#small setback

[xxlying-from-y0u]

[ithinkiamfinallyclean]

Tw, but I can't make a read more on mobile... I literally had them in my hand and I feel so fucking messy right now and I literally fell apart and needed someone to just know to come to me but all the people who know me that well are not here.

[togetherletsbreathe]

Pfffftt so my friend Jessica is a fucking wingwoman to the stars see yesterday I clued her into what was going on with my crush and she was like omg Mel you have to go for it and I was like yeah maybe that's what I'm trying a little and she was like fuck it and asked him to come get pancakes with me and her boyfriend and one of our other friends and he was like yeah buuuut we texted him this morning and I guess he was asleep wah

[poppapeasy]

I got to hold a physical copy of Kanye West's the graduation for the first time today, out of all days.

the universe is working for me.

[runwritesuffer]

I wanted to start this month really well

and I am but not in the way I'd hoped

Today the focus is getting the last of that trigger from last night out of my system before I dive headfirst back into my fitness regime. If I go right now, I know that it'll spur my little demon back into wakefulness and I don't need to go down that road. 

Today I focus on getting my mental health back on track and tomorrow I can start the month like I wanted to

[shawnimal]

Improvement! Mostly...

Weekend drifted by in an instant, most of which involved hanging with Remmy, getting our apartment in order, and hanging with friends a bit. Pretty quiet overall, but not entirely uneventful. I came home on Thursday night, and while Remmy was her usual excited self, she was also... well, leaking from one of her incisions.

Rewind to Monday: Remember she had skin graft surgery. They used extra skin from her previous skin graft for this new one, and as such, she had a fresh incision on the back of her right leg. So it's not that weird that she'd be leaky, but then again, we don't want anything to open up too much. Bandaged her up best we could (which, by the way, was really not very good), and since we had an official bandage change scheduled for early Friday morning and she didn't seem to be in any pain, no harm, no foul. We'll sleep on it.

Definitely not as leaky come Friday morning, and Dr. Neihaus wasn't terribly concerned about it when he saw it then. Bandage change was fine, everything was looking good, onward to the weekend.

She also had a slightly swollen paw, but that wasn't too concerning. Probably a combo of being immobile and a bandage that was a smidgen too tight. Took her in for a few minutes on Saturday for them to take a look. No biggie.

Took her in again today for a scheduled bandage change, and things are looking good overall. New skin graft on her front right leg is taking nicely (about 80% so far which should be enough), and her front left leg is closing and healing.

But then there's the 'mostly' part. Turns out that back leg incision from which the graft was taken isn't exactly doing great. Drainage is common, and since it was a fresh wound, it wasn't pleasant looking, but unfortunately when Dr. Neihaus did some investigating, some of the tissue around the incision had died off. I suspected something was going on due to the smell. Gross, yes, but  I won't soon forget that terrible smell. Not as bad as the first go-round, but it was still there this time.

So what's the fall out from this? Nothing catastrophic, but it is definitely a small setback, and definitely frustrating. So bandage goes back on the back leg. Luckily, looks like there should be enough to work with back there the close it up as it should be once it heals. I really, really, REALLY hope no additional surgery is going to be required back there. It already looks really gnarly. Don't want more trauma...

That's all for now. We pick her up after work, then back again Wednesday for another bandage change.