I can sit here and say all the things I have done for people and it still wouldn’t change the way they view me, and you know what that’s fine. I know for a fact that I’m a good man at heart. I love making people happy, I love helping out, I love pleasing people, I love motivating people that’s just me. Im that guy who gives out a dollar to the homeless and not judge them on whatever the fuck they gonna do with that dollar. Im not judgmental with anyone, I can be cool with anyone gay,trans,bi,fat,Gothic, I really don’t care as long as you cool. But once I see some bullshit from whoever I had helped I black out. I start thinking of everything I have done for those people and I just instantly start hurting and start saying thing’s I don’t mean to say because of how much they had hurt me, is something that I must say I’m not proud of. But I’m tired of people giving me the treatment like I’ve never done anything for them. I have hurt a lot of feelings on people who had acted like I’ve never done anything for them, is a bad habit that I must stop. I tend to say a lot of shit I don’t mean to say I’m just speaking to hurt that person just like they hurt me. I know is not right, but treating me like I’ve never done anything to lend a hand is also not right.
But now I know I have to practice on being the bigger person when someone has hurt me doesn’t make sense for me to stoop to their level.