#soulbaring

[soulsupply]

If i wasnt in a relationship i would find someone who thought i was hot but also kinda boring so they could sit naked in my bed on their phone and i could practice drawing them

Cant do this with my girlfriend bc they are hot af and if they were in the same as room as me it would be a sin for me to not be touching them

[skyehighwind]

Lord this year…….so far…..idk what I can say about this year and lord knows I have a lot on my mind……well….im in the stages of going crazy again……..well I could start from the begining but that would take to long…….FUCK IT

Year Started out Ass to me from a perspective that I wasnt able to enjoy any new years festivities on the account of having to work on national hangover day…..tally up one I always work on national hangoverday but I actually wanted to go out and enjoy my young life for once but my boss put a kibosh on that sooo negative 150 points from Gryffindor.

Month of january….lord the show schedule started here I thought I would have a two month break well the process of being over worked isnt new to me but hey so one show in the middle of january and I got thru it somehow despite my exhaustion from the barrage of shows the previous year….20 points to Gryffindor.

Rest of january still trying to quelle my mental exhaustion several factors were weighing on my mind Uncle kevin passing in July… Raeann Graduating and moving to Ohio In August Mom getting Married and moving to Connecticut in September MY LACK of A Birthday due to working comiconNYC on my birthday My older cousiin Micheal passing in November when I was Working Youmacon The Passing of my Friend Eric a few days before christmas…….. Yeah I look back and realize I dealt with a lot silently this past year while masking it while I worked and it was eating away at me.

I somehow make it thru january but be fore the month is up I ask for a break from two shows so I can relax a little

Otacon and AUSA late shows in the Maryland/DC area ones where I get to see my bros Bman and Jacknife

Two shows out of the 24 for the year turned down because my boss felt that I bloomed late and needed to mke up for the time in.highschool that I “putzed” around mind yu 80 of time was in his store and not once did he tell me to.go to class…..Fucking enablers……LMFAOOOOOOOOO

So heavy heart I tell him.I.kinda need a break to get my head back in the game Rejected again so I bite the bullet and say forget it a few days later with much heavy heartedness (not a word but fuck yu Shakespeare made up words) he gives me otacon and Ausa off and then lectures me on how he feels like im using him to go places……Guilty Trippin is his thing.

January ends……..katsucon is coming up 40 points to Gryffindor

January point count -60 points to Gryffindor

But I aint trippin its #Katsucon Weekend I get to chill meet some new people and see my bros Jacknife and Bman and hang out with my Bros at #1449 3hunna points to Gryffindor

Day we leave for katsu a FUCKING BLIZZARD SHOWS UP…….negative 3hunna points to Gryffindor we drive down amyway make it somehow set up in an hour lord I pack the Truck…. UNLOAD the truck SETUP the grids by myself Move tables put up toys…Make everything Look Pretty as Fuck remember where everything is cause a certain person known as boss dont.do.shit to help unless I ask him to holda grid or something……

(He seriously wonders why I hibernate in the van)

All this is done by myself…all weekend I must stand in one spot(not good if yur flat footed like me) im security sales and slave…….I swear then I get complaints if something goes missing seriously only artist alley booths should he worked by two people……oh im ranting well sit the fuck down and listen a 20’ by 10’ booth should be manned by at least three people especially if there are walk ins…sigh but what do I know about a limiting two man system……sigh Negative 70 points to Gryffindor

Those are the negatives about that job now for the positive

I get to talk about something I have a passion for with other passionate people

I get to look at scantily clad Women…..sometimes men all day

I get to generally flirt without hving to remeber someones name cause I’m just tryna see if I still got it

I get to take pictures as my tumblr has been for quite some time now

And if im at a major show like #AnimeBoston #Katsucon #Otacon #NYCC #Acen #C2E2 #Youmacon I generally get to see a lot of my Gaming Family

(All that and I swear the points are t gonna be in the positives by the end of the text wall of metatextualized rantiness) 180 points to Gryffindor and 5 points to Slytherin just cause

Make it thru Katsu and a week break in the store then up to Rochester

20 points to Gryffindor…..

Get to Rochester Sales didnt do to well at either show Introduce paycut Negative 200 points from Gryffindor

March….Madness……I thought it only applied to College basketball…..Shit I was Fuckin wrong…..a Show everyweek…Fuck My Social Life……

(Mind yu I was trying to get back into school ) another negative 200 points from Gryffindor

Point total at the end of Feb -260 points

Fuckin march……

First week - negative 100points cause I was still tired from the preivous week

Second week - 120 points show did well even tho I didnt rest at all

Middle of the third week I get some seriously depressing news incidentally the same weekend of animeboston

I swear if it wasnt for a few factors of the universe falling together I would have probably tried to kill myself

Shout out to #1449 shout out to eveyone I met at #AnimeBoston without yu guys I might now have been here

400 points to Gryffindor

Last week of march…….the one day show that changed everthing ala Fire Nation attacking….

I was depressed from the news I had gotten And old feelings creeped up on me and I seriously thought of something I hadnt thought about since the abigail days Ending it I was in a rough place at that point that news of grandma is dead got to me and being around my boss whose been a walking negativity plant was influencing my thoughts and feelings ( it didnt help that he seriously thinks hes right about everything) He yelled at me and accused me of falling asleep and lying to him when I was at the warehouse……he said some pretty disrespectful things about myself, my coworkers(his wife included) and then proceeded to spount nonsensical rants to which he was complaing about just a week earlier…….its at that point I shut my mouth sed ok boss yu got it I lied to yu if thats how yu feel and finished what I was doing and left I love avoiding conflict its in my nature as an airhead so if itll shut his pompous ass up ill bite the canonball and take the blame but he showed his hand and I dont believe in showing yur hand before all bets are closed….. Saturday rolls around we work the show it was pitiful……I seriously wasnt feeling good all day… (felt like brock lesnar put my intestines in a chokehold, chris benoit(RIP) had me in a crossface, and bret hart had me in a sharpshooter while Sergent Lee Ermy, Samuel Jackson, Gordon Ramsey, Simon Cowell, and Kanye west yelled obscenities at me……the places my imagination goes…) But I worked it I worked it hard I did several things that hadn’t moved in the last year but the payout was.pitiful my wage was pitiful and then I quit….. I honestly could not stand it another minute on the ride back bill showed his hand again….by some facet of universal response to my distress……Inque called me literally no less than 50 seconds after I saw how my boss really is…..inque saved me with a simple phone call…….and I told him I start immediately at some random company he told me I had to sign some papers…. But I was free of the negativity(tho I think I’m negativity poisoned) I’m still recovering from it all….that month and a half of non stop shows took its toll on my life Negative 3hunna points from Gryffindor End of March points -380 April just sucked immensely not having a job returns me to my post abigail pre Marricka state….and Barbie is trying to get me back to me……tho I am lazy I like to work for my laziness…so april was a dub negative 100 points from Gryffindor Which brings us to where I’m at Now wiring this post at 6 50 am on a Thursday on my phone at my cousin’s house trying to regroup myself, I need to recoup back into positive Feng the wind god cause I just ain’t been me I felt like letting it all out for the few friends of mine who follow me and the tond on strangers who read these things to the end dont follow or comment but read to know what’s happening ……I thank all of you for reading it kinda helps to know I told someone even if I don’t know them Till the next time Stay Gold, Peace, luv, Buttwhoopinz

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