simple, despite the ring shining on her hand that matched another man’s being anything but simple. The way that they connected even after all these years made you feel as if you swallowed a jar of mud.
After a few sips of beer, you can’t help but let a smile rest on your face. Elias knew you’d love it, and it makes your heart dance.
Speaking of dancing, your dearest friend Pearline struts up to you with a grin that soared for miles.
“What’s got you cheesin’ all hard?” You raise your eyebrows at her, making her giggle.
“Y’know the Preacher’s boy? The one that was just singin’?” Pearline’s nearly jumping out of her skin with excitement.
“Lil’ Sammie Moore? Course I do, why? What’d you do Pearl?” You gape at her and hold her hands tightly in yours.
“Well…” She trails off. “Let’s just say, he showed me he ain’t a boy, but a real man.”
Your eyes nearly bulge out of the sockets as you exclaim a Pearline! that could probably be heard for miles.
Pearline gushes, “He made me feel things I ain’t never felt before.”
“Not even with your mister?” You gasp.
“Not even close. And that’s not all,” she pauses before looking around, then leaning in towards you.
“I wasn’t even able to freshen up. He didn’t want me to,” Pearline whispers.
You shout, then look around in embarrassment at your outburst; you shake Pearline vigorously by her shoulders and giggle some more.
You decide to look around the joint, and you coincidentally catch Sammie looking right at the back of Pearline’s frame in utter awe.
You nudge Pearline, and she looks over at him with you. The look that she throws his way is nothing short of flirtatious.
“He looked at ya like he wanted t’take a bite,” you snicker.
Pearline looks at you mischievously, “Funny, considerin’ he already did.” You can’t help but laugh.
“So, y’thinkin’ bout singin’ like he said?” You ask.
Pearline hums, “Maybe. ‘M thinkin’ you should too.”
“No, not happenin’. Not a chance,” You scoff playfully.
Pearline whines and grabs your wrists. “C’mon, sista! When’s the last time you got the chance to do this?” She pouts, and tries hardest to make puppy-dog eyes at you.
“Besides, this could be y’chance to make a move on Stack. Ain't that whatcha been waitin’ for?” She drags.
You falter at the question she poses.
“Tonight’s the night, sista.” Pearline murmurs softly.
It’s crazy how you always get in your head when it comes to him.
The thing is, you weren’t one to throw yourself out there just to entertain a man. No, that just wasn’t your style.
But God—tonight? His suit was fitting snug in all the right places, his grills glimmered dangerously in the dim lighting, and his eyes always found yours, recklessly.
You couldn’t resist Elias Moore.
And right now, you’re starting to wonder if you ever could.
“Y’better wrap that scarf on tight, Pearl,” you say as you grab her arm and start walking with her to the front. Pearline shrills and claps her hands with glee.
You saunter towards the stage with a pep in your step and your arm linked with a perky Pearline. Your heels clack on the wooden floors as you come face-to-face with the band and none other than Delta Slim, who’s now grinning at you.
“Been tryin’ to getcha to sing for years girl, what’s with the change o’ heart?” He questions with a smirk, as if he already knew the answer. You’re sure that he did with the way that his eyes looked past you and towards Elias.
“It’s a nice night, figured I’d try sum different,” you shrug, trying to mask your sudden embarrassment. Pearline intertwines her hand with yours and uses her other one to gesture to the band. You inhale deeply while looking at her; she gives you a look of reassurance.
The patrons of the juke joint grow silent at the sight of you two taking your stances and the band readying their instruments.
Pearline starts humming and you lightly stomp your feet on the stage, starting to form a beat as the band follows.
Elias feels as if his heart was being weighed down by a ton inside of him. He held his breath—scared that the rise and fall of his chest would make him miss the steady view of you: parading around as if everything outside the joint had come to a halt.
You looked completely, and utterly divine up there; moving swiftly and effortlessly, as if you owned the very ground you were stepping on.
You were absolutely ethereal in Elias’ eyes.
And he’d be lying if he said that he wasn’t falling even harder for his sugar as of right now. He was the only man that could get away with calling you sugar; he knows it, so does everyone else in the Delta—and Elias can’t help but let his pride swell every time he thinks about it.
Your body sways carelessly as if you were one with the words that escaped your lips, but your eyes are grounded—powerful, even. Speaking of them: your glittering orbs meet his, your gaze nothing short of a vixen’s.
Though, the interlocking of your sights is interrupted when Mary makes her presence known yet again at Elias’ side. He can’t help but sigh at the intrusion.
Luckily, Elias’ ever-growing agitation fades when the patrons of the juke let out their elation around him. The band’s playing picks up, as well as you and Pearline’s voices.
Don’t let it shine, shine, shine once more
Pale, pale moon, pale, pale moon
Everyone chants and stomps rhythmically.
“I wanna sing, like I hear the crickets do,” Pearline sings seductively while peering at Sammy as she struts.
Pale, pale moon, pale, pale moon
“I wanna hoo,” you and Pearline sing simultaneously, harmonizing beautifully as your backs meet and you both slide to a crouching position.
Pale, pale moon, pale, pale moon
“I wanna howl,” the two of you sound as if you were straight out of a folktale—like one of those myths of the sirens that Annie had explained to Elias once before. You and Pearline then reside in a crawl as you look at the crowd with a sense of hunger in your eyes.
Mary gets ahold of Elias’ tie, but he quickly removes her grip from him—without even breaking eye contact with you. He knows she’s interested in spending the rest of the night with him; maybe in hopes of rekindling an old flame.
But how could Elias be interested in another woman when his woman—his sugar—was looking at him so deliciously.
You grin slyly at him, biting your bottom lip before licking your teeth.
Pale, pale moon, pale, pale moon
“I wanna scream,” Pearline sings, as you mouth the three words to Elias.
Three little words that have Elias fucking mesmerized, hypnotized even. You have him in a trance, right where you want him, and you both know it.
Elias wishfully thinks that the pick up in your breathing isn’t just from all the dancing you’ve been doing tonight. He bites his lip at the thoughts running through his mind.
Mary can’t even say that she recognizes the look that Elias gives you, for she has never been on the receiving end like you have been. Her frustration and jealousy boils over, and she eventually huffs before walking away from Elias, and out of the juke joint.
Elias doesn’t mind one bit, and he sure as hell doesn’t when the song finishes and you hug Pearline with excitement as the joint nearly turns upside down. You’re jumping up and down and Elias can’t help but smile til his cheeks hurt.
Elias feels a hand slap somewhat roughly on his shoulder. He knows good and well it’s his brother, with or without the wave of tobacco radiating.
“Came out here after the game finished, saw the way she was lookin’ at’cha, too.” Elijah grumbles.
“Breathtakin’, ain’t she?” Elias remarks breathily, not even turning to his brother—keeping his sights on you, as you hug Slim and the rest of the instrument players.
“Not ‘bout how I feel, ‘s ‘bout how you feel,” Elijah sighs. This makes Elias turn towards his brother.
“Don’t know what’chu waitin’ on, already been years,” Elijah then pauses before continuing, “Don’t be surprised when somebody see what’chu see.” Elijah trails off, almost ominously, and nods his head in your direction.
Elias follows his twin’s trail of sight and spots you: talking to a man he ain’t even seen before. You were beaming, your hair a little frizzed up by the humidity, your lipgloss smudged a little onto your shimmering skin.
Speaking of your lipgloss—whoever you’re talking to decided to rub his finger below your lip to wipe it away. Right now, Elias’ demeanor resembles the snake him and his brother killed earlier: cold and unmoving.
You glance around the sea of bodies, and Elias takes this as a sign. He starts to walk up to you, but not before having to mumble several ‘excuse me’s while side-stepping quite a few people—who seem to not be able to hold their liquor.
He finally reaches you, and he gets a glimpse of you over the guy’s shoulder, who has no idea he’s even there.
“We got a problem?” Elias murmurs, making the stranger nearly jump out of his skin.
“N-nah man,” the man chuckles awkwardly as he faces Elias.
“I reckon we do, since y’talkin’ to my lady,” Elias replies, sizing him up as he takes a step closer to him. The man takes a step back in return.
“I ain’t know, I-I’m sorry, Stack,” the man trembles meekly. Elias only hums. The man glances between the two of you before making himself scarce.
Elias stays in the same spot for a beat, before turning and giving you a look that says let’s go, before walking towards one of the back rooms of the joint. You hesitate, before inching behind him.
“So I’m y’lady now?” You don’t bother to tone down the sass in your voice.
“‘S what I said, ain’t it?” he mumbles, not even looking at you.
You scoff, “Yeah, well, y’got a funny way a’ showin’ it.”
Elias pulls you into a dimly lit room and finally faces you as you stand before him. “What’s that s’possed to mean?”
You narrow your eyes at him before speaking. “Means I saw you messin’ with ole Mary.”
“She don’t mean nun to me,” Elias guaffs. “Why d’ya think she left already?”
You roll your eyes and begin to head out the door you just came from. You’re not sure where this attitude just came from, in all honesty. The moment your eyes met him while you were on stage, it felt as if everything else had faded away, and it was just the two of you.
Maybe it was the irritation caused by Mary that left you in a sour mood now, you’re not sure. You know it won’t be beneficial to you nor Elias in this moment, but you can’t help it.
Elias grabs your wrist before you can get too far away from him.
“She ain’t nun, y’hear?” If you didn’t know any better, you’d think he almost sounded desperate. You stay quiet.
“Asked you a question, sugar. ‘N with that attitude of yours, I ain’t fixin’ to repeat myself.” His lips ghost the shell of your ear as he speaks, and heat twinges through your stomach. Elias seems to take notice of the subtle switch in your demeanor; he smirks and his chocolate brown irises darken even further.
“I…I don’t believe you,” You almost whisper, but still meet his gaze.
Almost immediately, he responds with, “What I got to do to convince you, baby?” Elias matches your tone, but there’s still a hint of assertiveness conveyed through his words.
You don’t speak—it’s almost like you couldn’t, but you release your wrist from his grasp gently.
Elias’ jaw clenched slightly, but you still spot it. He looks as if he’s pondering his next words.
“‘S not makin’ sense, darlin’. I mean, you were acting like a whore on stage, now you don’t want me to touch you?” He cocks his head at you and your lips part—like it was reflex, and maybe it was. Elias clicks his tongue.
Your breath picks up, and if your mind weren’t turning fuzzy, you would’ve chided yourself for making a fool out of yourself in front of a man—Elias at that.
The man you’ve yearned for longer than you can even remember.
“I ain’t no whore,” you speak, finally regaining your senses.
“That right, sugar?” You can feel Elias’ breath on your heated face, and all you can do is nod in return.
“Y’wanna know what I think?” Before you can answer the question Elias poses, he murmurs lowly, “I think that deep down….You are a whore—and you needa be fucked like one.”
Despite the vulgarity of his words, the way that Elias places his palm across your cheek is soft—loving, even.
You press your thighs together through your dress unconsciously, desperately seeking even an ounce of friction to cool the impending heat between your legs.
Elias takes the hand that rested upon your cheek and moved it to the stiff rim lock that resided on the door’s surface.
Thank god—You’d hate for the likes of someone such as Sammie barging in and being witness to sin hotter than the Mississippi sun.
Elias then starts to walk you back to the table that remained bare in the dingy-lit room, removing his suit jacket and vest, followed by his tie. The backs of your knees meet the edge of the firm table, making you stumble just a bit. Elias takes it upon himself to lay you down onto the table.
You rest on your elbows as you look up at the six-foot-something man in front of you, and you can’t help but swoon. His beating eyes look down at you lustfully—almost as if he were a predator, and you his prey.
It made you weak.
Weak at the hands of a man you’d been waiting on while he had the time of his life in Chicago, with all sorts of Italian customs. Your actions are beyond halfwitted, but you make no effort to straighten yourself out anymore.
Elias takes his warm hands and spreads your knees with ease after unbuttoning his shirt, making you yelp involuntarily at the near-abrasiveness. He licks his grillz and lets out a short, deep chuckle; you feel it vibrate your bones, while he aligns himself so that almost he’s eye-level with your warm core.
“Elias, wait—“ You whimper meekly,
He hums disapprovingly, letting out a firm ‘mm-mmn’. He rips his gaze from your thighs to your eyes, “Been waitin’ for years, sugar, not sure if I can any longer.” He repositions his hands, lifting your dress and hitching it up to your upper thighs, nearly to your pelvic bone.
Elias massages your thighs with an iron grip, it’s not yet rough, but not exactly gentle either. His switch between the two is making your mind reel.
He kisses up from your knee almost to where your dress bunches up as he removes his button-up, leaving him in his undershirt. He then says, “…So, m’sorry if I lose m’manners,” he breathes hotly against your skin, “But I don’t think I can live without destroying this pussy for a minute longer.” He damn near groans.
His mouth hovers above your clothed cunt—he purposely breathes in a way that makes you squirm at the feeling you’re unable to run from. As you shudder and tilt your head back, you suddenly hear a rip and you feel a gust of air.
You gasp and look down, where you’re met with Elias looking up at you cheekily, with one half of your panties in his mouth, and the other in his hand.
“‘Lias!” You exclaim.
Elias feigns innocence, “Told ya I ain’t mean no harm.” He then averts his focus to your legs, and he leaves a kiss to your mound.
“Y’not gon let me freshen up, will ya?” You ask quietly, already knowing the answer.
Instead of answering, Elias takes his tongue and trails it from your hole to your clitoris, and you puff out the air you didn’t know you were holding in.
Elias seems to enjoy your reaction, for he then gives you another long lick.
And another,
and another,
and you guessed it, another.
You press your lips together, muting your sounds, and Elias ‘tsk’s at the sight.
He nips a bit of the skin next to your lips, making you choke on your own spit. “Don’t like how quiet you’re bein’.” Elias reprimands you.
“Stop t-teasin’ then,” You manage to huff.
Elias chuckles in disbelief, “Wanted to be gentle, but y’makin’ it hard,” he then lifts you up from the table, and places his back where you once laid. He hooks your legs over the sides of his head, your pussy now inches away from his plump, shining lips.
Elias’ typical, million-dollar smirk is back on his face, but there’s something more sinister behind it—your legs would’ve buckled if he weren’t holding them.
“You’re a whore, jus’ like I said y’were.” His southern drawl makes your stomach twist in knots, despite the familiarity. Before you could get a word out, Elias placed you onto his face.
You mewl at the feeling of his tongue swirling around anywhere, and everywhere.
Your clit, your lips—it was almost as if he were starving.
There was no rhythm, no harmony and contentment, just the actions of a man on a mission.
A mission to make you scream louder than the birds on your farm.
Then, abruptly, Elias leaves a small, yet firm slap to your clit. “Admit it,” he says between licks. “Admit that you’re a whore.” He leaves another slap.
You don’t respond, too caught up in both the pain and pleasure. Your head hangs back and your eyes are clenched shut, and Elias grows impatient.
He removes his mouth from you with a ‘pop’ and almost snarls at you, “Thought I told ya Ion like repeatin’ myself.” He slaps your clit again, this time with more force.
“Okay—Okay! I was bein’ a whore tonight, ‘m sorry!” You cry out as your back arches.
Elias starts to lower you towards his grinning face, and you shiver at the feeling of his cold grillz.
Instead of teasing kitten-licks, Elias sucks at your slit and lets his tongue roam freely, without a care in the world. You writhe and whine on top of him, your body bending back and creating a dull aching sensation.
His advances are relentless, and you have no chances of escaping his grasp; he readjusts his grip as soon as he feels you start to slip away from him. You don’t know whether to clench around his tongue as he fucks you with it, or to cry–you end up doing both, and this continues on for who knows how long.
You’ve stopped counting the number of orgasms you’ve had after the second one–you think–but you think Elias has been keeping track. He’s muttered ‘jus’ one more, sugar’ maybe three times now, and you don’t know how many you have left in you at this point.
After what feels like hours, Elias finally lifts your hips up, allowing you to slide down and straddle his hips with your head resting upon his chest.
The beating sound of his steady heart fills your ear, and you try to match your breathing with Elias’. You feel a vibration as he shakes with laughter. You slightly drag your head up just enough to peek at his face, and he looks down at you with amusement.
“We ain’t done, not yet, peach,” he chuckles breathily at the wave of surprise that washes over your face.
You fumble with your words, “What d’ya mean? ‘L-Lias, I-I’m spent!” You continue to tremble in his arms.
“Y’still talkin’, ain’t ya, sugar?” He scoffs, it’s antagonizing. And before you can utter anything else, Elias flips you around onto the table, so you now lay with your back on the wood once again. Your dress rides down a tad at the sudden movement, and Elias holds your back, lifting you so that he can push your dress up past your breasts.
Elias lowers your back, before leaning peck your nipples. You bite your lip, but quickly let out a moan once he blows air onto your nipples, watching almost menacingly as they harden. One hand tweaks one of your nipples, as the other drags down your rib cage.
His hot, glistening tongue swishes around your tits, as he leaves sloppy, open-mouthed kisses to your skin.
He sucks harshly as you whimper beneath him. One of his hands leaves your body and goes down to his slacks, he unbuttons them with ease without even looking, as he continues to leave hickies on your chest.
He untucks himself from his underwear, and you can’t help but buck towards his cock in anticipation.
“Easy, girl. You’ll get it when ya prove y’deserve it,” Elias mocks, you whine in response.
“I deserve it, more than anybody else–y’know that, ‘Lias,” You plead in hopes of him giving you what you want.
“That right, baby? All this yours, nobody else's?” He challenges, starting to stroke his length.
You squeeze your eyelids together, almost as if you were personally pained by the question.
“Damn right,” You huff as you look at him with a sudden wave of fire blazing through your eyes. Elias scoffs with a mixture of incredulity and mirth.
“Yeah, baby–always been yours. Glad ya finally came to y’senses.” And with that, Elias pushes inside of you, and you let out a broken gasp.
Elias quickly finds his pace as he thrusts in and out of you rapidly. He nearly pulls entirely out of your dripping cunt–and you think he’s going to tease you again, but he then slams back into you roughly, making you cry out as your back arches into him.
You’re now chest-to-chest with Elias as he continues to pump into you with little regard to your overstimulation. The contact of skin makes your toes curl in your heels. Elias grunts at the feeling of you clamping down on his cock and bites forcibly at the flesh of your neck.
Elias groans–almost as if fucking you were the key to heaven’s gates. He takes his large palm and pushes it down onto your torso, making your sweating body meet the barely-covered, rumbling wood.
You weep helplessly and squirm as he keeps you pressed against the shaking table.
“Mmnf–”Lias! Please!” You cry yet again, but without knowing the reason behind it this time.
He doesn’t respond to your watery blabbering, instead putting your legs on either side of his shoulders. Elias slowly–and almost lovingly–kisses your ankle, before unclasping the latch of your heel and sliding it off of your foot, letting it hit the floor with a thump that neither of you seem to catch through the sounds of your bodies meeting.
You two damn-near become one.
He repeats his actions on your other leg, but this time he kisses from your calf to your ankle before removing your heel and letting it meet the ground with your matching one.
His hand grips at the ankle he just kissed, using it as if it were the only thing keeping him grounded; like an anchor. He then sucks and nips at your leg, quickly marking just above your ankle with a red bruise, which you know will be purple by the time the sun rises for morning.
You hiss when he bites a little too roughly, and he shows his sympathy by licking at the irritated skin, soothing the tender ache.
“That feel good, darlin’? Tell “Lias how much y’love it, peach, c’mon,” Elias coos, lifting his shirt up so he can get a proper view of your sex.
You babble through sobs intelligibly, mewling something along the lines of ‘so so good, ‘Lias!’—at least that’s what Elias makes of it.
“Can’t hear ya, baby. Ya gotta–fuck! Ya gotta speak a ‘lil louder f’me, hm?” Elias manages to speak through his panting and groaning. You bawl, hot tears dripping from your cheeks down to your chin.
“It feels so good–oh god—‘Lias!” You shriek, not caring about the volume of your crying. “Please don’t stop! Please, please, please–” You ramble with a slur.
If Elias ever felt guilty at the way he man-handling you, seeing your fucked-out expression made all his worries wash away at the sight of you: tongue hanging out, as your tears dribble into your open mouth.
Your panting grows more frantic, little ‘uh-uh-uh’s being let out more frequently as you feel another orgasm course through your veins. “‘Lias—cummin’! S-sh-it, I-I’m cummin’!”
Elias firmly plants his feet on the floor, repositioning the arm on your stomach onto your other leg so that he can fuck you even deeper–deep enough to create a slight bulge in your stomach with his throbbing tip. “Yeah, that’s it. Fall apart on this dick, y’know y’want to, sugar. Been dreamin’ ‘bout it f’years, huh?” He taunts.
You try to answer him, honestly! But he’s hitting your cervix just right and his abs rub against the backs of your thighs–it’s too much.
Elias thought you’ve learned by now that he doesn’t take silence for an answer, so to remind you, he gives your spent cunt a more forceful slap than before.
“Fuck—Yes! A-always been wantin’ you, ‘Lias,” you wail. “I-I never let nobody touch me! Nobody but you!” You exclaim without thinking.
This fuels Elias to quicken his pace; he almost fucking growls at your words, and he tightens your legs around himself–right now, as he feels himself getting closer and closer to climaxing, he has no plans on pulling out.
He continues to heave words of encouragement as fucks you ruthlessly through your orgasm.
You moan and blabber as your vision turns white, and your ears start to ring. Your toes curl and flex, and your nails scratch at the table, hands desperate for something to hold. Your voice then gives out, as your tongue lolls out of your mouth yet again.
Elias gives you a few more earth-stattering thrusts, before his seed fills your puffy, aching hole; the guttural groan that leaves his throat ups in pitch–nearly turning into a whimper.
He pumps his cum into you once more, before releasing your legs from his grip and laying down on top of you. As he half-lays-half-stands against the table, he feels as if a cold bucket of water was dumped onto him.
He can no longer focus on the tingling feeling that shoots from his skull to his toes, but now on the fact that he was the first man you’ve been with.
You spent your first time with him–in a rickety building he bought from a Klan member, on an even dingier table.
Elias then taps your face, just enough to get you to come back to your senses. You open your eyes with a lazy grin at the feeling of his seed mixed with yours, but when you’re met with his panicky expression, you quickly push yourself up–to the best of your ability.
“What? Wha’s wrong, ‘Lias?” You question worrisomely.
He allows himself to catch his breath before speaking, “Y’serious?” It’s all that he says.
You furrow your brows and tilt your head at him, “Bout what? Y’scarin’ me, Elias,” you chuckle awkwardly.
Had you said something you shouldn’t have?
A million thoughts run rampant throughout your mind.
“‘Bout all this,” he flails his hand, motioning to where your bodies had just met. “Was that really ya first time?” He speaks loudly, and you feel mortified.
Your breath catches in your throat. You confirm his worries, your voice softer than a freshly picked feather, “Yes.”
Elias takes a step back, and it takes everything in you not to reach out for him. Instead, you sit up fully and push your dress back down to your thighs. You twiddle your thumbs idly, seeking for even an ounce of comfort as Elias pushes his shirt back down and tucks himself back into his boxers after wiping himself off with a rag. Despite his glowering, he hands you a rag so that you can wipe away the slick from between your thighs.
Did he regret spending the night with you? Did he find the fact that you remained a virgin because of him embarrassing?
“Why you ain’t tell me, girl?” He exclaims, “I wouldn’t have said and done all that foolishness if I knew you ain't never been with a man before!”
You feel your soul come back into your body. “You would’ve been all sweet with me? That whatcha sayin’, ‘Lias?” You can’t help but giggle.
“Ain’t nothin’ funny, woman! I was all rough with you ‘n–” You cut him off with a kiss to his lips, wrapping your legs around his hips and pulling him closer to you. You fold your arms around his neck, and you feel his hands drift down to your waist and squeeze lightly. Your nose nudges his, his breath fans your face as yours does his.
You break the kiss when you feel yourself losing your breath, and you gaze at Elias lovingly.
“You were perfect, I couldn’t imagine it any other way,” you whisper.
“Well for starters, could've gotten you a bed in the house ‘stead of a table in this dark ass room,” Elias grumbles.
You grin, “I think the lightin’ was just fine. Added ambience ‘n all that.” Elias pouts, and you peck his lips.
“I don’t care ‘bout the details, “Lias. Long as it was with you.” Your tone is as sweet as the finest honey in Clarksdale, and it pulls on Elias’ heartstrings.
“Y’really waited all these years….For me?” He whispers.
“Course I did, couldn’t imagine bein’ with anybody else.” You speak just as softly. You recognize the guilt that crosses his face, despite his best efforts to mask it with his bravado. “Don’t feel guilty, please. I don’t blame you for nun.” You caress his hair. Silence fills the room as Elias deciphers what to say, you just hold him tenderly until he’s ready.
“I-I love ya, more than y’know, sugar…” He trails off before finishing his sentence, “I jus’ want ya to know that. I have since we was young.” He looks at you with adoration and love in his eyes.
“I love you too, Elias Moore. Have since you stood up to my daddy on his farm f’me when we was seven.”
He smiles, but it’s tight lipped, making you frown. “Jus’ wish I could’ve admitted it sooner. Then this would’ve went down differently—would’ve been better.” He sulks.
You take your thumb and index finger and pluck his lips, making him shout ‘hey!’ with a laugh.
“Stop beatin’ y’self up, Elias. I told you, I’m perfectly happy here, right now. Ain’t nun gon’ change that a bit.” You scold him.
“If ya stop all that moppin’, I’ll let ya try again tomorrow, however y’want,” you giggle mischievously. Elias’ eyes light up almost immediately, the way he perks up reminds you of a puppy that was just given a treat.
Elias roars with laughter and squeezes you, before lowering you back down onto the table, he presses nearly all of his weight onto you.
You squeal and cackle as he tickles your sides, “‘Lias!”
You lay wrapped up with Elias, you felt as if you could lay there forever, and honestly in this moment, you wanted to.
Clarity and revelations do the body good.
Everything was good.
Until you heard a commotion on the other side of the door.
Genre: Southern Gothic, Angst, Supernatural Thriller, Romance
Word Count: 15.7k+
Summary: In a sweltering Mississippi town, a woman's nights are divided between a juke joint's soulful music and the intoxicating presence of a mysterious man named Remmick. As her heart wrestles with fear and desire, shadows lengthen, revealing truths darker than the forgotten woods. In the heart of the Deep South, whispers of love dance with danger, leaving a trail of secrets that curl like smoke in the night.
Content Warnings: Emotional and physical abuse, manipulation, supernatural themes, implied violence, betrayal, character death, transformation lore, body horror elements, graphic depictions of blood, intense psychological and emotional distress, brief sexual content, references to alcoholism and domestic conflict. Let me know if I missed any!
A/N: My first story on here! Also I’m not from the 1930’s so don’t beat me up for not knowing too much about life in that time.I couldn’t stop thinking about this gorgeous man since I watched the movie. Wanted to jump through the screen to get to him anywayssss likes, reblogs and asks always appreciated.
The heat clings to my skin like a second husband, just as unwanted as the first. Even with the sun long gone, the air hangs thick enough to drown in, pressing against my lungs as I ease the screen door open. The hinges whine—traitors announcing my escape attempt—and before I can slip out, his voice lashes at my back, mean as a belt strap.
"I ain't done talkin' to you, girl."
His fingers dig into my arm, yanking me back inside. The dim yellow light from our single lamp casts his face in a shadow, but I don’t need to see his expression. I've memorized every twist his mouth makes when he's like this—cruel at the corners, loose in the middle.
"You been done," I whisper, the words scraping my throat like gravel. My tears stay locked behind my eyes, prisoners I refuse to release. "Said all you needed to say half a bottle ago."
Frank's breath hits my face, sour with corn liquor and hate. His pupils are wide, unfocused—black holes pulling at the edges of his irises. The hand not gripping my arm rises slow and wavering, a promise of pain that has become as routine as sunrise.
But tonight, the whiskey’s got him too good. His arm drops mid-swing, its weight too much. For the first time in three years of marriage, I don't flinch.
He notices. Even drunk, he notices.
"The hell's gotten into you?" His words slur together, a muddy river of accusation. "Think you better'n me now? That it?"
"Just tired, Frank." My voice stays steady as still water. "That's all."
The truth is, I stopped being afraid a month ago. Fear requires hope—the desperate belief that things might change if you're just careful enough, quiet enough, good enough. I buried my hope the last time he put my head through the wall, right next to where the plaster still shows the shape of my skull.
I look around our little house—a wedding gift from his daddy that's become my prison. Two rooms of misery, decorated in things Frank broke and I tried to fix. The table with three good legs and one made from an old fence post. The chair with stuffing coming out like dirty snow. The wallpaper peels in long strips, curling away from the walls like they're trying to escape too.
My reflection catches in the cracked mirror above the wash basin—a woman I barely recognize anymore. My eyes have gone flat, my cheekbones sharp beneath skin that used to glow. Twenty-five years old and fading like a dress left too long in the sun.
Frank stumbles backward, catching himself on the edge of our bed. The springs screech under his weight. "Where you think you're goin' anyhow?"
"Just for some air." I keep my voice gentle, like you'd talk to a spooked horse. "Be back before you know it."
His eyes narrow, suspicion fighting through the drunken haze. "You meetin' somebody?"
I shake my head, moving slowly around the room, gathering my shawl, and checking my hair. Every movement measured, nothing to trigger him. "Just need to breathe, Frank. That's all."
"You breathe right here," he mutters, but his words are losing their fight, drowning in whiskey and fatigue. "Right here where I can see you."
I don't answer. Instead, I watch him struggle against sleep, his body betraying him in small surrenders—head nodding, shoulders slumping, breath deepening. Five minutes pass, then ten. His chin drops to his chest.
I slip my dancing shoes from their hiding place beneath a loose floorboard under our bed. Frank hates them—says they make me look loose, wanton. What he means is they make me look like someone who might leave him.
He's not wrong.
The shoes feel like rebellion in my hands. I've polished them in secret, mended the scuffs, kept them alive like hope. Can't put them on yet—the sound would wake him—but soon. Soon they'll carry me where I need to go.
Frank snores suddenly, a thunderclap of noise that makes me freeze. But he doesn't stir, just slumps further onto the bed, one arm dangling toward the floor.
I move toward the door again; shoes clutched to my chest like something precious. The night outside calls to me with cricket songs and possibilities.
Through the dirty window, I can see the path that leads toward the woods, toward Smoke and Stack's place where the music will already be starting. Where for a few hours, I can remember what it feels like to be something other than Frank's wife, Frank's disappointment, Frank's punching bag.
The screen door sighs as I ease it open. The night air touches my face like a blessing. Behind me, Frank sleeps the sleep of the wicked and the drunk. Ahead of me, there's music waiting. And tonight, just tonight, that music is stronger than my fear.
The juke joint grows from the Mississippi dirt like something half-remembered, half-dreamed. Even from the edge of the trees, I can feel its heartbeat—the thump of feet on wooden boards, the wail of Sammie's guitar cutting through the night air, voices rising and falling in waves of joy so thick you could swim in them. My shoes dangle from my fingers, still clean. No point in dirtying them on the path. What matters is what happens inside, where the real world stops at the door and something else begins.
Light spills from the cracks between weathered boards, turning the surrounding pine trees into sentinels guarding this secret. I slip my shoes on, leaning on the passenger side of one of the few vehicles in-front of the juke-joint, already swaying to the rhythm bleeding through the walls.
Smoke and Stack bought this place with money from God knows where coming back from Chicago. Made it sturdy enough to hold our dreams, hidden enough to keep them safe. White folks pretend not to know it exists, and we pretend to believe them. That mutual fiction buys us this—one place where we don't have to fold ourselves small.
I push open the door and step into liquid heat.
Bodies press and sway, dark skin gleaming with sweat under the glow of kerosene lamps hung from rough-hewn rafters. The floor bears witness to many nights of stomping feet, marked with scuffs that tell stories words never could. The air tastes like freedom—sharp with moonshine, sweet with perfume, salty with honest work washed away in honest pleasure.
At the far end, Sammie hunches over his guitar, eyes closed, fingers dancing across strings worn smooth from years of playing. He doesn't need to see what he's doing; the music lives in his hands. Each note tears something loose inside anyone who hears it—something we keep chained up during daylight hours.
Annie throws her head back in laughter, her full hips wrapped in a dress the color of plums. She grabs Pearline's slender wrist, pulling her into the heart of the dancing crowd. Pearline resists for only a second before surrendering, her graceful movements a perfect counterpoint to Annie's rare wild abandon.
"Come on now," Annie shouts over the music. "Your husband ain't here to see you, and the Lord ain't lookin' tonight!"
Pearline's lips curve into that secret smile she saves for these moments when she can set aside the proper church woman and become something truer.
In the corner, Delta Slim nurses a bottle like it contains memories instead of liquor. His eyes, bloodshot but sharp, track everything without seeming to. His fingers tap against the bottleneck, keeping time with Sammie's playing. An old soul who's seen too much to be fooled by anything.
"Slim!" Cornbread's deep voice booms as he passes, carrying drinks that overflow slightly with each step. "You gonna play tonight or just drink the profits?"
"Might do both if you keep askin'," Slim drawls, but there's no heat in it. Just the familiar rhythm of old friends.
I step fully into the room and something shifts. Not everyone notices—most keep dancing, talking, drinking—but enough heads turn my way that I feel it. A ripple through the crowd, making space. Recognition.
Smoke spots me from behind the rough-plank bar. His nod is almost imperceptible, but I catch it—permission, welcome, understanding. His forearms glisten with sweat as he pours another drink, muscles tensed like he's always ready for trouble. Because he is.
Stack appears beside him, leaning in to say something in his twin's ear. Unlike Smoke, whose energy coils tight, Stack moves with a gambler's grace, all smooth edges, and calculated risks. His eyes find me in the crowd, lingering a beat too long, concern flashing before he masks it with a lazy smile.
My feet carry me to the center of the floor without conscious thought. The wooden boards warm beneath my soles, greeting me like an old friend. I close my eyes, letting Sammie's guitar and voice pull me under, drowning in sound.
My body remembers what my mind tries to forget—how to move without fear, how to speak without words. My hips sway, shoulders rolling in time with the stomps. Each stomp of my feet sends the day's hurt into the ground. Each twist of my wrist unravels another knot of rage. My dress—faded cotton sewn and resewn until it's more memory than fabric—clings to me as I spin, catching sweat and starlight.
"She needs this," Smoke mutters to Stack, thinking I can't hear over the music. He takes a long pull from his bottle, eyes never leaving me. "Let her be."
But Stack keeps watching, the way he watched when we were kids, and I climbed too high in the cypress trees. Like he's waiting to catch me if I fall.
I don't plan to fall. Not tonight. Tonight, I'm rising, lifting, breaking free from gravity itself.
Mary appears beside me, her red dress a flame against the darkness. She moves with the confidence of youth and beauty, all long limbs and laughter.
"Girl, you gonna burn a hole in the floor!" she shouts, spinning close enough that her breath warms my ear.
I don't answer. Can't answer. Words belong to the day world, the world of men like Frank who use them as weapons. Here, my body speaks a better truth.
The music climbs higher, faster. Sammie's fingers blur across the strings, coaxing sounds that shouldn't be possible from wood and wire. The crowd claps in rhythm, feet stomping, voices joining in wordless chorus. The walls of the juke joint seem to expand with our joy, swelling to contain what can't be contained.
My head tilts back, eyes finding the rough ceiling without seeing it. My spirit has already soared through those boards, up past the pines, into a night sky scattered with stars that know my real name. Sweat tracks down my spine, between my breasts, and along my temples. My heartbeat syncs with the drums until I can't tell which is which.
At this moment, Frank doesn't exist. The bruises hidden beneath my clothes don't exist. All that exists is movement, music, and the miraculous feeling of being fully, completely alive in a body that, for these few precious hours, belongs only.
The music fades behind me, each step into the woods stealing another note until all that's left is memory. My body still hums with the ghost of rhythm, but the air around me has changed—gone still in a way that doesn't feel right. Mississippi nights are never quiet, not really. There are always cicadas arguing with crickets, frogs calling from hidden places, leaves whispering to each other. But tonight, the woods swallow sound like they're holding their breath. Waiting for something. My fingers tighten around my shawl, pulling it closer though the heat hasn't broken. It's not cold I'm feeling. It's something else.
Moonlight cuts through the canopy in silver blades, slicing the path into sections of light and dark. I step carefully, avoiding roots that curl up from the earth like arthritic fingers. The juke-joint has disappeared behind me; its warmth and noise sealed away by the wall of pines. Ahead lies home—Frank snoring in a drunken stupor, walls pressing in, air thick with resentment. Between here and there is only this stretch of woods, this moment of in-between.
My dancing shoes pinch now, reminding me they weren't made for walking. But I don't take them off. They're the last piece of the night I'm clinging to, proof that for a few hours, I was
someone else. Someone free.
A twig snaps.
I freeze every muscle tense as piano wire. That sound came from behind me, off to the left where the trees grow thicker. Not an animal—too deliberate, too singular. My heart drums against my ribs, no longer keeping Sammie's rhythm but a faster, frightened beat of its own.
"Who's there?" My voice sounds thin in the unnatural quiet.
For a moment, nothing. Then movement—not a crashing through underbrush, but a careful parting, like the darkness itself is opening up.
He steps onto the path, and everything in me goes still.
White man. Tall. Nothing unusual about that. But everything else about him rings false. His clothes seem to match the dust of the woods—dusty white shirt, suspenders that catch the moonlight like they're made of something finer than ordinary cloth. Dust clings to his shoes but sweat darkens his collar despite the heat. His skin is pale in a way that seems to glow faintly, untouched by the sun.
But it's his eyes that stop my breath. They don't blink enough. And they're fixed on me with a hunger that has nothing to do with what men usually want.
"You move like you don't belong to this world," he says, voice smooth as molasses but cold like stones at the bottom of a well. There's a drawl to his words. He sounds like nowhere and everywhere. "I've watched you dance. On nights like this. It's… spellwork, what you do."
My spine straightens of its own accord. I should run. Every instinct screams it. But something else—pride, maybe, or foolishness—keeps me rooted.
"I ain't got nothin' for you," I say, keeping my voice steady. My hand tightens on my shawl, though it's poor protection against whatever this man is. "And white men seekin’ me out here alone usually bring trouble."
His lips curve upward, but the smile doesn't touch those unblinking eyes. They remain fixed, assessing, and patient in a way that makes my skin prickle.
"You think I came to bring you trouble?"
The question hangs between us, delicate as spiderweb. I don't trust it. Don't trust him.
"I think you should go," I say, taking half a step backward.
He matches with a step forward but maintains the distance between us—precise, controlled.
"I'm called Remmick."
"I didn't ask." My voice sharpens with fear disguised as attitude.
"No," he says, nodding thoughtfully. "But something in you will remember."
The certainty in his voice raises the hair on my arms. I study him more carefully—the unnatural stillness with which he holds himself. Something is wrong with this man, something beyond the obvious danger of a man approaching a woman alone in the woods at night.
The trees around him seem to bend away slightly, as if reluctant to touch him. Even the persistent mosquitoes that plague these woods avoid the air around him. The night itself recoils from his presence, creating a bubble of emptiness with him at the center.
I take another step back, putting more distance between us. My heel catches on a root, but I recover without falling. His eyes track the movement with unsettling precision.
"You can go on now," I say, my voice harder now. "Ain't nobody invited you."
Something changes in his expression at that—a flicker of satisfaction, like I've confirmed something he suspected. His head tilts slightly, almost pleased.
"That's true," he murmurs, the words barely disturbing the air. "Not yet."
The way he says it—like a promise, like a threat—makes my breath catch. The moonlight catches his profile as he turns slightly.
For a moment, just a moment, I think I see something move beneath that worn shirt—not muscle or bone, but something else, something that shifts like shadow-given substance. Then it's gone, and he's just a man again. A strange, terrifying man standing too still in the woods who wants nothing to do with him.
I don't say goodbye. Don't acknowledge him further. Just back away, keeping my eyes on him until I can turn safely until the path curves and trees separate us. Even then, I feel his gaze on my back like a physical weight, pressing against my spine, leaving an imprint that won't wash off.
I don't run—running attracts predators—but I walk faster, my dancing shoes striking the dirt in a rhythm that sounds like warning, warning, warning with each step. The trees seem to whisper now, breaking their unnatural silence to murmur secrets to each other.
Behind me, the woods remain still. I don't hear him following. Somehow, that's worse. As if he doesn't need to follow to find me again.
As I near the edge of the tree line, the familiar sounds of night gradually return—cicadas start up their sawing, and an owl calls from somewhere deep in the darkness. The world exhales, releasing the breath it had been holding.
But something has changed. The night that once offered escape now feels like another kind of trap. And somewhere in the darkness behind me waits a man named Remmick, with eyes that don't blink enough and a voice that speaks of "not yet" like it's already written.
Two day passed but The rooster still don’t holler like he used to. He creaks out a noise ‘round mid-morning now, long after the sun’s already sitting heavy on the tin roof. Maybe the heat got to him. Maybe he’s just tired of callin’ out a world that don’t change.
I know the feel. But night comes again, faster than mornin’ these days. Probably cause’ I’m expectin’ more from the night.
Frank’s out cold on the mattress, one leg hanging off like it gave up trying. His breath comes in grunts, open-mouthed and ugly. A fly dances lazy across his upper lip, lands, takes off again. I step over his boots; past the broken chair he swore he’d fix last fall.
Ain’t nothin’ changed but the dust.
Kitchen smells like rusted iron and whatever crawled up into the walls to die. I fill the kettle slow, careful with the water pump handle so it don’t squeal. Ain’t trying to wake a bear before it’s time. My fingers press against the wallpaper, where it peeled back like bark. The spot stays warm. Heat trapped from yesterday.
I don’t talk to myself. Don’t say a word.
But my thoughts speak his name without asking.
Remmick.
It don’t belong in this house. It don’t belong in my mouth, either. But there it is, curling behind my teeth. I never told a soul about him. Not ‘cause I was scared. Not yet.
Just didn’t know how to explain a man who don’t blink enough. Who moves like the ground ain’t quite got a grip on him. Who steps out of the woods like he heard you call, even when you didn’t. A man who hangs ‘round a place with no intention of going in.
I tug the hem of my dress higher to look at the bruise. Purple, with a ring of green creeping in around the edges. I press two fingers to it, just to feel it. A reminder.
Frank don’t always hit where people can see. But he don’t always miss, either.
I wrap it in cloth, tug the fabric of my dress just right, and move on. I don’t plan to dance tonight. But I’ll sit. Maybe smile. Maybe drink something that don’t taste like survival. Maybe Stack’ll run his mouth and pull a laugh out of me without trying.
And maybe, when it’s time to go, I’ll take the long way home.
Not because I’m expectin’ anything.
But because I want to.
The juke joint buzzes before I even see it. The trees carry the sound first—the thump of feet, the thrum of piano spilling through the wood like sap. By the time I reach the clearing, it’s already breathing, already alive.
Cornbread’s at the door, arms folded. When I pass, he gives me that look like he sees more than I want him to.
“You look lighter tonight,” he says.
I give a half-smile. “Probably just ain’t carryin’ any expectations.”
He lets out a low laugh, the kind that rolls up from his gut and sits heavy in the room.
“Or maybe ‘cause you left somethin’ behind last night.”
That makes me pause, just for a beat. But I don’t show it. Just raise my brow like he’s talkin’ nonsense and keep walkin’.
He don’t mean nothin’ by it.
But it sticks to me anyway.
Delta Slim’s at the keys, tapping them like they owe him money. The notes bounce off the walls, dusty and full of teeth. No Sammie tonight—Stack said he’s somewhere wrasslin’ a busted guitar into obedience.
Pearline’s off in the corner, close to Sammie’s usual seat. She’s leaned in real low to a man I seen from time to time here, voice like honey drippin’ too slow to trust. Her laugh breaks in soft bursts, careful not to wake whatever she’s tryin’ to keep asleep.
Stack’s behind the bar, sleeves rolled up, but he ain’t workin.’ Not really. He’s leanin’ on the wood, jaw flexing as he smirks at some girl with freckles down her arms like spilled salt.
I find a seat near the back, close enough to the fan to catch a breath of cool, far enough to keep my bruise out of the light.
Inside, the joint don’t just sing—it exhales. Walls groan with sweat and joy, floorboards shimmy under stompin’ feet. The air’s thick with heat, perfume, and fried something that’s long since stopped smellin’ like food. There’s a rhythm to the place—one that don’t care what your name is, just how you move.
Smoke’s behind the bar too, back bent over a bottle, jaw set tight like always. But when he sees me, his mouth softens. Not a smile—he don’t give those away easy. Just a nod. Like he sees me, really sees me.
“Frank dead yet?” he mutters without looking up.
“Not that lucky,” I say, voice dry as dust.
He pours without askin.’ Corn punch. Still too sweet. But it sits right on the tongue after a long day of silence.
“You limpin’?” he asks, low, like maybe it’s just for me.
I shake my head. “Just don’t feel like shakin’.”
He grunts understanding. “You don’t gotta explain, Y/N. Just glad you showed.”
A warmth rolls behind my ribs. I don’t show it. But I feel it.
I don’t dance, but I play. Cards smack against the wood table like drumbeats—sharp, mean, familiar. The men at the table glance up, but none complain when I sit. I win too often for them to pretend they ain’t interested.
Stack leans over my shoulder after the second hand. I smell rum and tobacco before he speaks.
“You cheat,” he says, eyes twinkling.
“You slow,” I fire back, slapping a queen on the pile.
He whistles. “You always talk this much when you feelin’ good?”
“Don’t flatter yourself.”
“Oh, I ain’t. Just sayin,’ looks Like you been kissed by somethin’ holy—or dangerous.”
“I’ll let you decide which.”
He laughs, pulls up a chair without askin’. His knee brushes mine. He don’t apologize. I don’t move.
I leave before Slim plays his last note. The night wraps itself around me the moment I step out, damp and sweet, the kind of air that clings to your skin like memory. One more laugh from inside rings out sharp before the door shuts and the trees hush it.
My feet take the path without me thinking. I don’t look for shadows. Don’t linger. Just want the stillness. The cool hush after heat. The part of night that feels like confession.
But halfway down the clearing, I see him again.
Not leaning. Not hiding. Just there. Standing like the woods parted just to place him in my way.
White shirt. Sleeves rolled. Suspenders loose against dusty pants. Hat in hand like he means to be respectful, like he was taught his mama’s manners.
I stop.
“You followin’ me?” I ask, but it don’t come out sharp.
His mouth twitches. Not quite a smile.
“Didn’t know a man needed a permit to take a walk under the stars.”
“You keep walkin’ where I already am.”
He looks down the path, then back at me. “Maybe that means you and I got the same sense of direction.”
“Or maybe you been steppin’ where you know I’ll be.”
He doesn’t deny it. Just shrugs, eyes steady.
I don’t move closer. Don’t move back either.
“You always turn up like this?” I ask. “Like a page I forgot to read?”
He chuckles. “No. Just figured you were the kind of story worth rereadin’.”
The silence after that ain’t heavy. Just… close. The kind that makes your ears ring with what you ain’t said.
“You always this smooth?” I say, voice low.
“I been known to stumble,” he replies. “Just not when it counts.”
I shift. Let my eyes roam past him, toward the tree line. “Small talk doesn’t suit you.”
“I don’t do small.” His eyes meet mine again. “Especially not with you.”
It’s too much. It should be too much. But my hands don’t tremble. My breath don’t catch.
Not yet.
“You always walk the same road as a woman leavin’ the juke joint alone?”
“I didn’t follow you,” he repeats. “I just happen to be where you are.”
He steps forward, slow.
I don’t retreat.
“You expect me to believe that?” I ask.
“No,” he says softly. “But I think you want to.”
That lands between us like something too honest.
He runs a hand through his hair before putting his hat on. A simple gesture. A human one. Like he’s just another man with nowhere to be and too much time to spend not being there.
He watches me, real still—like a man waitin’ to see if I’ll spook or bite.
“Figured I might’ve come off wrong last time,” he says finally, voice soft, but it don’t bend easy. “Didn’t mean to.”
“You did,” I say, but my arms stay loose at my sides.
A flick of something passes over his face. Not shame, not pride—just a small, ghosted look, like he’s used to bein’ misunderstood.
“Well,” he says, thumb brushing the brim of his hat, “thought maybe I’d try again. Slower this time.”
That pulls at somethin’ behind my ribs, makes the air stretch thinner between us.
“You act like this some kinda game.”
He shakes his head once. “Not a game. Just…timing. Some things got to take the long way ‘round.”
I narrow my eyes at him, trying to make out where he’s hidin’ the trick in all this.
“The way you talk is like running in circles.”
He laughs—low and rough at the edges, like it ain’t used to bein’ let out. “I won’t waste time running in circles around a darlin’ like you.”
I cross my arms, squinting at the space between his words.
“That supposed to charm me?”
He shrugs, one shoulder easy like he don’t expect much.
“Wouldn’t dream of it,” he says. “Just thought I’d give you something truer than a lie.”
His voice ain’t sweet—it’s too honest for that. But it moves like water that knows where it’s goin’.
I shift my weight, let the breeze slide between us.
“You ain’t said why you’re here. Not really.”
He watches me a long moment, like he’s weighing how much I’ll let in.
“Maybe I’m drawn to your energy,” he says finally.
I scoff. “My energy? I don’t move too much to emit energy.”
That gets him smilin’. Slow. Not too sure of itself, but not shy either.
“You don’t have to move,” he says, “to be seen.”
The words hit like a drop of cold water between the shoulder blades—sharp, sudden, and too real. I take a step forward just to ground myself, heel pressing into the dirt like I mean it.
“You a preacher?” I ask, voice sharper than before.
He chuckles, deep and close-lipped. “Ain’t nothin’ holy about me.”
“Then don’t talk to me like you got a sermon stitched in your throat.”
He bows his head just a hair, hands still at his sides. “Fair enough.”
A pause stretches long enough for the night sounds to creep back in—cicadas winding up, wind sifting through the trees.
“I’m Remmick,” he says, like it matters more now.
“I know.”
“And you?”
“You don’t need my name.”
His mouth quirks like he wants to press, but he don’t.
“You sure about that?”
“Yes.”
The silence that follows feels cleaner. Like everything’s been set on the table and neither one of us reaching for it.
He nods, slow. “Alright. Just thought I’d say hello this time without makin’ the trees nervous.”
I don’t smile. Don’t give him more than I want to.
But I don’t turn away either.
And when he steps back—slow, like he respects the space between us—I let him.
This time, I watch him go. Down the path, ‘til the woods decide they’ve had enough of him.
I don’t look back once my hand’s on the porch rail.
The key trembles once in the lock before it catches. Inside, it’s the same. Frank dead to the world, laid out like sin forgiven.
I pass him without a glance, like I’m the ghost and not him.
At the washbasin, I scrub my face until the cold water stings. Peel off the dress slow, like unwrapping something tender. The bruises bloom up my side, but I don’t touch ‘em.
I slide into a cotton nightgown soft enough not to fight me.
Climb into bed without expecting sleep.
Just lie there, staring at the ceiling like maybe tonight it might speak.
But it don’t.
It just creaks. Settles.
And leaves me with that name again.
Remmick.
I whisper it once, barely enough sound to stir the dark.
Three days pass.
The sun’s just fallen, but the air still clings like breath held too long. I’m on the back stoop with my foot sunk in a basin of cool water, ankle puffed up mean from Frank’s latest mood. Shawl drawn close, dress hem hiked above the bruising. The house behind me creaks like it’s thinking about falling apart. Crickets chirp with something to prove. A whip-poor-will calls once, then hushes like it said too much.
And then—
“Evenin’.”
My hand jerks, sloshing water up my calf. I don’t scream, but I don’t hide the startle either.
He’s by the fence post. Just leanin’. Arms folded over the top like he been there long enough to take root. Hat low, sleeves rolled, collar open at the throat. Shirt clings faint in the heat, pants dusted up from honest walking—or the kind that don’t leave footprints.
I say nothing.
He tips his head like he’s waiting for permission that won’t come. “Didn’t mean to scare you.”
“You always arrive like breath behind a neck.”
“I try not to,” he says, quiet. “Don’t always manage it.”
That smile he wears—it don’t shine. It settles. Soft. A little sorry.
“I wasn’t sure you’d want to see me again,” he says.
“I don’t.”
He nods like he expected that too. I don’t blink. Don’t drop my gaze.
“Why you keep comin’ here, Remmick?”
His name tastes different now. Sharper.
He blinks once, slow and deliberate. “Didn’t think you remembered it.”
“I remember what sticks wrong.”
He watches me a beat longer than comfort allows. Then—calm, measured—he says, “Just figured you might not mind the company.”
“That ain’t company,” I snap. “That’s trespassin’.”
My voice cuts colder than I meant it to, but it don’t feel like a lie.
“You know where I live. You know when I’m out here. That ain’t coincidence. That’s intent.”
He don’t flinch. “I asked.”
That stops me. “Asked who?”
He lifts his hand, palm out like he ain’t holdin’ anything worth hiding. “Lady outside the feed store. Said you were the one with the porch full of peeled paint and a garden that used to be tended. Said you got a husband who drinks too early and hits too late.”
My mouth goes dry.
“You spyin’ on me?”
“No,” he says. “I don’t need to spy to see what’s plain.”
“And what’s plain to you, exactly?” My tone is flint now. Sparked. “You don’t know a damn thing about me.”
He leans in, just enough. “You think that bruise on your ankle don’t show ‘cause your dress covers it? You think folks ain’t noticed how you don’t laugh no more unless you hidin’ it behind a stiff smile?”
Silence folds in between us. Thick. Unwelcoming.
He doesn’t press. Just keeps looking, like he’s listening for something I ain’t said yet.
“I don’t need savin’,” I murmur.
“I didn’t come to save you,” he says, and his voice is different now low, but not slick. Heavy, like a weight he’s carried too far. “I just came to see if you’d talk back. That’s all.”
I pull my foot from the water, slow. Wrap it in a rag. Keep my gaze steady.
“You show up again unasked,” I say, “I’ll have Frank walk you home.”
He chuckles. Real soft. Like he don’t think I’d do it, but he don’t plan to test me either.
“I’d deserve it,” he says.
Then he tips his hat after putting it back on and steps back into the night. Doesn’t rush. Doesn’t look back.
But even after he’s gone, I can feel the place he left behind—like a fingerprint on glass.
———
Inside, Frank’s already mutterin’ in his sleep. The sound of a man who ain’t never done enough to earn rest, but claims it like birthright.
I move around him like I ain’t there.
Later, in bed, the ceiling don’t offer peace. Just shadows that shift like breath. I lay quiet, hands folded over my stomach, heart beatin’ steady where it shouldn’t.
I don’t say his name.
But I think it.
And it stays.
Mornings don’t change much. Not in this house.
Frank’s boots hit the floor before I even open my eyes. He don’t speak—just shuffles around, clearing his throat like it’s my fault it ain’t clear yet. He spits into the sink, loud and wet, then starts lookin’ for somethin’ to curse.
Today it’s the biscuits. Yesterday, it was the fact I bought the wrong tobacco. Tomorrow? Could be the way I breathe.
I don’t talk back. Just pack his lunch quiet, hands moving like they’ve learned how to vanish.
When the door finally slams shut behind him, the silence feels less like peace and more like a pause in the storm. The floor don’t sigh. I do.
He’ll be back by sundown.
Drunk by nine.
Dead asleep by ten.
And I’ll be somewhere else—at least for a little while.
The juke joint’s sweating by the time I get there.
Delta Slim’s on keys again, playing like his fingers been dipped in honey and sorrow. Voices ride the walls, thick and rising, the kind that ain’t tryin’ to be pretty—just loud enough to out-sing the pain.
Pearline’s got Sammie backed in a corner again, her laugh syrupy and slow. She always did know how to linger in a man’s space like perfume. Cornbread’s hollering near the door, trading jokes for coin. And Annie’s on a stool, head tilted like she’s heard too much and not enough.
I don’t dance tonight. Still too tender. So, I post up at the end of the bar with something sharp in my glass.
Smoke sees me, gives that chin lift he reserves for bad days and bruised ribs. Stack sidles up before the ice even melts.
“Quiet day today,” he asks, cracking a peanut with his teeth.
I don’t look at him. Just stir my drink slow. “Talkin’ ain’t always safe.”
His brows go up. He glances around like he’s checking for shadows, then leans in a bit.
“Frank still being Frank?”
I lift one shoulder.
Stack don’t push. Just keeps on with his drink, knuckles tapping the bar like a slow metronome.
Then, quiet:
“You got somethin’ heavy to let go of.”
That stops me. Just a second. But he catches it.
“Huh?”
He shrugs, doesn’t look at me this time. “You ever seen a rabbit freeze in tall grass? That’s the look. Ears up. Heart runnin’. But it ain’t moved yet.”
I run a fingertip down the side of my glass, watching the sweat bead up.
“There’s been a man.”
Now Stack looks.
“He don’t say much. Just… shows up. Walks the same road I’m on, like we both happened there. Then he started talkin’. Knew things he shouldn’t. Last time, he was near my house. Didn’t come in. Just… lingered.”
“White?”
I nod.
Stack’s whole posture changes—draws tight at the shoulders, jaw working.
“You want me to handle it?”
I shake my head. “No.”
“Y/N—”
“No,” I say again, firmer. “I don’t want more fire when the house is already half burnt. He ain’t done nothin.’ Not really.” Yet.
He lets it settle. Don’t agree. But he don’t argue either.
Behind us, Annie’s refilling her glass. She don’t speak, but her eyes cut over to Mary.
Mary catches it. Lips press together. She looks at me the way you look at something you’ve seen before but can’t stop from happening again.
And then, like it’s all normal, Mary chirps out, “You hear Pearline bet Sammie he couldn’t outdrink Cornbread?”
Annie scoffs. “She just tryin’ to sit on his lap before midnight.”
Stack grins but don’t fully let go of his watchful look.
The mood shifts easy, like it rehearsed for this. Like they all know how to laugh loud enough to cover a crack in the wall.
But I ain’t laughing.
I nurse my drink, fingers cold and wet around the glass. My eyes flick toward the door, then away.
Remmick.
That name’s been clingin’ to my mind like smoke in closed curtains. Thick. Quiet. Still there long after the fire’s gone out.
I think about how he looked at me—not like a man looks at a woman, but like he’s listening to something inside her. I think about the way his voice wrapped around the air, soft but steady, like it belonged even when it didn’t.
I think about how I told Stack I didn’t want to see him again.
And I wonder why I lied.
Frank’s truck wheezes up the road like it’s draggin’ its bones. Brakes cry once. Gravel shifts like it don’t want to hold him.
Inside, the pot’s still warm on the stove. Not hot. He hates hot. Says it means I was tryin’ too hard, or not tryin’ enough. With Frank, it don’t matter which—he’ll find the fault either way.
The screen door creaks and slams. That sound still startles me, even now.
Boots hit wood, heavy and careless. His scent rolls in before he speaks—sweat, sun, grease, and the liquor I know he popped open three miles back.
I don’t turn. Just keep spoonin’ grits into the bowl, hand steady.
“You hear they cut my hours?” he says. His voice’s wound tight, all string and no tune.
“No,” I say.
He drops his lunch pail hard on the table. The tin rattles. A sound I hate.
“They kept Carter,” he mutters. “You know why?”
I stay quiet.
He answers himself anyway. “’Cause Carter got a wife who stays in her place. Don’t get folks talkin’. Don’t strut around like she’s single.”
The grit spoon taps the bowl once. Then again. I let it.
“You callin’ me loud?”
“I’m sayin’ you don’t make it easy. Every damn week, somebody got somethin’ to say. ‘Saw her smilin’. Heard her laughin’. Like you forgot what house you live in.”
I press my palm flat to the counter, slow. “Maybe if you kept your hands to yourself, folks’d have less to talk about.”
It slips out too fast. But I don’t take it back.
The room goes still.
Chair legs scrape. He rises like a storm cloud built slow.
“You forget who you’re speakin’ to?”
I feel him move before he does. Feel the air shift.
“I remember,” I say. My voice don’t rise. Just settles.
He comes close—closer than he needs to be. His breath touches the back of my neck before his hand does.
The shove ain’t hard. But it’s meant to echo.
“You think I won’t?”
I breathe once, deep.
“I think you already have.”
He stands there, hand still half-raised like he’s weighing what it’d cost him. Like maybe the thrill’s dulled over time.
His breath’s ragged. But he backs off.
Steps away.
Chair squeals across the floor as he drops into it, muttering something I don’t catch.
I move quiet to the sink, rinse the spoon. My back still to him. Eyes locked on the faucet.
Somewhere behind me, the bowl clinks against the table.
He eats in silence.
And all I can think about the man who ain’t never set foot in my house but got me leavin’ the porch light on for him.
——
Two weeks slip past like smoke through floorboards.
Maybe more. I stopped countin’. Time don’t move the same without him in it. The nights stretch longer, duller. No shape to ‘em. Just quiet.
At first, that quiet feels like mercy. Like I snuffed out something that could’ve swallowed me whole. I sleep harder. Wake lighter. For a little while.
But mercy don’t last. Not when it’s pretending to be peace.
Because soon, the quiet stops feeling like rest.
And starts feeling like a missing tooth You keep tonguing the space, even when it hurts.
At the juke joint, I start to dance again.
Not wild, not free—just enough to remember how my body used to move when it wasn’t afraid of being seen.
Slim plays slower that night, coaxing soft fire from the keys. The kind of song that settles deep, don’t need to shout to be felt.
Pearline leans in, breath warm on my cheek. “You got your hips back,” she says, low and slick.
“Don’t call it a comeback,” I grin, though it don’t sit right in my mouth.
Mary laughs when I sit back down, breath hitchin’ from the floor. “Somebody’s been puttin’ sugar in your coffee.”
“Maybe I just stirred it myself,” I say.
But even as I say it, my eyes go to the door.
To the dark.
Stack catches the look. He always does. Doesn’t press. Just watches me longer than usual, mouth tight like he wants to say somethin’ and knows he won’t.
Frank’s been… duller.
Still drinks. Still stinks. Still mean in that slow, creepin’ way that feels more like rot than fire. But the heat’s gone out of it. Like he’s noticed I ain’t afraid no more and don’t know how to fight a ghost.
He don’t yell as loud now.
Doesn’t hit as hard.
But it ain’t softness.
It’s confusion.
He don’t like not bein’ feared.
And maybe worse—I don’t like that he don’t try.
Some nights, I sit on the back step long after the world’s gone to bed.
Shawl loose around my shoulders, feet bare against the grain. The well water in the basin’s gone warm by then. Even the wind feels tired.
Crickets rasp. A cicada drones.
I listen like I used to—for the shift in the dark. The weight of a gaze. The way the air used to still when he was near.
But there’s nothin’.
Just me.
Just the quiet.
I catch myself one night—talkin’ out loud to the trees.
“You was real brave when I didn’t want you here,” I say, voice rough from disuse. “Now I’m sittin’ like a fool hopin’ the dark says somethin’ back.”
It don’t.
The leaves stay still.
No footfall. No voice. Not even a breeze.
Just me. And that ache I can’t name.
But he’s there.
Further back than before.
At the edge of the trees, where the moonlight don’t reach. Where the shadows thicken like syrup.
He doesn’t blink.
Doesn’t speak.
Doesn’t move.
Just waits.
Because Remmick ain’t the kind to come knockin’.
He waits ‘til the door opens itself.
And I don’t know it yet, but mine already has.
The road to town don’t carry much breath after sundown.
Shutters drawn, porch lights dimmed, the kind of quiet that feels agreed upon. Most folks long gone to sleep or drunk enough to mistake the stars for halos. The storefronts sit heavy with silence, save for McFadden’s—one crooked bulb humming above the porch, casting shadows that don’t move unless they got to.
A dog barks once, far off. Then nothing.
I keep my pace even, bag pressed close to my side, shawl wrapped too tight for the heat. Sweat pools along my spine, but I don’t loosen it.
A woman wrapped in fabric is less of a story than one without.
Frank went to bed with a dry tongue and a bitter mouth. Said he’d wake mean if the bottle stayed empty. Called it my duty—said the word slow, like it should weigh more than me.
So I go.
Buying quiet the only way I know how.
The bell above McFadden’s door rings tired when I slip inside. The air smells like dust and vinegar and old rubber soles. The clerk doesn’t look up. Just mutters a greeting and scribbles into a pad like the world don’t exist past his pencil tip.
I move quick to the back, fingers brushing the necks of bottles lined up like soldiers who already lost. I grab the one that looks the least like mercy and pay without fuss. His change is greasy. I don’t count it.
The bottle’s cold against my hip through the bag, sweat bleeding through cheap paper. I step out onto the porch and down the wooden steps, gravel crunching soft beneath my heels.
The lamps flicker every few feet, moths stumbling in circles like they’ve forgotten what drew them here in the first place. The dark folds in tight once I leave the storefront behind.
I don’t rush.
Not ‘cause I feel safe. Just learned it looks worse when you do.
Then—
“You keep odd hours.”
His voice don’t cut—it folds. Like it belonged to the dark and just decided to speak.
I stop.
Not startled. Not calm either.
He’s leaned just inside the alley by the post office, one boot pressed to brick, arms loose at his sides. Shirt sleeves rolled to the elbow, suspenders hanging slack. His collar’s open, skin pale in the low light, like he don’t sweat the same as the rest of us.
He looks like he fits here. That’s what makes it strange. Ain’t no reason a man like that should belong.
But he does. Like he was built from the dirt and just stood up one day.
I keep one foot planted on the sidewalk.
“You don’t give up, do you,” I say.
He shifts just enough for the light to catch his mouth. Not a smile. Not quite. “You make it hard.”
“You looked like you didn’t wanna be spoken to in that store,” he says, voice low and even. “So I waited out here.”
The streetlamp hums above us. My grip on the bottle shifts, tighter now.
“You could’ve kept walkin’.”
“I was hopin’ you might,” he says.
Not hopin’ I’d stop. Not hopin’ I’d talk.
Hopin’ I might.
There’s a difference. And I feel it.
I glance down at the bottle. The glass slick with sweat. “Frank drinks this when he’s feelin’ good. That’s the only reason I’m out this late.”
He doesn’t move. Doesn’t press.
“Is that what you want?” he asks after a beat. “Frank in a good mood?”
I don’t answer. I just start walking.
But his voice follows, smooth as shadow.
“I was married once.”
I pause.
Not outta interest. More like the way a dog pauses before crossing a fence line—aware.
“She was kind,” he says. “Too kind. Tried to fix things that weren’t broke. Just wrong.”
He says it like it’s already been said a thousand times. Like the taste of it’s worn out.
I look back.
He hasn’t taken a single step closer. Just stands there, hands tucked in his pockets, jaw set loose like he’s tired of carryin’ that story.
“How do you always end up in my path?” I ask. Not curious. Just tired of not sayin’ it.
He lifts a shoulder, lazy. “Some people chase fate. Some just stand where it’s bound to pass.”
I snort, soft. “Sounds like somethin’ you read in a cheap novel.”
“Maybe,” he says, eyes flicking toward mine, “but some lies got a little truth buried in ‘em.”
The quiet after settles deep. Not awkward. Not empty.
Just close.
“You shouldn’t be waitin’ on me,” I say, voice rougher now. “Ain’t nothin’ here worth the trouble.”
He studies me. Not like a man tryin’ to see a woman. More like he’s lookin’ through fog, tryin’ to remember a place he used to live in.
“I’ve had worse things,” he murmurs. “Worse things that never made me feel half as alive.”
For a breath, the light catches his eyes. Not wrong. Not glowing. Just sharp. Like flint about to spark.
Then he tips his head.
“Goodnight, Y/N.”
Soft. Like a promise.
And just like always, he disappears without hurry. Without sound.
Back into the dark like it opened for him.
And maybe, just maybe, I hate how much I already expect it to do the same tomorrow.
The next day dawns heavy, the sun a reluctant guest peeking through gray clouds. I find myself trapped in that same tired rhythm, the kind of day that stretches before me like an old road—the kind you know too well to feel any excitement for. Frank’s got work today, though I can’t say I’m sure what he’ll be cursing by sundown.
As I move around the kitchen, pouring coffee and buttering bread, the silence feels thicker than usual. It clings to me, wraps around my thoughts like a vine, and I can’t shake the feeling that something's shifted. Maybe it’s just the weight of waiting for Remmick to show again, or maybe it’s that quiet ache gnawing at my insides—the kind that reminds you what hope felt like even if you’re scared to name it.
Frank shuffles in with those heavy boots of his, barely brushing past me as he grabs a mug without looking my way. He doesn’t say a word about the food or even acknowledge me standing there. Just pours himself another cup with a grimace. “How long’ve you been up?” he mutters, not really asking.
“Early enough,” I reply, holding back the urge to ask if he slept well.
He slams his mug down on the table hard enough for a ripple of coffee to splash over the edge. “What’s wrong with the damn biscuits?” He doesn’t wait for an answer, just shoves one aside before storming out, leaving behind his bitterness hanging in the air like smoke.
I breathe deeply through my nose and keep packing his lunch—tuna salad this time; at least that’s something he won’t moan about too much. Still, every sound feels exaggerated, each scrape against porcelain echoing louder than it ought to.
Outside, I stand at the porch railing for a moment longer than necessary, feeling the sunlight warm my skin but unable to let its brightness seep into my heart. Birds are flitting from one tree branch to another—free from this heavy house—or so it seems.
I want to run after them. Escape to where everything isn’t tainted by liquor and regrets. But instead, I stay rooted in place until Frank’s truck roars down the road like some angry beast.
Once he's gone, I let out a breath I didn’t realize I was holding and pull on my shoes. A decent day to grab some much-needed groceries.
The heat wraps around me as I stroll through town—a gentle reminder that summer still holds sway despite all else changing.
I walk through town, grabbing groceries on the way as I enjoy the weather. I run by grace’s store to grab some buttered pickles frank likes. The bell jingled above me as I entered the store, and grace comes from the back carrying an empty glass jar. She paused when she looked at me before smiling.
“Hey gurl, haven’t seen ya in here for a while. Frank noticed he ate up all them buttered pickles? That damn animal.” I chuckled at her words as she set the glass jar down on the front counter.
Grace moves behind the counter with that same easy rhythm she always has—like her bones already know where everything sits. The store smells like dust and sun-warmed glass, sweet tobacco, and something faintly metallic. Familiar.
“He Still workin’ over at the field?” she asks, pulling a new jar from beneath the counter. “Heard the boss cut hours again. Seems like everyone’s gettin’ squeezed ‘cept the ones doin’ the squeezin’.”
“Yeah,” I mutter, glancing toward the shelf lined with dusty cans and glass jars. “He’s been stewin’ about it all week. Like it’s my fault time’s movin’ forward.”
Grace snorts, capping the pickle jar and sliding it across the counter. “Girl, if Frank had his way, we’d all be wearin’ aprons and smilin’ through broken teeth.”
I pick up the jar, running my fingers absently along the cold glass. “Some days it’s easier to pretend I’m deaf than fight him.”
Grace leans forward, voice dropping low like she don’t want the pickles to hear. “You need somewhere to run, you come knock on my back door. Don’t matter what time.”
That almost cracks me. Not enough to cry, but enough to blink slow and hold the jar tighter.
“I appreciate it,” I say.
She doesn’t press, just gives me a knowing nod and starts wrapping the jar in brown paper. “Also grabbed you a couple of those lemon drops you like,” she says with a wink. “Tell Frank the sugar’s for his sour ass.”
That gets a real laugh outta me. Just a little one, but it lives in my chest longer than it should.
Outside, the air’s heavy again. Thunder maybe, or just the kind of heat that makes everything feel like it’s about to break open. I tuck the paper bag under my arm and make my way down the street slow, dragging my fingers along the iron railings where ivy used to grow. Everything’s changing.
And I don’t know if I’m running from it, or toward it.
But I walk a little slower past the edge of town.
Past the grove of trees that hum low when the wind slips through them.
And I wonder—not for the first time—if he’ll be waiting there.
And if he ain’t, why I keep hoping he will.
——
I don't light a lamp when I slip out the back door.
The house creaks behind me, drunk with silence and sour breath. Frank's dead asleep like always, belly full of cheap whiskey and whatever anger he couldn't throw at me before sleep took him.
The air outside ain't much cooler, but it's cleaner. Clear. Smells like pine and soil and something just beginning to bloom.
I walk slow. Like I'm just stretching my legs.
Like I'm not wearing the dress with the small blue flowers I ain't touched in over a year.
Like I'm not heading down the narrow path through the tall grass, the one that don't lead nowhere useful unless you're hoping to see someone who don't belong anywhere at all.
The night hums soft. Cicadas. Distant frogs. The kind of stillness that makes you feel like you've stepped into a dream—or out of one.
I settle on the old stump by the split rail, hands folded, back straight, pretending I ain't waiting.
He doesn't keep me waiting long.
"Always sittin’ this straight when relaxin'?"
His voice folds in gentle behind me. Amused. Unbothered.
I don't turn right away. Just glance sideways like I hadn't noticed him there.
"Wasn't expectin' company," I say.
He steps into view, lazy as twilight, hands in his pockets, shirt sleeves rolled and collar loose. Looks like the evening shaped itself just to dress him in it.
"No," he says. "But you brought that perfume out again. Figured that was the invitation."
I shift on the stump, eyes narrowed. "You pay a lotta attention for someone who don't plan on talkin'."
"Only to the things that matter."
He stays a little ways off, respectful of the space I haven't offered but he knows he owns just the same.
"You just out here wanderin' again?" I ask, trying not to sound like I care.
"Nah," he says, grinning a little. "I came out to see if that tree finally bloomed. The one you like to lean on when you think no one's watchin'."
I feel heat crawl up my neck. I smooth my skirt like that'll hide it.
"You always this nosy?"
He shrugs. "Just got good aim."
I shake my head, but I don't tell him to leave. Don't even ask why he's here.
'Cause I know.
And he knows I know.
He moves slow toward me and sits—not close enough to touch, but close enough I can feel it if I lean a little.
We sit in it a while. That hush. That weightless kind of silence that feels full instead of empty.
Then, out of nowhere, he says, "You laugh different at the juke joint than you do anywhere else."
I blink. "What?"
He doesn't look at me. Just watches the dark ahead, like he's reading the night for meaning.
"It's looser," he says. "Like your ribs don't hurt when you do it."
I don't answer. Can't. I ignored the question rising in my head about how he knows what’s goes on in the juke joint when I’ve never seen him in there or heard his name on peoples' lips there.
But somehow, he's right, and I hate that he knows that. Hate more that I like that he noticed.
"You got a way of sayin' too much without sayin' a damn thing," I mutter.
He huffs a laugh. "I'll take that as a compliment."
We go quiet again. But it ain't tense. It's like we're settlin' into something neither one of us has had in too long.
Eventually, I say, "Frank don' like it when I'm gon’ too long."
"You wan’ me to walk you back?" he asks, like it's the easiest offer in the world.
"No," I say, but it comes out too soft. "Not yet."
He nods once. Doesn't press. Just leans back on one elbow, eyes half-lidded like the night's pullin' him under same as me or so I thought.
"You got stories?" I ask.
He raises a brow. "You askin' me to talk?"
"Don't make a big thing outta it."
He grins slow. "Alright then."
And he does. Tells me some nonsense about stealing peaches off a preacher's tree when he was too young to know better, how he and his cousin swore the preacher had the Devil chained under his porch to guard it. His voice wraps around the words easy, like molasses and wind. Whether it was true or not, I don’t seem to care at the moment.
I don't laugh out loud, but my smile finds its way out anyway.
When he glances at me, I see it in his eyes—that same look from the last time. Not hunger. Not charm.
Something gentler. Something like… understanding.
And for the first time, I let it happen.
Let myself enjoy him.
Not as a ghost. Not as a threat.
Just as a man sitting in the dark with me.
——
I've been lookin' forward to the night often these days, not because of him, of course…
The night breathes warm against my skin.
I'm on the porch, knees drawn up, pickin' absently at blades of grass growin' between the cracked boards like they're trespassin' and don't know it. I pluck them one by one, not really thinkin', not really waitin'—but not exactly doin' anything else either.
I'm wearing the baby blue dress, The one with the lace at the collar, mended too many times to count but still hangin' right. I don't light the porch lamp. The dark feels easier to sit in.
And then I hear him.
Not footsteps. Not a branch snapping. Just… the way quiet shifts when something enters it.
He steps from the tree line, slow like he don't want to spook the night.
This time, he's carryin' something.
A small bundle of wildflowers—purple ironweed, white clover, queen anne's lace—loosely knotted with a bit of twine. He stops at the porch steps and looks at me.
Then, without a word, he sets the flowers down between us and lowers himself to sit at the edge of the stoop. Close. Not too close.
"I didn't bring 'em for a reason," he says after a while. "Just passed 'em and thought of you."
My fingers drift toward the flowers, not quite touchin' them, but close enough to feel the velvet edge of a petal against my skin. The warmth of his nearness makes my breath catch somewhere between my throat and chest.
"They're weeds," I murmur, though the word comes out gentle, almost like a caress.
"They're what grows without bein' asked," he replies, and the corner of his mouth lifts in that way that makes my stomach drop like I'm fallin'.
That quiet comes back. But it's a different kind now. Softer. Like the world's hushin' itself to hear what we might say next.
I look at him then. Really look.
Not at his mouth or his clothes ,that easy lean of his shoulders or those pouty eyebrows —but his hands. They're calloused, dirt beneath the nails. Not soft like the rest of him sometimes pretends to be. My fingers twitch with the sudden, foolish urge to trace those rough lines, to learn their map.
"You work?" I ask, the question slippin' out before I can catch it, betrayin' a curiosity I wasn't ready to admit.
"I do what needs doin'." The words rumble low in his chest.
"That's not an answer." I tilt my head, and the night air kisses the exposed curve of my neck.
He turns his head, slow. "That's 'cause you ain't ready for the truth."
The words wash over me like Mississippi heat—dangerous, thrillin'. My lips part, but no sound comes out.
I go back to pickin' the grass, my fingertips brushin' wildflower stems now instead of weeds. Each touch feels deliberate in a way that makes my pulse flutter at my wrist, at my throat.
He doesn't push.
Doesn't move.
Just sits with me 'til the moon's hangin' heavy over the trees, his presence beside me more intoxicatin' than any whiskey from Smoke's bar. The space between us hums with possibilities—with all the things we ain't sayin'.
When he leaves, I don't stop him but my body leans forward like it's got its own will, wantin' to follow the trail of his shadow into the dark.
But I take the flowers inside.
Put 'em in the jelly jar Frank left on the windowsill.
——
The wildflowers sit in that jelly jar like they belong there—like they’ve always belonged. Their colors are faded but stubborn, standing tall in the quiet corner of the kitchen, drinking in the slant of light that filters through the window. I find myself glancing at them too often, like they might tell me something I don’t already know. I tell myself not to read into it, not to hope. But hope’s a quiet thing, and it’s been whispering to me since I first set foot in this place.
By dusk, I’m already outside, wrapped in the blanket I keep tucked in the closet, knees drawn up tight. The dusty brown dress I wear is softer with wear, almost like a second skin. I clutch the two tin cups—corn liquor, waiting in the dark, like a held breath. It’s a ritual I don’t question anymore.
He comes out the trees just after the steam from the day’s heat begins to fade, silent as always. No rustle of leaves, no announcement. Just that subtle shift in the hush, like the woods are holding their breath. I see him leaning on the porch post, eyes flickering to the cup beside me, like it’s calling him home.
“Always know when to show up,” I say, voice low but steady, trying to sound like I don’t care if he’s late or not. Like I’m used to waiting.
He tosses back, smooth as dusk, “Always pour for two?”
I can’t help the smile that sneaks up—soft and slow. “Only for good company.”
He steps closer, slower tonight, like he’s weighing each movement. Sits beside me, leaving just enough space between us for the night air to stretch its arms. I hold out the second cup, the one I poured just for him.
He wraps his fingers around it but doesn’t lift it. Doesn’t bring it to his lips.
“Don’t drink?” I ask, voice gentle but curious, like I might catch a lie if I ask too loud.
His thumb taps the rim, slow and deliberate. “Used to,” he says, voice quiet but firm. “Too much, maybe. Doesn’t sit right with me these days.”
I nod, like that makes sense. Maybe it does. Maybe I don’t want to look too close at the parts that don’t fit. The parts that hurt, that choke down the hope I’m trying to keep buried.
Instead, I take a sip, letting the liquor burn a warm trail down my throat. It’s a small comfort, a fleeting warmth. I watch the dark swallow the road that disappears into nothingness, and I say, “Used to think I’d leave this place. Run off somewhere—Memphis, maybe. Open a little store. Serve pies and good coffee. Wear shoes that click when I walk.”
He hums, low and distant, like a train far away. “What stopped you?”
My gaze drops to my hand, to the dull gold band that’s thin and worn. I trace the edge with my thumb, feeling the cold metal. “This,” I say. “And maybe I didn’t think I deserved more.”
He doesn’t say sorry. Doesn’t say I do. Just looks at me like he’s already seen the ending, like he’s read the last page and ain’t gonna spoil it.
“I worked an orchard once,” he says softly, voice almost lost in the night. “Peaches big as your fist. Skin like velvet. The kind of place that smells like August even in February.”
“Sounds made up,” I murmur, feeling the weight of the quiet between us.
He leans in closer, eyes steady. “So do dreams. Don’t mean they ain’t real.”
A laugh escapes me—sharp and surprised, like I’ve been caught off guard. I slap at his arm before I can think better of it. “You talk like a man who’s read too many books.”
“I talk like a man who listens,” he says, quiet but sure.
That hush falls again, but it’s different this time—full, like the moment just before a kiss that never quite happens. I feel it—the space between us thickening, heavy with unspoken words and things I can’t say out loud.
—
Days passed, he shows up again, bringing blackberries wrapped in a white cloth, stained deep purple-blue. The scent hits me before I see them—sweet, wild, tempting.
“Bribery?” I ask, raising an eyebrow, trying to hide the way my heart quickens.
“A peace offering,” he replies, with that quiet smile. “In case the last story bored you.”
I reach in without asking, pop a berry into my mouth. Juicy and sharp, bursting with sweetness that makes me forget everything else—forgot the weight of my ring, forgot the man inside my house, forgot the world outside this moment.
He watches me, a softness behind his eyes I don’t trust but can’t look away from. I hand him the other cup again. He takes it, polite as always, but doesn’t sip.
We settle into stories—nothing big, just small things. The town’s latest gossip, a cow wandering into the churchyard last Sunday, the way summer makes the woods smell like wild mint if you walk far enough in. I tell him things I didn’t know I remembered—about my mama’s hands, about the time I got stung trying to kiss a bumblebee, about the blue ribbon pie I made for the fair when I was fifteen, thinking winning meant freedom.
He listens like it matters, like these stories are something he’s been waiting to hear.
And for the first time in a long while, I laugh with my whole mouth, not caring who hears or what they think. The sound spills out, unfiltered and free, filling the night with something real.
I forget the ring on my finger. Forget the man inside the house. Forget everything but this—the night, the berries, and him.
The man who doesn’t drink but still knows how to make me feel full.
——
The jelly jar’s gone cloudy from dust and sunlight, but the wildflowers still stand like they’re stubborn enough to outlast the world. A few petals have fallen on the sill, curled and dry, and I haven’t moved them. Let ’em stay. They feel like proof—proof that life’s still fighting, even when everything else is fading.
A week’s passed.
Seven nights of quiet—hushed conversations I kept to myself, shoulders pressed close under a sky that don’t judge, don’t say a word. Seven nights where my bruises softened in bloom and bloom again, where Frank came home drunk and left early, angry—always angry. Not once did I go to the juke joint—not because I wasn’t welcome, but because I didn’t want to miss a single echo from the woods, a single step that might carry me out.
Remmick never knocks. Never calls out. He just appears—like something old and patient, shaped out of shadow and moonlight, settling beside me without question. Sometimes he brings nothing, and I wonder if he’s even real. Other nights, it’s blackberries, or a story, or just silence, and I let it fill the space between us.
And I do.
God, I do.
I tell him things I never even told Frank. About how I used to pretend the porch was a stage, singin’ blues into a wooden spoon. How my mama braided my hair so tight it made my scalp sting, said pain was the price of lookin’ kept. How I almost ran—bags packed, bus ticket clenched tight—then sat on the curb ‘til dawn, too scared to move, then crawled back inside like a coward.
He never judges. Never interrupts. Just watches me, like I’m music he’s heard a thousand times, trying to memorize the lyrics.
Tonight, I don’t wait on the porch.
I’m already walkin’.
The night’s thick and heavy, like the land’s holdin’ its breath. I slip through the back gate, shawl loose around my shoulders, dress flutterin’ just above my knees. The clearing’s ahead—the path I’ve grown used to walking.
He’s already there.
Leaning against a tree, like he belongs to it.
His white shirt glows faint under the moon, suspenders hanging loose, like he forgot to do up the buttons. There’s a crease between his brows that smooths when he sees me—like he’s been waitin’ for me to come, even if he don’t say it.
“You’re early,” he says, low.
“I couldn’t sit still,” I whisper back, voice soft but steady.
His eyes trace me—like he’s drawing a map he’s known a thousand times but still finds new roads. I step toward him slow, the grass cool beneath my feet, and when I’m close enough to feel the pull of him, I stop.
“I been thinkin’,” I say, real quiet.
“Dangerous thing,” he murmurs, lips twitching just enough to make my heart kick.
“I ain’t been to the joint all week,” I continue, voice thick as summer air. “Ain’t danced. Ain’t played. Ain’t needed to.”
He waits—patient, silent.
Like always.
“I’d rather be here,” I whisper, and something inside me cracks open. “With you.”
The silence that follows ain’t cold. It’s heavy—warm, even. Like a breath held tight in the chest before a storm breaks loose, like the whole earth hums with what’s coming.
“I know,” he says. Just that.
Two words that make me feel seen and bare and weightless all at once.
I don’t think. I just move.
Step into him, hands pressed to the buttons of his shirt. My eyes stay fixed on his mouth, not lookin’ anywhere else. And when he doesn’t pull back—when he leans just enough to meet me—I kiss him.
It starts soft. Lips barely grazin’, testing, waiting for something to happen.
But then he exhales—like he’s been holdin’ somethin’ in for a century—and the second kiss isn’t soft anymore. It’s heat. It’s need. My fingers clutch his shirt like I’m drownin’, and he’s oxygen.
His hands find my waist, firm but gentle, like he’s afraid of breakin’ me even as he pulls me closer. I swear the whole forest leans in to watch, silent and still.
He don’t push. Don’t take more than I give.
But what I give?
It’s everything.
He don’t say nothin’ when I pull back. Just watches me, tongue slow across his bottom lip, like he’s already tasted me in a dream.
“C’mere,” he says low, voice rough as gravel soaked in honey. “You smell sweet as sin.”
I step into him again without thinkin’, heart rattlin’ around like it’s tryin’ to climb outta my chest. His palm presses to the back of my neck, warm and heavy, pulling me into a kiss that don’t feel like a kiss. It’s a deal, made in shadows, older than us all—something that’s been waitin’ to happen.
The second our mouths meet, he moans deep in his chest—like he’s relieved, like he’s been holdin’ back for years.
Then he spins me—fast—hands already under my dress.
“Ain’t no point bein’ shy now, baby. Not after all them nights sittin’ close, like you wasn’t drippin’ for me.”
My knees almost buckle.
He bends me over a log, and I don’t resist. I can’t. My hands grip the bark tight, dress shoved up, panties dragged down with a yank that’s impatient and sure.
I hear him spit into his palm. Hear the slick sound of him strokin’ himself once, twice.
Then he sinks into me—slow, too slow—like he’s memorizing every inch, every breath I take. My mouth opens, no words, just a gasp that’s all I can manage.
“Goddamn,” he mutters behind me. “Look at you takin’ me. Tight like you was built for it.”
He starts movin’, deep and filthy, grindin’ into me with purpose. I arch back into it, already lost in the feel of him.
And then I see it.
His face—just behind my shoulder. His jaw clenched tight. His pupils blown wide—no, glowing. A flicker of red embers in each eye, like fire trapped inside.
I blink, and it’s gone.
I tell myself it’s the moonlight, the heat, how mushy my brain is from what he’s doin’, like he owns me.
He don’t give me a second to think.
“Feel that?” he growls. “Feel how your pussy’s huggin’ my cock like she knows me?”
I whimper—pathetic, high-pitched—but I can’t stop it.
“Remmick—fuck—”
He yanks my hair, just enough, til I tilt my head back. “You was waitin’ for this,” he says, voice low and rough. “I seen it. Seen the way you look at me like I’m the last bad thing you’ll ever let hurt you.”
Leaning into my neck, lips brushing skin, breath cold now—too cold.
“But I ain’t gone hurt you, darlin.’ I’m gone ruin you.”
He bites—just a little, not sharp—enough to make me gasp, my whole body tensing on him. He laughs—soft, wicked.
“Oh yeah,” he says, rutting harder. “You gone come for me like this. Face in the moss, legs shakin’. All these pretty little sounds spillin’ out your mouth like you need it.”
I can barely keep up. Dizziness hits hard, slick runnin’ down my thighs, his cock hittin’ that spot over and over.
“Say you’re mine,” he growls, hips slammin’ in so deep I cry out.
“I’m yours—fuck—I’m yours, Remmick—”
His voice drops—dark, velvet, dirtied—like he’s talkin’ from a place even he don’t fully understand.
“Good girl,” he mutters. “Ain’t nobody gone fuck you like me. Ain’t nobody got the hunger I do.”
And I feel his hand—big and rough—wrap around my throat from behind, just enough to remind me he’s still in control. Then he starts pumpin’ into me—fast, mean, nasty.
My back arches. My moans break into sobs.
“You gone give it to me?” he pants, barely human anymore. “Come all over this cock?”
I want to answer. I try. But I can’t—my body’s already gone, trembling on the edge of something wild and white and all-consuming.
And the second I come—everything breaks loose.
He buries himself deep and roars—low and wrong, not a man’s sound at all. I feel him twitch, feel the flood of heat spill inside me, and his face presses into my neck, mouth open like he’s fightin’ the urge to bite down.
But he doesn’t.
He just stays there.
Still.
Breathin’ like he ain’t breathed in years.
——
The morning creeps in slow, afraid to wake me, like it knows I’ve crossed a line I can’t come back from.
I roll over, the sheet sticky against my skin, last night’s heat still clingin’. For a second—just a second—I forget where I am. Forget the weight of the house, the stale scent of bourbon and sweat baked into the walls. All I feel is the ghost of him—Remmick—still there in the ache between my thighs, in the buzz that lingers low in my belly.
Remembered the way remmick carried me back to my porch and kissed me goodnight before walking away becoming one with the night.
My fingers drift without thought, pressing just above my hip where a dull throb pulses. I wince, then pull the blanket back.
And there it is.
A dark, new bruise—shaped like a handprint—only it ain’t right.
Too long. The fingers are too slim, curved strange, like something trying too hard to be human.
My breath catches.
I press again—harder this time—hoping pain might wash the shape away, or that pressure might flatten whatever’s twisted inside me.
But it doesn’t.
So I pull the blanket up, wrap it tight around me, and lie still, staring at the ceiling—waiting for some sign, some answer, some permission to feel what I shouldn’t.
Because the truth is—I should be scared. I should be askin’ questions. Should be second-guessin’ everything last night meant.
But I’m not.
Instead, I replay how he looked at me—how his hands, too warm, too sure, moved like they’d known my body in another life. How he said my name like it was already his.
I press my legs together under the sheet, close my eyes, and breathe deep.
A girl gets used to silence. Gets used to fear. But nobody warns you how dangerous it is to be wanted that way. Touched like you’re somethin’ rare. Somethin’ sacred. Somethin’ wanted.
And I—I liked it.
More than that—I craved it now.
Even with the bruises. Even with the shadows twisting in my gut. Even with the memory of those eyes—burnin’ too bright in the dark.
Don’t know if it’s love.
But it sure as hell felt like it.
——
I move slow through the kitchen that morning, feet bare against cool linoleum. The coffee’s already gone bitter in the pot. Frank’s still in bed, his snores rasping through the cracked door like dull saw blades.
I lean against the sink, sip from a chipped mug, and glance out the window.
The jelly jar’s still there. Wildflowers wiltin’ now, but proud in their dying.
I touch the bruise again through my dress.
And I smile.
Just a little.
Because maybe something ain’t quite right.
But for the first time in a long while—I’m happy, or well I thought…
——
The nights kept rollin’ like they belonged to us.
Me and Remmick, sittin’ under stars that blinked like they was tryin’ to stay quiet. Sometimes we talked a lot. Sometimes we didn’t too much. But even the silence with him had weight, like it was filled with words we weren’t ready to say yet.
I’d tell him stories from before Frank, when my laughter hadn’t yet learned to flinch. He’d listen with that look he had—chin dipped low, eyes tilted up, mouth soft like he was drinkin’ me in, slow.
He never interrupted. Never tried to solve anything. Just sat with it all.
That kind of listenin’ can make a woman feel holy.
And I guess I got used to that rhythm.
I got too used to it.
Because on the twelfth night, maybe the thirteenth—don’t really matter—he said something that pulled the thread straight from the hem.
We were sittin’ close again. My shawl slippin’ off one shoulder, the moonlight makin’ silver out of the bruises on my thigh. He had that look on him again, like he wanted to ask somethin’ he’d already decided to regret.
“You know Sammie?” he asked, real casual. Like it was just another name.
I blinked. The name hit strange.
“Sammie who?”
He shrugged like he didn’t know the last name. “That boy. Plays that guitar like it talks back. You said he played with Pearline sometimes.”
I sat up straighter.
I never said that.
I’d never mentioned Sammie at all.
I swallowed. My smile faded before I could think to save it.
“I don’t remember bringin’ up Sammie.”
The pause that followed was heavy. And not in the good way.
Remmick shifted beside me, slow. His jaw ticked once.
“You sure?”
I nodded, eyes never leaving him. “I’d remember talkin’ ‘bout Sammie.”
He looked out at the trees, the edge of his mouth tight. “Huh.”
And just like that, the air changed.
It got thinner. Like breath didn’t want to come easy no more.
I pulled the shawl closer. Suddenly real aware of the fact that I didn’t know where he slept. Didn’t know if he ever blinked when I wasn’t lookin’.
“You alright?” he asked, too quick.
“You askin’ me that, or yourself?”
He turned to me then—real sharp. Real focused. “Why you gettin’ quiet?”
I didn’t answer.
Not right away.
“Just surprised, is all,” I finally said, trying to smooth it over like I hadn’t just tripped on somethin’ sharp in his words. “Didn’t think you knew anybody round here.”
“I don’t,” he said, fast. “You’re the only one I talk to.”
“Then how you know Sammie plays guitar? I’ve never seen you at the juke joint nor heard word about you from anyone there.”
His stare was too still now. Too fixed. Like a dog watchin’ a rabbit it ain’t sure it’s allowed to chase.
“Maybe I heard it through the wind,” he said, not responding to the other part. But there was no smile behind it.
Just the shadow of a man used to bein’ questioned. A man who didn’t like the feel of it.
I stood, brushing grass off my legs. “I should head in.”
He stood too, slower. Taller than I remembered. Or maybe the night just made him bigger.
“You mad at me?” he asked, quiet now.
“No,” I said. “Just thinkin’. That alright with you?”
He nodded. But it didn’t look like agreement.
It looked like calculation.
I didn’t turn my back on him till I hit the porch.
And even then, I felt his eyes stick to my spine like syrup.
Inside, I sat by the window, hands still wrapped around the cup I didn’t finish. The wildflowers were dry now. Curlin’ in on themselves.
And I thought to myself—real quiet, so it wouldn’t wake the rest of me:
How the hell did he know Sammie and what business he wan’ with him?
———
The days slipped back into that gray stretch of sameness after I started avoidin’ him. I filled my hours with chores, with silence, with tryin’ to forget the way Remmick used to sit so still beside me you’d think the night made room for him.
But the nights weren’t mine anymore.
I stopped goin’ to the porch. Stopped lingerin’ in the dark.
The quiet didn’t soothe me—it stalked me. I felt it behind me on the walk home. At the edge of the trees. In the walls.
I knew he was there.
Watchin’.
Waitin’.
But I didn’t let him in again.
Not even with my thoughts.
That night, the juke joint buzzed with life. Hot bodies pressed close, laughter thick with drink, music ridin’ high on the air. I hadn’t been back in weeks, but I needed noise. Needed people.
Needed not to feel alone.
I sipped liquor like it might drown the nerves rattlin’ under my ribs. Played cards with a few men, some women. Slammed down a queen and grinned as I scooped the pot.
That’s when Annie approached me.
“Y/N,” she whispered, voice tight.
I looked up.
“Frank’s here.”
The name hit like a slap. I blinked.
“What?”
“He’s outside. Ask’n for you.”
Annie’s face was pale, serious. Not the usual mischief in her eyes—just worry.
I rose slow. “He’s never come here before.”
Annie just nodded. We moved together, my heart poundin’.
Smoke, Stack, and Cornbread were already standin’ at the open door, muscles tense, words clipped and low. When Frank saw me, he smiled.
That wide, too-big smile I’d never seen on him. Not even on our wedding day.
“Hey baby,” he drawled, too casual. “Wonderin’ when you’d come out here and let me in. These folks actin’ like I done somethin’ wrong.”
My stomach dropped.
He never called me baby.
“Frank, why’re you here?” My voice was calm, but confusion lined every word.
He laughed—soft, amused. “Can’t a man come see his wife? Thought maybe I’d finally check out what keeps you out so late.”
Something was off. Everything was off.
“You hate loud music,” I said, heart poundin’. “You said this place was full of nothin’ but whores and heathens.”
He looked… wrong. Eyes too glassy. Skin too pale under the porch light.
“Can’t we all change?” he said, teeth flashin’. “Now can I come in and enjoy my night like you folks?”
I looked at Smoke. He gave me that look—the one that said “you don’t gotta say yes.”
But I opened my mouth anyway.
Paused.
Frank’s smile dropped just a little.
“Y/N,” he said, his voice darker now. Familiar in its danger. “Can I come in or not?”
My hand flew up before Stack could step forward. I swallowed hard.
“Come in, Frank.”
The words fell like stones.
And just like that, the door to hell opened.
The moment he crossed that threshold, the temperature dropped. I swear it did.
He didn’t speak. Didn’t drink. Just sat at the bar, stiff and still, like a wolf wearin’ man’s skin.
Annie leaned into Smoke’s shoulder.
“Somethin’ ain’t right,” she muttered.
Mary nodded, arms folded. “He looks hollow.”
Thirty minutes passed.
Then Frank stood.
Didn’t say a word. Just turned and walked into the crowd like a man on a mission.
Headin’ straight for the stage.
Straight for Sammie.
Smoke pushed off the wall, followin’ fast.
But before anyone could act, Frank lunged—grabbed a man near the front and tackled him to the floor. Screamin’ erupted as Frank sank his teeth into the man’s neck.
Bit down.
Tore.
Blood sprayed across the floorboards, across people’s shoes. The scream that left my throat didn’t sound like mine.
Smoke pulled his pistol and fired. The sound cracked through the joint like lightning.
The man jerked, then stilled. Frank’s body fell limp over him, gore soakin’ his shirt. Then suddenly Frank stood back up like he wasn’t just shot in the head, the man he bitten standing up besides him the same eerie smile on both their blood stained mouths.
I stood frozen in place.
People screamed, chairs overturned, glass shattered. Stack wrestled another body that started lurchin’ with glowing -white eyes. Mary grabbed Pearline, draggin’ her through the back exit. Annie grabbed me.
“Y/N—we gotta GO!”
We burst through the back, runnin’.
I took the lead, feet slammin’ down the path I used to walk like a lullaby. Not now. Not anymore.
Now it felt like runnin’ through a grave.
Behind me, I heard chaos—growls, screams, more gunshots. I looked back once.
Bodies jumpin’ on each other, teeth sinkin’ into flesh. All Their eyes—
White.
Glowing like candle flames in a dead house.
Annie was right behind me.
Then she wasn’t.
I turned.
They were all gone.
Sammie. Pearline. Mary. Annie.
Gone.
I kept runnin’.
The clearing opened up like a mouth, and I stumbled into it, chest heaving.
And that’s when I saw him.
Same silhouette. Same calm.
But he wasn’t the man I knew.
Remmick stood just beyond the tree line, Same shirt. Same pants. But now soaked through with blood.
But his face—
That smile wasn’t his smile.
Those eyes weren’t human.
Red. Glowing like coals. Just like I thought I saw that night I gave him everything.
I froze. My legs locked. My throat closed up.
Remmick tilted his head, playful. Mocking.
“Oh darlin’,” he cooed, stepping forward, arms out like a man offerin’ salvation. “Where you think you runnin’ off to? You’re gonna miss the party.”
I stumbled back, tears burnin’ in my eyes. “What are you?”
He stepped forward, arms open like he meant to cradle me, like he hadn’t just let blood dry on his chest.
“Don’t look at me like that,” he said, like it was me betrayin’ him. “You knew. Somewhere in that smart little head of yours, you knew. The eyes, the voice, the way I don’t come out durin’ daytime—”
“You lied,” I whispered.
“Only when I needed too,” he said.
I shook my head. “I thought you loved me.”
Remmick stopped, cocking his head.
Everything soft in him was gone. Only sharp edges now.
“You thought it was love?” he asked, teeth glintin’ between blood. “You thought I wanted you?”
I flinched.
“All I needed was a way in. You—” he stepped closer, “—were just a door. But you kept it shut. Had to break you open. Took longer than I liked.”
“I trusted you,” I said, voice crumblin’.
“And you broke so pretty,” he said. “I almost didn’t wanna finish the job. But then you ran. Made it… inconvenient.”
He hissed softly, a grin curling up like a scar.
“I didn’t want you, Y/N. I wanted Sammie. That boy’s voice carries somethin’ old in it. Ancient. And that joint?” He gestured back toward the chaos. “It’s sacred ground.”
“You used me,” I whispered, tears burnin’ now. “I let you in. I trusted you.”
“You believed me,” he corrected. “And that’s all I ever needed.”
My breath caught somewhere between my ribs and spine, all my blood screamin’ for me to run. But I couldn’t move—just stared at Remmick, my chest heavy with grief, with betrayal, with rage.
He tilted his head again, eyes burning like iron pulled from a forge.
“I didn’t want you,” he said again, voice soft as a lullaby. “I wanted the key. And girl, you were it.”
My throat worked around a sob. My legs, finally rememberin’ they was mine, shifted. I turned to bolt—
And stopped.
There they stood.
A wall of them.
Faces I knew too well.
Cornbread. Mary. Stack. Even Annie—lips pulled in a wide, wrong smile. Their skin was pale, waxy. Their eyes—oh God, their eyes—glowin’ white like candles lit from the inside.
They didn’t speak at first.
Just smiled.
Stared.
And then—slow and soft—they started to hum.
That same song Sammie used to play on slow nights.
The one that never had words, just a melody made of aching and memory.
But now it had words.
And they all sang ‘em.
“Sleep, little darlin’, the dark’s gone sweet,
The blood runs warm, the circle’s complete, its freedom you seek…”
I backed away, breath shiverin’ in and out of my lungs.
The chorus kept swellin’. Their voices overlappin’, mouths stretchin’ too wide, white eyes never blinkin’. Like they weren’t people anymore.
Just shells.
Just echoes.
I turned back to Remmick—
And he was right in front of me.
So close I could see the dried blood on his collar, the gleam of teeth too long to belong in any man’s mouth.
He lifted his hand—calm, steady.
Like he was invitin’ me to dance.
“Come on, Y/N,” he whispered, smile almost tender now. “Ain’t you tired of runnin’?”
I didn’t know if I was breathin’.
Didn’t know if I wanted to be.
Everything hurt. Everything I’d carried—love, hope, grief, rage—it all sat in my mouth like copper.
I looked at his hand again.
And maybe, for just a moment, I thought about takin’ it.
But maybe I didn’t.
Maybe I turned and ran straight into the woods.
Maybe I screamed.
Maybe I smiled.
Maybe I never left that clearin’.
Maybe I did.
Maybe the darkness that took over me, was just my eyes closed wishing to wake from this nightmare.
، summary𓈒 you're looking for a job and stumble upon bo's store; obviously you find him attractive, so why not pine after him, then eventually fuck him...?
، pairing𓈒 bo chow x black reader
، warnings𓈒 no use of y/n, sex, lots of sex and nasty shit, a slight age gap (don't kill me), eventual threesome...? idk if i'll make it follow the movie anymore- I don't feel like it. (again, don't yell at me)
، notes𓈒 (rewritten- read it again if you'd like to...) Masterlist
The bell over the door gave a tired little jingle when you pushed it open, stepping in from the blistering heat and choking dust of the street.
𝓑𝓸 𝓒𝓱𝓸𝔀 & 𝓒𝓸 𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐓𝐀 ɢʀᴏᴄᴇʀʏ & ᴍᴀʀᴋᴇᴛ
The painted letters on the glass were peeling, baked raw by the Southern sun. Your shoes were worn thin, the soles offering little defense against the scorching floorboards. Your dress was simple cotton, damp and sticking stubbornly to the back of your knees. And you were tired, bone tired, you felt the exhaustion seeping into your teeth, from chasing one dead end job after another across this godforsaken town.
You needed work. Or a miracle. Or both.
The store smelled like heavy tobacco, cured leather, and dry wood, with a hint of something sweeter bleeding through the humidity, maybe the colorful candy in the glass jar by the counter, or the bright, bruised apples piled up high in the wicker baskets. Shelves lined the walls from floor to ceiling, packed tight with everything from flour sacks and molasses to shiny pistol rounds. It was the kind of place where a man could buy a loaf of bread, or a hammer without walking more than twenty feet.
You adjusted the canvas bag on your shoulder, wiping a bead of sweat from your forehead, desperately trying not to look as broken and desperate as you felt. It was quiet inside, a cool sanctuary from the glare outside, but it wasn’t empty.
There, behind the heavy oak counter, sleeves rolled up over strong, tanned forearms, stood a man.
And Lord Almighty. You almost forgot how to breathe.
He was fine. Broad through the shoulders, lean through the waist, and the worn leather suspenders crossing his chest did absolutely nothing to hide the heavy muscle beneath his shirt. He had dark hair, a little mussed and wild, like he'd run his fingers through it a hundred times that morning already. A sharp, unforgiving jawline. Sleeves pushed up. And a single cigarette dangling carelessly and lit between his lips.
He watched you over the top of the heavy ledger he was scribbling in, eyes narrowing slightly. One eyebrow tilted up slow, like he wasn't quite sure if you were real or just a cruel heat mirage rolling in off the baking road.
"You lost, darlin'?" His voice was rough, low, a gravelly baritone that vibrated right through the floorboards. It didn't unfriendly but it didn't sound soft either.
You swallowed hard, your cheeks burning hotter than the midday sun outside.
"No, sir," you managed, clearing your throat to find your footing. "I'm lookin' for work.”
He tilted his head a little, studying the line of your jaw, the set of your shoulders. The cigarette bobbed between his fingers as he finally took it from his mouth, tapping the ghost of an ash into a rusted tin. There was a long, heavy pause, stretching thin and taut between you like taffy pulled too far in the summer heat.
He leaned forward, bracing his heavy forearms on the counter, and you caught the faint scar along the left side of his throat, a rough, pale line disappearing beneath the unbuttoned collar of his shirt. He smelled like leather, salt, and something intimately familiar you couldn’t quite name.
"Ain't much work left 'round here," he said finally, his eyes dropping briefly to your worn shoes before rising back to yours. "Dust's got more jobs than we do."
Your heart sank, a heavy stone dropping into your stomach. You started to thank him anyway, ready to turn, ready to leave with your pride shriveled up tight inside you. But then he spoke again, his tone almost too casual, stopping you right in your tracks:
"You know how to tally numbers? Take stock? Keep folks from stealin' when I ain't lookin'?"
You blinked up at him, your chest tightening. You nodded fast, terrified the chance would slip away if you hesitated.
"Yes sir. I can read, write, count. And I can run a register." You prayed to any god listening that you didn’t sound as breathless as you felt.
Bo Chow smiled then, real slow, real lazy. Like maybe he hadn't smiled all day until now. Maybe longer. And damn if it didn’t feel like that smile was a private thing, meant just for you.
"Might have somethin' for you after all," he said, nodding his chin toward the shadowed back room. "Mornings, couple hours. Pay ain't much, but it's clean work. And you get first pick if any more fruit comes in."
You tried to smile back, tried not to look like a fool whose whole world had just been saved by a stranger behind a grocery counter.
"I'd be grateful," you said, the words thick in your throat. "Truly."
"Name's Bo Chow," he said, holding out a large, calloused hand across the scarred wood of the counter. "Most folks just call me Bo."
You put your hand in his, and his fingers wrapped completely around yours. He squeezed it firm, just enough to make your stomach flip once, twice. His skin was warm, rough in all the right ways, a working man's hand. Your name felt small and clumsy on your tongue when you said it out loud.
He repeated it once under his breath, tasting the syllables, like he was putting it away somewhere safe where the dust couldn't touch it.
The heavy scuff of boots sounded behind you as a couple of old timers came through the front door, hats pulled low over their eyes against the glare. Bo dropped your hand slow, his fingers lingering against your palm like he hated letting go.
"Be here six sharp tomorrow," he said, his voice dropping a little lower, cutting through the sudden noise of the bell. "Don't make me come hunt you down."
And Lord, the way he said it, like it was a promise, like it was a threat, like maybe he wouldn't mind the trouble of hunting you down at all. You walked out of that store with your heart rattling around in your ribs, a stupid, helpless grin tugging at your mouth. The blinding dust hit your boots. The heavy sun hit your eyes. But you hardly felt it. All you could think about was him.
The next morning, you showed up just before six, your hair pinned back neatly, your boots polished the best you could manage, and a clean apron folded under your arm. The sun wasn’t even fully up yet, just a pale silver smear over the flat, unending line of the distant fields. The streets were dead and empty, save for a lone stray dog trotting along the boardwalk.
You hesitated at the door, your heart hammering a frantic rhythm against your ribs. What if he changed his mind? What if he woke up and realized you weren’t worth the wage?
But the second you pushed the door open, the warm, familiar smell of tobacco and cedar wrapped around you like an old blanket, and there he was.
He was already behind the counter, sleeves rolled tightly again over those damn forearms, his white shirt tucked messy into dark, heavy trousers. His suspenders were hanging low on his hips, draping loose like he hadn’t bothered to fix them yet. He was counting stacks of cash, a fresh cigarette stuck lazy between his teeth, the smoke curling up in slow silver ribbons around his head.
He glanced up when he heard the door jingle, and you swear, for a half second, his expression softened into a smile. A real one. That soft, quiet kind, tucked just into the corner of his mouth. Just for you.
"You're early," he said, his voice rough and deep with sleep. "Good."
You nodded, setting your things down behind the counter, your hands shaking a little as you tied your apron. You kept yourself busy to hide the nerves, dusting shelves, sweeping the floorboards, checking the heavy iron register just like he told you to. He didn’t hover over you. He just gave quiet, direct instructions here and there, moving around the store slow and easy, like he owned every cubic inch of the air and had all the time in the world to breathe it.
And it was the little things. God, it was the little things that began to drive you a little crazy.
You noticed it first when he leaned down to pull a heavy wooden crate from under the counter, how his shirt stretched tight across his broad back, the thin fabric pulling hard against shifting muscle. How a stray lock of dark hair fell over his brow, and he huffed it out of the way with a sharp breath without even noticing. You caught yourself staring, your breath catching, before snapping your head down fast, pretending to intensely reorganize the bruised peaches and greens.
Then it was the way he stood, shoulders wide, hips cocked lazy to one side, arms crossed over his chest as he watched you figure out how to properly load the metal till. There was something about the way the man moved. No wasted steps, no nervous fidgeting, like he didn’t have to try to own the space around him. He just did.
And Lord, when he laughed. It was a low, unexpected, real rough chuckle that rumbled straight from his chest when you nearly dropped the heavy glass candy jar, catching it against your ribs at the very last second. God, you felt that laugh all the way down to your toes.
"Careful, sunshine," he drawled, his eyes crinkling at the corners. "Ain't but one of you, and glass is expensive."
You ducked your head, your face burning a furious crimson, but you couldn’t help the smile that broke across your lips.
Around mid-morning, after he’d spent an hour hammering up a new supply shelf in the back, Bo wiped the sheen of sweat from his brow with the back of his hand. You offered him the jar of water you’d packed from home, your chest tight, suddenly feeling silly and forward. He took it from you with a little nod, his eyes locking onto yours as his mouth brushed the exact rim where yours had been just minutes before. He drank without hesitation. Y’all were practically kissing right there; it was indirect, but God, it felt intimate.
And when he handed the jar back, his thick fingers brushed yours. Calloused. Heavy. Warm. You felt it like a sudden jolt of lightning, sharp and sweet under your skin.
"You doin' alright?" he asked, his voice dropping low, purely for you. "Ain't scarin' you off yet?"
You shook your head fast, your eyes wide.
"No, sir."
That slow smile appeared again, all proud and warm, like he was pleased with you. It made your chest ache.
The rest of the day passed in slow, golden hours. He showed you how to track the paper inventory, how to decipher the messy shipping order forms, and how to spot the subtle difference between good grain sacks and the ones chewed through by field mice. And every little thing, the way he squinted against the glare when he stepped onto the porch, the way he twirled a lead pencil between his fingers when he was thinking, the way he touched the brim of his hat polite to the older ladies who passed by, every single thing made you fall harder.
You were a fool. You knew that. But God help you, you couldn’t stop.
Near closing time, when the long shadows stretched like ink across the floorboards, Bo lit the oil lamps and turned the front sign to CLOSED. The town settled into a heavy, twilight quiet outside, the cicadas starting up their low, vibrating summer hum.
You packed up your things, your heart suddenly heavy. You didn’t want to leave.
He leaned back against the counter, a fresh cigarette smoke curling around his head like a dark halo, watching your every movement with that unreadable, heavy look. Not smiling. Not frowning. Just watching you exist.
And before you could step out, just as your hand reached the brass latch of the door, his voice cut through the dim light:
"You did good today."
You turned, surprised, your hand freezing on the wood.
He flicked a stray ash into the tin, his voice casual, almost too casual, hiding the weight behind it:
"Could use someone steady around here. Someone like you. If you want it, job’s yours."
You tried to speak, tried to say yes, of course, yes, thank you, yes, but your throat was too dry, your chest too tight. All that came out was a breathless, fierce little whisper.
"I'd like that."
Bo nodded slow, those dark eyes never leaving yours for a single second.
"Good," he said.
You couldn’t take his stare for another moment; you just huffed, turned the handle, and left the store into the cooling night.
You showed up early again the next morning. You couldn’t help yourself if you tried. You had barely slept a wink, just laying in your small bed all night staring at the cracked ceiling, your heart banging around your ribs like a trapped bird. You kept seeing him in the dark, that rough smile, that lazy slouch against the counter, the way his hands moved, big and calloused and sure, like he could tear the whole damn world down if he wanted to, but chose to be gentle with you instead.
You dressed carefully that morning. A simple skirt, a neat, tucked in cotton blouse, your hair tied back securely. Nothing fancy, nothing loud. But you caught yourself smoothing down the fabric a dozen times on the walk over. You weren’t scared of the hard work, and you weren’t scared of Bo, either. Not really. What scared you, if you were being honest with yourself, was how badly you wanted him to look at you again the way he had yesterday. Like he actually saw you.
The bell over the door jingled when you pushed inside, and there he was.
Good Lord. You almost had to grab the thick wood of the doorframe to keep from sliding straight down onto the floorboards.
Today he had the vest on, a rich, brown canvas vest, snug and tight over his broad shoulders and chest. His shirt sleeves were rolled high to the elbows again, forearms on full display, his tan skin dusted with faint, pale scars like old stories he never bothered to tell anyone. His dark trousers fit firm and low around his effortlessly fine waist, his leather boots scuffed from the morning's heavy lifting.
He looked up from stocking the bottom shelves, and when his eyes landed on you, a flash of something fiercely warm crossed his face. Almost hidden. Almost.
"Mornin’, sunshine," he said, his voice low, gravelly, and thick with the morning. "Thought you might show."
You swallowed hard, managing a tight, small nod as you set your bag down.
He stood up slow, dusting his large hands off on a grease rag. That damn vest hugged him in all the right places, accentuating the width of his chest and the lean line of his stomach. It made your insides flip and knot in ways that felt downright dangerous.
You got straight to work without being told, moving behind the counter and checking the handwritten inventory list, trying your absolute best to pretend like your heart wasn’t about to explode right out of your chest. It didn’t help that Bo kept brushing close to you. It wasn't on purpose, not really, but every single time you turned around, he was just there.
At one point, you bent low to grab a heavy wooden crate from beneath the counter, and when you stood up too fast, you bumped right into him.
You hit his hard, solid chest, the scratchy, warm canvas of his vest pressing flat against your back. Before you could lose your footing, his large hand caught your waist automatically to steady you.
A big, heavy palm. A firm, unyielding grip. His fingers splayed wide against your hip for one electric second before he yanked them back like he’d touched a scorching stove.
You both froze.
For one wild, breathless second, the whole store went dead silent. There was no sound but the heavy ticking of the clock on the wall and the sound of his rough breath brushing the back of your exposed neck. Then, he cleared his throat roughly, stepping back a pace.
"Easy, now," he said, his voice rough, almost scolding you to hide how tight it had gone. "Ain't tryna bust that pretty nose, are ya?”
You flushed so hot you thought your skin might actually catch fire. You mumbled something incoherent, you didn’t even know what, and ducked your head fast to stare at the floorboards.
Later in the afternoon, you were coming out of the narrow storage closet, your arms full of heavy ledgers, right as Bo was striding in to fetch a tool. Instead of waiting for him to back up, instead of shrinking back like a timid girl, you moved right past him.
Except, the space was too damn narrow.
Your hip brushed hard against his thigh, your shoulder scraped right across the front of his chest, and your ass- oh, Lord, your ass skimmed right up against his front when you slid by.
You felt him go completely still, felt his large hand twitch violently at his side like he had to physically, forcefully stop himself from reaching out and grabbing you. You didn’t dare look up to see his face. You just kept moving, pretending with everything you had that you didn’t notice, pretending your whole body wasn’t screaming at the contact.
Behind you, in the quiet of the closet, you swore you heard him swear low under his breath. Real soft. Real dangerous. You bit your lower lip so hard it hurt, just to keep from smiling.
By noon, the air inside the building was thick, heavy, and soup-warm with the midday heat. Bo finally shed the canvas vest, slinging it over a iron hook near the back door. You caught a lingering glimpse of the way his damp shirt clung to his skin, tracing the long, powerful line of his spine and the strong slope of his shoulders. You caught yourself staring again, caught yourself wanting, and forced your eyes away.
But Bo must’ve noticed. A minute later, he drifted close to where you were standing, reaching past you for a tin on the high shelf. His large hand landed light but firm on your waist, physically moving you out of his way. He didn’t even think about it. He just did it. Like you were his property already.
Your breath hitched so fast you nearly dropped the tin jar in your hands.
"‘Scuse me, sunshine’," he murmured, his voice real soft, vibrating right against your ear. "You’re in the way."
You stood there like a fool, blinking blankly as he brushed past, close enough for you to inhale the scent of salt, hot sun, and tobacco smoke clinging to his skin.
It wasn’t until much later, long after closing, when you were wiping down the dusty counters and Bo was locking the heavy front door, that he spoke again.
"You work good," he said, his voice low, thick, and heavy in the dimming light. "Real good. Smarter than most the men that come through here."
You turned around, your heart instantly hammering against your ribs. Bo was leaning back against the locked door, his arms crossed over his chest, watching you through the shadows. His face was entirely unreadable. His eyes were incredibly dark.
You opened your mouth to thank him, to say something polite, but he cut you off before the words could form.
"How old are you, anyway?"
You stiffened, the air leaving your lungs. You knew exactly what he was asking. You knew why he was asking it. You met his eyes steadily, refusing to look away, your chin tilting up just a little bit in defiance.
"Turned eighteen last month," you said, your voice ringing clear in the quiet shop. "I'm grown, sir."
For a second, just a single, fleeting breath, something violent flickered across his face. Something hungry, dangerous, and entirely real. Then it was gone, shuttered away behind that calm, lazy mask he wore like a second skin.
He nodded once very slowly. Like he was making peace with something ugly inside his own chest.
"Alright, sunshine," he said, his voice rough and low. "Long as you know what you’re doin’."
You smiled, small, sweet, and entirely secret, because you did. You really, really did. And Lord help you, you weren't planning on stopping now.
The next day dragged in slow, hot and heavy, the humidity clinging to the air like a wet sheet, but you didn’t mind the heat at all. Not when you got to watch him.
Bo moved through the shop like he wasn’t even trying to be handsome, just existing with a raw, effortless grace. Stacking heavy wooden crates, counting down the flour stock, slouching lazy against the counters, and all you could do was sneak burning glances every single chance you got.
The way his sleeves were pushed up to his elbows as always, showing off those strong, thick forearms, tan and scarred, the dark veins running beneath his skin like little rivers. The way the heavy muscles flexed and bunched under the damp fabric when he lifted something heavy. His hands, god, his hands. Big and rough, the palms heavily calloused from years of brutal work, the knuckles scarred like he’d been in far more fistfights than he’d ever admit to a soul. You found yourself imagining what those hands would feel like skimming over your bare skin, wrapping tight around your throat, tangling deep into your hair. It was getting harder and harder to focus on anything else.
You were wiping down the counter again, pretending to clean when you were really just devouring him with your eyes, when you suddenly realized something:
The store was empty. No customers. None. Just you and Bo, all alone in the dimming light, the heat swirling between you like thick smoke. Your heartbeat picked up a frantic, heavy pace.
And before you could talk yourself out of it, before you could remember to be scared, or shy, or a good girl...you moved.
It wasn’t a fast run, just a normal, slightly shaky pace born of pure adrenaline. You crossed the short distance between you in a few quick steps, reached out, and grabbed his heavy hand. You tugged him firmly toward the back room.
He let you. No questions asked. No hesitation whatsoever. Just a soft, gravelly grunt and a half smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth as he followed your lead.
"What’s this, sunshine?" His voice was rough, deeply curious, and ohh so amused. "You stealin' me?"
You didn’t answer him. You couldn't. You just pulled him through the narrow back door, straight into the storeroom, dim, warm, and hidden away from the world, and shoved him back against the wooden wall.
You stood there right in front of him, breathing hard, your heart hammering so incredibly loud you swore he could hear it echoing in the quiet room. Bo looked down at you, those dark eyes burning with a sudden, intense fire, and for one terrifying second you thought maybe he’d laugh at you. Maybe he’d brush you off, tell you to run along home like the little girl you weren’t anymore.
But he didn’t. He tipped his sharp chin down, his lips brushing light against yours as he spoke, his voice low and vibrating:
"You sure?"
You nodded instantly. You didn’t trust your own voice to speak.
Oh but the single nod was all the man needed.
He kissed you like he’d been starving, like he’d been waiting for this exact moment for days. It was hard. Hungry. His large hands came down to grab your hips, his fingers digging into your skin through your skirt, dragging you flush against his heavy frame. Your head spun instantly. The whole world tilted on its axis.
His mouth was hot and rough against yours, his teeth scraping your lower lip just enough to elicit a sharp whimper from your throat. God, the helpless sound you made must’ve lit him on fire, because he growled low and deep in his chest. He cupped your face with both hands, his calloused palms scratching your cheeks, and kissed you even harder, devouring you.
You clutched at him blindly, your hands fisting into the fabric of his shirt, dragging him closer, and he let you do it, he let you crawl all over him like he was completely starving for your touch. Like he’d die if you stopped. At one point, your boots stumbled on a loose board, and you tried to pull back just an inch to catch your breath, but he chased you down. His mouth claimed yours again, his hands framing your face so careful, so tender, even with how rough and bruising the kiss was. You were dizzy with it, completely intoxicated by him, by the feel of his large body pressed hard against yours, all solid heat and unyielding muscle.
And then, you did it.
Your hands shaking violently, you grabbed his thick wrist, guided it up, and placed his big, rough hand right around your throat. Gently. It was almost like a question; like a desperate please.
Bo froze instantly. For one hot, crackling second, everything in the entire room stopped moving. The air turned to glass.
His thumb brushed the side of your throat, all slow and thoughtful, feeling the frantic, wild pulse jumping beneath your skin. He wasn’t squeezing, not yet, just holding you, letting you feel the immense strength in his fingers, the sheer weight of him. He pulled his mouth back just enough to look you dead in the eye, something dangerous, dark, and filthy gleaming behind his gaze. And then he grinned slowly, all teeth.
"You into that shit, sunshine?" His voice was like dark velvet, wrapping around you, making a violent shiver run straight down your spine.
You nodded, completely breathless, grinding your hips up against his heavy thigh like you couldn’t help it. And you couldn't.
His thick fingers flexed slightly in response, tightening just a tiny fraction around your neck, not enough to hurt you, just enough to remind you exactly who was bigger, who was stronger, and who was in total charge. You let out a soft, needy whimper, gnawing at your lip, and he laughed. A low, rough sound, like you were the best damn thing he’d ever laid his eyes on.
"Goddamn," he muttered, his voice rough, ragged, and full of reverence. “You’re gonna be the fuckin’ death of me."
Then he slammed his mouth back down on yours, kissing you deeper, dirtier, his hand still cradling the curve of your throat while his other hand roamed heavy down your spine, crushing you flat against him. You melted completely into his touch, opening up for him, letting him take whatever the hell he wanted.
Bo’s hand stayed loose around your throat for a moment longer, his thumb brushing the sharp edge of your jaw, his breath ragged and hot against your mouth, before he finally let go. Not because he wanted to stop touching you, nah, far from it. Because he wanted more.
He gave you a rough, breathless little grin, and it only made your knees turn to water, then reached down and grabbed you firmly by the waist like you weighed absolutely nothing at all. He lifted you right up in the air.
He set you down on the nearest wooden stool, the wood still warm from the heavy heat outside, leaving you a little unsteady, but solid enough. Your hands grabbed the dusty edges of the stool instinctively to steady yourself, your eyes wide, your heart pounding so loud you could barely hear your own thoughts.
Bo leaned back just a half step, just enough to drink the sight of you. The way your cotton dress had ridden up, baring the soft, dark skin of your thighs. The way you sat there completely breathless, your pupils blown wide, your lips kiss swollen, red, and desperate for him. He dragged a heavy hand down his face, taking a sharp breath as if trying to keep his sanity together, and then just said low, almost entirely to himself:
"Christ, you're pretty."
You didn’t even realize you were doing it, but your eyes kept dropping lower. To his hands. Those big, rough, dangerous hands, scarred, calloused, and terrifyingly strong. You could feel the raw strength of them radiating from where you sat. You could imagine them wrapped tightly around your hips, your waist, your throat again, holding you down, holding you up, doing whatever he damn well pleased with you.
Your mouth went completely dry. And of course Bo noticed. His lips curled into a wicked, knowing smirk.
"Yeah?" he rasped, his voice dropping into a dark register. "You like the look of my hands, sunshine?" Like he didn’t already know the answer.
You swallowed hard, your chest heaving, and nodded. You didn't even try to hide it from him again.
Bo stepped right between your knees, crowding your space completely, his body heat washing over you like an open furnace. He ducked his head down.
He started kissing along your jawline, slow, wet, open mouthed kisses trailing lower and lower down your neck. You gasped aloud when he found that sensitive spot just under your ear, sucking there hard enough to leave a dark mark, and he grinned against your skin when you tilted your head back for him, entirely helpless and wanting.
"Good girl," he muttered roughly into your neck, his breath searing hot. "So pretty ‘fa me."
You could’ve melted right into the floorboards then and there. You could’ve died happy. His hands were everywhere now, roaming heavy up your sides, his thumbs brushing the undersides of your breasts, dragging along the soft curves of your waist like he was memorizing every single inch of you. You arched your back into his touch, not even trying to play coy or innocent anymore. You wanted him. All of him.
And Bo, he was absolutely starving for you. Before you could even blink, the big man dropped straight to his knees.
His broad body sank down onto the dusty floor in front of you. He used his strong hands to spread your knees wider apart, pulling your underwear down in one smooth, unyielding motion. He looked up at you from below, something almost feral, dark, and consuming burning in his eyes.
"Gotta taste you, baby," he rasped, his voice half broken with raw need. "Been fuckin' dying for it."
You whimpered out loud, your hand flying to his head instinctively, your fingers fisting deep into the thick, dark strands of his hair as he shoved your cotton dress up higher, higher, completely exposing you to the dim room.
There was no hesitation. Bo dove in like a man half out of his mind with thirst.
The very first press of his hot mouth against your already wet pussy made you cry out, a sharp, sweet sound echoing in the rafters as your hips bucked up without you even meaning to. Bo groaned aloud against your skin, a deep, dirty sound, like you were the best thing he'd ever tasted in his entire life. He grabbed your thighs with a bruising grip, holding you down, forcing you to stay right there for him.
His mouth was incredibly hungry, his lips and tongue working you open, devouring you like you were his last meal on earth. You tried to pull away just once, completely overwhelmed, shaking all over, your breath hitching painfully in your throat, but he only groaned louder and pulled your hips back down harder against his face.
"Nah, baby. You take it. You let me eat this pretty little pussy just like this. You fuckin’ taste how bad I want you."
You sobbed his name out loud, it sounded pathetic, really, echoed in the quiet storeroom. Your hips ground helplessly, frantically against his mouth, and Bo just groaned again, deeper this time, like he could come from the mere taste of you alone.
The wet, relentless slide of his tongue. The sharp scrape of his teeth just barely grazing you. The way he ruthlessly sucked your clit into his mouth and held it there until your whole body was violently shaking. He licked you like he owned you. Like he wasn’t gonna let you walk out of this storeroom until you knew exactly whose girl you were.
And when you finally came, loud, undone, and desperate, your thighs clamping tight around his head, Bo just kept going. He didn’t stop. He didn’t let up for a single second. He made you ride out every single shudder, every whimper, every sweet, broken little cry that left your lips.
When you finally slumped forward, completely boneless, ruined, and sweating, your hands were still fisting weakly in his dark hair.
Bo looked up at you through his eyelashes, his mouth slick with you, his dark eyes wild, untamed, and fierce. He spoke, his voice low, rough, and absolute:
"Ain’t done with you yet, sunshine."
And you believed every single word. You wanted him. God help you, you wanted every single thing Bo Chow was about to give you.
Finals are almost over, so I'm redoing the list yayy. I will update more as I come across them but if anyone has any recommendations comment pls!!! ALSO THANK YOU TO THE AMAZING WRITERS THAT ARE PUTTING OUT THESE WORK I LOVE Y'ALL DOWN 🫂🫶🏽
Work by @writerofautumnnights
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ModernAU Jumpin' (SmokexBlack!OC,StackxBlack!OC)
From the Same Cloth(SmokexBlack!OC,StackxBlack!OC)
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Fever (soon to be out,StackxReader)
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Sir,You're Too Fine (Bo ChowxReader)
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Castle Made of Sand (StackxReader, PlatonicSmokexReader)
Love Rollercoaster (pt1)(StackxReader)
Love Rollercoaster (pt2)(StackxReader)
Waiting to Exhale(SmokexReader)
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The One Who Asked (RemmickxReader)
The Long Night (RemmickxReader)
Blood&Blues (StackxReader)
Bloodlines&Blues (Stack and SmokexReader)
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Love Bites (StackxOC)
Wait For Me (SmokexOC)
Anastasia Antoinette (StackxOC, SmokexOC)
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I Never Told You (Pt1,StackxBlack!Reader)
What I Should've Said (PT2)
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Mercy Made Flesh
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Choose One (Smoke,Stack&OC. first three chapters posted)
Drabbles by @crystalgemcrusaders
Til Death Do Us Part(Stack)
They Are All Sinners(18+)(Stack)
Headcanon-devils temptation:NSFW(Smoke)
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"Stop pretending that you hate me" (StackxReader)
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Is It The Way;2003 teaser (StackxBlack!OC)
Works by @szatears
Just a lil' something (SmokexReader,Plantonic StackxReaer)
ModernAuSmoke (personal fav 🤭)
Three's Trouble (StackxBlack!Reader, StackxMary, MaryxBlack!Reader)
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The Stack Effect 1/3
The Stack Effect 2/3
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Advantages and Disadvantages (Smoke&StackxPOC!Reader)
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Let Me In (SmokexWOC!ReaderxStack)
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Still Standing pt1 (SmokexBlack!Reader)
SmokexReader sneak peak
if any author wants to be removed, let me know and I'll glad do so 😁
also here are the A03 works :)
A' Lil Taste by Katetypes (Sammie rec)
Blood Ties by Xoslimm26 (Remmick fic)
níl sé ina lá, níl a ghrá by Subedarling (Remmick/reader)
Where's There's Smoke, There's Fire by CreativeBuzz (Smoke/Annie, my parents fr)
Dangerous by Cohrareads (Stack/Mary)
summary: Rue has worked for years to forget Elijah Moore and what he left her with before he ran to Chicago. But when she sees his ambitious twin in the square, all of their history comes rushing back. (3.1k)
a/n: it has been so long, but Sinners is truly a movie in its own category. i also need to preface that i am black for this story. anyway, as always, ur interaction is greatly appreciated, ily<3
warnings: swearing, n word use (by smoke and stack), mentions of child loss, abortion, sex, racism
in this story, our characters name is: Rue
Elijah Moore and I never had a complicated relationship. Hell, Smoke might even say we had none at all. But for years after he ravaged me in that car outside of the bar, I thought about him every night. We were together, I’d say — Boyfriend and girlfriend for as long as his grief consumed him. But the moment Annie found out, Smoke disappeared from my arms and was at her feet, begging for forgiveness. I don’t blame her, not in the slightest — I can only imagine that those were some of their darkest times.
Elias, on the other hand, him and I had a complicated relationship. When I found out that Smoke left a piece of himself in me, there was no way I could tell him, not after what he’d just been through. So I went to the closest thing to him, Stack. And although what we had is never to be considered romantic, there was something there — Familial, even. He knew it, Mary knew it, and for that very reason I was never allowed within an 100 foot radius of the twins until the day they left, not if I wanted to feel welcome.
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📍 Train Station || 12:00pm
The feelings from all those years ago bubble up inside me and form a twist in my gut when I see that all-too-recognizable burgundy top hat. My feet move before my mind can stop them, and in no time I’m approaching my old friend.
Stack flashes a gold toothed smile. “I’ll be damned.”
I return the nicety, pulling him in for a warm hug.
“Word spreads fast,” I nod. “Y’all still got the same appeal you had all them years ago.”
“You don’t have to tell me that, darling. I know it.” His cocky smile takes me back, the only thing differentiating him from his brother being his energy.
“Do I even want to know why you came back?”
“You heard it as good as I did." He gestures toward little Preacher Boy and the old man. “We’re opening a Juke Joint tonight, right there down at the old mill.”
“Y’all never could stay still. Chicago wasn’t change enough for you?”
He shrugs. “Figured we should deal with a devil we know. Besides, we miss the tricking.”
“Mmm,” I hum. “Well if Miss Pearline back there is singing, I might just pay this Joint a visit.”
Stack looks past me and at the polka dottted woman walking away from Preacher Boy.
“Shit, if that’s what it takes for you to come, it’s done.”
Always so charming.
He ogles me, his eyes scanning up and down my exposed arms.
“What’s this?” Stack rubs his fingers over the dark ink lining my skin — Art ranging from numbers to symbols to simple symmetric images.
“You know I’m an artist, boy.” I pull my arm back, scoffing. “Figured I’d get a few permanent ones to remember a few things.”
“And you talking about we couldn’t stay still. I’ll be visiting to get a look at those paintings of yours one of these days.” Stack’s grin begins to fade as he looks over my shoulder.
Preacher Boy walks up and nears his cousin. “This white woman’s been staring at you—“
“Yea, I see her…”
He shoos Sammie away and tries to walk me off, but I’m already well aware of what shark is in the water — I can hear her heels clicking behind me.
“Now is this Smoke? Or is that Stack?”
I turn my head. “Hi, Mary.”
No response. Only a rough shoulder check as she stands in front of me and nears Stack.
He looks over her head and at me. “I’ll holler at you, Rue—“
Mary interrupts. “No, you’re not talking to fucking Rue right now. You’re talking to me.”
Stack huffs, looking back down at the woman dressed in pink. I give him a ‘have fun dealing with that’ look before turning and catching my train.
Of all the women wrapped around the twins’ fingers, Mary has got to be the most spiteful of them all. For no good reason, though. Contrary to her belief, I never once slept with Stack, never even thought of it. But as far as she knows, I kissed him all the way to where the sun don’t shine, and then some.
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📍 Juke Joint || 10:00pm
This old mill has lit up under the construction of the twins. People hoot and holler as Pearline ignites the stage, turning into the musical beast I knew she would the minute she started singing. Having no dance partner, I simply clap along, moving my body to the beat alone. Out of the corner of my eye, I see the same damn burgundy hat that I saw only hours ago.
I can feel Annie’s eyes burning holes into my skull as I sit at the bar, Stack walking up to me.
“Now who the hell did y’all rob to afford this place? Ain’t this being sold from the Klan?” I shout across the bar, my voice being drowned out by Pearline’s Pale, Pale Moon.
Stack shakes his head. “Not Klan, just crackers. You know we got money, girl. Don’t do that.”
“Yea, well blood money don’t count. So how much you got now?”
He pulls his pockets inside out, amusing me.
I chuckle, placing my money on the bar. “Y’all have blackberry bourbon smash?”
“I don’t know if I can do that for you…”
His fake frown quickly turns into a grin as he takes the money, relaying my order to Grace.
“Fancy motherfuckers,” I mumble.
“What was that?” Stack eggs me on.
My eyes scan the bar, but all I can focus on is that hateful scowl on Annie’s face.
“I said all these women hate me.”
Stack scoffs. “Only those particular women.”
That’s more than enough for me I think.
He leans in, his lips grazing my ear.
“You know none of these girls got shit on you, Rue. They ain’t half as strong either.”
A small smile grows on my face, matching Stacks. He goes to hand me back my cash, but I slide it back to him.
“I don’t need it,” I front.
“Yea? Well me neither. So you gon’ fucking take it.”
I roll my eyes, pocketing the change and standing with my drink. I’ve barely made it away from the bar when cigarette smoke cascades from over my head. Instinctively looking up, I finally see him.
Smoke stares down at me from the balcony with that hard expression he always wears. It’s so strange, seeing that rock solid glare. When we first met in a dingy bar on the side of a dirt Mississippi road, he hung his head low and seemed to always have glossy eyes. I didn’t believe him when he told me he was Smoke. When he fucked me that night, and many a nights after that, it was slowly — With passion, and often tears followed the act. But now his eyes are as dry as a dessert and they pierce a hole through mine.
He takes another blow of his cigarette before turning his back to me, retreating into a room. I have no choice but to follow him, even if it’s just to get yelled at to go away as he did the last time we met. I take my time, downing my glass of bourbon as I walk up the stairs. I can’t pinpoint exactly why, but my heart thumps in my chest just before I open the door, all of the thoughts of what we could’ve had rushing back to my mind like they did eight years ago.
I enter the dimly lit room, closing the door behind me and leaning on it.
“Hi, Smoke,” I say lowly, unable to read his face.
“Why you here, Rue?” he grumbles, a roughness to his voice. “I’m already stressed the fuck out with this opening shit. Stack ain’t helping.”
“I don’t want no trouble. Just came for the music.”
“You being here is plenty trouble enough.” He scans my body the same as his brother, blowing his cigarette again. “You can’t find music no place else?”
“You want me to leave?” I ask honestly.
“Yea, I want you to leave. You think those women down there want you to leave too or are we acting stupid tonight?”
“They never even tried to like me, Smoke,” I sigh, my legs bringing me closer to him. I place my hand on his bicep, like I did all those years ago. “They got no idea what we had.”
He puts his hand on mine, pulling it off. “That was a moment of weakness, Rue. Whatever you think we had is gone now."
I blink to avoid tears from forming. My first ever love, my first ever relationship being chalked up to a moment of weakness chips away at my heart. If it’s what he has to tell himself to dig out of the deep guilt he feels, so be it. But he won’t sit in front of me and act like what we had wasn’t real — Like it isn’t still there.
“So you're saying if the Juke was going good and Annie wasn't watching you like a hawk that you wouldn't entertain me? Wouldn’t consider us?"
Smoke shakes his head. “No, I really wouldn’t.” His brows furrow as he looks at me, seeming to remember a detail that he had previously forgotten. “And your cheating ass can take your business elsewhere.”
I can’t act surprised, not anymore. We allowed him to believe my infidelity as truth, Stack and I. Letting him think I went after his brother was easier than letting him know what Stack was really helping me do…At least it was in the moment. But as he stands in front of me now, I want nothing more than to ease his pain, calm his anger, and tell him the truth — Even if solely to stop him from loathing me so greatly.
“I didn’t cheat on you, Smoke.”
“Bullshit,” he stops me.
“No, listen.” I step toward him. “I respected what you and Annie had, Smoke. I really did. And I understood that the loss of your baby caused you to make decisions that you might regret, even if that decision was being with me. So when you told me to leave you alone, I did. But I didn’t know if that still stood when I found out that we had a baby…”
The words feel odd coming out of my mouth. I tried so hard at the time to disconnect myself from it, calling the baby a thing inside my stomach rather than what it was: Mine and Smoke’s child.
His brows have smoothened out now and he’s actively listening, his eyes flashing from my face to my stomach and back to my face.
I continue. “I didn’t visit Stack all those nights to get at him. Smoke, I never wanted anybody but you. But God put it on my heart to give you and Annie peace, so we went at it alone. No one knew. He paid a few women to make the drink without telling them who it was for. It only took a few hours for the bleeding to start…”
My voice trails out. I’m unable to finish as flashbacks to that night replay in my head. My mama held me tighter that night than she ever had before…I hated Smoke that night more than I ever had before.
Tears line his eyes now.
He chokes on his words, his voice now much lower. “Don’t you lie to me, Rue…”
“I wouldn’t lie, baby,” I assure him.
I hold my arm out for him, revealing the tiny footprint tattooed on my wrist, a small E underneath it.
“We couldn’t be sure, but I had a feeling it was a boy. Ezra, I was thinking. Stack hated the name but…” I shrug.
Smoke runs his thumb over the tattoo, holding my hand in his. He attempts to discreetly wipe his tears, but I see them all the same. Looking up at him, his face can only be compared to the face he made when we spoke about his late baby, which wasn’t often at all. A mix of anger, sorrow, and fear.
Perhaps he’s considering what could have been, just like I used to — Just like I still do. I used to curse God for putting me in such a position. A second chance for Smoke to be a father, but at the worst of times. I’d have dreams of talking to a clone of myself, telling her that she owed it to Smoke to tell him about the baby. It’s only now that I really see the consequences of my decision.
Smoke looks at me, and then at the door. It’s as if a switch has flipped and he’s forced all of those emotions to turn into one…anger. He reaches for the door, but I lean against it.
“Smoke, it’s already done,” I tell him, holding my hand against his chest. “I just couldn’t take you hating me no more.”
“Move out the way, Rue,” he says, not hearing a word I say.
“I don’t want to cause a scene. Please.”
“You think I give a fuck about causing a scene? Move out of the fucking way.”
“Smoke, it hurts enough as it is—“
“You’ve got one more time, woman.”
“There’s nothing we can do now!”
He wraps a hand around my arm, yanking me just enough to pull me away from the door and swinging it open. I run out behind him, but he’s already looking down the overlook.
“STACK!” he shouts down, the name echoing through the building.
Everybody looks up, including Mary and Annie. Stack stares up at us, blowing smoke through his nose, before turning back to the crowd. He tells them to resume, nudging Sammie to keep playing. After a moment of silence and a few stray whispers, the music begins again and Pearline starts her singing. Mary holds Stack close, asking him not to go — But as always, the twins do what they want when they want. As Stack rounds the corner, I retreat back into the room, unprepared for what reaction he might have.
He’s barely entered before Smoke pins him against the wall, his forearm over Stack’s chest.
“The fuck?”
“Is it true?” Smoke demands, maintaning his cig in his pinning hand.
I close the door, shouting over the music. “Smoke, stop!”
He ignores me, continuing to press his brother. “Un-uh, I asked you a question, nigga. Did you know she had my baby?”
Stack’s eyes shoot from Smoke to me. I can only nod, giving him permission to tell the full truth as I just did. Stack relaxes, putting his hands up.
“I only did it to protect you, mane.”
“The fuck does that mean?”
“You gon’ let me go so I can explain?”
Smoke lingers before reluctantly letting his brother go with a shove. He puts a hand in his pocket, staring Stack down.
He gestures his cig at his brother. “Talk.”
Stack smoothens his suit, lighting one of his own. “You know I don’t like that shit, Smoke—”
“Talk.”
He sighs, putting on a smile once more as he tries to explain calmly.
“When y’all two broke shit off we didn't know we were even going to Chicago, Smoke. Shit, I still thought you and Annie were gonna get married and buy you a house. Rue said you told her to stay away to make that happen, so I helped her stay away. Now we both know she’d never forgive you if you had a baby with another woman.”
“But my baby is none of your fucking business.”
“I was trying to give you a life, nigga,” Stack urges. “Annie is where that life was at. Fuck I look like throwing Rue back at you when you didn’t want her?”
“My baby, Stack.”
Guilt boils inside of me. I never allowed myself to entertain the idea of keeping the baby. There was no way I’d bring him into this world without a father, and Smoke had Annie, so I thought I had no choice. But seeing him blink back his tears now makes me second guess every moment that the baby was inside of me.
Stack thinks carefully about his next words, his smile having faded as he sees how serious his brother is taking this.
“I’m sorry, man,” he shrugs, his tone softer now. “I did what I thought was safest for all y'all, you hear me?”
Smoke is about to speak when a hard knock pounds the door.
“Stack?” Mary’s familiar voice rings out from the other side.
“Now I gotta get back to the Joint.”
I hold my head low. “Bye, Stack.”
He heads toward the door, but not before turning to his brother one more time.
“We good?”
Smoke looks from me to Stack, giving him a small nod.
“Get out of here ‘fore I say no.”
Stack only smiles, swinging the door open. I stand beside him, greeting Mary.
“Oh my— Not this trifling bitch again, Stack.” She rolls her eyes.
“Come on. Lay off, Mary.”
“I think you owe her a goddamn apology,” Smoke intervenes, standing behind me.
I mumble, “it’s fine, Smoke.”
Mary scoffs. “For the fuck what?”
“For how you been treating her all these years.”
“How I’ve been treating her? You’re the one who fucked her for a month before running back to Annie.”
“You best watch your mouth, Mary.” He blows smoke toward her. “It’s not too late to pay one of them bitches downstairs to drag your ass out.”
“I’d like to see you try, Smoke—“
“Alright,” Stack interrupts. “Let’s go.”
He pushes Mary away before closing the door behind him. I assume my previous position, leaning against the door — a much thicker tension in the air now.
“If you hate me even more after this, I understand.” I break the silence. “I don’t blame you. I just couldn’t let the truth belong to me and him alone anymore.”
Smoke stares at his feet, deep in thought. It’s become increasingly harder to tell what this man is thinking. He drops his cigarette, stepping on it.
“Now why would you do that on these new floors-“
His lips are on mine before I can finish, his hungry hands pulling up my dress. It’s automatic, the way my arm wraps around his neck, my hand nearing his crotch. He begins kissing down my neck, but I pull away. He stares at me, eyes wide.
“This isn’t a moment of weakness, is it?” I ask.
He shakes his head. “I don’t need a moment of weakness to do what I’m about to do to you.”
I smile, bringing his lips to mine once more.
Annie will hate me if she finds out, she might hate Smoke even more. But like I told him before, she has no idea what we have. And if I want to fuck my sinner one last time in this Juke Joint, that’s exactly what I’ll do.