Ambivalenz
Fandom: Rogue Trader
Ship: enby!von ValanciusXHeinrix van Calox
Word Count: 1,108
Rating: Explicit
Summary: (adj.) Simultaneously experiencing or expressing opposing or contradictory feelings, beliefs, motivations, or meanings. A heavy makeout session—and Raas von Valancius’ thoughts—quickly spiral out of control.
“S-sorry.” They smile, easy but embarrassed. By the unruliness of their autonomic nervous system. By the very act of indulgence. To lose the run of themself trying to feel something genuine… “Not all of us have as much control of ourselves as a biomancer.”
Heinrix’s gaze drags slowly down the length of them to the darkening patch of fabric between their legs. His mouth hangs open, gaped around words that Raas does not expect to come. Skittish in all things physical, and now Raas has gone and spooked him, maybe ruined the whole affair, at least for the night.
But before they can suggest trying again later, Heinrix is dropping to his knees.
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