been talking to @peacefighting about this gif. and i had to write a little bit of meta on bellamy’s stance here. it already looks like bellamy’s eyes are closed when they take off the bag. his shoulders are slumped and his head lulls to the side.
compare that with the tension in kane’s body and we can see the difference between someone grieving but still ready to take steps forwards (kane) and an empty shell (bellamy). he thinks his sister is dead. and he didn’t just lose a person he loved, he lost someone who is essential to his being.
for as long as he can remember, he’s been big brother. and now that’s suddenly taken from him, by a person he helped to save, no less. he’s thinking - who am i without? would she have died if i had been better? would she have died if i hadn’t helped echo? it should have been me.
he’s not ready to talk this out or to move on. he’s barely even in existence anymore. he’s the most defeated he’s ever been in the show and, for the first time, his words from last week (are we still breathing?) are no longer true.
