* kind of funny.
@siyeonft
things between lina and siyeon are good. she feels confident enough to say that to herself as she examines her groupmate’s face in the backseat of the van next to her. the other three girls are in the van in front of them, probably all asleep. lina’s always found it difficult to sleep on these kinds of journeys something inside of her just won’t let her. she used to get horrible motion sickness of a child, maybe it’s some sort of leftover trauma from back then. she wishes she could though. it’s been a long day, hectic and spent in front of cameras. the kind of day you need to rest after, where there’s not much you can say.
“ not able to sleep either? ” lina offers. they’re very different in nature, her and siyeon, and hadn’t immediately gelled the way she and avery had, but she wants lovecraft’s ‘97 line to be close. so, lina thinks, things between them are good, but they could always be better. “ i think i’m overtired at this point, you know, when you’re too tired to sleep? ”
she wonders if siyeon’s noticed the shift in her behaviour usually so bright eyed, her smile is more forced nowadays. it’s even in her voice tonight, there’s something missing deep inside of lina kitsuwon, and it’s beginning to show in the airiness of her words, so uncertain and open ended, the only way they could be when you consider the state of her mind, foggy and distracted, flickering between television static and still images of her own body, zoomed in and photoshopped, colour corrected and smoothed over, still images of her own body as it really is, worrying and sharp, covered in as many layers as she can get away with. tired eyes blink at her group mate as lina’s brain catches up with her mouth.
“ never mind me. i’m . . . like i said, i’m tired. ”