after witnessing the old arcade game, sophie has to calm down. her pills normally make her dizzy so you step in for them.
genre: angst with comfort, fluff
tags: sophie trying too hard to remember, callin her soapie <33, disturbing topics btw, modern au (might do a part 2 idk)
warnings: pills/talk of taking pills, mentioning of an overdose!!, sophie's trauma, talking about death, bunny farm
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"y/n!" sophie calls, and you tense at her distressed tone. "y/n! i remember! they're dead, they're dead!" your girlfriend screeches, and you flick on the lamp on your bedside table to see your girlfriend's frazzled and worried face. "soph, what??" you mumble sleepily as your brunette lover scrambles to you, her bony fingers grasping your vest. "they're dead! i know what happened, i remember! uncle felix- it's all his fault!" sophie cries, watery eyes searching your face for whatever confirmation. "soapie, calm down." you sigh, bringing your distressed girlfriend into your arms. "it's all his fault! molly and edd, they're dead i know what happened!" sophie tries to wiggle from your arms.
"sophie. calm down, breathe." you say softly, breathing in and out like how her therapist told her. sophie copies you, slowly beginning to calm. "deep breaths, soapie." you rub her back soothingly. "it's all his fault.." she repeats the words like a prayer and you sigh. "it's okay. it's over, right? i'm sorry i shouldn't of mentioned the stupid game, i didn't know it was that bad.." you sigh, pulling sophie onto the bed and sitting her down. "wanna get some food? that might help." you ask softly, pulling your girlfriend's head against your chest and combing your fingers through her frazzled hair. "can we go to costa..?" she asks sheepishly, wrapping her arms around you tightly. "of course, c'mon." you smile, getting out of bed and despite being in your vest and pyjama shorts you grab your car keys and take sophie's hand in yours.
sophie grips your hand, rubbing your knuckles with her thumb- something she did when she was anxious. "will caffeine help you like this?" you ask as she grabs your jacket for you. "probably not but its better than doping up on pills." sophie admits, pulling your jacket on for you. "true," you smile, giving her a kiss as she adjusts you collar. "c'mon then, i'll get you a coffee and some food." you say, giving her another kiss before moving with her to the car.
"thank you for this, y/n..." sophie sighs as she settles in the passenger seat. "no problem, anything for my soapie." you tease, and your girlfriend giggles. sophie leans back, propping her boots up on the dash as you drive. "wanna talk about it?" you ask, voice softer. soph sniffles, "felix kranker, i remember him. he was getting drunk, like a lot, because his wife left." sophie started, and you hum softly to indicate that you're listening. "he had to pick up my two siblings for this... stupid school dance. god i remember molly's wobbly dance, she was so happy." sophie sighs, closing her eyes to remember her sister. "i'm sorry.." you whisper, grabbing sophie's hand.
"well, at the party-" sophie continues, her voice choking up. "he drank, a lot. and he brushed it off saying he was dizzy..." she lets out a shaky breath, clutching your hand tightly. "it's okay.. breathe. we don't have to talk about it." you say, but sophie shakes her head. "you deserve to know too.. you're in my life, you're all i have left. you're my only family now." sophie says, looking at you with a watery smile. "okay." you smile back before looking back at the road. "so.. he drove them home. drunk. and he swerved off the road and they.. they didn't make it.." sophie sniffled, bringing your hand up to her face to kiss your knuckles anxiously. "jesus..." you whisper, and glance at your girlfriend who's eyes have fluttered closed with a painful look.
"hey, it's okay... what did your dad say?" you ask softly. "that's the thing, y/n! he didn't know! felix ghosted him, never told him! and my dad went missing but i think he killed himself or got killed looking for them!" sophie's voice becomes more shrill and you pull over, cup her face in your hands and give her a soft kiss. your girlfriend melts into you, calming down eventually as she wipes her tears. "he was going through a lot, but my family would still be alive if it weren't for him..." sophie whimpers, nuzzling into your neck. "c'mon, rest." you say softly, patting your thigh. sophie sighs, resting her head on your lap as she curls up feet pressing against the door.
you comb your fingers through your lovers hair as you start driving again and sophie nuzzles the soft flesh of your thigh. "we're almost there, i'll get you your favourite as always." you say, and sophie hums softly still sniffling as she nuzzles into your leg. "we'll get through this together, soph. i won't abandon you." you assure her, fingers massaging your lovers scalp. sophie melts at your words, letting out a quiet thank you. "c'mon, let's get your order." you smile as you pull into the parking lot.
