#sorry for thinking

[abirdie]

[dancooper]

chamomile tea looks so like tiny worms in the teabag

[solientus]

Went for diner with my cousins for my grans birthday and it was ok. I borrowed some books from her to read in the summer/when I have time(yay). Also bought a dress and some fabric to finally make something with (fabric is v expensive I had no idea) and did no work lol. Felt kind of good for the past two weeks, the weathers been so lovely, like summer, and it just makes me feel so care free and light. I'm worried that college is going to stress me out like last year and I will burn myself out just to get good grades. I want to get good grades but it's so hard and I can't I can't I can't I just want to go away, I want everything to go away. I'm trying to do nice things that make me happy because I seem to have lost everything that did. Sometimes I feel like such a mess compared to everyone around me. Like how do I feel like I'm struggling so much when everyone else is has their life mapped out and know exactly what they're doing and why their here. I have no idea. Everything's a mess and I can't breathe.

[carmycoldsore]

It's funny.. how things change.. I remember when my best friend and I made a plan. Once she turned 15, we were gunna pack our bags and leave. We we're gunna just start walking down the train tracks by her house and never look back. It was a really dumb plan considering we would be too young to provide for ourselves, but we didn't care because we just wanted to leave and we had each other so that's all that mattered..   The funny thing though is... I moved.. she isn't my best friend anymore... we don't talk... I haven't seen her face in months... I haven't heard her voice in months. I just miss her a lot because she was the only one who understood and made me feel special. She was the only one I could actually be myself around. 

[jynxcomplex]

So then - if the humans can become tricksters and this is supposedly supposed to be some trump card miracle . THen they are going to become God Tiers --- then what the fuck does a trickster God Tier look like ? 

[S]Lord English, prepare for massive butt fucking 

[vxkarians]

the train of thought is rarely actualized inside my head: I try to shut it down before it goes anywhere. its futility is at the forefront of my brain -- the conceptualization of it as reality is laughable at best.

but I watch them.

and I wonder.

and sometimes, I like to imagine there's someone thinking the same thing about me

it's a nice break from the reality of how unattractive I am