“Despair, misery, and chaos. It’s like air to me. But to watch them suffer is much more entertaining.”
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Watching people suffer.. it made the redhead’s heart ache. He can’t see amusement in the pain they endure. He knows what it’s like to live in fear. He doesn’t want others to ever have to feel that fear.. He doesn’t want them feeling the way he felt for so long. The fear of being found, the fear of being terminated just as his master had been.. it was a time he had lost his way, a darkness that made the path forward hazy and made him stumble.. It took others pointing him back to get him where he needed to be. He wouldn’t do that again.
Deep blues are hidden behind lids, firey brows knit as he tried to focus himself. He can’t let his compassion cloud the situation at hand. He needed to get elsewhere. He doesn’t know where exactly, but he needs to go. People can hold.. so much pain, and make it into anger. It didn’t need to be so. They didn’t need to, If they let go of the past, they could move forward.. He watched his master die because the men that fought alongside them turned on them.
He hadn’t understood at first and he isn’t sure he ever would.. but there was more to life than pain and suffering. There’s more to it than living in fear for their lives all the time. He can’t imagine letting himself go back to that. He would fight with every breath he had to keep it to where he wasn’t afraid as much anymore. To hear these words from the other, brows shifted, there’s a small look .. he’s not even sure what.
There are too many feelings to describe even one. It’s now that those deep blues open and turn to the other, firey brows knit while he tried to think on how to respond. “Not everyone will try to hurt you.” Cal himself hasn’t tried. Not as of yet, at least. He won’t try, not unless he’s given reason to. He’d been good about learning that small bit.. We’re peacekeepers.. It wasn’t the lightsaber that made a Jedi who they were. It was the willingness to try to continue forward peacefully.