@smijon sent in this prompt: “do you ever think about what life would be like for us if things were different?”
to find a moment alone with him that wasn’t related to the strangeness in their lives was rare. a real, quiet moment where they were free to just indulge in each other’s company. arm wrapped around the other’s shoulders, leaning against him, itsuki simply savors a moment to feel content in this closeness.
if not for issues with jealousy- if not for issues with the agency- he would proudly wear his affections for kyon on his sleeve. in a more genuine way, that is. if you were aware of this secret relationship, you might think he was pushing boundaries with how he interacted with kyon in front of the brigade. it was fortunate that such acts suited the character he needed to play within their little club. there was no real suspicion from suzumiya about it.
just as those thoughts are going through his mind, the other male speaks up. itsuki cannot help the laugh that escapes him at the coincidence. ‶ sorry. ″ he half-apologies, trying to regain his sincerity. it was a pretty vulnerable question to hear coming from kyon. he would like to respect that.
‶ i have, yes. ″ he smiles softly. ‶ that would be the ideal, wouldn’t it? it is quite a shame things have to be this way. ″ a quiet exhale. it would be nice to take him out somewhere... or publicly display his affections. though he’s not too sure how fond kyon would be of that, the idea of teasing him does grow his smile.
at the very least, it would be nice not having to worry about these feelings.
‶ still, i am glad that you understand the circumstances. and, even more than that, i’m glad you’re willing to put up with it all for my sake. you may not like to show it, but you’re a very understanding person deep down. it’s one of the things i admire about you most. ″
