There is a level of conclusion, opinion, and energy that is placed upon you by someone who is looking from an outside perspective (whether that be family, friends, lovers, or strangers) that is subconscious. When you’re sensitive to so many energies and the projections of others you learn to not share yourself as easily with the world and hide yourself away. Leading to a fear of being seen or of being perceived for fear that you are being judged or that people misunderstand you on a very deep level that’s personal to their own karmic energies, beliefs, insecurities, and fears. This is why we become afraid to step into our power and fulfill a soul purpose that requires us to be seen by others in an authentic manner, This is why when we make mistakes or tolerate bad behavior from people close to us we choose not to share those things with others to prevent further judgment and hurt, this is why when we’re feeling bad about ourselves we don’t post ourselves on social media, leave the house or interact with others for long periods of time until we believe that we are better or are ready to be seen or perceived.
A fear of being seen could also stem from trauma we receive from our parents or from bullying and receiving judgment or criticism in our earlier stages of development. As children we are born like a blank canvas and other people like our loved ones, teachers, friends and peers paint upon us their beliefs about who we are and how we should behave and express ourselves. You may have found that when you made mistakes or exuded behaviors that weren’t good for you or exuded behaviors that weren’t met with positive reactions from others you became afraid to share who you were or what was going on with you or became afraid to be seen in a vulnerable state because someone did not take the time out the try and understand why you did the things you did or expressed yourself the way you did out of love and compassion but chose to ostracize you, make you out to be bad or make a spectacle of your behavior.
We begin to pick up these behaviors within ourselves, when we have bad habits or when we make bad decisions we meet them with criticism and shame instead of sitting with ourselves in our vulnerable states and seeking to understand and be gentle and heal. It traces back to why we pick up addictions and bad habits to suppress parts of ourselves or hide parts of ourselves from ourselves because we hide parts of ourselves from others because we were met with criticism and harsh treatment and judgment. We pick up these behaviors with others where we judge them or shower them in harsh criticism when they’re behaviors or karmic cycles trigger us.
This is why we say not to judge your children but to be gentle with them and try to understand why they make the choices they make and understand that some of their decisions and actions are developmentally expected and correct. We cannot always expect for someone to not do something or for someone to be able to consciously make the decision to kick a habit or make good decisions for others and for themselves but we can seek to understand why they do certain things and offer them compassion and forgiveness.
