#slightly depressive

[khaladriel]

Nur kurz...

...ich funktioniere mich gerade so durch den Alltag, aber viel mehr ist im Moment nicht los mit mir. Wahrscheinlich eine Mischung aus Herbst/Winter (ich hasse die kalte Jahreszeit), lauernder Erkältung und depressiven Gedanken. Tut mir leid, dass ich mich deshalb gerade zu wenig aufraffen kann- hoffentlich wird es bald wieder besser.

Meh.

Ich re-reade eure Fan Fiction zum Trost und wühle mich so durch den Tag.

[lost-redstart]

Slightly Depressive Thought #4

Sometimes I get the feeling you care. About me, about my fucked up life, about everything I tell you. But then you turn your back on me and I am just one of many, not special, just here for your entertainment. I'm sick of it. But still, there is always this glimmer of hope inside of me that one day, you might actually be the one to save me from myself.

[lost-redstart]

Slightly Depressive Thought #12

Sometimes I forget about the fact that I am not allowed to have depressive symptoms...

[lost-redstart]

Slightly Depressive Thought #10

Do you know this feeling of self-hatred that keeps you up at night and makes you think about all your mistakes and flaws all the time? No? Just me? Ok...

[french-china-blog]

As much as I hate you for what you've done, as much as I've been hurt, as much as I don't want any of it back I've come to realise that seeing you with another girl is going to fucking hurt. I see it now, and I can tell everyone is going to tell me every detail and I'll see it all for myself and I'll never be able to escape from it and it will always seem so wrong and so damn disgusting.  And right now the world is so confusing and everything is upside down and everyone is speaking in riddles and being so so strange. I don't know what is happening, and I miss how simple it all used to be. And I will never turn back. And life will always confuse me like this and I will always search for people to cling on to for that shred of comfort before it's all torn away.