idk if someone did this before, but maybe maul x reader where maul finds out reader self harms? if this is smth that makes you uncomfortable, please feel free to ignore it. thank you💋💋
Warnings: negative thoughts, scars, fresh wounds, blood, soft Maul, sharp objects, self harm, pre relationship ⋆˚꩜｡
(I went through this in my life so this is such a dear topic to me. For those who may be dealing with thoughts, actively or currently going through this, just know my heart goes out to you, and my dm’s are open to anyone who might need somebody. You are NEVER alone) ⋆˚꩜｡
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-maul saw scars. Not all of them of course but he’s seen them. Thinking that some of from battle, of training gone wrong. Maul is never one to push.
-its also something you hid, and hid well. You were careful about what you said, not out of fear but because that’s a can of worms you did NOT want opened. At least not at this current moment.
-you and Maul are close, but both of you have your own skeletons in the closet. Neither of you pry, but give the other enough room to share, if they chose to
-this is something you’ve been dealing with as far as you can remember. 12 or 13 maybe…you’re used to dealing with things alone, so you think nothing of it
-both you and maul had been overly busy with back to back separate missions. Meaning you haven’t seen each other for a while
-during this time, you relapsed. But yet again, you never really stopped, nor were you planning on it.
-the day you and Maul finally got to see each other and hang out, you two met at this dingy looking diner that serves the best food (surprisingly)
-the two of you indulge in conversation. Talking about the bullshit you both had to deal with. A client who wasn’t being cooperative, or one who was extremely evasive, who kept leading you two to dead ends
-you leaned back, stretching, your sleeve had rolled down ever so slightly. Without your notice, but Maul saw it. The scabbed mark over your wrist, matching the others
-all fresh. All recent
-Maul didn’t make it known that he saw them, nor did he bring it up. He wouldn’t do that in public. He’s not one to cause a scene when it came to personal matters
-it wasn’t until you arrived outside of your apartment. After he had walked you home, and just like always, you ask him inside
-‘don’t take my question as judgement. It’s curiosity’ Maul speaks before bringing the cup of tea up to his lips
-you cock your head. This is usual banter between the two of you. He always finds something new about you to ask about.
-‘I’m not easily offended’ you respond back calmly. Sitting down across from him at the low table that sits in your living room. Both sitting on a plush pillow
-‘is there a reason behind why you do it?’ He asks calmly. His face hiding what concern is buried deep, especially when it comes to you. His hand gesturing towards your arm. Your heart sinks when you realize exactly what he’s referring to.
-in the life you two live, you’ve seen the worst of people, and the best of people. You’ve seen them stoop to the lowest lows just to survive. This is your form of survival
-you sigh and after a long minute you tell him. Explaining when you started, what triggered you to start, all the way up until now. If you went to therapy or if you’ve told anyone. The Zabrak listened intently without interruption the entire time.
-‘I’d understand if you think I’m crazy or too much’ you admit when he doesn’t respond. You look down at your cup, watching the heat rise from the top of your drink.
-you’re startled when you feel Maul’s large hand wrap itself carefully around your scarred arm. His thumb hovering over your sleeve that hides the mix of fresh and old marks.
-‘I am here, and I see you’ Maul says, glancing up from your arm and landing back on your face. He can see the emotions swimming behind your eyes. Embarrassment, shame, disgust(towards yourself), and worry
-‘I shall help with whatever you may need’ is all he says, bringing his hand down, and gently wrapping it around yours. Those words alone carry weight. He’s not angry, he’s not forcing anything, he has all the patience you may need, but only for you..
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