Ways to Say I Love You| Setting Boundaries, Demanding More, Loving Yourself First.
Prompt: âI want someone I can melt around. I want someone who melts around me tooâŠI donât want this standoffish, unromantic love that youâre offering. I want more than that.â
Character: Sirius Black +Â Plus size reader (because we all know us plus size darlings have a hard time with shitty people)
Notes/Warnings: Angst, also kind of fuck boi teen Sirius because teen boys can be pretty bad and the boy needed to grown and develop to become a man.
Gif is my own, using my art of Sirius Black which you can find on my art blog @artisticwarnug here. If you use please make sure you credit me and my art blog properly, that the ownership is clear as it is my own art and I would hate for it to be unclear that I made it <3 x
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This was a randomly picked combo using wheel decide, so while I personally put Sirius as less fuck boi than this, I know this does fit some peopleâs headcanons of young Sirius.Â
âWhatâs your problem, Y/N?!â Sirius herds you into a empty classroom, away from prying eyes and ears. He never talked to you except in private places, quiet places, place where no one else could see.Â
âWhatâs my problem? My problem? My problem is that you donât care! You really donât care! Iâm just another person for you to stick your tongue down the throat of! Another person to chase and say you care about, but fail to do anything to show it! You wonât even tell your friends that weâre supposedly dating! Itâs like youâre ashamed of me! Is it me? Cause I donât look like the others?â You gesture to your body: thick thighs, chunky calves, wide hips, and soft body rolls. You knew that most of the people Sirius had been seen with before you were smaller or more athletic, the sort of typically attractive people that people lauded as the best looking in school. You were attractive too. You were deserving of appreciation too. You deserved to feel loved by someone.
âI just want it to me just us, baby.â Sirius tries to pull you closer by the waist, but you slap his hands away and take a bigger step back. You donât want to be close to him right now, you donât want him to touch you and you definitely donât want him to feel entitled to touch you, especially when youâre clearly angry at him.Â
âDonât touch me right now!â You hiss at him, crossing your arms over your chest before taking a deep breath. âSirius...I want someone I can melt around. I want someone who melts around me tooâŠI donât want this standoffish, unromantic love that youâre offering. I want more than that. Iâm fed up of just being a body to you and if you canât offer me more than this...then bye. See you later. I deserve better. I donât want to feel like a hidden object, something youâre ashamed of. So, whatâs it going to be?âÂ
âYou canât be serious?â
âOh, iâm deadly serious, Sirius. Either weâre together and that involves feelings, people knowing and walking down the corridors together, like partners...or weâre not and we donât kiss or talk or any of it. Itâs over.â Youâre fed up of hiding in the shadows, of feel like heâs ashamed of you, of feeling like he doesnât care, all while kissing him and touching him and giving him everything you can. You put so much into him, give him everything you have to offer and he gives measly portions back.Â
âI...âÂ
You wait..and you wait and you wait...and heâs silent like the words arenât there. It should be easy to just say he likes you and that he wants to have a real relationship, but it isnât and the silence speaks loudest to you.
âOkay.â
âWhat?â
âWeâre over, Sirius. This,â You gesture between the two of you,â is over. You donât care...or at least not enough and I care too much. I deserve better and you can always find someone else to stick your tongue down. Iâm sorry...â But youâre really not, you turn and walk out of the classroom. You feel heavy and itâs not easy to say goodbye, to end whatever this thing has been, but you love yourself too much to continue to waste your time on a boy that doesnât care.Â
Summary/Request: Requested by anon:Â Imagine for a plus size muggle born hufflepuff reader, something super fluffy pairing with Sirius black. Maybe teaching Sirius about evolution or something.Â
Note: Written requests like this arenât imagines, but are instead called one-shots or written pieces. :)
Gender neutral
Notes: Gif is my own, using my art of Sirius Black which you can find on my art blog @artisticwarnug here. If you use please make sure you credit me and my art blog properly, that the ownership is clear as it is my own art and I would hate for it to be unclear that I made it <3 x
âWow, you guys really are tempting natural selection, arenât you?â You call out as you watch your boyfriend, Sirius, and his friends edge nearer and nearer to the Whomping Willow. They really were reckless. It was a surprise they hadnât gotten themselves killed yet, same way people were surprised when Sirius Black of all people decided to go out with you. A plump muggle born Hufflepuff who spent most of their time studying. But he did and it was perhaps one of the least surprising things about Sirius. While Sirius spent most of his years at Hogwarts a sought after bachelor, you came into his life and completely crushed any want to remain that way. You were gorgeous, even if other people tried to make you feel bad about being bigger, you were funny, you were kind, you laughed at his jokes and gave him warm hugs. There was no way he could have done anything, but become smitten with you.
âNatural selection?â
âThe theory of evolution? Darwin? Science?â You watch as Sirius starts making his way back towards you, his previous reckless pursuit long forgotten due to the mystery of muggle things such as âscienceâ.
âLove, is this a muggle thing because...eveelotion?â His comes to a stop in front of you, hands coming to rest on your wide hips. A look of pure confusion on his face telling you that he definitely hadnât been listening in Muggle Studies again.
âEvolution.âÂ
If someone could make a face that could only be described by a series of question marks, â???â, that would have been Siriusâ face in that moment. Pure confusion, an unspoken question of âwhat is that?â
âEvolution is the generally accepted theory that all creatures started as simple life forms and over time âevolvedâ or developed into complex life. With environmental changes species evolved to have different traits and appearances, while some went extinct.â You wrap your arms around his neck and pull him closer, hands moving from your hips to around your plump waist tugging you close.Â
âIts a theory? So its not true?â
âI mean it is a theory, but most scientists, who study stuff like that, agree that thatâs what happened. Thatâs how we have cats and dogs and humans and birds and stuff...â You tried to recall your brief muggle education before the age of eleven, explaining stuff to wizards could be pretty hard especially when they had their own beliefs and theories.Â
âWow.âÂ
âReally? Thatâs blown your mind? You go to a magic school, babe!â You laugh at the sheer wonder on his face as he contemplates the idea that everything started as small cells and simple life forms.Â
âMagic ainât got nothing on evolution, love.â You pitch forward laughing hard, now into the shoulder of his school jumper. Merlin, could Sirius Black make you laugh.