#song.meme

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하나 (ONE) by SHINee

The morning sunlight is like youIt might be a little childish, but I like itIf I’m by your side when you wake me upI have nothing more to wish for

She seemed hesitant when he first asked her but he smiled, took her hand in his, and pressed a gentle kiss to the back of her hand to say “it’ll be okay” without having to speak a single word. It wouldn’t be Jihyun if she didn’t have her reservations about certain things, a hesitation he wouldn’t see from others, one he didn’t with his ex-girlfriends, but he said it back then and he’ll still say it now. 

I don’t need you to be perfect but for so long, I’ve wanted you to be mine. 

He brings them back to the night where the path they’re on began. For him, it started long before that summer night but he knows when they left, everything was about to change. The sand is warm beneath his feet and he fibs that he sees glass in the sand the way she was going for the excuse to lift her up into his arms, carrying her closer to the shore and stealing a kiss. There it is, one of his smug grins when she accuses him of lying. 

“There’s no glass, is there?” 

“There could’ve been.” 

He drops the picnic basket down first, more hesitant to let her go and she smacks his arm for taking so long. When it comes to his cheesy antics, Jihyun tends to catch on quickly. His proudest moment is how long it took her to realize he was bringing more and more of his clothes over. It’s the source of jokes now but he’s proud of it anyway. His sister told him he was too young to know what love is. At sixteen, he was too young. In his twenties, for the type of guy he used to be, maybe he’s still too young but when she looks at him, even while devouring a sandwich and complaining that he didn’t have to take the time to cook himself, that’d she would be just as happy with McDonald’s, he knows he’s not too young anymore. 

He finally understands what his brother saw in Theresa: a future. She falls asleep first and it’s his chance to say what he’s been wanting to say, what he’ll have the courage to tell her when she’s awake one day. 

I love you. 

The sun is close to rising and he knows he can’t let her sleep much longer. With a smile, he kisses her cheek, a light shake of her shoulder, the day’s starting without them. When her eyes flutter open, he knows something more is starting too. Them. This. Us. 

Let’s all together one, two, three, let’s begin

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악몽 (NIGHTMARE) by G.D.

If only I could hold you onceI wish you were my lover for just a momentPlease, please, please I prayUs, us, us, us together, together

AU: Set years later after the Samsung commercial 

He promised Jihyun he’d be there for her always but he didn’t think she would fall for the friend he’d made during the commercial filming. Why was he so surprised that someone with the voice of an angel could tempt his siren away? He pretends to wish them well, support their relationship, but every touch, every kiss, he’s jealous. 

It becomes an obsession, wishing it was him and the more he watches, the more he learns about Haseul, he doesn’t know who he’s more envious of in the end. He’s weak, begging on his knees for it to stop, but he wakes in a cold sweat, unsure who the demon in his dream is. When he turns on the light, the photos plastered on every wall answers him: he is. He’s crept in the shadows for this long, of course the darkness has claimed him too. 

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넌 어디에 (WHERE ARE YOU) by BLOCK B 

Your grumbling and your bad habitsThat made me cry at timesYour rude tone and past mistakesI can now understand them, where are you?

AU: #rkparent two years later 

The years hadn’t been good to them. He’d been reckless, engagement not too long before a scheduled comeback for his group and a potential solo debut for her. Thinking ahead wasn’t his strong point and he didn’t see anything other than the happiness of the ring on her finger. His lines were cut, pushed to the back for their choreography. Being able to go home after practice? Forget it. Her solo? Pushed back until who knows when and their son stuck in the middle pining for both parents. Blame was tossed back and forth but he’d been the one to cross the line, the one to say “maybe we shouldn’t have gotten that first drink together.” One sentence that held much more within it and he couldn’t take it back. The tears already spilled and he’s still alone in his old apartment, broken frame in front of him and his son’s favorite blanket on the couch. 

He forgot the promises he made, the choice he made when she told him she was pregnant. Her first, her and their child first. Selfishly, he thought he could have it all, that he could pine for more of his dream without acknowledging the one he was forming day by day with them by his side. Phone pressed to his ear, he can only ask, “where are you?” Please. 

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OPEN AIR by Frank Ocean

You were swimming at the bottom, yeahI said why you gon live down thereWell baby you can love up here, on landAnd what a difference it makes, you’ll see

AU: If Rome stayed in Nova and met Solji

He thinks he met her at the wrong time. In love with another man, engaged unbeknownst to him but he could see the emotion in her eyes. Pretending he didn’t care was easy until he saw the light in her eyes disappear and he was annoyed, upset, scared. She was sinking, settling into the ocean floor when she deserved to jump freely and show herself off. 

Convincing her to take a break, they go up to the rooftop together and he knows it’s weird, out of place, and oddly timed but he doesn’t suggest sitting down first. Instead, he bows at his waist, hand held out for her to hopefully take, and he humbly asks, “a dance, milady?” He jokes around at first, pretending to clumsily bump into her, the wrong step taken when he’s known how to waltz since he was six and a dramatic swoop of his arms as he dips her, relieved when she finally smiles. What a difference it makes. 

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♫ for hyuna [EDIT] jinkyung please!

못해 (I CAN’T TELL YOU by INFINITE MYNAME H

We were so young You were everything But the fluttering feelings stopped Now the feeling is too comfortable

She seemed hesitant when he first asked her but he smiled, took her hand in his, and pressed a gentle kiss to delicate fingertips. Whatever hesitance still laid in her body, made a home out of her mind when it’s unwelcome, he wanted to kiss it away. He thought he could see the future in her eyes but it’s not long before he understands her future isn’t reflected in his own. 

Long hours of training and phone calls when he can’t bear to see her exhausted, hushed whispers when he encourages her to sleep, unheard murmurs of how he wants to hold her weigh heavy on his mind. He didn’t think he was needy or dependent until her. Seik didn’t like the feeling, didn’t want to be comparable to Rome who mopes around when it’s been too long since he last saw his own girlfriend. He doesn’t like how it feels to rely on someone else for his own happiness again. The last time had broken him, left him vulnerable,  weak. 

He doesn’t know when it happened but he starts to see them in a similar light, starts to see Jinkyung the way he saw his ex when she left him. The phone calls become shorter, less frequent, and he finds himself locked in the studio longer than usual. More time dedicated to his editing than to his girlfriend and he regrets the goodbye when it comes, regrets the sad look in her eyes. Most of all, he regrets telling her that it wasn’t her fault. He couldn’t tell her. 

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♫ sends you one late and for luna because i'm too lazy to log into her account

Go Up by Frank Ocean

I wanna go up, take me upDon’t try to hide it, everybody knows you fly

He thought he would run into a few wild things here and there by taking an impromptu roadtrip but he didn’t expect to run into a hitchhiker, much less her. A wildchild at heart but an angel in appearance. She looks ethereal next to the pool, the moonlight shining down on them, and the water hits him before the realization that she’s diving in. 

Shirt soaked, he’s pulling it off with a laugh before he sinks in. It’s freezing but he doesn’t feel like getting out, doesn’t move once he can see her clearly underneath the water. The way her dress flows around her, he swears he has wings and when he finally comes up for air, he knows she took his breath away first. His phone rings from the lounge chair but he ignores it when he looks over at her, he wants to know where this journey goes first. 

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♫ omg

A by GOT7

Hey I already know everythingSo why are you hidingIt’s written all over your face that you like me 

A drink here, a shot there, a hand on the thigh. He claims it started out innocent enough but the way he’s looked at her since the first kiss had been anything but. It was funny to him, that she hadn’t caught on by now. Months in, he already knows what alcohol he prefers, how he likes his drinks, and how to make some of them [especially her favorites but he’s gonna keep on pretending he didn’t look ‘em up just for her]. Months in, he doesn’t need these so-called “drinking lessons” but he encourages it, goes along with it, and lets her think he hasn’t absorbed a single thing she’s told him when he’s been intoxicated from the first taste. 

“Lime first, right?” He asks her with his infamous shit-eating grin, lightly rocking the shot glass in one hand as he reaches out to take a slice. She smacks his hand before she can and he knows the look, that look he’s gonna get as she lectures him and goes on about how she can’t believe he’s so clueless at the same time. He enjoys every second of it, especially the last moment when he brushes her hair back over her shoulder, leaning close so he can kiss her neck before taking the shot, biting down on the lime slime with an even wider grin as he watches her. That’s the look he likes best now, when she looks like she can’t believe she likes an idiot like him. 

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Love Letter by INFINITE 

Oh baby, it can’t be over like thisI couldn’t tell you my trembling heart So I wrote my heart in a letter So I can tell you how I feel Because my heart that only thinks about you Cannot be stopped, I wanna know 

“Why do you keep locking yourself in the room?” 

“Stop jacking off in there to your girlfriend.” 

“Sure you wanna say that when you’ve got that little set-up on your nightstand.” 

“Man, shut up!” Rome does his best to ignore Dumb and Dumber quarreling outside the bedroom as he finishes up writing one of the only letters he’s written to a woman other than his mother. What choice did he have? He didn’t know if her number was the same in the US and this was the compromise he worked out with her cousin. One letter and if she wants to talk to you, then I guess you can. Generous woman, that cousin of hers is. 

All his hopes are resting on this. Here goes nothing. He manages to ignore them as he leaves their apartment and makes his way to the cafe at the arranged time for the hand-off. It feels awkward, uncomfortable to hand someone else his true feelings, placing them in someone’s hands that he doesn’t know but he’s done the same for her once. She owes it to him. 

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You trying to pull a real little mermaid there and disappear? You’re harder to catch than sea foam.Why didn’t you tell me you were leaving? Damn, can’t believe you almost break a man’s skateboard and run away like this. Swim back across the ocean and take responsibility, won’t ya? Part of me means it. Come back. You don’t have to swim. I think I like you. I want to teach you how to ride a skateboard properly without breaking anything. Not the deck or your hips. They’re too nice for that. I gotta teach you to throw a better three-pointer too. There’s still so much I want to do with you. We’ll see each other again one day, yeah? We have to. 

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He took it back and he was called out for it but he had his reasons. This isn’t it. He can’t let this be it and he rewrites his letter on the flight to LA. 

I think we should be together.