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[nubianamy]

We had Indian food

for dinner before the Bastille concert, so I got all kinds of Dave/Puck feels about So Nothing's Left Unturned, so I read my friend the Indian food scene. Now I am super sappy.

[nubianamy]

Sigh. <poly rant on>

So I had a kind of crummy emotionally taxing evening, full of missing things I can't have and feeling entirely inadequate, and then I thought I might be feeling better, and I went for some retail therapy (which, for me, is never clothes, but electronics).  And I got a review for So Nothing's Left Unturned, which cheered me up -- until I read it.  

I loved this story until the epilogue, because of what it implied, I'm going to pretend I didn't read chapter 19. It was much better before Kurt somehow was a part of their relationship. That's just my opinion though.

I am sorry, I know Kurt is a meddling so-and-so, and he should have just left well enough alone, and monogamy is more stable and people would prefer it if I would just write that.  But I am unreasonably hurt by this comment.  I think it must be because I am so fucking proud of this story, I think it's the best thing I've ever written, and it's because of who I did it with.  It's not a crack pairing; it's a real story about two real people -- and, yes, later, more people.  Life is complicated. And maybe this reader just doesn't like Kurt for some reason (but wtf? who doesn't like Kurt?) and I should just relax, not be so sensitive.  But it just feels like another slap in the face for somebody who's spent her life being told I should just get over this polyamory crap and stop being so fucking selfish.  So,  yeah, I answered the reader politely, said thank you for reading, and maybe you might consider trying the seven sequels in which Kurt and other people continue to make life complicated for Dave and Puck, because if you liked the story you might like the others.  But I know she probably won't.  

I just had the waitress pause in the middle of wiping tables and ask me if I was okay.  Fuck, yeah, I guess I'm not.

But retail therapy was fun.  Color wireless all-in-one laser printer.  My very own digital projector.  Keen transfer paper to make my contraband Donutverse t-shirt with the stolen Glee logo (too edgy for Cafepress), and button holders for my "Likes Cake Donuts" and "Likes Yeast Donuts" buttons I'll be giving out at MediaWest*Con.  Copies of Teen Wolf seasons 1 and 2, and a set of Supernatural season 7 for my kind friend who's agreed to put me up over the weekend so I don't have to spend money on a hotel at MediaWest.