#snk omo

[dream-beyond-the-dawn]

Someone who cares

Levi Ackerman (Attack on Titan) x female reader omorashi

Summary: Levi's girlfriend tries to help him get through his bladder problems.

Mild angst warning.

"Levi?" I knocked on his door softly. It had been a while since I had last heard him move around which meant he was either asleep or purposefully avoiding me.

I sighed, debating on whether to open up the door or come back later when he was in a better mood.

The day started out fine. We woke up and decided to go to the market together which is something we often do in our spare time. Everything was going fine until Levi suddenly needed the bathroom out of nowhere.

I tried my best to help wheel him to the bathroom on time but by the time we got there, he couldn't hold it anymore and ended up wetting himself before we were anywhere near a bathroom. It wasn't the first time this had happened.

I was confident no one noticed it but that didn't keep him from being so humiliated about it that he refused to look at me for the rest of the day. Any time I tried talking to him, he would give brief responses before leaving the room.

I turned to walk away from the door when it finally opened. Levi was standing, using his cane rather than his wheelchair.

"Y/n?" He looked like he was surprised to see me.

"Levi, can we please talk about...earlier?"

He immediately tensed up and looked away, which told me he was about to shut down again. I wasn't going to allow that to happen.

"There's nothing to talk about." He sat back down on our bed so I sat beside him, making sure to give him space because I knew he hated being touched in moments like this.

"I understand why you're embarrassed about it but you shouldn't be. Levi, I'm your partner. You should feel safe coming to me with your problems but you hide them."

"What are you talking -"

I cut him off, feeling my frustration starting to rise. "You didn't tell me you needed to go when we were at the market until you couldn't hold it anymore. Why? Why do you do this to yourself? Why don't you trust me enough to let me help you?"

Levi was silent, avoiding eye contact with me. I knew he was uncomfortable and I hated that I was the source of it but I also knew this conversation needed to be had.

I reached and gently grabbed one of his hands, running my fingers over the back of it. "I'm not asking you to do anything you're uncomfortable with. Just speak up when you need the bathroom and I'll help you. Don't just sit there and wait until you can't hold it anymore."

Levi nodded, still avoiding eye contact with me. I could see a faint blush on his cheeks. I leaned in and gave him a kiss on the forehead before deciding to leave and give him space. Though he wouldn't admit it out loud- I knew how shy he was about his needs.

After that I left the room to give him some space. All cornering him would do is make him lock down more.

A few hours passed before I decided to cook his favorite meal. I started preparing everything when I realized I was missing the key ingredients.

"Y/n?"

I turned to see Levi in the doorway. This time he was in his wheelchair rather than walking. He had his good days and his bad days in terms of being able to walk.

"Yes?" I noticed the look of regret on his face. It was something I had become very familiar with seeing lately. This wasn't the first time I had tried to have this conversation with him.

"About the market earlier..."

"I'm not upset with you." I stopped him, knowing he was about to apologize. "I just don't want you to put off your needs like that constantly."

"I know." He sighed, fidgeting with his hands how he often did when he was uncomfortable. "I'll say something next time."

"Thank you." I smiled as I went back to debating on whether to make something else or go back to the market to grab some.

"What are you making?"

"Your favorite, chazuke!"

Levi looked at me, a sparkle in his eye despite his lack of a smile. "Thank you but don't you need salmon for that?"

"I was going to go back to the market to grab some. Wanna come with?" I decided in that moment after seeing his face light up that I had to make it.

He looked skeptical but he eventually agreed. It was a short walking distance from the house so getting there wasn't too inconvenient. Plus the weather was nice so it was a great opportunity for me and Levi to go out together again. Especially now that the sun was starting to set.

"Remember what you promised." I reminded him as we got ready to leave.

Levi blushed slightly and avoided eye contact but he nodded which was satisfactory enough for me. I walked behind him, pushing his wheelchair while we made small talk until we reached the market.

"Do you need anything?" I asked.

Levi shook his head. I started to notice something was off about him. He started acting nervous, which I knew he often got in crowds. I rested a hand on his shoulder to try and offer subtle comfort. He was shaking slightly, I noticed.

The market was surprisingly busier than it was when we had come earlier on in the day. While I walked around, Levi started fidgeting slightly in his chair. It was subtle at first but it became pretty obvious eventually. "Do you need to pee?" I whispered softly so no one around could hear.

"Yeah." He admitted with an urgency to his voice.

"Are you having another bladder spasm?" I really hoped that wasn't the case because I knew how they usually affected him. They either caused him mild pain or caused him to completely pee his pants. There was never a middle ground.

"I don't know...I'm not sure but it started feeling really urgent out of nowhere." He looked around, presumably for a bathroom. "Y/n...." His voice was soft, barely above a whisper. "I really really need..."

I cut him off by quickly wheeling him towards the nearest public bathrooms. I knew Levi hated using them because they were dirty but I had to imagine it was better than the alternative.

I could see Levi trying his best to stay still but he kept shifting, wiggling his hips, even crossing his legs. I pretended not to notice as we made our way to the bathrooms. There was a small line, which made him audibly sigh in disappointment.

"Can you wait in line this long?"

He looked up at me with pleading eyes that told me all I needed to know.

"Okay...well maybe there's another bathroom nearby. Can you wait just a few more minutes while I look?"

"I'll try."

I quickly pulled him out of the bathroom line, scanning the area for any alternative bathrooms that didn't have a line. I knew Levi wasn't going to ask if he could skip someone else in line and I didn't want to see him wet himself again because of how down on himself he gets afterwards.

"Are you okay?" I asked whilst still trying to find somewhere he could pee.

His legs were crossed so tightly that it looked painful. His hands were balled into fists, clutching the material of his pants close to his crotch.

"Hurry. Please."

The please was so soft that I barely heard him. It was rare hearing Levi sound so vulnerable and meek. I reached down and rubbed his shoulder. "It's okay you're going to be fine."

A large bathroom sign caught my eye. I quickly rushed over to it with Levi, who now had a flushed red face. He was probably embarrassed.

"Hey...there's a bathroom just up ahead." I shouted enthusiastically.

Levi didn't say anything or even acknowledge that he heard me. I glanced down out of curiosity and saw a small wet spot blooming on his crotch. His pants were dark so it was hard to see until it started getting bigger.

"Dammit." I saw one of Levi's hands start to shake with the effort it was taking to keep holding it. "I can't...I won't make it, y/n."

"You will." I continued pushing him until we finally painstakingly made it to the bathroom. Unfortunately, Levi already had a steady stream coming from him at that point. It was far too late for the bathroom by then.

I took my jacket off and draped it over him so he could at least have some measure of privacy while he soaked himself and his wheelchair in the middle of the public market. Unsure of what else to do, I quickly ran to a nearby stand and picked up the missing ingredients for the chazuke that I was missing.

When I returned to Levi a few minutes later, he looked more uncomfortable than before. I held up the salmon to show him I had gotten it in hopes of cheering him up.

It didn't help and seemingly only made the situation worse. "We can go back home now."

It was painfully quiet the entire way back home. Levi immediately went to take a shower, leaving me to finish cooking since I now had the necessary ingredients.

By the time I was finished, Levi still hadn't come out of the bathroom. I knew he didn't take long showers so I decided to go check on him. I knocked on the door gently. "Levi? The food is almost ready."

He opened the door and my (eye color) met bloodshot red eyes. Has he been crying??

"I didn't intend for that to happen."

Before Levi could continue, I pulled him into a hug. It was a gentle but firm one that he eagerly returned. I rubbed his back with one hand and played with his hair with the other.

I was surprised when he started trembling in my arms. Then he started sniffing and...was he crying??

I had seen Levi go through PTSD flashbacks, nightmares, and injuries without flinching. What could possibly have gotten him so worked up?

"I'm sorry, y/n." His voice broke so he cleared his throat despite the obvious signs that he was crying. "I ruined it again."

"No you didn't." I whispered, still threading my fingers through his hair. "It was an accident. That could have happened to anyone. It could have just as easily happened to me."

"I hate it so much." He sobbed, not bothering to hide it anymore. It was so unusual hearing him cry at all- much less sob. "It's so humiliating. I didn't need to go until we got there!"

"Shhh." I rocked our bodies from side to side while I held him. "I know you don't believe me fully when I tell you this but it doesn't bother me. At all. I know you have it in your head that I'm disgusted by you or that I think less of you but I don't. I couldn't."

Levi didn't say anything else, only continued to softly cry in my arms for a few more minutes before finally pulling away and wiping angrily at his eyes.

"Stop." I pulled his fists away from his eyes and lowered them to his side. "It's okay to cry. I'm really proud of you for letting that out."

"Thank you, y/n. For everything. I really mean it...I don't know what I would do without you." He leaned in for a kiss which I gladly gave him.

"I'm always here for you, Levi. We can look into solutions for this together. Maybe it's worth seeing a doctor in the future if you keep having this problem."

He nodded in agreement and I wiped the rest of his tears away. "Come on, we have chazuke to eat!"

This time he did offer a small smile at the mention of his favorite food.

[dream-beyond-the-dawn]

Im sorry for bringing up Levi again, I am under the impression you hear too much about him, but I can't help wanting to share my thoughts.

I think Levi could have already been insecure of his body because it didn't develop as well due to malnutrition. I think not being tall enough, muscled up as some and he may have his penis smaller than others might have caused him some insecurities. (TMI, I think that all penis sizes can be pretty and nice, the ones on the smaller scale are no different, I don't discriminate here)

Him, after the war, not even having all his fingers, having scars and being in need of a wheelchair may have further more increased those insecurities. He may think he didn't understand how before he was so critical of his body because now it's worse than before.

So, imagine in the present, when he is married to his wife and even she does reassure him and they have a lovely amazing marital life, he does change his opinion of his body thanks to her. Unfortunately, he still has times of his insecurities creeping up in his thoughts.

Moments like these where he needs helps getting cleaned and she manoeuvres him down the waist, holds his hips because he doesn't have a lot of strenght in his lower body, wide open his legs and touching his naked wet pelvis/penis/balls gently wiping him and cleaning him if it is too difficult to take a bath in that moment. Another moment like pressing on his tummy/bladder and murmurs in his ear praises to help him pee while he has small dribbles because he is shy/anxious peeing outside in a place someone could see them like a small alley behind some houses. Another moment again, being startled so hard he falls out of his chair landing on his knees but helplessly peeing kneeling down wetting his pants. A very vulnerable moment, when he croaks in her ear during an event or somewhere outside their house very lowly taking a lot of breaks in between his words, admitting he needs her help because he just went in his pants.

Don't apologize! I love Levi! He's a really really easy character to put into omo situations. Not to mention, he's hot as fuck. Plus, I'm always interested in hearing your guys' thoughts!

Also I love how you acknowledge every size can be pretty and nice because I hear soooo much body shaming towards people AMAB who are smaller. It makes me sad because I hate body shaming, no matter what it's about ❤️

I always ADORED the headcanons that Levi is actually way more shy than anyone would think. He hid it really well during his time Scouting because he was there for a mission. He knew he had to get used to changing in front of the other Scouts, relieving himself in front of them, or being seen naked for treatment. Hell, I could see him not being able to relax his bladder enough to pee when he was still getting used to being around everyone.

Unfortunately though it never fully went away. Any time he has no option but to pee somewhere where there's a possibility of him being seen, he almost can't do it. His wife/partner ends up having to massage his stomach, which is hard as a rock until he gets relief. It's painful and uncomfortable but it's the only thing that works.

What Levi hates the most is when someone has to help him bathe. He hates being seen as vulnerable even though his partner doesn't see him like that. He's constantly at war in his mind thinking they're going to leave him or that they get tired of cleaning up his accidents. But they don't. They love him regardless and they always want him to know that.

Hello everyone, I'm using the bottom of this post to make an announcement. My blog is becoming VERY cluttered I got a notification that I reached 500 posts. So from now on, I will go back and delete posts with 0 interaction after a week. There's no point in keeping them up and it's only adding to the clutter of trying to navigate my blog lol. So from now on, after a week, any post that says 0 notes will be removed.

And I'm not doing this because I'm "salty" about it. Not at all. This is just to keep my blog neat and organized and weed out the content that could be better.

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Can you imagine Levi deciding to plunge into the dating world after seeing someone he had a huge crush and though she also liked him and he is fresh into a relationship possibly of three months or so. He definitely has some bladder problems and is weakened there because of the past strengthening it to past capacity lengths.

He, especially being Levi, tries to hide it and didn't want her to know about it and acknowledge it.

During one fancy date, both of them dressed really nice, being probably into a nice restaurant, he suddenly has an urge that wasn't there a few moments before. He immediately excuses himself and rushes with how much he is able. Going around some tables , he feels some dribling down there. I feel like some a-holes may even give him some looks because he is in a chair and he is in a rush.

He goes into the bathroom , but he already soiled himself, his nice pants ruined, he panicks because she is at the table waiting for him and he cannot let her see him like this.

After a while, she grows very worried and goes to search for him. She goes to the only bathroom he couldve been, knocks worried and now he panicks again because she is right there and he definitely cannot exit.

He scrambles trying to clean up with only the water maybe soap , making it look worse. When he talks, there is a miscommunication and she doesn't hear him well when he says panicked to not enter, but hears the sound of his voice seeming he needs help.

she enters and he startles his hand freezing mid way with the toilet paper , his pants wet in the middle and his eyes looking like a deer caught in the headlights. When she tries to come close to him, he recoils thinking the worse, but she reassures him. Even if he doesn't open up right away, at least he doesn't shut down and he feels relatively alright the next weeks. He can hold eye contact and talk normally with her. His cheeks still turn red when he is reminded of the incident or when he is at night awake trying to go to sleep.

I like the idea of Levi dating taller women who could carry him for this same reason because imagine if his date had to help carry him to the bathroom. Maybe his wheelchair can't fit through the door. For some reason he can't make it inside the bathroom.

He comes back to his date but he's clearly uncomfortable. She can tell he keeps looking back at the bathrooms and she realizes immediately what that means. She doesn't understand why he didn't go however so she tries asking as subtle as she can why he suddenly looks so uncomfortable.

At first Levi denies there's a problem but the waiter puts their drinks down and one look at it makes Levi nearly start to leak. All he wants to do is disappear because he's afraid he's going to pee his pants in front of his date and there's nothing he can do. But she notices how he looks at his drink and finally tells him she can tell he needs to pee so she's going to help him. Levi objects and tells her it's okay even though his entire crotch is slightly damp from leaking a few more times.

He feels like everyone is watching him when she helps him to the bathroom but thankfully this restaurant has a unisex bathroom so it's not more awkward than necessary. Levi is blushing like mad the entire time but he does let her help him. Everything goes okay until she feels to unzip his pants.

The zipper won't budge. They both start to panic because they're not sure what to do. She keeps tugging on it but every time she does that, she accidentally presses the heel of her palm right into his stomach. Before he can warn her that he's about to pee, he starts wetting himself uncontrollably only a few inches from the toilet. It's the first time Levi has ever been this humiliated in his entire life. He freezes up because he's not sure what to do. She politely tells him to stay there while she gets everything ready to go. She comes back and she can tell that Levi is really upset so she gives him a hug and tells him she had a family member who dealt with the same problems and she understands how hard it is.

She ends up staying at his place afterwards and they talk for hours until they both fall asleep. It helps Levi get over his humiliation.

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Levi would hold even when he begins to lose the battle between his needs and body. He has to find a bathroom, his wheelchair sometimes bumping to some rocks, objects or bumps. The bathroom that he can go isn't as near and once he has the need, he rapidly has to go or he will embarrass him.

He has a leak, but he cannot give up no, another one bigger, no he would not give up, more and more leaks , shoot he has to hold himself like a child, heck it is obvious now of his bodily reaction. When he is in front of the bathroom door, the last part escapes him, leaving him soiled in front of the door. He wore his nice suit too with one of his food hats.

Imagine him having to hide the accident after that because he's too embarrassed to tell whoever is around him that he didn't make it to the bathroom. Levi is visibly uncomfortable and it's obvious to anyone around him but he won't speak up or tell them why.

The entire time Levi can't help but be frustrated at how he took it for granted when he was younger and could hold his bladder easier or when he could get up and walk to the bathroom when he needed to. Throughout his entire time as a soldier, he only had to be helped to pee twice: once was after Hanji took care of him after the explosion. The other was after he injured himself on a mission and Erwin had to help him pee because he couldn't get up on his own.

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I want to smoosh Levi's scared face and hold his hands forever hurted by the war and held him +cuddle him.

No need to be anxious about his bodily needs (I know it might take time, but he will get used to it), there is no judgement in this household >:) .

What? He squirms and says he needs to go now , no worries, a solution will be found a quick way to relieve himself outside faraway or finding a place indoors. He is too weak to even hold his pen after he hold his pee for hours without wanting to say anything and now he has to massage his pelvis because it's too painful, no worries, I can hold it and direct it for him. His pants button or his belt presses into his tummy and it makes him even more desperate, no worries, we can undo it and put the blanket I had with me.

What, he peed his pants in public, that's okay, accidents happen :) , luckily I already have a change of clothes for him! He peed the bed , that's okay too, I can bring him in the bathtub and wash him. It happens.

Not sure what else to add but that's so cute (⁠灬⁠º⁠‿⁠º⁠灬⁠)⁠♡