Ugh ok (not so) little vent bear with me
I’ve reached a really weird point with my art because on one hand
On one hand, I can now do linearts that I love, sketches that I love, I can do kick ass colors and imitate various art style pretty damn well, and usually, when I sit down to draw a thing, it comes out… good? It comes out like I’m picturing it, which is just kinda mind blowing when you think about it because that’s what I aspired to, that’s what artists aspire to do, take the colors in their brain and put them to paper. It doesn’t always work, but I’m… generally, I am proud of what I draw. Wow!
But
This is limited to a very specific sub-category of things that I can draw. Namely, living (or mostly living) things that are not human. Animals, plants, monsters, even part-mecha critters, you name it. I can probably draw it. Bugs? No probs. Aquatic things? sure. Flowers? HELL YEAH I love drawing flowers. But humans? And, well, to be honest, scenery and settings of any kind? Nope. No can’t do, buddy, you’re fucked. I can SOMETIMES kinda half ass a background, because I’m good at plants, and clouds, I can do those, ok, so I could probably fake that well enough. But humans?
Big ass fucking HOLE in my skillset, like, the biggest, ridiculous gaping gash in my otherwise pretty high art self-confidence and abilities. I can’t draw humans. I can’t draw their faces, I can’t draw their bodies, I really, really can’t do expressions and it’s killing me because I really, really want to? I want to draw humans, I want to draw porn ffs, I want to draw stupidly fluffy art of people cuddling, I want to draw them grinning and I want to draw them crying and I want to draw them bruised and bloody I want to put emotions to paper but I don’t fucking know how
And I feel weirdly… ungrateful because it’s like. I already have this one really cool skill. I should be proud of it. I am! But I also want this other skill. But I need to work for it? And I don’t know where to start, I know I should just… draw, and draw and draw until I get it right or learn to fake it well enough, but it’s so frustrating when I’ve already achieved this level of skill in a different area and it’s just… yeah, frustrating.