It hasn't even been 5 hours since you left, and i already cant take this. I haven't stopped crying for a minute. I don't even know how to feel. I miss you so so so much already. It really hasn't set in yet. I still think that i'm going to call you as soon as i get home to come over, when really we wont be able to talk at all for days. I just want to go to sleep and wake up in your arms again. Everyone keeps asking about you. I think Liam asked me 10 times if you were coming over this morning, and if you're still sick haha. I feel so sick to my stomach. It feels like you were just coming home yesterday and we were so excited for the summer. I guess i never saw it ending. I don't know how to go from being with you every day to nothing at all. And i know you deny it, but you're going to be fine there. Once your friends are there with you, you'll forget about me. Even if you're just distracted. I'll be here, with all of our memories everywhere, just waiting for you to come home to me. I wish i could shake the bad feeling I have about you being gone again this year. But how could anyone have a good feeling being away from the love of their life? I hate this so much. My heart is just in a million pieces. But despite everything I feel about you being away, I have never once thought that this isn't worth it. You're my everything. And I am so in love with you. Nothing will ever change that. Even when were driving each other insane..well you driving me insane mostly... You're my best friend, you make me the happiest person ever to have existed. You're so amazing, in every single way. and i already miss every little thing about you. Sometimes I take for granted the little things like holding your hand. I miss you so much baby. I know that no matter what we will make this work. I'll do whatever it takes to keep you. I cant lose you. Some day this will pay off and we'll be rich lesbians ;) I love you so so so so sooooooo much Nolee <3 More than there are stars in the sky and creatures in the sea. Its you and me, forever and always, I promise you. Please don't forget about me there and dont ever let me go.
