#congregation chatter

[echthr0s]

Who tf are Noah, Dayir, and Gabriel :eyes: Also I keep forgetting to tell you your ask link still has your old handle in it

okay I tend to be longwinded so I don't think trying to elaborate on all three of them in one post is a good idea lmao

the short version is:

Noah Kingfisher is the source code for my Healer character archetype. he was sired by an eldritch sorcerer and birthed by a good and kind human woman. he was created to break worlds but has committed his multiversal existence to repairing them (although a version of him that fulfills his original purpose does exist). I currently have storylines for him in Fallout 4 and The Outer Worlds. >> other characters that were created with this code include Elijah Hawk-child (Dragon Age 2) and Keahi, Hound of Eothas (Pillars of Eternity).

Dayir is the source code for my Lover character archetype. ey are naturally liminal, traversing both the realms of the living and the dead with ease. ey possess strange and divine powers and should be too strange to fathom, but as paradox is eir birthright, ey have the uncanny ability to form the most unlikely of bonds with nearly everyone who crosses eir path. I am contractually obligated to add that a significant element of Dayir's power is, how we say... of the NSFW variety. I currently have storylines for em in Final Fantasy XIV and am prototyping a few others. >> other characters that were created with this code include Anansi Surana (Dragon Age: Origins) and Claudio V Invictus (Saints Row).

Gabriel the Revelator is the source code for my Sufferer character archetype. he was... semi-sired by an eldritch sorcerer (yes, same one) and the woman who birthed him perished with the effort. he does not flourish or blossom but he endures. his power is terrible and bloody and visceral. his personal Great Work is to alchemise the awful, awe-ful darkness in him into something that Atom can't use... but perhaps a Healer can. he currently only exists in Fallout 3/New Vegas/4. >> other characters that were created with this code include Adrian Shepard (Mass Effect) and Adam Byrne (Fable 2).

[lucienfairfax]

ladyoriza replied to your post “What are your fave OCs thoughts on dark-roast coffee (or the...”

Sam once had a half of mug of death wish coffee and thats how she saw clefs true form

yeah that sounds about right

[foundcarcosa]

@coldestcaress replied to your post “@ladyoriza replied to your post “this post fucked me up just now...”

Favourite cat pic of all time, looks like my kitty son but better armed

listen. it is never too late to teach your kitty son about his right to bear arms

[mordreddeschain]

@cllgood replied to your post: “I know that IT/Consumption and Mordred are represented by spiders...”:

Are you telling me his fate is to be an unanchored, unstable Tower - the chaos of the Red who can shake the Beams and move the nexus of worlds

hehehehe

but actually I feel like his fate is to be incorrigibly and significantly unaligned -- the Red wanted to use him, the White wanted to destroy him, but by continuing to exist and evolve and become he’s exposed the frailness in both factions

his fate is to be pure and unfettered Will, the unutterable audacity to say “I AM”

and that’s what shakes Beams and moves worlds

[oedonretired]

@tintael replied to your post: “reasons why I didn’t spend actual money on World of Thedas Vol 2,...”:

<b>I have the impression that the devs despise their elven lore, heh - something along the lines of: “Let’s create fascinating, distinctive culture with polytheistic religious beliefs… and ridicule it in all our games! After all, who cares about these rabbits and their delusions when we have our totally-not-Christian-inspired Andrastianism?” Ugh… ><</b>

They despise everyone but the human non-heretical Andrastians -- the elves, the Qunari, the dragon cults and other heretics, the Rivaini, the Chasind, the Avvar...

Everyone except the Tevinter magocracy, I guess, because slavery is sordid and edgy and fun. #kanyeshrug

[echthr0s]

I LOVE ALL YOUR ZENOS THOUGHTS. (He really is a cat on the forbidden chair whose mass is suddenly infinite and whose length is similarly unlimited. You try to lift him but he just is v e r y. l o n g. HE IS BECOME TACGNOL DESTROYER OF PHYSICS also he's gnawing lovingly on your thumb. XD)

lmao good because I legit cannot shut up about Zenos and the only reason I ever do is because I'm busy replaying ARR for the 4th time and I'm not seeing his beautiful face every day :(

v e r y l o n g Zenos needs to be a drawing I swear

I love cat!Zenos bc the idea of giving him head scritchies and having him slow-blink in contentment gives me ULTIMATE BRAINWORMS 😭😭😭😭😭

[echthr0s]

5, 14, and 27 for the wrapped playlist!

nice icon

ok I just realised mine isn't numbered, so I don't know how the fuck y'all are doing this. I'm literally counting manually -___-

Wasted on You, Evanescence this is also the fault of the car playlist because at some point I'd put it on there twice by mistake and we were tortured by it continually coming up on shuffle until I realised what was going on it is a bop but the fact that it's this goddamn high on the Wrapped is pure accident lmao

If You Leave, OMD also a car playlist song, I don't think I've listened to this on my own more than like 3 times this year lmfao

Pacific Rim theme, Tom Morello + Ramin Djawadi that's three for three on "songs that are on here bc of the-- yeah, you guessed it" a playlist that I listen to a total of maybe 55 days out of 365 somehow completely wrecks my shit every year lmaoooo

[echthr0s]

Good point re: shadow work. I'm (v slowly) working through a book that has a section on shadow work, and that's exactly how the author lays it out. It didn't resonate with me at all, and I wasn't sure why until I saw your post and related to it. I think shadow-selves, like literally everything else int he universe, is a spectrum, and what's represented in that book and others is just one point on the wheel. (1/2)

It's funny to me that in the book I have, the shadow-self is described as a whole separate villain who only does bad things. But I think for a lot of us, it's not separate at all. A lot of the things I'd consider "shadowy" about myself are already integrated into my whole being, and yes, they're things I need to suppress to maintain relationships etc., but like... idk, everyone's aware of those things already. And what does it mean if your shadow-parts  are like... neutral at best? lmao (2/2) 

I think the typical kind of shadow work is good for people who have a lot of shame about their less socially-acceptable parts, because the toxicity of that shame really warps their relationship with themselves. which, incidentally, makes shadow work perfectly reasonable for any part of oneself that has been warped by toxic shame -- so, yeah, becoming friends with any part of oneself that has gone neglected or has been devalued is important imo

I think the focus tends to be on the “ugly” parts because the typical manner of socialisation is about suppressing things that are “negative” or whatever. like getting in touch with one’s rage is a big thing these days because a lot of people have been taught to never be angry, to be a doormat to other people so they’ll like you, etc. so I get it... it’s just the nature of my toxic programming is that I was taught to suppress everything that made me seem “weak” or made me vulnerable to other people because it’s a dog-eat-dog world etc etc

so my selves are definitely still polarised in a way that’s easy to see -- just in the opposite way from what you’d expect lol. and that’s 1000% because of Trauma(tm). I think it’s also perfectly reasonable to just... not have a shadow. to feel secure in the whole of your being already, without having to have gone through this whole process. there are so many ways to have a self/selves and sometimes integration of your myriad parts comes easier to some people than others (I’d argue that neurodivergence makes these experiences far more varied, which is why stuff like shadow work looks so one-dimensional to us) (and sometimes our experience with internal work just happens organically, because we already think like this -- whereas neurotypical society had been notoriously outward-focused until recently when mindfulness etc became trendy)

ANYWAY LMAO I FORGOT IF I HAD A POINT OR NOT