an exercise in personal limits. or how NOT to quit sticking needles in your arm... a conclusion is written...
a key element to all this "spiritual" understanding and in general, to learning the human experience and its finer elements, is never finding the self too far one way or another. personally, the pain only makes me feel closer to whats alive and vibrant that exists. In fact I would urge you to distrust anyone who says different, even while knowing full well all of this bullshit is more or less a subjective experience. Lets actually take it one step further and propose an activity to allow firsthand observation and insight into metaphysical phenomenology as it functions on a base level.
find a good yet nit picky reason to be a complete fucking asshole to someone you love.. if you can, do it at the worst possible moment for them. If they are in a bad situation, take it from them, become the self proclaimed victim of their own situation, and tan that precious humans hide with it. if someone doesn't leave, mumbling incoherently, and/or in tears, you did it wrong.
I know, we have all done this at some point and some have even quit this terrible habit for good. Well, remind yourself, just to see what transpires as you sit back and observe. If you don't see the entangled metaphysical arrangements come together like a swarm of trained circus bees act out the entire journey the sun makes every year, in record time, and the beauty of it all doesn't bring you to tears and ultimately into their embrace.... you missed something really important along the way. in fact you should probably go ahead and destroy everything in your life all over again and start from scratch just to be safe.
THEN after completing this activity, as always...
stfu & love