I wrote this at 2am cos I read some poems on pinterest n they were beautiful n mine wont be as beautiful but oh well
For as long I can remember,
Actions were easier than words
There's this gurgling thing
That bubbles up my throat
When I try to say "I love you,"
There's this tight constraint
Around my heart
When I try to say "I'm proud of you,"
There's this ugly thing
Rooted deep in my mind
Sprouting
When I try to say "I'm sorry"
I wish it'd be easier
For people to notice
My lingering eyes
And silence
Longing
If I could
I'd say what I meant
With just a touch to your arm
—A gesture without words
When I explain something (or try to)
I stutter and stammer
Over the words
Words I cannot seem to form properly
When I try to write it down
I choke
I think twice
And I rewrite
Until I look at the time again
And an hour has passed
Oh who above,
May I dream
For my thoughts
To no longer be held
Hostage in my mind
And only in my mind
For my semantics
To be translated into words:
Comprehensible
Real words
I'd pour my heart out
Everyday
If so
Do me a favour
(won't you?)
Do not ask me for (my) words
If you'd like
I'll draw it out for you instead
If you'd like
I'll form equations to tell you
If you'd like,
I'll buy you flowers of your favourite colours
Sit by your side for just a moment longer
Engulf myself in the words you tell me
That I'll engrave in my heart
Until we never speak again.
If
You'd like.
If you'd like,
The words I cannot say,
I can show you.
So do me a favour,
please,
If I ever try to (show you),
Will you take the time to look?