I’m really stressed. I have a lot going on and I think I’m in the middle of an attack. Meaning anxiety. But the thing is when I get really anxious I do things that are not good for anyone, and it’s really bad. I just want things to get better. I don’t know if they ever will though. I’m falling in love with my best friend, and although I know that doesn’t sound bad, they are in a relationship and are really happy, plus they’d never go for someone like me. I’m not their type. And no this is not what’s causing the attack. It's everything else that has decided to pile up on top of me, crushing my chest, making it impossible to breathe. I also can’t sleep because I keep having nightmare after nightmare. It’s impossible to get any sleep. Plus my teachers are assholes and loading me up with a thousand things to do, yes I promise I know that that is their jobs and usually I’m very respectful but it’s just a lot right now, Plus I have a job and have to take care of my family to make sure everyone else is okay and I just can’t do all of it anymore. Something it gonna explode in me.