I have been staring at a black screen for hours thinking how to describe the feelings I have listening to this song.
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Meeting you that day and never realizing that you'll bring so much impact to my life. I have never thought that I was able to handle this much until I met you. It was never easy falling in love with you. We were both afraid. Confused. Every reason I had to leave you and every warning I had to never go down this path, I ignored. I saw past through all the signs. For 6 months or so, we saw each other in our highs and our lows. And we stood by each other. I was at my best and at the same time at my worst. I have hurt people along the way rejecting their love because I was reserving myself for you unconsciously. Despite not having to know what our future would be. I just enjoyed every moment with you.
Summer came and I never thought I will be seeing you again. I'm so glad you came to see me that day. That was the time that all the confusion made sense. We were inlove with each other. Deeply. We started with all those bad things like how my mom confronted you. How my mom yelled at you through call. How afraid you were every time my mom is near. How you saw me being pursued by other guys. How people around us asking what are we and being anxious by that. But we made it past all that. We were all about each other.
We had everything we needed. Just the two of us.
But not until I slowly destroyed everything. I'm sorry. You don't know how much I wish that I can go back and make things right. I'd pay just to relive every memory. I'm sorry for hurting you. And I'm really happy you're okay now.
I'm sorry for leading you on and thank you for always being there when I needed someone. You stayed even though you didn't have to. You had all the reasons to leave me and yet you stayed. I'm sorry for fucking up. You're the sweetest, kindest and bravest person I know. I hope I didn't took that all away from you. I prayed for your healing without even knowing that it will be the death of me.
There's so much to say but I ran out of words already.

















