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yeonjun:
i feel as though yeonjun would show his jealousy in a more whiney manner
like, he wouldn’t outright say anything to you or the person making him jealous in the moment
i imagine you’re also an idol, maybe even in txt and an interviewer makes comments about your appearance and how you’re the most desirable of the group
yeonjun, being ever professional simply smiles and laughs
lingers behind you as you reject the guy once the cameras are off
but after… he’ll come to you like a big baby all like
“he flirted with you right in front of meeeee..!!” he’d whine out with a slight high pitched tone as he tucked his head into your neck
“i rejected him, i only want you jjunie,” you’d reassure
only for him to respond with, “but i was right thereeeee!!! don’t i look boyfriend enough!!!!” and his perfect lips would form a perfect pout and you couldn’t resist but to kiss his sad face away :(
that would most likely lead to him smiling against your lips and the craziest sex ever.. like full on
“bet he has a smaller dick than me, huh? bet he couldn’t make you drool the way i do. he wishes he could see you like this doesn’t he? too bad only i can see you all disheveled.. only me, right baby? just daddy right?”
yes jjunie has a daddy kink argue with the WALL.
as for what made him jealous, i think he’s a little crazy and would be annoyed when someone so much as looks at you for too long
he would never blame you or your outfit, simply the pervs who wish they could have you
thinks it’s funny whenever you’re jealous, doesn’t really see that he’s just as hot as you
also finds it crazy that you’d think he’d want anyone else
just remind him that you only want him and kiss his pouty lips and maybe give him a blowjob and he’ll be fine…
until you do promotions again
soobin:
sigh… loser soobie doobie.
i feel like soobie would be annoyed by it if anything
also VERY passive aggressive
let’s say you’re in a library, looking at a book that you might want
a rando comes up mansplaining the novel you’re holding and soobin comes up behind you like 😒🤨
FR LOOKS AT HIM WITH SUCH DISGUST.
yall know that clip of him during that live where he’s looking at the members w that disgusted look? yeah that’s him rn
the guy reaches forward to touch your arm all like “i just think this book might be too complicated for you”
ha. ha ha. soobin pulls you back into his chest before the guy can touch you and looks at him so angrily. “they’re fine. they can pick their own book.” he says it with such an eerily calm tone despite his aggressive gum chewing and fingertips digging slightly into your waist.
mf just gives an awkward smile, raises his hands in surrender and walks away
soobin literally mutters “pussy” under his breath LMFAO
he doesn’t really say much after that, only keeping a hand on you till you get to the car
“bunny, do you think i should read this book or this one first?” you ask, lifting up both books as he pulls out of the parking lot.
he rolls his eyes slightly, driving (hotly) and looking only at the road before saying: “dunno. ask your new book expert boyfriend.”
you literally have to stifle your laugh. for soobie, he’s a sucker for your cuteness
soooo u just pout at him cutely and rest your elbow on the console and your head in your hand
“don’t be mad bunny… only want you :(“
he does that thing where he smiles and pokes his tongue to his cheek in faux annoyance (i’m horny)
just smiles and shakes his head, reaching to you and holding your thigh tightly, you rest your hand on his
he may seem all tough right now, but don’t worry soon you’ll have him tied up and whimpering after making him cum over and over to make sure he knows his worth 💋
tbh seems like the type to bring it up randomly too LMFAOO
beomgyu:
beomgyu… hehehe
i imagine this to happen outside of a food truck
he’s waiting w you, probably talking to you about something stupid and you suddenly get a poke on the shoulder
you turn around, and beomgyu looks with you and sees a guy
as you’re rejecting the guy, gyu is literally snickering and giggling to himself
you are so embarrassed by him this mf is literally cackling
you’d think there was a witch behind you
the guy is definitely STILL in earshot as he walks away dejectedly, and beomgyu immediately giggling and smoothly tugging you to be in his arms
“did you see his face???? he thought he had a chance w you???!!! my girl?? yahhhgh!!! he’s soooo stupid!” he says all loudly and dramatically. he has that little smirk on his face as he says this, but has his arms tightly around you as though the guy would come and kidnap you
you see behind the facade, simply reaching up and pressing a kiss to his lips. “only want you,” you mutter, and he hums and smiles against your lips
“ahhh i knowww!! that’s why it’s so funny!”
he’d rather die than admit insecurity in the middle of a goddamn food truck line.
probably doesn’t talk about it until it’s late at night and you’re cuddled in bed
he might even start crying :(
for gyu, i don’t see sex being a good reassurance thing for him
i think he’d prefer to just sit with you, watching a bad movie and making fun of it together
randomly kissing you and every time you know what he wants to hear: “only want you, bear”
if you were to fuck, he’d deffo want to eat you out
“only i can taste this pussy, only your bear,” he’d grumble as you twist his long hair in your fingers, tugging him closer to your sopping cunt
taehyun:
mickey mouse voice: oh boy!
if you think you’re getting any other reaction other than silence, you’re WRONG.
hmmm let’s say you’re at the gym, watching him work out bc wow free show
at one point he walks away to grab weights from the other side of the gym and you wait for him to come back
suddenly, a sweaty yucky man is getting closer to you, and oh wow look he’s staring at you
as taehyun turns around, he sees you talking to him but doesn’t really mind because he knows you’re his
but then he gets closer and hears the guy complimenting your body… he just pauses for a second, making brief eye contact w you and continuing to set up his little work out thing (i don’t work out can u tell)
he knows you’ll tell the guy why you’re actually here
“so… why don’t we go grab protein shakes after you finish working out?” you wanted to scream. you were wearing jeans. WHO WORKS OUT IN JEANS?? you hadn’t touched a single machine and you hate protein shakes. is this guy a dunce.
“oh no thank you, i’m here to watch my boyfriend. he’s right there,” you point at tae, who is now bench pressing over 100 pounds and woah.. hehe
yeah no the guy could not have left faster. tae still doesn’t say anything.
you keep watching him, now sitting on the floor until he gets up from the bench and sits in front of you
before you can ask, he gestures for you to hold his feet and starts doing sit ups
except, after the first one, he starts puckering his lips when he sits up
oh!
sit up after sit up, he kisses you as he comes back up
he literally did over one hundred and you were drunk on him by the time he finished
his way of staking his claim i suppose… probably made sure that the guy was watching too
tbh… that’s all the reaction you’re gonna get
after, you ask why he didn’t say anything and he just shrugs and is like, “i know you’re mine. and you know i’m yours. i don’t need to prove anything.”
then you’re like, “so why did you do the sit up thing”
“i was horny.” you literally choke on your smoothie
when you guys get home he definitely fucks you but not super roughly or anything… super romantically actually
his thought process, conscious or not, is: you could go out and fuck someone and they’d do it emotionlessly. he’s going to fuck you like you built the very universe your souls found each other in. (you did)
huening kai:
just a warning… he’s my bias so this might be a little crazy
you’re in a grocery store, he seems like one of those cringy bfs who’s steer the cart but have you in between him and the cart
i want him.
every few moments he’d press a kiss to your hair or simply lean down and have his face near yours until you got the hint
his chest is against your back… his huge broad chest… i’m ill.
OKAY LET ME GET TO THE ACTUAL JEALOUSY PART
okay so you guys stopped to look at the cereal because you wanted to get the one w his face
as you’re looking, hueningie squats down and checks the very bottom shelf
and thus, the worker that goes up to you does not see him
“hey! you need any help over here?” you look over, pointing to yourself in silent question. the guy nods. kai is immediately tuned into the convo as he pretends to look for more cereal
“hm? oh no! we’re good, just looking for a specific cereal,” you remain vague as to not reveal kai’s identity.
lol imagine you’re like “yeah my bf has a cereal w his face on it! yeah my bf who’s a famous idol!” LMFAOO
the guy nods, and you think the convo is over so you keep looking for cereal as you reach down and pet kai’s hair absentmindedly. you don’t know how reassuring it is to him.
“okay well… i just saw you and thought you were so super cute. like.. how do you not have a boyfriend?”
“i do actually,” you respond without evening looking at him. you tug kai’s hair, silently telling him to make himself known. he gets up, all six feet and muscles wearing a fitted top so you could see all of his strength and hard work as an idol.
“they’re not here,” he says plainly, without the usual sweet tone he’d give you. he also doesn’t even look at the worker.
the guy doesn’t even have enough time to apologize before kai’s leading you and the cart elsewhere. he gets quiet, but a different quiet to the other members. a sad one.
the moment you get home, he breaks down
he sobs, barely able to get out the fact that he doesn’t understand why you’re with him, why you wouldn’t want someone w a normal life, someone who’s more attractive (no such thing), someone who could love you publically
oh my baby :(((((
you pull him into a hug, his head ducking to be hidden in your neck, reassuring him quietly.
“huening… i promise you, you are the most attractive man on earth to me.” you say sternly, “the universe, even. it pains me that you can’t see that. i don’t want anyone else, just you, hyuka. and i love you enough to endure the fact that you can’t be public with us.”
he’s just whining now, not responding. he’s holding you so tightly that you’d think you’d turn into thin air.
after a lot of cuddles with his plushies, he’s okay :)
but then his members come home and see the tear stains on his face
they don’t know what happened and call him a baby and make a bunch of maknae jokes
yeah that’s the last straw. he takes you to his room and shoves you onto the bed (makes sure that not only are you comfy, but also that all his plushies are turned away)
he fucks you until you’ve both cum at least 4 times, and he’s borderline shooting blanks.
he’s moaning so loud, hips are shaking as he keeps pumping into you, filling you up
you’re even louder, legs shaking and hands pushing against his stomach in a faux plead for him to stop
every so often, he’d say something like, “not a fucking baby,” oh negative kai i want you.
“could a baby maknae fuck you like this? oh fuck honey, clench me like that. could that guy at the store make you shake like this? hm?
OH BROTHER!!
yeah neither of you can walk after that. and the members for SURE heard your moans and are now never calling him a baby ever again
unless he does aegyo bc come ON he’s baby then
probably becomes an inside joke between you guys
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Plot: It is believed that if you make a wish during the first snowfall, it will come true. It is also believed that if you confess to someone during the first snowfall, you will be together forever.
Pairing: Choi Soobin x Gn!Reader
Warnings: A couple kisses towards the end but that's it~
A/n: This is my first time writing for Soobin (and TXT) I hope you like it!
Words: 1.9k
You stared up at the cloudy sky as the cold sank into your bones. Part of you regretted choosing to walk home from the restaurant, but a bigger part of you was glad. Solely due to the man walking beside you.
When you had left the restaurant, not wanting to stay for drinks, you whispered to Kai that you'd walk, since it was only a fifteen minute walk back to your house through the nearby park.
You didn't get very far down the road before Soobin was running after you, insisting he walk you back home.
His offer wasn't rejected, and you even felt a little giddy as you continued to walk together. Soobin was always kind to you, almost unnecessarily so. You hoped it meant he had feelings for you, just as you had for him, but you didn't know for certain. The two of you were close, but maybe it was just you hoping for something that wasn't really there, maybe he was just nice.
As you made your way into the park, you noticed the glances he kept throwing you, and you felt a little more nervous every time. You kept waiting for him to say something, but he remained silent.
As something bright caught your eye, you looked out in the distance and noticed bright lights shining out into the sky.
"Oh, look at that!" You called out, causing Soobin to halt and look where you pointed.
He stepped beside you as you turned to watch the lights.
"Must be a lightshow."
You nodded as you continued to watch as various colors shined up into the sky. "Too bad it's not closer."
Soobin looked over at you and felt his chest grow warm at the soft smile on your face. He was happy that he decided to walk you home. And grateful to Kai who had told him you were walking.
Every time Soobin had time alone with you, he always hoped for the same thing. The courage, or perfect moment to tell you how he felt about you. But one of two things always seemed to happen. One, he chickened out for a little too long and lost the chance. Or two, someone or something would interrupt the moment.
Now that he stood beside you, just the two of you again, maybe he finally had the perfect moment.
Feeling Soobin's gaze on you again, you looked over, obviously catching him by surprises as he seemed to jolt from the sudden eye contact.
Soobin kept eye contact with you as he built up courage in his head. Just as he was about to speak your eyes suddenly darted from his to something just between the two of you.
Soobin spotted what you saw and watched as the snowflake slowly drifted to the ground.
As you looked up, Soobin followed your line of sight, as the two of you watched the white flakes appear above you and float down from the darkened sky.
Soobin glanced back to you and felt his heart skip at the sight of your excited grin. As you caught his eyes again his breath caught in his throat.
"The first snow!" You said happily as you looked back up at the sky, the snow slowly becoming heavier each moment.
Soobin's smile widened as he watched you, enjoying the joy and excitement radiating off of you as you slowly spun around, looking around as the snow began slowly caking the ground around you.
"You should make a wish."
You turned back to face with with a smile, "Oh yeah!"
Clasping your hands together as you closed your eyes Soobin let out a soft endearing chuckle as you hummed, concentrating hard.
He watched as you muttered something he couldn't hear before you tilted your head up an remained sill for a moment.
It was hard to think of a wish when you could feel Soobin's eyes burning into you. Since he seemed to be the only thing on your mind, you decided you might as well wish now for something you had wished for a dozen times.
"I wish for Soobin to return my feelings, and love me in return."
It was childish, cheesy and maybe a bit stupid, but it was what you wanted. You adored Soobin, and loved everything about him, you had for what felt like forever, even possibly from the moment you met. He was perfect to you, and everything you could want in someone to love. Maybe the wish was more desperate than anything, but it was still your wish.
When Soobin could tell you were thinking deeply about your wish, he closed his eyes and tilted his head up to the sky, just as you had.
"I wish to be with Y/n forever."
He wanted you to have feelings for him, to want to date him, to want to be with him. But if you didn't share his feelings, he still hoped he could be by your side forever. Even if it had to be just as friends. He could never see his life without you in it, and he didn't want to.
As your eyes fluttered open, you saw Soobin opening his own at the same time. You smiled at each other as you let out a soft giggle. Looking around at the snow again, you suddenly felt a chill as the temperature began to drop.
Soobin noticed this, and as much as he wanted to stay here with you, he didn't want you to get sick.
"Come on." He muttered softly, and you nodded as you began walking beside him, continuing through the park.
As the two of you walked, Soobin purposefully stood closer to you than before, his arm gently brushing yours as the two of you walked together. His eyes scanned the park, before catching on a couple laughing and talking together as they headed through the park.
They were holding hands as they walked, and Soobin suddenly felt a sense of envy wash over him. Sparing a glance at you, he noticed that you had been watching them too.
Clearing his throat, he spoke softly, the confidence he hoped to portray falling flat as his toe came out more reserved.
"You know... it's believed that if you confess to someone during the first snow you'll be together forever."
Your heart raced at his words as you looked up at him, seeing him glance at the cute couple you had been watching a moment ago.
You couldn't help but wonder if they were the sole reason that thought came to his mind, or if he was thinking of something else, or someone else.
You smiled as your face grew warm. "That's a beautiful thought."
Soobin grinned at this as he nodded, hoping that somehow, you knew what he wanted to do, where this was leading. Fearing he may catch you so off guard you would reject him.
"Do you believe it? That couples will stay together forever after a confession during the first snow?" You asked after a moment.
Soobin looked over at you, feeling his heart race faster by the moment.
"Like you said, it's a beautiful thought. So I would like too."
You nodded as you smiled softly, "Me too."
Soobin suddenly stopped in his tracks, and you turned to look back at him with a confused look. He was staring at you, a much more intense gaze on his face than before, and you felt your chest clench tightly.
"Should we test it?"
You stared at him in silence as you tried to keep control of your racing heart. Was he joking? Was he serious?
"W-what?"
Stepping closer, he swallowed nervously and stepped even closer, stopping as he stared down into your face, his chest almost brushing yours.
"Should we test it?" He repeated, his voice more confident.
You opened your mouth to reply, but found no words. Soobin smiled softly at your bewilderment as he reached up an brushed some snow from your hat.
"I want too. With you."
"With me?" Your voice was just above a whisper.
He nodded, "I like you Y/n. So much that it hurts. So much that anytime you aren't around I feel like I'm missing a part of myself. I want to be with you as much as I can."
Soobin gently took your hand in his as he squeezed it softly.
"I want to be by your side forever. Even if you don't love me, or can't love me, I still want to be here, right here."
"Soobin-" You muttered, before your voice stopped as you wracked your brain for what to say.
Soobin stared at you, waiting for you to continue, his heart racing, and his chest growing tighter as the moment of silence dragged on.
"I want to be with you too."
Soobin let out a shuddered breath in relief as you finally spoke, his smile growing wider at your words.
You smiled up at him as you continued. "I had convinced myself my feelings were one sided."
Soobin shook his head, expressing once more he truly did feel the same.
You squeezed his hand as you briefly pressed your face into his chest out of bashfulness. He chuckled joyfully at the action as he rested his hand on the back of your head.
Looking back up at him you grinned. "I really like you Soobin, I have for so long."
Grinning, he suddenly pulled you into a hug as he embraced you, squeezing you tightly as joy and relief erupted through him.
He rested his head on top of yours for a moment as he held you, letting the emotions flow through him freely.
You muttered softly into his chest, "So we're gonna test it?"
Soobin smiled, "Yeah we are. And I think we'll prove it right."
You pulled away and looked into his eyes, "You really want to be with me forever?"
He stared into your eyes softly as he nodded, before bringing his hands to your face. "I really do."
You grinned at each other as a mutual pull seemed to form between you. You glanced at each others lips before slowly inching forward tentatively.
Pausing just as your lips brushed, your eyes met as if to confirm you wanted the same thing. When no reservation was shown, your lips met slowly, the touch soft yet cold due to the cold night embracing you.
Soobin slowly deepened the kiss as his hand drifted to your waist to keep you close. You gently gripped the collar of his coat as you leaned into his touch.
When the two of you broke the kiss a few moments later, you stared into each others eyes before smiles slowly formed on your faces.
You chuckled and he furrowed his brow, "What?"
He caressed your cheek as you continued to grin at him. "I just didn't expect my wish to come true so soon."
Soobin felt his heart clench as he pressed his forehead against yours, his smile growing wide. "Seems like we had similar wishes then."
"Yeah?"
He nodded, "But, mine's a little ongoing."
"How so?"
He hummed, "I can't tell you, otherwise it wont come true."
You glared playfully before you giggled. "Alright, don't tell me. But I'll make it come true, whatever it is."
Quickly pressing another kiss to your lips, he grinned, "You promise?"
You nodded confidently, "I promise."
xx End xx
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wc: 6.1k (excluding the A/N) genre: crack, fluff, angst (barely) warnings: profanity, mention of strokes.
summary: soobin finds out about your crush on him through accidental text messages, and confronts you later that night.
•••
During the span of your friendship with the boys, you’ve had a few arguments here and there. Small ones, of course.
But you never thought you guys would be arguing about this.
Who has the best contact names on their phone.
“My God, Yeonjun, yours are so boring!” Beomgyu practically said with disgust.
Yeonjun scoffs in response, “Mine are boring? They’re literally just your names? If anything, your names are boring.”
Everyone begins to talk over each other as if this was an actual heated debate.
You were currently sitting at a table outside of one of your school’s campus dining halls. You and the boys decided to meet up for lunch, just like you typically do. It had been Taehyun’s turn to pick lunch this time, willingly deciding on Panda Express.
During this whole session, you and Soobin remained silent, just observing the idiots that were taking this seriously right in front of you. You two shared glances every now and then, chuckling as you gave each other the are they serious look. Soobin brings his chopsticks over your way to steal some of your noodles, which were plenty since you were too busy observing your friends.
You and Soobin met back in high school, where you had met the other boys. You were both partnered in your chemistry class, bringing you to interact more with each other. You would always blush whenever he’d slightly brush your hand, even if he had his gloves on. You knew right then that you were falling for this guy, and the more that you got to know him, the stronger your feelings grew.
The one thing you hate to admit, however, is that Beomgyu was the reason you two even met.
You’ve known Beomgyu much longer, ever since you two met in elementary school. He had accidentally stepped on your hand during playtime, making you cry, and offered his second juice box, forming an instant friendship. You’d like to believe that was the last time he ever shared anything with you.
Beomgyu had been in that same class freshman year. When your teacher was deciding on lab partners, there was an odd number. Only you, Soobin, and himself. Beomgyu had noticed your trailing eye contact on Soobin, so he volunteered to work alone, even if it meant extra work. He knew that you felt something for Soobin, even before you knew yourself.
Though, what had confirmed this for him was when he overheard you and your friend talking about it near your locker one day. He was on his way over to invite you to lunch when he happened to walk up at the right time. He’s the only one who's known ever since never missing out on a day to tease you.
And today was one of those days.
“Okay, we’re not getting anywhere,” Beomgyu resolved after all this time, giving a deadpan stare to Yeonjun while talking. “Soobin, what’s yours?”
Soobin had appeared to be caught in the middle of a thief robbery, chopsticks in mid-air as he was ready to eat his noodles. Still, he gave a small smile, making you smile a little as well. Beomgyu looked towards your way, as he teasingly raised his eyebrows at you.
“Okay, I have Taehyun as Big Brain,” Soobin began, Taehyun nodding in satisfaction, “Yeonjun as JunYeon, Huening as Golden Boy, Beomgyu as Choi Beomgyu-”
“I’m sorry, what?” Beomgyu began to ask, Soobin furrowing his eyebrows in confusion. “That’s the worst name ever!”
“Yeah, what the hell is JunYeon?” Yeonjun complained, squinting towards Soobin.
“No, I don’t care about that. What the hell is Choi Beomgyu?” Beomgyu dramatically questioned.
“...Your name?” Soobin said, longing for his response.
“Wow, so you don’t even bother to come up with-”
“Okay! We’re not having this debacle again, what about Y/N?” Taehyun impatiently proposed.
“Y/N.” Soobin answers, almost a little too fast for a response.
“Really? I thought-”
“Yeah, it’s just Y/N.” Soobin cuts Kai off mid-sentence. You could’ve sworn that Kai almost flinched in pain, but you look over it.
Just Y/N.
There was really no reason for the disappointment you felt, even as little as it was. You were hoping he had come up with something cute or said that he had a nice emoji next to your name. Considering what yours was for him, this was much more normal.
“Okay, Y/N, you’re last.” Taehyun smiled brightly at you, seeming to have also looked past Kai’s actions.
Beomgyu smiled mischievously at you, ready for your response. You stare at him, almost telepathically raising your voice with shut up.
“I have Taehyun saved as Terry the Magician, Yeonjun as Chauffeur, Beomgyu as Smelly Rat, Kai as My Favorite Child, and Soobin as Binie.” There was no way you were actually going to say what you saved him under, so you lied at the last part.
“I’m your child? I knew I was your favorite!” Kai gushed, hugging your side as he swayed you back and forth.
“Lucky, they only see me as their designated driver apparently.” Yeonjun scoffed, rolling his eyes.
“So if Kai is your child, who’s the dad, Y/N?” Everyone weirdly looked at Beomgyu, confused as to why he even asked this. You weren’t.
He would always try to tease you whenever he could, so you knew he was taking this opportunity for his foolishness yet again.
“Um, I don’t know, who do you want your dad to be, Kai?” You nervously fidget with your chopsticks, looking towards Kai.
He shrugged, “I don’t care. You can be a cool single parent!” You smile proudly at Beomgyu, who seems to have had defeat in his mission to taunt you.
“That’s a shame, he might be closer than you think,” Beomgyu replied in a sing-song voice, slightly shifting his eyes towards Soobin.
You grit your teeth together as you reach towards Beomgyu’s foot under the table, quietly, but forcefully, stepping on his foot. It’s a success, as you see him flinch in response, almost trying not to react.
“I smell another lie,” Beomgyu cleared his voice, stating in an old-timey detector’s voice as he pointed his finger up.
“Ugh, so what? You’re Smelly Rat, get over it Beomgyu.” Taehyun had it up to here, after hearing Beomgyu complain about his name so many times.
“No, not me. What did you say your name for Soobin was, Y/N?” Beomgyu leaned towards you, squinting his eyes as he smirked so widely. You really hoped that your eye twitch wasn’t too visible.
Soobin looked at you expectedly, still smiling the ever so slightest, oblivious to what Beomgyu was implying.
“Binie.” You plaster a fake smile on your face.
“Seems a little basic, I don’t think that’s it, Y/N.” Beomgyu sucks in his breath as he begins to shake his head, a fake confused expression on his face.
“It is.” You confirm once again, your hands balled into fists. You reached your foot to step on Beomgyu’s once again, him still trying not to react to the pain. Taehyun looks over at you and Beomgyu, both of you seem to have had some sort of dead stare competition.
“They said that’s his name Beomgyu, why are you so persistent about this?” Taehyun asked, chuckling a little to ease the tension between you two.
“I’m not!” Beomgyu lets go of his stare back at you. He laughs shortly, completely dropping his whole act as if he wasn’t questioning you, to begin with.
As if the heavens were listening to this conversation, the bell rings, signaling for your last class.
There’s some background conversation about your plans to hang out after school, but you were not invested. Your mind was still thinking about what just happened, and how annoying Beomgyu was acting towards you.
You begin to walk to your next class when you feel a hand grabbing yours. Soobin’s.
“Hey, you left this over here!” He presents your hydro flask with a smile on his face.
Maybe you could use that to knock Beomgyu’s big head.
“Thanks, Binie!” You grab your bottle from his hand, giving a smile in return as you two go your separate ways.
As you walk to your class, someone calls out for you yet again. You look back and see Taehyun, who runs to catch up with you.
“What’s up?” You ask as the both of you are walking at the same pace now.
“I just wanted to see if you were okay,” You furrow your eyebrows. “You seemed a little upset back there.” Taehyun finishes, referencing the scene at the lunch table.
“Oh, that? Yeah, I’m fine,” You reply with a laugh. “That was just Beomgyu being Beomgyu, you know how he is.” You try to reason.
You really hoped that Taehyun wasn’t using his smarts in this situation. You didn’t want anyone else finding out about your crush on Soobin.
“Are you sure? He really wouldn’t let it go.”
“He was just being funny, it’s not a big deal!” You respond in a failed perky tone, almost contradicting your answer.
“Okay, it’s just, he was being weird about the whole thing with Soobin. It’s almost like he knows something-” You widen your eyes at his thoughts and cut him off.
“Hey, this is my stop! Thanks for walking with me, Terry.” You smile, gesturing towards your class. He nods and gives you a hesitant thumbs-up as he walks away.
You could see the confused expression on his face as if he was still trying to reason why Beomgyu had acted so weirdly towards you. Not good.
•••
Your last class of the day, psychology.
The lights were turned off, as the projector was displaying a documentary your class had been watching. You look over at your professor, who seems to be dozing off while grading papers.
As you sat in your seat, you couldn’t help but not pay attention to the content that had been showing for the past hour, which is unlikely for you.
Normally, you look past Beomgyu’s taunts regarding your crush on Soobin. They were mostly pretty minor, so you were never serious about them. Except for today.
You had no idea why Beomgyu took his comments the way he did, but it made you angrier by the minute. Thoughts were rushing through your head, the main one being your fear about Soobin finding out about your feelings towards him. If he was going to find out through anyone, it was going to be you.
You knew you were going to see Beomgyu after school, but you had to talk to him now. The next time you see him, you wanted to make sure his act was cut out.
You reach out for your phone, thankful that you sat in the back where your professor couldn’t see you. Your phone’s brightness was at the highest setting, immediately making you turn it down all the way.
You go to your messages, and click on the first contact, remembering that Beomgyu had been the last person you texted. To hide, even more, you lay your phone on your lap, pushing it under the table so that the keyboard was the only thing you saw. You were ready to give Beomgyu your wrath.
You scroll up your messages with Soobin and see that he messaged you an hour ago, during this class, which you had not seen before. How did you not notice just how confused he was? And not the Beomgyu kind of confusion, but genuine confusion?
You told Soobin you liked him, even if you didn’t mean to. You blocked Soobin right after the realization hit you. Soobin is probably panicking right now, wondering if he’s upset you even more, even if he's not the reason you’re mad at yourself at all.
You needed more time. Soobin is probably expecting you to go into more detail just as to how this all happened. More importantly, wanting to know how you really feel about him. And this scared you.
You hadn’t even noticed that your hands were fully spread on the table, your mouth wide open, your breath staggering, until the lights turned on and the projector was off.
“Alright, guys, I’ll see you on Monday! Have a good weekend.” Your professor said through yawns. Your eyes were moving per second, still trying to comprehend what just happened.
You begin to slowly pack your things, your hands shaking, your eyes watering, and your lips chapped from the lack of moisture.
“Y/N! Are you coming with us to the library?” A voice asks you. You look up and see Lia, from your school’s spirit club. Ironic, you felt like you had no more spirit in you at the moment.
“Uh, w-what for?” You stutter, your mind going completely blank.
“The party our campus is holding is next week! We’re all decorating posters and deciding on food, drinks, you know, basic party planning stuff.” Lia boastfully replied.
“Oh, sorry, I completely forgot about that.” You shake your head, rubbing your temple in the process. You make your way around the table as you sling your backpack over your shoulders.
“Yeah, most of us did.” Lia laughs, as she watches you head her way, the two of you leaving the room. “To be honest, you don’t have to come! Most of us volunteered to stay and the rest went home, so it’s okay if you don’t want to, this one isn’t mandatory.” She fills you in as you two walk around campus.
You both are close to where Kai’s building is, where you see Soobin waiting around a pole in the hallway. You stop walking, and Lia follows your lead, confused. You widen your eyes at Soobin’s figure. He was waiting for you.
You cough, as you grab Lia’s shoulders and turn the both of you to the library’s direction. “Yeah, I’ll come! It’ll be fun planning this stuff, I have nothing to do anyways.” You hurriedly make your way to the opposite direction, still holding onto Lia’s shoulders.
“Okay, fun! The more the merrier!” She exclaims. She’s confused at your sudden change of heart, but doesn’t question it.
You had a lot to think about during this meeting, and party planning was not one of them.
•••
Soobin stood in the hallway, hoping to see you walk towards him any minute now. You two always saw each other here after your last class. You both would meet up and hang around to wait for Kai as the three of you headed to the parking lot where all six of you would leave campus. So when you hadn’t shown up for more than 10 minutes, he grew worried.
He leans against the pole in sorrow, thinking about you. They’re embarrassed, he thought to himself. He would be too, if it were him in this situation. But he still wished he could see you, and talk about this together.
He wanted to tell you he felt the same way too.
“Soobin! We’re ready, where’s Y/N?” Kai asks after walking up to Soobin, Beomgyu right next to him.
“Beomgyu, I thought your class was in the other building?” Soobin didn’t mean to change the topic, but he was genuinely curious as to why Beomgyu was with Kai. It was always just you, Soobin and Kai who met up here, considering your classes were around the same area. Beomgyu, Yeonjun and Taehyun’s buildings were across the end of campus.
“Oh, my class got cancelled. Something about our professor having a stroke, I dunno. So I went to buy a churro but they sold out and I waited for Kai near the patio here-”
“Wait, hold on, what even happened?” Kai interrupted, pure concern on his face after hearing what Beomgyu said.
“What, the churro? I know, I can’t believe they sold out! We should go get some when we leave-”
“He meant about your teacher having a stroke, dumbass.” Soobin doesn’t normally respond this way, but the situation with you made him extra anxious.
“How am I supposed to know? I mean, I hope he’s good. I can’t say I missed having a lesson though.” Beomgyu shrugs sluggishly. He was beginning to grow tired after the long day.
“Anyways, back to you, where’s Y/N? I thought you three always met up together?” Beomgyu asked, remembering that Kai mentioned the same thing earlier before the conversation shifted.
“They didn’t come this way, I guess.” Soobin knew he had to tell them what happened, but he was hoping that they wouldn’t question him.
“Do you think they walked towards Yeonjun and Taehyun’s building instead?” Kai asked, giving Beomgyu his water bottle after Beomgyu kept swatting him in the arm as Soobin spoke.
“Maybe, I’m not sure.” Soobin replied, feeling more guilty the more he answered. He knew you were avoiding him, one way or another.
“Okay, long legs, what's up?” Beomgyu asked after taking a sip of water, giving Soobin an obvious glance. “Did something happen with Y/N?”
Beomgyu and Kai shared a look together, and they fixed their attention onto Soobin’s phone, which Soobin had been staring at this whole time.
Soobin placed his gaze back onto the boys in front of him, who had been looking at him expectedly. “Just…read this.” He hesitantly responds, handing them his phone. They furrow their eyebrows in confusion, but do as he says anyways.
“Y/N called you a rat! They called you a dickhead!” Beomgyu laughs loudly, bringing his hand near his mouth, which is practically gasping for air.
“Read it till the end, genius.” Kai rolls his eyes, but sends a sympathetic look to Soobin.
“Oh. Wait, they thought it was me?” Beomgyu is still reading through the conversation, but finally brings himself towards the end. “Oh my God, they finally told you! Well, kind of. Hah! And they thought I was gonna be the reason you found out. It was actually them instead! How fucking ironic, I can’t wait to shove it in their face-”
“Beomgyu, Y/N blocked him! That’s the main issue here, how stupid can you be?” Kai impatiently interrupts once again, feeling more sorry for Soobin as time goes by.
“Oh, well, yeah, that’s not good. It’s kinda funny though, you have to admit.” Beomgyu nudges Kai’s shoulder, expecting Kai to joke around with him.
“Yeah, it is kinda funny.” Kai gives in, chuckling a little.
“You guys! Can we focus here! Y/N likes me, but they blocked me, and I have no idea where they are! I just wanna talk to them and tell them that I like them too!” Soobin interjects, his voice cracking in desperation. His eyes go wide and he immediately covers his mouth.
Just like you told Beomgyu about your feelings for Soobin, Soobin had told Kai about his feelings for you. The only difference was that he willingly told Kai about it one day, contrasting how you felt forced to tell Beomgyu.
“Dude, I already know.” Beomgyu admits, toneless. “Huh?” Soobin asks, already starting to panic.
“Kai told me.”
“Kai told you?!” Soobin exclaims even more, sending a dead stare to Kai, who was holding his arms up in surrender.
“In my defence, he forced me to tell him!” Kai accusingly points at Beomgyu, who gasps after being exposed. “He was already starting to suspect me, not to mention, he saw the note I wrote about the fun date ideas you both should have!”
“Hey, hey, hey, don’t blame this on me! Blame Taehyun, he’s the one who forced me to clean up the dorm! You should learn to cover your tracks better!” Beomgyu defends himself as he raises Kai’s water bottle as if they’re in some sort of court case.
“Okay, and? You’re partially the reason Y/N even exposed themselves in the first place, if anything, you should be the worried one!” Kai whines.
“Not my fault they have terrible eyesight, apparently! You betrayed Soobin’s trust by telling me!” Beomgyu pouts in response.
“Because you forced me to! Don’t you know? I’m Y/N’s child. They love me. I’m their favorite.” Kai reasons.
“Not for long.” Beomgyu scoffs.
Kai and Beomgyu’s bickering went on for a good 5 minutes, arguing who was gonna have it worse when Y/N finds out.
“You guys!” Soobin interrupts again, even more impatiently. Beomgyu and Kai stop arguing, as if they just got scolded by their parents. Beomgyu gives one last arm swat towards Kai, who was ready to swat him back when Soobin spoke again, “The time is literally going by! Yeonjun and Taehyun must be confused about where we are!” He states the obvious.
“They can wait, we have bigger issues here.” Kai says.
“Exactly! So what are we going to do to fix this issue?” Soobin begs for an answer.
“Okay, first of all, calm down. If you keep creasing your forehead you’ll get wrinkles,” Beomgyu begins, receiving eye rolls from Soobin and Kai, “Second of all, let’s think about this. Y/N thought they were texting me, called you names, which was still funny by the way-”
“They thought it was you, stupid. They meant to call you bad names.” Kai corrects.
“Anyways,” Beomgyu ignores, “They accidentally told you that they like you, thinking it was me. You told them it was you, and they blocked you.”
“Yeah, that’s right,” Soobin confirms, still expecting to hear some sort of plan.
“That’s all I got.” Beomgyu finishes.
“You literally just went over what we already know!” Soobin yells, running his hand through his hair. “You know what, I’m just gonna-”
“Wait, wait, I got something.” Kai volunteers, stopping Soobin, who was ready to leave. “You and Y/N are in the spirit club together right?”
“Yeah, why?” Soobin nonchalantly responds.
“Don’t you guys have some sort of meeting?”
“Yeah, but Yeji told me that I didn’t have to go, it was whoever volunteered to plan the party.” Soobin answers.
“What if Y/N went? I overheard Jungwon say that the meeting was being held in the library, so maybe they’re there?” Kai wonders out loud.
Soobin’s eyes light up, just like a kid’s would on Christmas day. “Kai, you’re a genius! Thank you!” Soobin begins to rush over to the library when Beomgyu holds onto his sweatshirt.
“What’s your plan, loverboy? You can’t just show up there, Y/N is probably mortified.” Beomgyu states.
Soobin stops as he runs his hands through his hair again, groaning in frustration. Beomgyu’s right.
“Well, they have to be there! He’s apart of the club, it’s not like they’d freak out to see him there,” Kai reasons, “He has to talk to them somehow.”
“What’s he gonna do then? Sit on the steps outside the library, bring Y/N a hot chocolate or something and wait until they finish with the meeting?” Beomgyu suggests, insinuating how Soobin would be a total idiot if he actually did this.
Too bad Soobin is an idiot. An idiot in love.
And with that, Soobin leaves the two hotheads, rushing towards the library to do exactly what Beomgyu suggested. The two boys are left alone in silence. That is, until Kai speaks up again.
“You do realize it’ll be your fault if Soobin messes things up with Y/N, right?” He asks as he drinks his water bottle.
Beomgyu snorts, slapping Kai’s water bottle out of his hand, leaving Kai to give him a stare.
“Shut up, Golden Boy.”
•••
Soobin stood on the library’s steps, wrapping his sweater around the hot chocolate in his hand to prevent it from getting cold.
Night had fallen, which took Soobin by surprise. You’ve been in this meeting for about 5 hours, and he’s been waiting for you since.
Although he’s grown more nervous by the minute, this time has allowed him to think about what he wants to say to you. He figured you would still be embarrassed by your actions, so he wanted to do the majority of the talking for your sake.
Soobin’s hands trail on the outer surface of the cup, as he softly chuckles to himself. You were a sucker for hot chocolate, and now that the weather was beginning to cool down, you had been craving it.
The boy couldn’t help but to think about all the things he likes about you. How honest you are, ready to give any feedback to someone despite it may crush their spirit. How adorable you can be, and how it shines whenever you and Kai are together. You two really did have a parent-child relationship, and he adored that.
What he likes about you the most, is how you make him feel. Anything you do gives him butterflies.
Whenever Soobin would boast about a test grade he received to the group, everyone else would barely give him the time of day, but you were always there to celebrate with him, even doing little victory jumps in sync, embarrassing the others.
How you always respond to his texts. Even in the group chat, if he ever sends something that is overlooked, you’re always the one to reply to that specific message giving your response. Soobin appreciates how you always make him feel seen, important, like he matters.
His thoughts are put to a stop when he hears the conversation inside the library. He quickly whips his head to see you and Jungwon saying your goodbyes. Soobin prepares himself, fixing his posture and hair, stretching out his neck and shoulders.
Now or never.
“See you, Y/N!” Jungwon leaves in the other direction. You wave him goodbye and shudder at the sudden brisk as you walk down the steps. That’s when you see him sitting down. Soobin. You could recognize that head anywhere.
You stopped your tracks. You knew you had to talk to him, the opportunity is literally right here. You gulp down all your nerves, and breathe out all of your worries.
Soobin still hadn’t turned around. He knew you were behind him, so he waited patiently for you to join him on the steps, which you did.
You slowly make your way over to where he was sitting, and stand right next to him, receiving a glance in response. Soobin looks up at you, sending you a dimpled smile. The smile that drove you crazy.
You kick your leg out of nervousness, but greet him with, “Hey.”
“Hi.” He replied, his smile never leaving his face.
You sit down next to him, a gap between you two as you fold your hands together, messing with your fingers.
“Did you wait all this time?” You asked, your gaze never leaving your hands.
“Yeah, someone thought I was lost, then realized I was an adult.” Soobin responds, chuckling to himself lightly. You smile a little.
“Is that hot chocolate?” Your eyes shift towards the cup in his hand, which was still inside his sweater.
He raises his eyebrows, remembering about the beverage. “Yeah! I, uh, got it for you. I figured you’d be cold, so I... here.” He reaches to hand it to you, as you stare at the drink in front of you, the small smile never leaving your face. Soobin brought you your favorite drink. Maybe he doesn’t hate you like you thought he did.
You take it from his grasp, raising it to your mouth. You open the lid and dip your tongue in, making sure the drink isn’t scorching hot, a mistake you’ve made plenty of times.
The drink is just warm enough, allowing you to drink a plentiful amount of it. You hadn’t realized just how much you needed this right now.
“It’s not too hot, is it? I tried keeping it warm inside my sweater, I didn’t want you drinking it cold when it’s meant to be hot, you deserve to drink it warm-”
“Soobin. It’s fine, thank you.” You cut him off, but gave him a genuine thank you. He nods in satisfaction, flustered by how he came across.
“I’m sorry.” You begin to say, hands messing with the styrofoam cup.
Soobin furrows his eyebrows, “Why are you sorry?”
“For…my messages. I really had no idea it was you,” You answer honestly. “I’m...I’m sorry for everything.”
Soobin brings his gaze towards you. “Everything?”
Your eyes blink in confusion. “What?”
“You’re sorry for…everything you said?” He searches through your eyes, which still hadn’t met his.
You don’t respond. You were dumb enough to text the wrong person, but not dumb enough to not understand what he was implying.
Of course you weren’t sorry for admitting you liked him. You weren’t sorry that you were in love with him either.
“Y/N,” Soobin takes the cup you held onto for dear life out of your hands, placing it on the step below you two. “Please, look at me. Talk to me.” He pleads.
“I can’t.” A whisper escapes.
“Why?” He hums questioningly.
A sob escapes your mouth as you bring your hands to cover your face, feeling your hot tears trickle down your cheeks. “Soobin, it’s not even as funny as I tried to reassure myself it could be. I’m embarrassed. Here I was, mad at Beomgyu for possibly exposing me to you, and then I do that? That’s the lamest thing in the book of cliches, and I always pitied the people who did it. Now I’m one of those people. For the rest of the day, all I could do was play out what happened in my head. Seeing your messages, reliving the embarrassment that came over me. Even during this stupid meeting, I pretended that nothing was going on, even if Sunoo saw right through me. I feel so ashamed right now, this isn’t how I wanted you to find out. Just...please don’t hate me for this, I can’t lose you.”
You begin to cry exasperatedly, frustrated with yourself and the current state you’re in. You felt bad that you forced Soobin into seeing you like this, but you can’t stop yourself.
For the longest time, you kept your feelings for Soobin bottled inside. Sure, Beomgyu knew about it. But his teasing didn’t make you feel any better. In fact, it made you even more upset with yourself, annoyed that you had taken this long to tell him. Yeah, Yuna was the first person you told. But right after Beomgyu found out, you couldn’t bare having more than one person knowing. You told Yuna the next day that your feelings were wrong, and you didn’t like Soobin. You chose Beomgyu to be the only person who knew, because he was friends with Soobin too. You thought, hey, maybe he could help me out. Little did you know.
“Y/N, look at me.” Soobin speaks again after watching your breakdown.
You sniffled, but did as you were told. You look up at Soobin, the smile never leaving his face, which confused you. He was smiling? While you were crying? Glad someone found this amusing.
“How could I ever hate you? Especially for this?” Soobin begins, scooting closer to you. He gently places his hand on yours, and caresses it softly. “Y/N, I don’t know if you can tell, but I love you.” This takes you back, this time it’s you searching through his eyes for answers.
“You know, I had this whole speech planned out. What I was going to say to you, I mean. And to be honest, I wasn’t expecting you to cry,” The last part made you shamefully bring your head down, to which Soobin brings it back up with his touch. “It’s okay, you’re not pathetic. If anything, it’s good that you’re opening up to me. I’d rather you cry than to keep all of this to yourself, pretending all of this meant nothing to you.”
Soobin scoots even closer to you, bringing your hands tighter with his. “Don’t get me wrong, I don’t like seeing you cry. But, I know the reason you’re crying is because you feel strongly about this, right? One of the things I admire about you.” He compliments, waiting for a smile in return, in which you did.
“Y/N, nothing matters more to me than you, and how you feel right now. There will be another time when I tell you just exactly what I had planned out, but right now, all I care about is comforting you. You’re not pathetic for sending those messages. If it makes you feel any better, I would’ve done the same thing. Don’t you remember when we all went to Six Flags and some dude was wearing the same outfit as Yeonjun? I went up to that man and hugged him from behind and he started yelling at me.” You laugh in reminiscence, pleasing Soobin.
“We all do silly things, Y/N, please don’t beat yourself up for this. What matters is that, I like you too. Isn’t this good? We both like each other. Focus on that instead. And you’ll never lose me.”
At this point, Soobin was practically holding you in his embrace. Luckily for him, you stopped crying. He wondered to himself what he said that made you stop, but he was sure glad that he did.
“You like me?” You shyly ask.
“Very much so.”
The way he’s looking at you, suddenly everything’s okay. You forgot about what Beomgyu said today, you forgot about how you had been the biggest idiot to ever live on this Earth, you forgot about your breakdown that you just had in front of Soobin.
What matters is that, here you two are, staring deep into each other's eyes, reassuring each other that everything is okay. We’re all human.
“Come here,” Soobin invites you into his arms, which you gladly accept. He’s warm, and his embrace is comforting.
This is what you’ve only ever dreamed of. Not exactly crying in front of the love of your life part, but the sentimental moment you and Soobin shared. You could stay in his arms forever.
You felt him place a small kiss on your head as he let go of you, but brought you to face him.
“I love you.” He says again, still with the biggest grin on his face.
You softly giggle, “I love you too, Binie.”
“You know I love it when you call me that, right?” He asks, giving the biggest eye smile he possibly could. You nod your head as you poke his dimples, this time making him giggle.
“So, what happens now?” You ask, reaching for the hot chocolate once again.
Soobin purses his lips in thought. “Hmm, well, I just confessed to you. Well, kinda, there will be another time where I give you the whole I’m in love with you speech, and that time will be when I ask you out. After some dates, it’ll be official. I’ll ask you to be mine.”
“Why not do that now?” You stare at him longingly in a dream-like state.
He smiles excitedly, as he slyly asks, “Will you be mine?”
“Oh, you know I do.” You reply, scrunching your nose cutely, to which Soobin plants a kiss on your nose.
“Should we get out of here? We should join the boys at the dorm.” Soobin gets up from the steps, stretching his body.
“Yeah. Did you not get up even once?” You ask amusingly, staring at his little workout.
“No, I had to make sure your drink was still warm!” He replies with a pout. You desperately wanted to kiss his lips, but decided to save that moment for a better night.
•••
You two head down to the parking lot, where you see his car parked. Soobin’s pinky is holding onto yours, as he gently swings your hands back and forth.
You’re ready to open the car door, when he stops you.
“Can I just ask one thing?” Soobin moves you from the door a bit. You hum in response.
“What do you really have me saved as on your phone?”
You chuckle to yourself as you take your phone out from your jacket. You open his contact and hand your phone to him.
Soobin melts, “Cute! You even have me in my cow pjs as my picture.” He fondly looks at his contact.
“Yeah, well, I took that picture! It’s special to me, look how cute you are looking at your phone.” You gush, attempting to take your phone out of his hands.
He stops you from doing this, however. You give him a frown, as he holds up a hand at you, looking down at your phone. You see him begin to type something, making you curious. Soobin hands your phone back to you, as he opens your door, and goes to the other side to get inside the car.
You’re still outside, wondering exactly what he did. You see his contact, and notice that he unblocked himself, thankfully. You notice the other change he made, leaving you with the goofiest grin on your face.
A/N: writer val is back! if i’m going to be honest, this oneshot was the hardest to write for me. i went through a lot of technical issues, and i had to delete a lot of things that i had written. i don’t know why i didn’t consider text box limits, or picture limits. so if some things are wonky, or don’t make sense, i hope you understand! considering soobin is my bias, part of me wanted to make this extra special lol. i tried out making texts for the first time and due to the issues i had, it looks like they’re gonna be long instead of next to each other so i’m sorry for that :( i wasn’t expecting this to be as long as it is, almost 3k more than yeonjun’s, but i had a lot of ideas for this one. so now, i’m hoping you all enjoy this one. as i’ve said before, feel free to send an ask telling me literally anything (nice ofc)! i love answering them. i read your reblogs too, which make my day so much. i hope you enjoyed reading, and please look forward to my next works! a lot of exciting stuff planned. - val
pspsp: have you noticed a pattern since the last oneshot? whose do you think will be next?
warnings: maybe some spelling errors, idrk what i'm doing i'm just going with the flow, not proofread, lower case intended, english isn't my first language !!!
a/n: i'm also working on a "lee know as ur bf" as a continuation for my "skz as ur bf" series, but i had already started writing this a few days ago so i decided to finish it tonight :)
the cutest, softest, most cuddliest boyfriend ever :((
he puts so much trust in you, hence he isn't afraid to show you his vulnerable side at all.
you're his safe place and he feels so extremely comfortable with you <3
when he feels too overwhelmed or just needs support he immediately comes to you, because he knows that you're there for him :(
being a leader brings a lot of pressure and responsibilty, so sometimes it's a little too much for him to handle
so he usually comes to you to rant or ask for some advice on how to handle a certain situation
something as simple as knowing your shoulder is always there for him to lean on is so reassuring ;(
but he also loves to hear you rant to him,
he feels very proud to know that you trust him enough to tell him your worries <3
if you start crying he will pull you into a warm hug, your head pressed against his chest, and won't let go until you have fully calmed down 😞
soobin's hugs™ are the best medicine !!!!
doesn't even care if you stain his shirt with your tears, he can always wash it later on :)
might also silently cry along with you, because seeing your teary eyes and hearing you sniffle honestly breaks his heart </33
speaking of soobin's hugs, let's talk about how much he loves cuddling you <3
because soobin 🤝🏻 skipnship w/you
usually prefers being the big spoon cuz he's quite literally a giant-
but he also really likes it when you lay on his chest and he gets to kiss the top of your head once you fall asleep in his arms :(
he's literally so warm-
like, i'm not even kidding, he's WARM !!
but just the right amount :)
it's rare, but, if he goes to bed angry at you, he turns his back on you, refuses to cuddle and curls up on himself a little >:(
but there's a way to win him over, and it's quite simple 😚
if you wrap your tiny arms around his waist and bury your face in the back of his neck, trying to big spoon him, he will melt
it gives him goose bumps when your your warm breath hits the nape of his neck, your nose brushing over it, it makes him feel all tingly and warm inside
BONUS POINTS IF YOU LEAVE A GENTLE KISS ON HIS BACK !!!
he really won't be able to resist you :(
just lets out a sigh of defeat and turns around to face you, hoping that the dark will hide his now crimson red cheeks 😢
he also really likes it when you give his dimples some extra love and attention !!
but the thing he loves the most is when you kiss them
along with kissing his entire face of course.
please please PLEASE pepper his face with kisses it makes him feel so loved :(
absolutely adores it when you place feather kisses on his eyes, cheeks, dimples, nose and last but not least, his lips :(
and if you praise him and tell him he's the prettiest, most perfect human being you've ever seen it's just a cherry on top <33
he gets so shy and giddy when you do that, it makes his heart flutter
he will return the favor though, don't worry!!
you also ask him to scrunch his nose a lot‼️
i totally didn't include that just because i love it when soobin scrunches his nose
also, sitting in between his legs is a must !!
especially if youre watching a movie together,
he will make you sit between his legs with your back flush against his chest as he snakes his arms around your waist
probably also puts his chin on top of your head
one time he fell asleep in that position, with his head resting in the crook of your neck :(
he also lets you borrow his shirts
because he loves your smell that still lingers after you've returned them
he throws his clothes at you, especially, if he has to be away from you for a while, like maybe he's going on a tour etc.
he wears the clothes that he made you take let you borrow at night because your scent brings him comfort <3
also you two put on face masks together 😩
at first he really wasn't a big fan of the idea, but
once he tried it out he kept on begging you to bring more
he views it more as a fun couple activity than a skin care routine
going out in the rain !!
he just thinks it's really romantic :(
one of his hands is clutching onto the umbrella and the second is holding onto yours tightly, your fingers intertwined as he swings your arms back and forth
glances over at you from time to time to admire how pretty you look under the street lights
if you catch him staring he's going to look away from you with a shy smile
you can totally see how red his ears got even when he tries to act cool <3
he acts like a teenager in love even though you two have been dating for over a month now, but it's really adorable 😔
if you two don't kiss in the rain then expect him to whine to you about it later on :(
squish his cheeks, because even though he may act like he hates it, he secretly thinks it's adorable and endearing
he also practices his MC lines with you <3
he's still a little nervous and doesn't want to mess up anything, so he asks you to help him with the lines
you reward him with a peck on the lips everytime he doesn't mess up the script.
you're his number 1 fan, you always watch him mc on KBS
and him knowing the fact that you're back at home, supporting him, just makes him 10x more confident <3
movie dates !!!!!!!!
there are two types of movie dates that you two go on:
movie dates at home, when you're both far too tired to keep your eyes open and focus on the actual movie and the plot, instead using it as background noise as you two cuddle up close to each other, falling asleep.
and the actual movie dates, like going to the cinema and buying tickets for something you both have wanted to watch for a while :D
the movie dates are never planned to be honest,
one day one of you messages another about a new movie that came out a few days ago and the next thing you know, you're on a call with each other, figuring out which row seats you should buy‼️
soobin also refuses to buy two packs of popcorn
but that's only because he likes how your hand touches his when you both dip your hands in the pack at the same time <3
also, sometime during the movie he starts holding your hand
don't question it though, it's just because he loves the feeling of your hand in his
can you do idol!reader x idol!soobin and a fic of how the two of them catch feelings idk
c.sb - idol!soobin x idol!reader falling in love hcs
pairing: idol!soobin x idol!gn!reader
genre: fluff fluff fluff
synopsis: hcs on how u and soobin started dating :33
warnings: none! except for cat ears but nothing can be done there ☹️
a/n: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE REQUEST!! i hope you like it (this is very intimidating) and i hope you don’t mind that i made it hcs!! hope you enjoy and feel free to send in as many requests as u want hehehe
i think you guys would have had to meet at mnet, or something of that sort
he was a rookie, you had debuted a year before him, and he was always a huge fan of yours
he didn’t really know much about you, other than how talented you were.
so you may be asking, how did he catch feelings?
well…
all of the members had their own little introduction moments when you first debuted
you were all nervous and he was a trainee at the time and something about seeing someone he looked up to being nervous brought him so much comfort
and then he watched more and more of your videos. and performances. and interviews.
it may have started as a comfort thing, but then it turned into being jealous whenever your fans would talk about you
or when the members would make fun of him
yeah he has a few posters of you in his room what about it
so a little bit after txt debuted, he was the MC that year with arin, and was so excited to interview u!! until he was told that for the cat & dog promotion he had to wear dog ears. the. whole. day.
“i’m gonna end it,” “you’ll survive” “THEYRE GOING TO SEE ME IN DOG EARS!!”
cut to members laughing hysterically and him pacing back and forth
he was soooo red during the interview that you even went off script, pointing it out which made him laugh and cover his face (he wanted to implode on the spot)
but then… him being flustered made u laugh and…
yeah he got a little hard on stage SO WHAT??
after the interview and after he had calmed down he was walking with his members (all dressed in cat and dog ears) and he saw you and i think he actually died
tried to hide behind beomgyu (stupidly) and was immediately met w a “yahh!” and a shove into the wall
the loud bang of his back hitting the wall made you look over and he literally refused to look at you
you felt sad for him and wanted to make him feel better, so u tried to give him a compliment!
“nice ears!” you smiled, but his flustered mind immediately made him think you were making fun of him. he didn’t respond, just bowing slightly and shuffling away awkwardly
when you told your members, they were absolutely horrified
what do you MEAN you complimented the ONE thing they had been insecure about?? OBVIOUSLY THEY THOUGHT YOU WERE MAKING FUN OF THEM!!
oh. oh god.
the next day, you were absolutely mortified and had to make things right, especially since you were a big fan and had a raging crush on the long legged loser
this day, you had an interview with the mcs as a group, and after you had promoted your new album, you went up to him.
yeah no soobie was pissing his pants
“hello.. i just wanted to say that i didn’t mean what i said yesterday to be mean! i genuinely think it’s cute and i love your group so much!” you beamed at him
he literally reached to his arm and pinched himself
no fucking way dude
he smiled nodded and physically could not do anything else other than bow
you seemed overly professional with him, and that made him sad
“alright well, i have to go. fighting!”
bro just nods like 😦
on the very last day as a mc, he knew he HAD to get your number
he tried to talk to taehyun, since he has borderline gotten every idols number
taehyun laughed and said he didn’t have rizz.
so he decided to just wing it
yeah haha that didn’t go well
he found you after your performance, you were sweaty and WOAH brother he was having thoughts
“hello!” he bows, “you did so good!” you didn’t really respond bc like.. why is he talking to you?? you have a strictly professional relationship
you smile awkwardly and thank him, before falling into DISGUSTING silence (how soobin describes it)
“um… i just wanted to say that i really liked your… your performance? and… i really like… you?”
L RIZZ!! (it worked on you so bad)
he was stuttering and nervous and was basically ASKING you if he liked you
you decided to put him out of his misery
“thank you!” you bow, “i have to go soon, but if you give me your number we can talk more?”
soobin borderline got on his knees and thanked jesus personally
in reality he just nodded super eagerly and was shaking so bad he had to rewrite his name in your contacts four times
now, you’ve been dating for three years
you still make fun of him for that whole event, and he wants to die everytime but it makes you laugh so he doesn’t care all that much
he still hates how he needs to act super professional towards you on camera
he wishes he could kiss you in front of everyone so they’d stop shopping you with people other than him
and so everyone knew you were taken
physically pains him whenever he sees a fan try to flirt with you
or another idol even doing so much as talking and laughing with you
my bf crazy he kill people
you just need to reassure him with kisses to his little bunny lips and he’ll be fit as a fiddle
no guarantees if you’re getting anything done that day tho…
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pairing: soobin x gn!reader (written w male in mind, but no actual descriptions of gender)
genre: pure fluff, tooth rooting disgusting fluff
synopsis: your best friend, soobin, and you get up to baking shenanigans :3
warnings: none :)
w/c: 500+
a/n: foist of all, i know that soobin is at least decent at cooking/baking, it was just for the plot that i made him bad :33 alsoooooo this is based on this ask my lovely 🕷️ anon sent in on my alt acc, @incognitorio btw! i hope this lives up to your standards my love :3 also thank u to my number one moot, @techalex for helping me proof read it, ur my baby girl fr
in all the years you had known soobin, he was never good at baking. or cooking, but he sure did try to do both. you think this might be how you ended up wrapped up in one of his countless 3 am baking ventures. you could lie and say that you hated being woken up by his wide smile and eager eyes.
but there was nothing you loved more.
“no, dude, you’re wrong! the recipe says to add a cup of baking soda i swear.” he insisted, despite there being less flour than baking powder inside the bowl.
“okay first of all! don’t ‘dude’ me. second of all, look at the bowl!” you pointed at the bowl that currently held one tablespoon of flour. “there’s no way that’s it. let me see,” you demand, reaching forward and trying to snatch soobins phone from his side of the counter.
he immediately grabs it, lifting it above his head and forcing you to stand down. he looked down at you, and you were suddenly reminded that you were madly in love with a man who had no idea. it wasn’t like you tried to hide it, it’s just that he liked playing league of legends, and therefore he was just a little bit oblivious to romance.
he smirked at you, causing your eyes to flicker to his perfect, curved lips, “i’ll dude you if i wanna. dude.” he teased.
you looked up at him; jaw clenched and despite the playful nature of the situation, you wanted to kill him.
kill him for being so…
so perfect.
you decided the best option was to reach up, clench the collar of his sweater in two closed fists and pull him down.
your lips caught each other in between a soft grunt from soobin and a pull from you. you weren’t like two puzzle pieces destined to interlock, no. you were like the moon and the sun. he needed you. in a flash, you were his light and he was your blanket. your lips collided in a mess of stars, the universe dimmed, a total eclipse.
his eyebrows furrowed, he dropped his phone onto the counter in lieu of gripping your waist, a fervent attempt to hold you closer.
soobin let out a soft, “mph!” as your lips collided, but now, he was softly letting out breaths in between your mouths, little moans and desperately chasing your lips.
finally, when the sun and the moon had to leave each other, you pulled away. your chest rose up and down rapidly as you stared into his blown-out brown eyes, bunny-like lips, and eyes looking at you, yearning for you.
he let out a soft giggle, and you followed suit. soobin leaned forward while his face was red and lips curled into a smile. hiding his face in your neck, you reach up, curling a finger into his smooth hair, and scratch it softly.
“hey… so was that casual or…” you mutter after a beat of silence.
he pulls away, turning back to his bowl of disaster and his phone.
he simply mutters, “you’re an idiot,” before finally realizing you only need 1/4 teaspoon for the chocolate chip cookies.
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wc: 4.6k (excluding the A/N) genre: fluff warnings: the intro is pretty long, just to build some background, but other than that, none! this is based on the song, happy birthday soobin <3
Throughout your whole life, fate was never something that you believed in.
The idea of someone coming into your life at the “right time” had been difficult for you to understand. The more that people had gone in and out of your life, the more you distanced yourself from this narrative. By the end of everything, there was little to no hope left inside you, and you thought it would never grow ever again.
Until you met him.
You and Soobin shared a class together during the summer. It was a tight class, so you were already feeling quite comfortable in the setting, knowing that you wouldn't have to make conversation with most of your peers. You decided to sit somewhere near the front, mostly to avoid anyone ever looking back at you, waiting for someone to grab a seat next to you. You noticed that everyone around here seemed to know each other, as they greeted one another with hugs and handshakes after taking their seats.
So everyone knew each other already. Great.
As time went on, hearing your peers interact with one another started to make you feel lonely. The more you sat alone and heard conversation amongst the other students, the more discouraged you became. Maybe I shouldn’t have taken this class, you thought to yourself. You couldn’t help but look around at your peers, a tight smile placed upon your lips as you watched them interact with one another. You felt the pit inside your stomach grow and began to feel the tears well up inside your eyes as your eyelashes fought them back with their blinks. You messed around with your pencil, pushing the lead out and pushing it back in. You glanced up at the clock, seeing that there were only five minutes before class had begun. A sigh escapes from your lungs and your head can’t help but sink itself on top of your desk, where your folded arms welcomed it in its place.
You just wanted to become friends with someone that you actually liked. Most of your friends either ghosted you, or you distanced yourself from them because you felt like you didn't belong. Part of the reason you even took this class was that you had nothing to do during the summer. You were going out of your comfort zone, socializing within this class anyway. You just wanted to make a friend, spend time with someone.
You just wanted someone to be there for you.
At this moment, you heard the empty seat next to you scoot back and forth, the person fixing their position.
Your eyes widen as they land on the person next to you. He positions his feet under the table as he brings himself closer to the desk, seeming to have had an awkward encounter with the rather small area, given his big figure. Your head hadn’t lifted itself from your arms on your desk, only titling to your right side, where you could catch a glimpse as to what he looked like. Some of your hair was covering your eyes, blocking most of the view. The only thing you could make out was his dark hair, which was carelessly off to the side, but not too messy. It’s as if he kept fixing it throughout the day, a habit you also shared. You couldn’t last one day without touching your hair or fixing it every minute.
Your gaze begins to move past his hair, as you continue to take in his other features. He had worn these slightly thick pair of glasses, the dark color complimenting his hair well. They shaped his face perfectly, something you were envious about considering your pair was bigger than you’d like them to be. His nose would scrunch as he looked at his phone, presumably to make sure he was in the right class. His lips would purse off to the side, displaying a rather deep dimple on his left cheek to make its appearance. You hated that part of you wanted to poke it and wanted to find out if there was another one shared on his other cheek, coming to the conclusion that there probably was. You quickly disregarded this thought.
You reach the end of your observation with your eyes fixing on his clothes. You could only look at his upper body, his legs hiding under the table, also with your head not being able to look that far down considering your placement. He’d worn a black button-up, with a fresh white t-shirt under it. A silver necklace was dangling from his neck as he shook his left leg, a movement you could feel even if you were hiding on top of your arms. His outfit was simple but clean. The black complimenting both his hair and glasses, the white shirt adding some color to his appearance. You observed people a lot, their clothes too, and you came to the conclusion that he had probably been wearing black jeans with a new pair of converse, because who wouldn’t choose to wear new shoes for a new school year.
With all this time spent observing this guy, you thought several minutes passed by. You even thought class started by now and you were about to be scolded for appearing to have fallen asleep, on your first day.
But it was only ten seconds.
Crazy what the mind can make you believe.
Seeming to have realized he’s actually seated next to someone, the boy looks at you, eyebrows raised in realization, his mouth open as some teeth appeared. “Oh–sorry, is this seat taken? I didn’t ask, I probably should’ve, I can go-”
You were hearing his voice for the first time. The slight deepness threw you off a little, but there was a sweet tone hidden under it. He flips his phone in his hand, waiting for an answer from you. You bring your head away from your arms on your desk, folding your hands together, looking towards his way. You shake your hand and give him a small smile. “No, don’t worry, I was actually hoping someone would take it.” You add, your voice a little unsteady.
This guy was attractive. Really attractive.
He nods in response, a relieved smile forming on his face, showcasing the dimple on his cheek once again.
“I’m Soobin.” He greets. He places his phone on his desk as his hand hesitantly makes its way towards you, ready for your hand to shake it. Within these seconds, you thought he was probably the most endearing guy you’ve met. You figured he was a nice guy just based on your observations, but this confirmed it even more. His leg still hadn’t stopped moving, but the dimpled grin never left his face.
“I’m Y/N.” You respond, your hand finally shaking his. You two give each other a firm handshake with a welcoming smile, yours finally appearing and his growing even bigger. As you shook his hand, you realize that he had soft palms, a little cold from the cool air in the room.
You just met, yet you wanted to hold his hand forever.
“Y/N. I like that.” Soobin comments, his face flushing a deep red after realizing how weird his comment could come across. Never had you thought your name was anything special, but hearing him say it out loud gave your stomach some sort of fluttery sensation you couldn’t explain. You flush in response, but your nod sends him an inaudible thank you.
Your gazes are still on each other as you enjoy this new interaction. At this point, Soobin has what is probably the biggest grin plastered on his face, his eyes almost disappearing within the smile, making you wonder if his cheeks would start to hurt any minute now.
You hear the bell ring, seeing your teacher begin to write on the whiteboard. Before you could bring your attention to the front, you couldn’t help but notice one thing.
You were still shaking hands.
Within the span of six months, you and Soobin grew closer than ever. You started to hang out in non-school settings, and any awkwardness you once felt was non-existent at this point. By this time, you two were practically conjoined by the hip, unable to ever be apart from each other.
You got to know him better as a person, being exposed to all of the great qualities he had. Soobin was kind to everyone, and he was always so gentle with the people he encountered. He was such a good listener, and you loved how easily he was able to retain information because what you had told him weeks ago, he’d be bringing it up now. He was also just fun to be around. Every time you spent time with him, all of your worries seemed to have disappeared. With his comforting presence, you felt that you were able to be your true self around him. You were able to confide to him about anything, not worrying about him judging you, an issue you’ve had with past relationships in your time. The way he cares for others, how pure his heart is, the amount of love he had to share with people. There was a lot to admire about him, and you found it difficult to even conclude what those things were. He was just that special to you.
Soobin was unlike anybody that you’ve ever known before. Even though you had always dreamed of being with the right person, no one came close to him.
It was no wonder you began to grow feelings for him.
You came to this conclusion when you noticed that the more you hung out with each other, the more butterflies that began to grow inside you. Anything he said to you made your heart race faster, ready to beat out of your chest. You even noticed that anytime people would come across more on the flirty side with him, the jealousy would hit you. It made you more upset knowing that Soobin seemed to be going along with it as if he was oblivious that he was even being flirted with. This only made you feel like you had no chance, and that he would never see you that way.
One day you had stumbled across a site that had caught your eye alongside the road.
A dandelion field.
You made your way onto the field, bringing the blanket that was inside your car with you. You settled it onto the ground, and seated yourself, taking in the view around you.
It was more of a grass field, just with a lot of flowers around it. The air was nice and cool, softly blowing the grass and flowers in different directions. The sun was near to being set, and the ambiance of the color and the warmth it provided made the scenery much more beautiful.
Dandelions were supposed to be lucky, right?
You never really believed in luck, or fate for that matter, but something had changed in you.
Soobin had changed you, for the better.
Being around him all this time, you were beginning to welcome hope back into your life. Soobin was like your hope that you had been missing in your life. With his optimism and his encouraging words, the version of you that rejected all good things that could happen to you was suddenly welcoming those things with open arms. The way he would look at you, you've never felt more alive. You felt free from bottling your emotions inside after all this time. Soobin’s whole presence was everything to you.
You lay the blanket on the ground, as your body takes its seat. You pick up a dandelion from the ground and twirl it around your both hands, staring at it longingly. You admire the white fluff placed on top of the soft stem that had been a little wet from the moisture of the ground. You looked at it for a good couple of minutes or so, almost like you were searching for an answer.
An answer, that is if your best friend could ever like you back.
There wasn’t much that you could express. All you knew was that you loved Soobin so dearly, and you just wanted him to know that. He made you happy.
You take in a deep breath, inhaling the crisp air around you. You stop twirling the flower and bring it closer to you. You close your eyes and hold the flower dear to you, afraid that it’ll fly away somehow. Your mind was clear, with only one thought you were ready to wish.
Won’t you let my darling know?
You exhale a long breath as you readily blow on the flower. You open your eyes, watching the flower’s bracts fly away into the air, the wind taking it in its direction. You bring your legs closer to your chest, admiring the sight even more as your head nods in satisfaction.
You came to this field every day. You’d only ever blow one flower each day, convincing yourself that if you’d blow more than one it’d ruin your chances somehow. Even though you felt some content coming to the field every day, your fate lying into the flower and watching it fly in the air, there was still some doubt in you.
Would all of this even work?
You’re choosing to rely on a dandelion field instead of bringing yourself to tell Soobin yourself. You guessed that was your way of avoiding rejection you could potentially be facing. You thought to yourself, could Soobin even sense that you liked him? Would all of your wishing come true, and he’d miraculously like you back?
That is what he proved exactly when he confessed the same feelings for you, asking you out just two weeks later.
It wasn’t extravagant, you two were just studying together at your school’s patio area. Every time you looked up at him, he was always looking right back at you. You had asked him if anything was wrong, and that’s when he told you directly.
I like you.
Your eyes widened at the revelation, but you couldn’t help but give him the biggest smile you could possess. You two just sat there, your gaze set towards each other. The way he was looking at you, you could see the whole universe in his eyes.
You saw forever in those eyes.
You had no idea if this was due to your wishful thinking, or the dandelions themselves, but it happened. He feels the same way about you and wants to be something more with you. Soobin can’t help but smile during this, displaying the eye smile that you always adored and loved. He made you feel safe, you felt like maybe there was something to look forward to in life, knowing you’ll be spending it with him.
You felt okay.
Three months later, and here you two are, ready to arrive at the next location for your date. You’d been on dozens of dates, but the feeling of excitement never left you. You enjoyed every minute with him, you enjoyed every activity you two did.
Although you must say, you’re not enjoying the blindfold on your eyes right now.
“Okay, we’re out of the car now! Can I take this blindfold off now?” You ask your boyfriend, as he guides you to walk in front of him with his hands on your shoulders.
“No, we’re not there yet. Five minutes, I promise.” He reminds you in a sing-song voice, emphasizing the last word in the process.
“That’s what you said five minutes ago Soobin,” You complain, a frustrated sigh leaving your lungs. You had no patience for this.
“This is the last five minutes, I mean it this time,” He confirms, rubbing your shoulders a little.
“You know, someone might think you’re kidnapping me right now. I could call the cops on you if I wanted to and you’d be arrested! You wouldn't handle jail.” You ridiculously point out. You’re speaking nonsense at this point, in desperation to arrive at this location faster.
Soobin brings himself close to your ear, letting out a small chuckle that sends you chills down your body. “If I was in jail you wouldn’t have anyone to kiss, would you now?” You’re thankful that your eyes are covered, or else he would’ve seen them widen in their sockets. He seems to know this, knowing that these things always fluster you. He gives you a kiss on your head and announces, “We’re here!”
Your hand starts to lift the blindfold off when Soobin’s hand interrupts you. “Wait, wait, wait, not yet!”
You let out another groan, stomping your foot several times. “Then why say we’re here if I can’t even take it off.”
Soobin lets out another chuckle as he walks you further. You weren’t really annoyed, nothing could ever bring yourself to get annoyed by Soobin. But to be fair, you’ve had this blindfold on for the last forty-five minutes, and you were worried your makeup would begin to smudge.
As if your thoughts completely took over you, you start taking in your surroundings as much as you could. Soobin began to walk you slower, meaning that you both were closer to your destination. The further you walked, you felt prickling against your exposed ankles, but not too sharp. In fact, it almost felt a bit ticklish for you. The wind blew calmly in the air, and you took this opportunity to get a good whiff of it. The air was crisp and relaxing, the more you breathed it in the less worrisome you felt the longer your boyfriend dragged you against your will.
But you knew that air too well, you knew this ground too well.
Could it be?
“Okay, I mean it this time, we’re here! You can take it off now,” Soobin releases his hands away from your shoulders, using them to give small claps.
Your hands slowly release the blindfold, the fabric finally being freed from your eyes. You had to blink a couple of times due to the fact that you hadn’t seen anything for so long. Once your vision is clear, you see what’s in front of you, and where your boyfriend has taken you two.
A dandelion field.
The same dandelion field you always went to.
Almost as a reflex, your hand makes its way to cover your mouth, as you look around the field in awe. You hadn’t been here since you and Soobin started dating, but nothing’s changed. The flowers are still where they are, the air is still clean. The fact that it’s near sunset, the same time you would always be here.
And this brings you to tears.
How did he know? You never told Soobin you have ever been here, this was something that you kept to yourself. You found it embarrassing if he ever found out just why you went there in the first place. A tear falls down your cheek, sending a cold sensation down your face. You can’t even wipe it away.
“So, do you like it? Not gonna lie, I almost forgot how to get- hey are you crying?” Soobin stops himself as he brings himself closer to you, seating you both on the blanket below you, which he must’ve prepared while you were looking off into the field.
You didn’t answer him, instead choosing to focus your gaze on the dandelions in front of you. Your eyebrows furrowed in thought as your head tilted slightly to the side. There were still tears in your eyes, but they couldn’t make their way down your face, almost like they’re confused themselves.
“Y/N, what’s wrong? Do you not like it? Oh God, you’re not allergic to these things, are you? I should know these things-”
“How did you know?” You barely let out a whisper, interrupting his panic session.
“How did I know what?” You turn to look at him. Soobin is mostly concerned, but just as confused. His eyes are looking past yours at lightning speed.
“How did you know about this place?” You ask again, this time more clearly. You watch his head shift back, stunned by your question. He looks around the field a couple of times, before meeting your eyes once again.
“I saw it when I was on my way over to your place last night, I took a little detour. I knew I wanted to take you here so I didn’t tell you about it,” He explains. Soobin scoots closer to you as he crosses his legs near his chest and brings his head down slightly. “Do you…not like it?”
Your eyes widen at his question, immediately wanting to reassure him otherwise. “No! It’s just,” You look at him again, the concern still written on his face. You sigh and begin to fidget with your fingers, trying to find the right words. “I’ve been here before.”
Soobin blinks a nod at your answer, uncrossing his legs and shifting in his position. “Oh, well, that’s good right?”
Your silence comes back again. All that was heard was the light wind blowing in the air, flowing through your hair. “It’s embarrassing,” you mumble out.
Soobin places his hand on your leg, using the other to shift your gaze towards him. You see his reassuring smile on his face, his eyes seriously looking into yours. “Baby, nothing you say to me is embarrassing. It’s just us here.”
You give a small nod, and his hand leaves your chin but the one on your leg still remains. You watch the dandelions move freely against the wind and bring yourself to speak.
“I used to come here before we dated,” You begin. You check in with him to see his reaction so far, only to see your boyfriend nodding to this information. You continue, “Nobody knew except me, I did this more for myself I guess. I…I liked you a lot, but I was too afraid of ever telling you. So, I came here to,” You pause, as you look up at the sky, seeing all the stars glimmer, realizing that the sun has already set by now.
Soobin hums, signaling you to continue. He would always do this whenever you spoke, it’s a habit of his. You always appreciated the sign that showed that he was truly listening to you.
Which helped you continue on.
“I came here to think about you, to think about what we could be, what I wanted us to be. I’d come here every day before sunset to just…wish upon these dandelions that one day you’d be mine and that we could become something more,” You turn back to see the tree you were leaning against, a small smile appearing on your lips, “This is even the same spot I would sit at too.”
You look towards your boyfriend, his eyes never have left yours. There’s a shy grin on his face, which soon forms into a soft laugh coming out from him. “Crazy.”
Your eyebrows furrow together, confused with his response. Was he calling you crazy? You were starting to regret this confession, wishing you had never hinted you were familiar with this location in the first place.
Soobin plays with the laces on your shoes, finally speaking up again. “Would you believe it if I said I used to come here too?”
Your furrowed eyebrows change their position to raise instead. A silent gasp escapes from your lips as your eyes blink continuously in shock. “What?”
Soobin fondly looks at the flowers in front of him, nodding in confirmation. “I would come here before sunrise, in this same spot actually.” Your head gawks forward after hearing this. He even sat at this same exact spot?
“But…I thought you said you saw this place before you came to my house last night?” You recall, trying to piece this puzzle together.
“Never said it was my first time.”
His eyes are still set on yours, his grin turning into a smirk as he tilts his head in response. You can’t help but let out a scoff out of astonishment.
“I used to do the same thing, wishing on the dandelions, I mean. I was going to tell you when we came here, but I wasn’t expecting this” He adds, this time a little more shyly. Your shoulders shrug in agreement, your mouth still opens as you process all of this.
“That’s– that’s crazy.” You conclude, referring to the same choice of words Soobin used earlier.
Just how did you both manage to come to the same location, the same spot, different times of the day, to do the same thing?
Maybe fate really did exist.
“I used to think to myself, how people would always say that love comes once in a lifetime,” Soobin thinks out loud, still looking towards the flowers on the floor. “Never used to believe it before. But when I met you, all of that changed. My perspective changed and I realized,” Soobin brings himself to look back to you, your gaze never have left him. He reaches for your hand, intertwining his fingers with yours as he brings your hands closer to his.
“That I’m pretty sure that you are that love of mine.”
He was being dead serious, his eyes expressing his realization. You returned the same look.
Because he was that love of yours too.
“Y/N, when I think about my future all I can think about is you,” Soobin admits, grasping onto your hands in emphasis. “You’re my future, I see you being in my future. You’re my forever.”
You attempt to blink back your tears, but they’re already making their way down your cheeks. To his instinct, Soobin brings a finger to wipe it away, cupping the side of your cheek.
“Soobin, I feel the same way. So much so, that it’s crazy. You’re the best thing that’s happened in my life, and you’ve opened my eyes to things I couldn’t see before,” You reach for the hand that was cupping your face, choosing to hold his instead so you were holding both of his hands. “I see you being in my future too, forever.”
Soobin can’t help but smile at this, his eye smile melting your heart. The amount of love you had for this boy is insane, you couldn’t even express it.
But what matters is you both knew. You both felt the same way.
You want to spend forever with each other.
Soobin lets go of one of your hands, using the free one to reach for a dandelion. He rips it from the ground, placing it between you both. He smiles, and you knew just what he wanted to do.
“To forever,” He proposes, his eyes never leaving yours, showing so much admiration.
“To forever,” You repeat, moving some of his hair to the side so you could see his face better in the night.
As if on cue, you both blow on the flower at the same time, watching the particles fly in the wind, spreading into different directions. Your lips place on his, giving him a sweet peck you were waiting too long to do. He softly laughs in between the kiss and embraces you onto his side as you watched the flower fly into the wind.
Everything about this was special, what once was you wishing for each other on your own time, was now what became a night where you did this together.
As you watch the sky, your thoughts began to rush through your mind. You were lucky to have found Soobin when you did. He made you feel things you’d never felt, believe in things you’d never believed in before. No one would come close to him, there is no one else better. He was your person, and he’ll always be the one for you.
You couldn’t wait to see what the future had to hold for the both of you.
A/N: as you probably put together, this is a special fic for soobin's birthday! this is based on the song called dandelions, which is a song that's very meaningful and personal to me. it probably sounds crazy, but this song has gotten me through a lot of tough times in my life, so it's my all time comfort song. it reminds me a lot of soobin, and i didn't realize it until i became a moa. i listened to it and realized that wow, it reminds me of soobin so much. all of the lyrics in this song remind me of him, and there are even some references of the lyrics in this fic! even if it might be cringe lolz. the way that this song comforts me, and what it means to me, is exactly how i feel about soobin. i've only been a moa for about 4 months, but i couldn't imagine what my life would be like if i hadn't noticed soobin. he means so much to me, and it doesn't take much for him to make me feel better. i love everything about him. i love how caring and attentive he is with others, i love his passion for his work and how hard he tries, i love him as a leader, i love how much he interacts with moas. i just love him. it's hard to put it in words, but i think you guys have seen me express it numerous times. that being said, this fic is pretty self-indulgent. dandelions being my comfort song, soobin being my comfort person, how this song reminds me of him. the pic i used is even from cat and dog era and i wasn't even intending on that but we all know how much i love cat and dog soob choco ball my beloved. i've been going through some terrible things in my personal life. soobin, txt as a whole have gotten me through it and give me the happiness that i desperately need. writing this was a healing moment for me. i hope you guys listen to this song and i hope it brings you some peace and comfort like it does for me. happy birthday soobin, my love <3 - val
pspsp: sorry for the slow posting life has been a bit crazy. i do plan on being more consistent, once i get college stuff out of the way. i'll try to post during this time though, so if you want to request anything here's an anonymous form you can fill out! and if you want to read the works i have so far, here is my masterlist!
