#soft spiral

[lesserselfness]

If It Ends-

I sit by my bedroom window, the clouds are drifting somewhere, the murmuration above me is folding and unfolding across the sky, the koel singing its cry late into the night And somewhere between their leaving, and the cry thinning into silence, I too have drifted from what I was looking for, has lost its shape and is blur now. It doesn't matter to me anymore, that's what I've told them evermore. I stand further back now, wishing we had never been there, hoping it's not the end yet. Oh! What have I become! If It Ends It Ends a you in me, a hope in me and a quite smile I never named. Perhaps, a me in you ends as well.....

[atomicrebelfire]

i don’t know why i’m getting ads for this show. i’m literally trying to ignore it. not to be dramatic but if the finale paints eddie as some quiet hero without addressing how he’s been acting lately—i might actually crash out. the expressions, the tone… it was ugly. and if that gets brushed over? if buck is expected to just accept it and move on like always? then what’s the point of his growth arc? what’s the point of him learning to walk away from harm? what’s the point of bobby telling him he’ll be okay?

buck’s arc has been about healing. about not begging for scraps. and if that gets undone just to protect someone else’s image? that’s not growth—it’s erasure. and the worst part? he’s been left alone in it. by the narrative. by his people. and somehow that’s not the tragedy we’re being asked to look at.

sigh 🙄