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I’m not dead I promise I’ve just been in pain and busy. Monday I had a colposcopy and three cervical biopsies which they give you nothing for the pain and it fucking hurt. I won’t go into details because it’s pretty gross and gruesome but let’s just say I didn’t feel like doing much for a couple of days. We’ve been making good progress moving and have a truck rented for Sunday to get the big stuff over and then all that’s left is the kitchen some bathroom odds and ends and my husbands clothes mine are mostly at the new place. There’s some more things here and there but we should be done by the end of next week at the absolute latest. Wish us luck though because the big furniture is heavy and won’t be fun moving alone. I’ve made some great new friends in the new discord server I joined though so that’s been a big positive and have been keeping me motivated to pack. Tomorrow at the fairgrounds is Halfway to Halloween so we’re hopefully going to check that out and buy some spookables. In other medical news I reached out to a local plastic surgeon about getting a breast lift done. I’ve always been very self conscious of my breasts when they’re not in a bra basically my whole life because they got fucked up by the transplant so if you loves can send me some good vibes that they can help I’d appreciate that! Also good vibes for no cervical cancer that’d also be very appreciated! Ok sending love 💕

Xoxo

Sol

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I found a dating app specifically for Poly people, wish me luck. I’m a little nervous because it has couples too but I can be a fucking unicorn, I’m majestic AF right?! Right?! I’ve never been with a couple before but I like everyone so can’t hurt to explore that I guess? I found a couple very handsome/very my type men on the app so fingers crossed they like me back. I’m so over bald guys or guys with beards, blech. I’m hoping a like minded partner will be a better fit and won’t end in a fucking disaster of lies and crossed boundaries. Send me good vibes, maybe I can finally find my IRL Bi-Han 😭

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Wtf is happening in my life lol I went on two dates last week one good-ish one painful and I have two possibly three dates this week. Someone send help, being this social for a gremlin is very difficult. I suppose I should spill the tea, I went out with a nice metal head last Wednesday and while he’s not exactly my type physically he was nice to be around, pleasant to talk to and a gentleman so I agreed to see him again but we haven’t made plans yet and I’m still holding try outs for be Sol’s boyfriend right? The second date was Friday with a super nerd now don’t get me wrong I’m also a total nerd I mean my dog is named Denethor FFS but we’re the wrong type of nerd. He’s sci-fi and I’m fantasy and while this is poly dating and I knew going into the date he was married I did not know about his three kids under 8 or the couple he and his wife were seeing together nor did I know he was a stay at home dad. All of these are kind of big red flags for me, not being upfront about additional partners HUGE red flag, not knowing about children also huge deal for me. He also took me to a cat cafe without asking prior if I was allergic, thankfully I’m not but these are all pretty big signs he’s concerned for himself and not others. He was also rather large, which don’t get me wrong I have no issues with I’m not a body shamer and my partner is rather heavy too but this guy had a chronic injury so he couldn’t really interact with the kittens so the whole thing was weird from the get go and I know y’all know me, this pillow princess does NOT ride (unless it’s for Bi-Han) so wtf would I gain from this relationship? A guy who already divides his attention between 6 people has no income and I can only see him when the kids are asleep?! Big fucking no. I was pleasant and cordial through out the date and thanked him for taking me but I put on my big girl panties and told him he just had too much going on for me. I’m clingy, I’m needy, I’m also materialistic there’s a reason I met my ex on a sugar daddy website, I can’t be dating a broke ass man who’s seeing three partners and has three kids. I’m sorry if that sounds spoiled but it’s the truth, I NEED to be a priority and I didn’t feel like he could make me one.

I’m tentatively going out with another man this Friday at a barcade which is much more my scene, drinks and video games sound wonderful. Appearance wise he’s still not quite what I go for but better looking than the other two, then Sunday I potentially have a date with a dude who looks like he used to play college football and is physically much more my type he’s also in his mid 40s thank fuck as the others have all been in their 30s. There’s also another one who seems a very good fit who’s asked me out but we haven’t set a date or time yet.

So, yeah that’s what’s going on in my life lately the app is FeeId if anyone else wants to try poly or couples dating and was unaware of the app. I don’t remember the name of the sugar daddy website or I’d hook y’all up too but that ended badly so maybe it’s for the best I don’t remember.

My partner is going out of town for three days so wish me luck that Denny behaves for me and doesn’t drag me around in the snow. Oh yeah! It’s snowed the last two days! My real husband is saying hi 🥰 Maybe it’s a sign of good luck? Maybe one of these upcoming dates will go well then?

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Fellow pet lovers with stinky pets, Pet-Pourri actually works pretty well and best part is it’s veterinarian approved. I’ve been deep cleaning my place for my folks up coming visit but Denny is kind of a stinky baby and I find Fabreeze doesn’t last, so far the Pet-Pourri fresh scent is lingering pretty well. It’s only been a day but it’s still fresh, which is better than Fabreeze lol It’s a lot pricier than Fabreeze but it’s possibly worth it since it works. My bedroom smells lovely, nice and clean with a hint of pine from my plugin

I have so much more to do, the big items are finishing the clothes, scrubbing down the bathroom, declutterring the kitchen and cleaning the fridge. I wouldn’t care about the fridge except we’re making a big dinner for Christmas so there needs to be room in the fridge for all the food.

I also have to get labs done this week, my doctor reduced one of my transplant meds a couple weeks ago and they need to check the levels. Which is a good thing because it’s the medication that’s so hard on my kidneys, so the less of it I take the better for my kidneys it is. Getting labs usually isn’t a problem but my partner’s car has a flat so that’s a pain in the ass, thankfully they have a spare but it’s still a hassle putting it on. The heat is still broken in their car too but thankfully it will be warmer (45*f) Thursday when I get them so at least we won’t freeze. Speaking of the weather it looks like it’s supposed to be unseasonably warm this Christmas. Fuck. We planned on going up North for a White Christmas but guess not. Boo. Maybe the weather prediction will be wrong, Bi-Han do your job, slacker!

I’m trying to think if I have anymore updates for you lovelies today but I think that’s about it? I feel chatty tonight though so who knows I might ramble about more dumb stuff later.

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Going out with my boyfriend tonight so I won’t be around to annoy you lovelies 🤭 unless I get drunk and he falls asleep early 🤣 then I’ll probably post dumb Bi-Han stuff lol I feel like I haven’t done headcanons for him in a while and I’d like to. I have two headcanon requests involving him that I will write probably Thursday. I love writing about him and talking about him in general, I just love him so much, I also love people who love him too! Ok, heading out, sending you all love 💙

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Hey lovelies, I’m back. Did I miss anything important? I’m so tired, my new sleeping med sucks hardcore and tastes disgusting, I was up literally all night. I managed to nap for a couple hours which was much needed. I also might have drank a bit too much last night as my stomach hurts today. I might just be hungry though? Hard to say. Hope everyone is having a lovely day 💙

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I’m sorry I’ve been so awful at replying to y’all in my inbox, I have just been utterly exhausted and so stressed out this month from the constant hospital appointments I can barely function. I promise I will get to them and thank you guys for the kind words and patience. I only have one more big appointment Monday and then nothing but a follow up virtual appointment three weeks later until June so that is huge. I will hopefully have time to rest, recover and get my anxiety back under control. If you can please send good vibes for my liver MRI Monday ❤️ I don’t think I can mentally handle liver cancer or liver failure on top of fighting off my cmv and erythema nodosom.

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It’s been a min since I complained about medical BS, so I have to see this absolute idiot of a doctor who is supposedly an infectious disease specialist for my CMV infection. This dumb bitch forgot to order labs for me to get done, so she has no way to check the level of the CMV left in my body and I couldn’t do anything about it because no orders = no labs/blood work. So I had to wake up super early, drive 20 mins to the clinic only to find out this bitch forgot to put in my order. The real kicker is my nurse coordinator (the one who works with my cardiologist) sent her not one, not two but three separate reminders that they were no longer requiring me to get labs until July and that if she wanted additional testing she would have to provide the orders herself. I just cannot with this woman, I’ve talked about it before but I have a real problem with doctors or medical professionals in general who are stupider than I am. I’m supposed to have a follow up video appointment, which she rescheduled without even calling to ask if I was available on the new day and time, and I do not have the patience to deal with her. I’m sure she’s going to give me attitude for not getting the test results for her but I mean there’s nothing I can do about that, I can’t order my own lab work. The phlebotomist even tried calling her office this morning to get her to send over the orders but there was no answer. Excellent doctor 10/10 🙄 I’m just so done.

On the plus side I got another WIP image of my self ship commission and I’m super excited about it. I wish I had more money though and could commission multiple artists because there are just so many talented artists out there. I’ve also been itching to maybe get back to drawing myself but all I can really do is faces, anatomy is really hard and I’m not a trained artist so I never learned it. Maybe I’ll write something instead? More likely I will spend the afternoon on picrew and make a dump post later 🤣

Unrelated to my previous rambling it sounds like there’s a new dog in the building? They have been very vocal and Denny has been running around looking for them. It’s really cute he’s like “Mom! Mom! There’s another pupper here! Where are they? Can we play?!” It sounds like a smaller dog which might be good for Denny since he tends to get scared and easily intimidated by bigger dogs (even though he’s 85 lbs). Maybe he’ll have a new friend 🥰