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[sceosource]

Hi, are you thinking of doing sceo secret santa again?

Possibly!

If there is enough interest we definitely will. :-) 

[jellyfish-aquarium]

For the ship meme: bro, we all know you just want someone to ask this so: Endeavour x Hawks

nhNHGNHGN Seems like I’m THAT predictable XD The EraserMic one was a surprise, tho!!! Anywho:

Hawksdeavor:

Who wakes up first in the morning:

Endeavor. He follows a strict schedule. Hawks will sleep past 12pm if he lets him.

Who’s the first to fall asleep at night:

Hawks. He’ll fall asleep as soon as he touches the bed, if he has nothing else in mind.

What they playfully tease each other over:

Hawks will tease Endeavor over ANYTHING. His age, his (lack of) knowledge of memes, his hero costume (I mean, his titties ARE ON fire), etc. Endeavor will tease him about being his fanboy, after he discovers it, by revenge only.

What they do when the other’s having a bad day: 

It’s hard to tell when Hawks is having a bad day, since he acts like everything is fine. For Endeavor it’s even harder; he isn’t used to care about others, and Hawks is hard to read. If he notices, tho, he will try his best that day to be more affectionate with him, and keep his eyes open for what might be the problem.

If Endeavor is having a bad day, he will be more irritably than usual. Hawks will get him to sit down and just relax for a bit, evolving him in his wings. He will keep cracking jokes, and although Endeavor doesn’t really get any of them, he is glad that Hawks is willing to be beside him anyway.

How they say “I’m sorry” after arguments:

If Hawks messed up, he will say “sorry” right away, uncharacteristic serious. He will laugh relieved afterwards, if everything goes well. 

Now, Endeavor is a hard one. Although he is changing, outright saying “sorry” is still a bit hard to him. But in the end, he will apologize, because seeing Hawks sad is far worse than throwing away his pride. Hawks will just smile and hug him afterwards.

Which one is more ticklish: 

Hawks is, tho he is the one doing the tickling most of the time.

Their favorite rainy days activities:

Cofcofsexcof Okay, seriously through. Enji would try to keep up to his training regimen, and Hawks would gladly sit on his back while he do push ups, or just stay around and watch him workout.

How they surprise each other: 

Hawks is always getting into Endeavor’s agency unannounced, and getting him little gifts he things the older man would like. Endeavor likes taking Hawks out to dinner, after seeing how much Hawks likes to eat.

Their most sickening shows of public affection:

They don’t really show affection in public a lot, with Endeavor being so uptight and all, but Hawks managed to sneak a kiss once after a mission. Enji almost got caught up in the moment before remembering they were in public and cutting it short.

EraserMic:

Who wakes up first in the morning:

Surprisingly (or not), Mic does. He has to practically drag Aizawa out of bed, or they will be late for work.

Who’s the first to fall asleep at night:

Aizawa, again. He will literally fall asleep anywhere, if he is too tired, and Hizashi will have to carry him to bed.

What they playfully tease each other over:

Mic will tease Aizawa about how he is always tired. Aizawa will tease him back saying he is so boring he can’t stay awake.

What they do when the other’s having a bad day: 

Hizashi will hold Aizawa close, and let him sleep away against him, singing softly. Aizawa will get him his favorite food and give it to him silently. He will stay close to him during the day, too, in hopes he feels better (a quiet Hizashi is too unsettling).

How they say “I’m sorry” after arguments: 

they are both stubborn, so they take a while to apologize. In the end, Mic will apologize, just wanting the awkward tension to end, and Aizawa will softly say “I’m sorry too” back to him.

Which one is more ticklish: 

Aizawa is. But he WILL use his scarf on Mic if he even TRIES to tickle him.

Their favorite rainy days activities:

Mic will listen to the radio/watch TV and Aizawa will take a nap laying down on him.

How they surprise each other:

Mic will buy a lot of cat-related things to Aizawa. Aizawa is bad with surprises, so he will mostly just ask if Hizashi wants something and he will get it to him.

Their most sickening shows of public affection:

Once, Hizashi started a make out session in the teachers room when they were alone, and Midnight and All Might walked into them.

Mic was throw out of the window by Aizawa’s scarf that day. Midnight almost died laughing and All Might wouldn’t meet their eyes for weeks.

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[gargoyles42]

Ok dude, two years ago I feel into the hell that Robron is and I swore it wouldn't happen again... But you're really making me wanna watch Hollyoaks for James/Harry and I dunno how I feel about that. I literally know nothing about the show or characters, only that you're making me very curious. So if I go down this rabbit hole, I'll blame you

I feel you, I totally feel you. I swore I wouldn’t do that kind of misery to myself ever again. And here I am.

BUT I think I (and hopefully it’ll be the case for you too?) have learned from my previous mistake. I just got way too invested in Robron. So invested that I had this idea in my head about how the ship was and who the characters were. And when the writing and what was on screen didn’t match that, it made it this absolute misery. I saw Aaron as this precious little cupcake who could do no wrong (which he is but that’s beside the point) and Robert as the character I wanted to believe he was, not the one they actually showed he was. 

Jarry so far for me has been a completely different experience. Firstly, it’s HO which is a totally different beast than ED. HO is, the vast majority of the time, the trashiest of the trash soaps and remembering that allows it be a fun experience; you can watch, make fun of characters and their actions without getting too invested in absolutely everything. ED, on the other hand, I always saw it as this rather serious drama instead of what it actually is; a trash soap. So being able to acknowledge what the show is helps a lot. 

Secondly, like I mentioned before, I’d gotten these ideas in my head about Aaron and Robert, I kind of idealized them in my head because of the ~sometimes writing. Jarry hasn’t been like that; they’re both incredibly flawed characters and HO isn’t afraid to show that completely and consistently. I think one of the things that made Robron an absolute misery for me personally was that the relationship got set up as this “Aaron makes Robert a better person” thing and then the times when they’d break it, it just would ruin things for me, ruin what I had in my head. Jarry is completely different. They’re not the “so-and-so makes the other better”, they’re the “they love each other for who they are” relationship, which is SO much better. 

Thirdly, HO, despite the trash it can be, is actually fairly decent when it comes to “big” relationships? I mean, if you look at McDean and Stendan, two of their biggest, they actually did a really good job with them? One got the happy ever-after (twice) and the other got as happy as could be expected given the circumstances. Of course, if you’re on the show long enough, it’s a soap and they’ll mess things up spectacularly, which is something you have to keep in mind (I didn’t when I watched ED and it led to a lot of misery); the only endgame in soaps is if the characters leave. 

Lastly, Jarry hasn’t ever felt like it’s pandering to it’s audience. Robron, I’m gonna be honest, I really believe that was supposed to end after Katie’s death, and the fanbase had a big part in keeping it going, which is why there was a lot of uneveness in there. Jarry, on the other hand, it’s the show going against what used to be one of their biggest fanbases (and I’ll never understand why ugh). It doesn’t come from feeling like they need to appease people; it came naturally from the characters, after 2+ years of build up, might I add.

And… now I’ve written you a book which hopefully doesn’t seem like complete nonsense. lol. But yes, please do watch and freely blame me for it :D And then come talk to me about it; I’m also happy to answer any questions or give any backstory since I know starting in on a soap story can be really confusing when you know nothing about the show or characters haha

[tobythewise]

The Hardship of Goodbyes

Thank you so much @sorrythatwasamistake for the Ko-Fi’s! :) I really appreciate it!

Here’s some Dean/Benny figuring out their shit in canon. This is my fix it for the episode Taxi Driver. I hope you enjoy! (Sorry for all the angst! I literally cried while writing this but I promise there’s a happy ending!)

“Hey, yeah. It’s me. I know man, it’s been a long time,” Dean says into his phone. “I wanted to call sooner, it’s just I thought it might be better if I didn’t.”

“It’s so good to hear your voice again, Dean. I mean that,” Benny says in his warm, southern voice that makes Dean’s face heat. Fuck, how he’s missed that voice.

“How you been?” Dean asks, voice gruff. He hates himself for what he has to do. What he has to ask.

“Oh ya know,” Benny sighs. “I get by.”

“I guess I let ya down.” Just like everyone else, Dean thinks bitterly.

“I’m just happy to finally hear from you.”

Dean grits his teeth. It’s exactly what he wants to hear from the other man. Yet, exactly what he can’t accept. Not now. “You might change your mind about that.”

“Why? What you mean?”

Dean flinches slightly before saying, “Benny, I gotta ask you a favor. It’s a big one.”

~~~

Dean gets out of the Impala as Benny parks his truck. His shoulders are tight and his body tense. He can’t do this. But he has too.

With his head down, Dean says, “you want nothing to do with this I completely understand.” He finally looks up into those crystal blue eyes he fell in love with in purgatory. Fuck. His chest constricts just thinking about what he’s about to do.

Benny shakes his head letting out a whistle. “Wow. Dean Winchester asks for a favor, he’s not screwing around.” Dean feels sick to his stomach as Benny’s dimples show as he’s talking. How did Dean forget the vampire had those?

Dean’s hands stay firmly in his coat pockets so he’s not tempted to reach out and touch what isn’t his. “Benny. Sending you back there is the last thing I ever wanted to do.”

Benny looks down at the ground between them and mutters, “I know, I know.”

“But my little brother is stuck down there.” Dean’s voice becomes deeper, gruffer as he’s overcome with the emotions of this stupid fucking situation.

Benny looks up at Dean. “This being the little brother that wants to kill me, right?”

“You got access to the place.”

“By access,” Benny says slowly, “you mean getting beheaded?”

Dean swallows and looks away. His throat tightens and he feels his eyes begin to water. He shakes his head and says, “you’re right, it’s too much.” Dean kicks the dirt. “It’s not like I’ve exactly been there for you lately.”

“What?” Benny cuts him off. “Oh, come on, Dean.” Benny raises his shoulder with the tiniest smile that breaks Dean’s heart even more. Why must this be so impossible? “You know I love a challenge.”

Dean feels the smallest flicker of hope bloom in his chest. He looks up at Benny. “You serious?”

Benny gives a small nod. “Hey, he’s your brother.” Because of course Benny understands. Of course he’s willing to risk everything for someone that’s so important to Dean. “I say let’s do this.”

“I owe you,” Dean says, voice cracking.

Benny shakes his head, “no, you don’t owe me nothing.” He looks down at his hands. “Truth is, I could use a break from all this.”

Dean feels like the worst type of person. He wasn’t there when he should have been. Benny needed him and he didn’t come. Yet, when Dean called, Benny was here. “Has it really been that tough?”

“I’m not a good fit here, Dean. Not when I’m alone. I don’t fit with the vampires and I don’t fit with the humans.” He looks right into Dean’s eyes, willing him to understand. “I don’t belong.” Dean feels everything inside him crumble as Benny’s eyes begin to shine with unshed tears. “After awhile, it begins to wear on you.” Benny shakes his head and lets out a huff of laughter. “Right, like you need to listen to me cry you a river.”

“Well, when you get back up here, we’re gonna fix all that. Okay?”

“When I get back?” Benny asks with a snort.

“Yeah. You’re gonna find that portal and you ride out of purgatory with Sam just like you did with me. Okay?” Please promise me, Dean doesn’t say out loud but screams in his head. He can’t lose Benny. Not like this. Not before he’s even had the guts to tell him how he feels. “As soon as we get done here, I’m gonna be hauling ass to Maine and I’ll be there, Benny. I’ll be waiting for you topside.”

Benny nods his head shakily. “Alright. That sounds like a plan, Chief. Let’s get on with it.”

“You sure about this?” Dean has to ask because he’s not sure of anything at the moment.

“This ain’t my first rodeo, mate.”

Dean turns away, grabbing the machete out of the backseat of Baby. The familiar weight which usually brings him reassurance now only causes dread. He turns back to Benny to see the vampires eyes glued to the blade. Dean tosses the blade into his left hand, stretching out his right. Benny takes it instantly and Dean pulls him into a tight hug.

“Thank you,” Dean gets out, voice breaking.

“Anything for you, Dean.”

Dean pulls back, only enough to look into Benny’s blue eyes. “But why?” he asks, feeling more and more broken as the second tick by. “Why are you doing this for me? I wasn’t there for you but now here you are, picking up my mess.”

Benny gives him a sad smile. “You know why, Dean. It’s because I lo-”

But Dean cuts him off by laying his lips against Benny’s. They’re soft and supple. Benny’s stubble scraps Dean’s cheeks, lighting his insides on fire. He wishes he could just freeze this moment and live in it for awhile, but he can’t. He pulls back and both of their eyes are shiney with unshed tears.

“Don’t you dare,” Dean grits out through clenched teeth. “You don’t get to say that now.” Benny’s face falls but Dean keeps going. “You don’t get to say those words as some grand gesture, goodbye, last hooray bullshit. No.” Dean’s arms tighten around the vampire, pulling them back together so they’re chest to chest. Dean buries his face in Benny’s neck as he whispers, “you don’t get to say it as a goodbye, damnit. You say those words when you’re top side again. Those words are gonna mean the start of something, not the end.”

Benny pulls back, a small smile on his lips. “Alright, Chief. I’ll wait and say it then.”

Dean steps back and takes a deep breath. “Can you close your eyes for me? I don’t think I can do this while I look into your eyes, Benny.” Dean’s tears begin to fall and he lets them.

Benny’s eyes shed one tear before he smiles and nods his head. “Sure thing, Dean. I’ll see you on the other side, Cher.”

Dean lets out a broken sound as he lifts his machete. Benny’s eye shut tight as he bares his neck for Dean. Dean’s hand shakes for a moment before he lets his hunter instincts take over.

~~~

Benny opens his eyes to the gritty grey of purgatory. He pops his neck back and forth. His skin feels like it’s crawling with all of the emotions that are stuck inside him, he feels like he’s ready to burst. But he can’t focus on what he and Dean said, right now he needs to find Sam, needs to get them out of here. If he can keep them safe then he can finally get all of these feelings squared away.

He picks up the scent of human fairly quickly, thankful that the purgatory gods spit him out close to where Sam is.

The scene in front of him makes him quicken his steps. A vampire is about to overtake Sam but Benny is quicker. He rips the monster off of Dean’s brother, but because he has no weapon, he must use the only weapon on his person, his teeth. He buries his fangs in the monsters throat, tearing it out.

“No, wait,” Sam rushes to say to the other man with him as Benny stands up. He spits out all of the blood from the monster. “Why are you here?”

Benny smiles his fangs at them. “Dean sent me.”

“No. There’s no way. Not my Dean,” the older man says. It hurts Benny’s heart. There’s just too many things standing in their way of being happy.

Sam holds the older man back. “He’s a buddy of Dean’s, Bobby.”

“A buddy?”

“A good buddy,” Benny says, emphasizing the good. They’re more than buddies but he’s not sure these people would ever understand so instead he just gives them a wide smile.

Sam turns to Bobby. “They fought together while they were down here. He’s the reason Dean made it out.” He looks down, ashamed. “Benny’s been there for Dean more than I’ve been lately.”

They begin walking, Benny leading them towards where he knows the portal is. After a few minutes, Sam breaks their silence.

“Listen, Benny. I know you saved my brother’s ass a few times down here and I respect that.”

“Yeah,” Benny interrupts. “And now I’m down here again trying to save your ass.” He snorts. “I’m a damn disgrace to my own people.”

Benny looks around, the pang of familiarity bringing sorrow to his chest. Last time he was here he was being hauled out by the man he’d somehow fell in love with. The man who fought beside him, shed blood with him, a love forged in a place where only destruction was expected.

“This is the spot,” he murmurs to the humans.

“Is that it?” Bobby asks, looking up at the top of the hill where the blue light starts to open.

“Yeah, that’s it. You boys remember what I told you?”

“Yeah,” Sam says, lifting up his shirt sleeve and grabbing his knife. “Alright, Bobby, here it goes.”

Benny watches them perform the ritual, keeping an eye and an ear out for danger. Sam turns towards him, holding out his knife.

“Alright, Benny, it’s your turn.” Just as Benny reached for the knife, a growl sounded to their right. Benny turns, getting himself between Sam and the monster.

“Go, Sam. Go! I’ll take care of this.”

“Benny, no!” Sam yells but Benny pushes his back, bracing himself from the monster ahead.

He turns one last time and says, “you just make sure you tell Dean I said goodbye. And I love him.”

The werewolf pounces quickly tackling Benny to the ground. All of his thoughts are stuck with Dean. How he’ll never get to say he loves him, how he’ll never get to kiss those plump lips again. He’ll miss Dean’s green eyes and adorable freckles. The werewolf snaps at him, and Benny feels himself giving up. What’s the point? At least he did his part and made sure Sam was safe to leave.

Sam grunts as he brings the blade down, severing the werewolf’s head from its body. He reaches down and pulls Benny up forcibly.

“I said it’s time to go!” Sam grits out. “I know I was an ass when we first met but you’ve proven yourself time and time again. I am not going to be the one to let my brother down! I am not going to be the one who let the guy he’s in love with get stuck in this hellhole again. So get your damn head on straight so we can get this done and I can carry your ass through that fucking portal.”

Benny feels his eyes prickle. “Alright, Chief. Let’s do this.”

~~~

Dean walks through the woods until he’s at the point he thinks the portal shot him from. He’s not really sure but they should come out some place close at least. Fuck, he really needs them to pop up soon because his nerves are fried at his point and he’s got no more nails to chew off from the drive over here.

“Come on, come on,” he whispers to the empty forest.

A loud blast and bright light floods the woods from behind him. He turns and watches as his brother stumbles towards him.

“Fuck,” Dean says in awe as he grabs his brother and pulls him into a tight hug. “Purgatory, right? It’s a real garden spot ain’t it?”

Sam looks at him with disbelief. “Yeah,” he murmurs, still out of breath.

Dean asks the question he’s not sure he wants the answer to. He’s not sure what he’ll do if the answer is no. “So, you get em out?” Sam looks at him, still catching his breath and Dean’s stomach sinks. Every possible outcome floods his mind. He can’t take this. His throat tightens and his eyes prickle. “Sam?”

“Yeah. Dean, I get them out. Both of them.”

Dean lets out a noise that sounds close to a sob. His knees feel so weak he almost collapses from relief.

They take their time doing the ritual to allow Bobby’s soul to reach Heaven. They say their last goodbye’s, hoping this time they’ll stick.

“So,” Sam says as they’re walking back to the Impala. “I just want you to know that I’m okay with this.”

“With what?”

Sam rolls his eyes. “I know I was a dick before, when it came to Benny.” Dean snorts but Sam just keeps going. “I was wrong, Dean.”

Dean turns and looks at his brother and sees only kindness and acceptance. “I don’t care that he’s a vampire. I only care that he makes you happy and takes care of you.”

Dean swallows around the lump in his throat. “He does,” Dean whispers.

“Then I expect I’ll be getting to know him a lot better since he’ll be joining us on hunts and at the bunker. No more ditching him, Dean. He needs us.”

Dean blinks his eyes, trying to hold the tears back. He never thought he’d get this. “Thank you,” he gets out.

Sam slaps him on the shoulder. “No problem, jerk.”

“Bitch.”

Sam cuts his arms and drips his blood onto Benny’s body as he says the ritual. Dean turns his back, unable to look at Benny’s lifeless body for another second. A strong hand grips his shoulder and when he turns around, he’s looking into those crystal blue eyes he’s come to love.

Dean can’t wait another second of Benny not knowing how he feels so he opens his mouth and blurts it out just as Benny opens his mouth and does the same.

“I love you.”

They both smile and laugh, embracing each other tightly. This is just the start of their journey.

When Benny pulls back he asks, “so, where’s Hot Wings?”

Dean puts his arms around Benny’s waist as he leads him to the Impala. “That’s a long story.”

“Good thing we got all the time in the world, Mon Chere.”

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[jeaanmoreau]

tormund/jon + :) (because i know no other emoji. Is this even an emoji??)

for future reference, here’s a list of emojis! / i did my best with this, hope it’s enjoyable (:

“You know,” Jon said as he approached the bigger man in the courtyard. “Lady Brienne might be more susceptible to your charms if you showed her your wit rather than that creepy smile.”

Tormund turned around. “Whose smile are you calling creepy?”

Jon cracked one of his own despite himself. “You do a weird thing with your eyes,” he motioned with his fingers, popping his eyes a bit as an example.

“You think you’re pretty, eh?” Tormund responded, clapping him on the back with a strength that made him take a step forward. “I don’t need to be pretty. Women love me. I’m big, and strong.”

“You’re also smart,” Jon pointed out to him as they made their way inside the castle. Tormund had to duck to avoid hitting his forehead on the top of the door. “And funny.”

“You in love with me, Jon Snow?” Tormund laughed, his voice booming down the empty hallway.

Jon felt himself go red in the face even as he rolled his eyes. “Is that what you think?”

Tormund shrugged, still grinning cockily. “Don’t see why not. I’ve been kissed by fire. I remember you like that.”

It was not fair of him to bring Ygritte up now, and Jon glared up at him, but humoured him nonetheless, “I also liked her womanly body, which you lack, my friend.”

“Woman, man,” Tormund swatted at the air in front of them. “Bah! It’s all the same when you’ve got your cock somewhere warm.”

Jon’s eyes widened imperceptibly, and he stared straight ahead so he wouldn’t betray his thoughts to the other man. He had wondered, but... no. “You speak from experience?” he asked, as casually as he could manage.

Tormund let out another laugh and dropped his arm around Jon’s shoulders, weighing down on him. “It’s cold north of the wall,” he only replied, leaning in to murmur it against his head.

They stopped outside Jon’s quarters. He turned to look up at him. “It’s cold here.”

Another laugh, and Tormund’s lips drew up into that same smirk he’d called creepy not moments ago. “Aye, Jon Snow, that it is.”

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[gargoyles42]

Hey, do you know if there's like any place I can watch just Cain/Harriet scenes? Or if not that, then the day their storyline started? Thanks either way :)

Hello :)

This playlist has a large amount of the scenes but it’s missing a few in the beginning and it doesn’t include scenes without both of them in it (such as Debbie asking what’s going on between them or Moira telling Harriet that Cain was supposed to be at her’s for dinner).

So far the dates with Cain/Harriet scenes have been:March 2017: 22, 23, 24, 28, 29April 2017: 14, 17, 18, 19

[madroxed]

I gotta know, mate... Do you plan on writing more Kev? Because I am Feral over him

omg heyyyyyyy! there is a very good chance, yes. i find him so interesting. like, i have no idea where this story is going and where we're going to end up and what's going to be revealed, but i'm having an absolute blast, and chris is killing it on screen.

so yeah, yes, there is a very good chance i'll be writing more kev at some point soon, though i've no idea what that's going to look like.

(when i remember how to write at all, that is 😂)

[sassymajesty]

Me flirting: I've learnt that incest is illegal in some European countries (such as Italy) only if it causes public scandal.

me, during our first date, fluttering my eyelashes: so, do you want to read the wiki article about the legality of incest together? 

BUT HELLO, THIS FUCKED ME UP. i actually went to that wiki article and i found out it’s legal in far too many places and i’m about to lose my mind. i also may be falling down a rabbit hole about genetics now