#soletask2

[solegossiphq]

dear heartless, i trusted you and i believed in you. you broke my heart into a million pieces shattered on the floor. you’re like stepping on a lego or stubbing my toe against the corner of a table. but i can NEVER truly hate you because you showed me what love was even if it was only for a short period of time. i hope you know the void you left in my chest that day. does it make you happy? you like? the best thing you ever did to me was walk out of my life. xoxo, that bitch you missed out on

[solegossiphq]

You,

I’m done. I’m done waiting for you. I’ve longed for you enough to know the pain all too well. I’ve gone numb and still you remain angry at me for leaving you. But love, don’t you remember? You’ve never asked me to stay.

[solegossiphq]

Hey you,

Everything about you makes me smile but it also angers me. Something about you tells me there’s hope for us to become something more than stolen glances, late night whispers and silent screams of longing. You’re more than just a girl. More than just rage and hatred for the world. I’ve seen sides of you that the world is still about to discover. Why does that make me jealous? Why do I want you all to myself? You want me to give you the world but you push me away. Do you enjoy it? Torturing me like this? With other women, I know I can easily break their hearts and move to another when I’m done. When I think about your heart breaking because of me, I hesitate. You’ll always be more than just a girl to me. But love comes at a high price. I’m not sure I’m ready to bet my heart out just yet to have you. Do you want me as much as I want you?

[solegossiphq]

Dear you,

I don’t remember how it started but I remember all those times when you mentioned another girl’s name in front of me. I didn’t mind them at first but it hurt whenever you compared me to everyone else. I was taught not to take things personally all the time but I know that you meant to hurt me each time another name leaves your lips. You show up when I don’t even think of you and when you leave, I wonder when you’ll show your face to me again. Do you really have to confuse me? One moment you care and you spoil me rotten then the next thing I hear is that you’re at the club, sweeping women off of their feet. Yet at the end of the day you call me. Why do I care so much about you? Since when did you become such an important person in my life? I always ask you to leave but please… Don’t.

[solegossiphq]

Dear other half,

We were always off and on with each other. Most of the arguments were because of me. And I think you knew that. I missed out hanging out like we used to do. Whenever we got into a fight I used to say “I’m glad they stopped talking to me. It’s like the trash took itself out” but god how I regretted those words the next day. I was lost without your company, I lost myself for days without your guidance. and yet, I know, it would always be my fault at the end of the day. I’m glad you stayed with me knowing how difficult I could be. I’m glad throughout our hard times you always stood by my side no matter what. I need you more than you could possibly ever need me. You were always there for me and now? I just want you to know that I’m always going to be there for you. Even if we don’t end up being on good terms anymore …

[solegossiphq]

Dear friend,

My mouth tastes of intoxication and sadness. My eyes are bloodshot and sore My mind is plastered with you and your thoughts and hatred for me. Maybe you don’t hate me — maybe I’m imagining things. but i broke my rules for you, isn’t that enough? “there is an aching void in my heart which I am convinced the world can never fill.“ maybe… the world doesn’t need to fill it but just you. there was this one night where this person kept on taking to you, flirting with you, playing along with your little game. but I could tell that you werent interested in anything, but more interested in the jealousness that took over every inch of me. I could see it, from the frequent glances and smirks you sent across to me with every stupid and lame joke they made. jealousness burned inside of me, and yet, you enjoyed every second of it. I hate you, but I like you. I hate that I like you. I hate every single bit of it.

[solegossiphq]

Dear Lovely,

I’m a pretty fucked up guy okay? And I’m sorry for my future mistakes that lies ahead of us. you are always going to be special to me and because of that? I don’t want to lose you. not even once, not even twice, not even at all. and I know that you are not in love with me. you just love the way I always make you feel. special. so special that you were like the center of my world. I would have done anything for you and what I have with you, I don’t want with anyone else. We’re not something, but we’re not nothing and yet, I feel guilty when I kiss someone other than you, even though I know there’s no reason to since you and me are ‘just friends’. I know I’m going to hurt you, and I know it all too well. I always hurt the people that I care the most for. And I don’t want that for you. I really don’t. But see, I’m a disappointment. Who knows what I will do? Maybe there’s still time to change my ways or maybe not.

[solegossiphq]

Dear Mina,

I want you happy, you deserve that so much. You actually deserve the whole god damn universe and I’d do anything to give you that, but we’ll do that in time. You mean so much to me, it makes my head spin, because no one has meant this much to me and it terrifies me. You make me feel less lonely. As if I have purpose. Funnily enough, you make me want to actually repair bad relationships in my life because I feel like I can. I love seeing you smile and laugh. God, your laugh is like a symphony conducted by Mozart himself. Please, please always smile even when you’re down. I know you won’t ever have feelings for me, which is totally fine, because just being friends with you is enough for me. Love you always.

- James