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I completely forgot to post this in tumblr whoops

But I finally drew my design of their irl selves

#ive been busy working on a big project so i didnt get to draw much #probably wont be too active for a while since school is starting again too #my entire afternoon is gone bro #sfawtde #dawtde #searching for a world that doesn't exist #destroying a world that doesn't exist #d3rlord3 #averythemayo #slimeknight #minecraft arg #fanart #my art #stoukaart

When one of my favourite gift from you ( this precious sun-catcher ) is the only reason I love being alive, even on days to which life is so intolerably unliveable // that you're the first & only thought to enter my mind when I wake up // the last & only glitter of love I see before I retire into a tender slumber -

D C de Oliveira | from: To Chloe, My dawn & dusk - | June 30 2023 | Friday, 11.11am

#spilled ink #poetry #hands #gif #happy pride 🌈#will be a way for a bit so #work related stuff #be back when off duty or something #tags #mine new #July - August probably wont be active as much #due to the workload while covering for my boss being away on her holiday #then September I'll be in Japan & Singapore #I guess see ya'll when i get back

IM FREEEEE SKIPS THROUGH A FIELD OF A MILLION FLOWERS (my apple pencil is finally charged)

guardian redesign as a treat

i decided to ditch the wolf motif entirely and instead dove headfirst into using an old zonai oc i had as a base and moving on from there. at first i considered having a bull vibe but then i didnt like it and left it alone for a while. but then i watched a legend of zelda age of imprisonment playthru and immediately locked in so hard because GOD rauru and mineru are GORGEOUS and i knew then that their kinda vibe would suit my guardian best. so i dug up the old oc, looked at raurus snout and then thats how the second iteration came to be and its by far my fave. im still deciding on whether or not ill add horns (probably? idk) but i wanted to make sure that my guardian has the most beautiful and long lashes ever because its good for my soul.

also my guardian uses sol/sun neoprns now because im a sucker for a sun theme

and i think zed should be able to have shoujo filter type daydreams its good for his health

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#it took me. so damn long. to make those roses.#too fucking long #but OUGHHHH i missed drawing #me hugging my apple pencil as if i were dying without it (i literally could do anything else the whole weekend)#anyway i do plan on giving my guardian an actual name #probably something like Polaris or Arcturus #im leaning towards more Arcturus but well see #anyway im off to bed i pray tmrw i wont have much homework so i can just draw the whole time after i get home #i need to get my creative buzz out #but yeah watching age of imprisonment and seeing rauru literally made my brain explode #i was literally the neuron activation png #coughs #anyway zed to me reads and writes fanfic and hes the most popular writer in guardian x reader circles #but nobody knows its him and its his deepest darkest secret you would never be able to torture that information out of him #and despite being a hardcore selfshipper he does have room for fujoing out over the guardian #also my guardian doesnt gaf about strangers calling sun they or he or she but sol does care about zed addressing sun properly #also if anybodys curious about what neoprns there are id recommend checking out the neopronouns carrd!#they have a list and links to more information about neopronouns as well as a pronoun dressing room :3 #gba magic of the heart #gba moth #moth guardian #moth zed #gba zed #gba guardian

im in schrodinger's closet. im both out and not out to the people around me at the same time

#yeah i probably wont correct you on my pronouns much bc im a pussy #but also i actively make the effort to tell (safe ish?) people im trans and dont mind others correct people on them #i wear an ftm pin to school #and ive made my socials where i id as a man available to my class #and also id prolly tell people if they asked anyway #i know damn well most ppl dont even know anyway so 😭😭#blegh #pride #ftm #transgender #trans man #trans men #coming out #i also forgot to mention i wear several pride pins on my person at all times #gay ftm and rainbow to be specific #i cant be makinf it more obvious can j #whatever

I promise I'll shut up about I Saw The TV Glow in a bit, but gods how do you be normal about this film?

I love horror, I watch so much of it, I love feeling scared and haunted by a work of fiction, or squirming at the incomprehensibility of horror concepts.

I have never in my life had such an overwhelming reaction to a movie in my life as I did with I Saw The TV Glow.

I had to force myself to keep going. When the credits rolled, I physically ached because of how tense I was, I was unconsolable and it forced me into a dissociative breakdown. I had to go see my mother because I was so shaken and needed to be seen by another person. It's been a week and I'm only starting to feel normal again, but my entire concept of normal has been changed.

This movie changes the way you think, it alters you. You cannot go back to how things were after witnessing it because you will suffocate.

#i saw the tv glow #with sincerity probably dont watch this film if you suffer with active depression or dissociation #because i have both and jesus christ did this do psychological damage to me #like genuinely it is a very triggering movie. it will probably cause you to dissociate or suffer psychosis if you are prone to that #and im thinking about it now and its such an incredible unspeakably profound and utterly beautiful movie with so much love in its message #but fuck me you will have to dig yourself out of a pit to reach that conclusion #like immediate panic attack and thrown into hysteria the second it ended. im glad my mom was home because i was extremely unstable #LIKE IT SOUNDS LIKE IM EXAGGERATING BUT IM NOT. i feel like this shit changed my brain chemistry. like this shit has stuck with me.#from the 'there is still time' to the 'you wont even know you're dying' to the 20 year jump and screaming at a birthday party. its so much

sorry for not being super active lately 😭 im pretty much only on here when i wanna jerk off and i haven’t been taking too many pictures lately because im not actively gaining

#im pretty active so it is actually hard for me to gain despite what it probably looks like lol #and i wont really have much extra money for a fee months so :(

(♡) ⠀ ⠀ ─── ⠀ ❝ ⠀ℒ𝐘𝐒𝐀, aren't you forgetting something? ⠀...

𝓞𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝐬𝐭 has reeled in its head and hasn't forgotten to pen the rest of your story. 𝐌𝐘 𝓓𝐄𝐀𝐑, 𝓛𝐘𝐒𝐀, welcome to the 𝟏𝟖𝓽𝓱 chapter of your life.

𓏲ꪆ 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝓛𝐎𝐕𝐄 ℳ𝐄?⠀ ─── ⠀even when i'm nothing new?

this post may come as a shock to most of you here, but yes! today is my birthday and i officially turned 18 today. yippie!!!! this section might be a little personal so please read with that in mind! and if you stayed, thank you :)) for the longest time, my birthday has always been celebrated on my younger brother's birthday because we're only one day apart LMAOO. it never really sunk in that, wow, maybe i never really had a birthday of my own for who knows how long. and as i grew older, i became more and more disinterested in the day entirely. in fact, i began detesting this day to the point i made an entire essay about it for our non-fiction class; i dubbed my birthday as "the greatest loss of my life."

but today, i think i'll be a little kinder to myself even if my feelings about my birthday haven't changed ヽ(￣ω￣(。。 )ゝ i literally cried while eating breakfast as i watched the surprise birthday greetings my friend had compiled and even though the day continued and i grew frustrated with my dad, was stressed the hell out at the mall due to my parents' situation, it eventually settled itself. somehow LMFAO. as settled as it can be.

and here i am now, making this for myself. a little love letter for my first day of adulting. still a little shaken that, woah, i am 18 and not some 14 y.o. binging genshin and failing two classes in the pandemic.

so i wanted this post to be something i look back on. i've made multiple time capsule letters and i still remember what i wrote LMAOOO. anyways, i'm done with the yapfest. happy birthday to me!!! hopefully i get that sunday fic out one day LOLS.

love you all lots; i appreciate all the birthday messages (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡

૮ ․ ․ ྀིა art credits for the columbina fanart goes to @.Sa_3987 on X please check them out their bina artworks are absolutely gorgeous