#solipsistful

[dear-systems]

psst, re: Manchester Metropolitan University's "Understanding Multiplicity" infosheet, you may want to re-reblog the OP -- the original links broke, but i've gone and fixed those as well as added more links to other work by the same people/network. -a

Thanks so much for letting us know!

[subsystems]

@anti-coping/solipsistful: I didn’t realize that you were solipsistful. I have your other account blocked for a reason, so I won’t be interacting with you anymore after this. I wouldn’t have replied to your initial post if I had known that you also run the other account. That’s my mistake, though, so no worries. Please respect my boundary and do not continue interacting with me either after this.

My reply under the cut:

I know that trauma-based disorders are somewhat endogenic. I was specifically focusing on the idea that they are only endogenic, which is what Freud believed in.

I know that words can have different meanings. I was not trying to argue that “endogenic” is an exclusively clinical term--God no, I was trying to say that I was surprised to find out that it was not an exclusively nonclinical term. Learning the different uses of words in both clinical and nonclinical contexts is important to me. Especially when it comes to the same words that are used differently for DID/OSDD and non-disordered plurality. I don’t appreciate you ~*”mocking”*~ the significance that has to me or that fact that I felt upset.

Like I said, I can have opinions/criticisms towards how a specific word was created. You don’t have to agree with that. I really don’t care, it’s a personal opinion on my end. You don’t have to be a dick about it. I was not condemning people who use said terminology. I literally have nothing against people who identify under the endogenic plurality label or any label for that matter.

Thanks for pointing out that “endogenic” doesn’t solely mean the FM. You’re right about that. I also believe that but I wasn’t conveying my thoughts properly in those rambling posts and I have corrected that now. Besides that, I still believe that the FM, specifically the “it’s all just fabricated because they’re highly imaginative” idea, is an endogenic understanding of DID (and yes I know that in some cases the FM can have an additional exogenic understanding). I don’t agree with your ideas that endogenesis/endogenic is only used by Nijenhuis.

Lastly--I do NOT think that empowered multiplicity was an anti-DID campaign.

Thanks for sharing your other thoughts, it’s interesting, as extremely rude as you were about it.

That’s all. Do not try to contact me further. Bye.

[earlgraytay]

i don't know why people can't seem to get that "'utopia' that is inaccessible/harmful for some disabled people = not a utopia" + "one environment won't be accessible to everyone" 🙃 - signed, ace, who often feels like they're Not Progressive Enough for preferring to live 100% alone, in a city, attached to a computer

that’s how I live right now (and while I might want a cat or a partner someday, I don’t have either and am at least 0kay with that) 

and it’s pretty great

and honestly considering that most of the stuff I need is in walking distance and I take public transit for the rest, my life is probably lower-impact than a lot of the people complaining 🙃

but since I don’t currently live on a hippie commune, and I want my life to be accessible, I’m badsatandevilevil/probably that worst of all things, a hetalia fan

[echthr0s]

the other day we saw someone whose twitter name was "Ayn Randall Flagg" and i'll have you know that i instantly thought of you -a

I am literally SO MAD I did not think of this holy fucking shit I’m. legally changing my name to that immediately

[spacerobotcrew]

solipsistful replied to your post: didfrisk replied to your post : ...

lol what we got was “if even a single aspect of autism caused your multiplicity, you have to call it trauma (albeit trauma influenced by autism, but fundamentally trauma).” there’s just such a kneejerk reaction against putting anything other than explicit T-R-A-U-M-A into the “cause” slot, even when things like ‘individual tendencies’ are necessarily part of the causal narrative too??

Yes! And again, I actually don’t consider it trauma and wasn’t even originally saying that I thought autism was traumatic in my post, quite the opposite! But it got twisted around because... TRAUMA, MUST ALWAYS BE TRAUMAAA.

Heck though, even if somebody out there did consider overloading experiences caused by their own autism to be traumatic... what is the problem with that? Like, people should be able to interpret their own lived experiences how they want. That’s not harming anybody. Unless they’re doing some sort of asshole thing from it like generalizing to “my experience was this, therefore ALL autism is traumatic and bad and must be cured!” which would be a dick move.

[synodicoracle-blog]

HE WHO WAS EVER THERE - THE FIRST PHASE OF MAN

"Void, Nihilism, Nullum, Vacuum, That which has a name but no material presence, That which is but a concept; yet a foundation, A theorem - a proposition of the deluded, He who was ever there, Ever present, omnipotent, omniscient, yet not omnipresent. Inexistent, yet all that exists..." The first verse from a series of poems I wrote to try and decode the insane ramblings inside my mind. Written about 4 years ago as I came to form my own path. The full poem is very is quite long, and there are many more pages of different poems describing the 3 Prime Stages of Existence. This describes the first stage, and the last, which are Void. The cycle as I have theorised goes as follows: Void > Delusion > Void. The current stage we are in is the delusion, and when we pass we re-enter the void. To channel and praise the void through us reminds us of our insignificance. However this doesn't have to be sad. To accept this is the most important stage in the decoding of the delusion. We ARE insignificant, yet within resides the entirety of existence. Which, in of itself is insignificant. To give things value is to delve further into the delusion. We, the creators and preceptors, must realise our very nature, as this is the first step to attaining the Black Flame of Knowledge. I've once heard my beliefs be referred to as "Glorifed, enchanced Nihilism and Solipsism". This, is actually quite accurate. I have given a purpose to that which defeats purpose through the purpose of decoding and defeating reality. A paradoxical thought, no? The Black Sun is Rising, Greet the New Age, Brothers and Sisters. -SynodicOracle

[earlgraytay]

solipsistful replied to your post “isaacsapphire replied to your post “well, i got to the episode of...”

we haven't completed the second season, but the way it has so far treated the trans character is a looooot better than DP. for starters, it actually portrays her as, y'know, reasonable and professional, hahhh �� and like it's kinda a dick move on some characters' parts to misgender her. -a

overall, we found it similarly "wait, hold on, this is treating trans issues wayyy better than we expected, especially for the time." so if that's part of what's preventing you from watching Twin Peaks, don't worry. -a

@solipsistful - if it helps, um... I didn’t really read that particular character from DP as a trans character.

 I know you could make the case that he is a trans woman, and the way that he’s written is pretty transphobic either way, but... as someone who grew up in a small shitty town (though more McMansions and crushing isolation than Greenvale) it also rang true, especially with the way his abuser is written. 

if thomas is an effeminate gay guy in a place where most people treat gender and sexuality like they’re the same thing, he’s convinced that no one’s ever gonna love him... and he falls into the hands of a (straight) misogynistic abusive prick who thinks that “~making someone into a woman~” is a funny way to degrade them... yeahhhhhhhh. add murder and basically-evil-drugs to that and I can absolutely see how thomas ended up the way he did. 

and since deadly premonition is all about cycles of abuse and how Abuse Fucks Up Your Head...in a world where “trans women are degenerate and creepy” wasn’t a trope, I’d think it was good and subtle writing. as is, it made me cringe the entire time, but... i could also see it flowing from the characters and how they interacted with each other, y’know? 

[earlgraytay]

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Oh my god thank you for giving the source of these goddamn dancing crab gifs we keep seeing. -S

@solipsistful you’re welcome!