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NEEDS. REASSURANCE.

#why self why #ive got so many doubts #so much overthinking

Spare a moment to talk about our Prince and Healer Lord Beelzebub?

(aka me realizing I know next to nothing on Beelzebub, one Bible chapter and like 10 minutes on Wikipedia later this is me probably overanalyzing all of it. Also I’m basing this solely on Jewish Bible, that’s just the one I know better)

Kings 2, chapter 1, is the story of an Israelite king falling ill and sending his men to consult the “god of Ekron”, Beelzebub. Along the way the men are approached by Elijah (yup, that Elijah), who is pissed at them for not consulting The God (he also kills most of them and the king dies, but that’s not important)

So, who is Beelzebub?

A patron of Ekron, obviously, and a Canaanite deity, who is either serving under Baal (god of rain and fertility) or a part of him. They did things like keeping flies/pests away during gatherings and events such as sacrifices to the gods (hence the title Lord of the Flies) - and, apparently, knows a thing or two about health.

I’m not saying Beelzebub is “secretly good” or whatever, but this does lead me to believe that they’re more protective/caring in nature than they let on - like, maybe they were a healer before the Fall (much like in the “Crowley was Raphael” theory)? Or maybe they did some of these things after they turned into a demon - as part of some (rather successful, apparently) attempt at corrupting the humans/power move against Heaven/genuine compassion (or remnants of it)? I may be completely wrong here (I just had fun imagining the Prince of Hell being The Overprotective One) but I’d love to hear your thoughts!

#beelzebub #good omens #i guess you could call this theory?#so much overthinking

We've reached the second guessing the gifts I chose for people stage of the process.

#i'm so bad at this #so much overthinking #shut up fraddit

I am so frustrated, couldn't sleep anything and not sure why

#I feel like my heart is racing #couldn't actually keep myself at peace #so much overthinking #and also feel like my energy levels were so high #I HATE THIS #I have to work now but I am grateful that I work from home and can just bring the laptop to my bed #but shit #no sleep is fucking me up #joe goes .txt

Tulip tulip how's you ????? I miss you on my dashboard tbh .

As for me I'm pretty much like this kitty for now !!!

Haha! Hello my friend!

I know I've been kind of silent lately, I've been doing a lot of healing and a lot of research -mostly on the moon and pluto especially in terms of astrology-

I'm honestly kind of feeling the same. life has been kind of weird but I really need to stop overthinking and start trusting myself more. I've been doing more tarot readings outside of tumblr and the feedback has been phenomenal which is great for me because I always love the reminder that I am intuitive. and strongly so.

I'm also trying to be a lot nicer to myself and I'm trying to stop feeling so guilty for everything.

but also, the transits have been hitting me so hard. and with mercury going into retrograde in my own native taurus mercury lmao. Like, I'm trying to brace myself now but damn this cancer mars is gettin to me.

Fortunately, or unfortunately cause I just want to get it done, I've been on spring break and my classes are taking a nice pause.