Jan 25
and then raas locked themself in their quarters and Freaked Out for a few hours
#raas rt#they were so ready to write this whole thing off as a failure during the Dreadful small talk at the beginning of the scene#they could've given up declare that heinrix van calox cannot be seduced#and besides they've stabilized their protectorate now they only did any of this for protection and maybe they don't need it now#and they certainly dont Want It they dont Want to like that heinrix protected them from uralon & from the genestealer sire#and they don't. don't they.#so why does something soften in their chest when the conversation moves to the regicide board#easier to slip back into the gambit lay it on so thick they cant sort out the affectation from the sincere and then He Kisses Them#and its sweet and gallant and chivalrous and the very idea that they have an Inkling of genuine feeling for an inquisitor makes them spiral#soooooooooooooooooo bad#(also me cas* i must admit my fondness for the recurring descriptions of heinrix biting his fingers/knuckles...#the thought of him tearing his cuticles apart in a moment of anxiety and then forcing himself to put it back together is sooooo)#raasXheinrix
