#spacesyn

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For a long time I never really had a name to my love and connection for space. In middle school I discovered the term spacekin on this very app. Scrolling the tag during class I was in awe. It resonated with me but I shrugged it off as something cool but not something I’d call myself, surely I’m not well versed enough on the topic of astronomy to call myself that.

Years later in college I kinda rediscovered the term along with even more terms. I ultimately confessed that space-synpath felt right. I don’t believe myself to be the embodiment of an ever expanding vacuum filled with astronomical bodies and phenomena. But my connection to space felt so strong and abnormal to an everyday human being that surely it must’ve meant something.

I’ve adopted the term of alienkin too. Back then I took these terms very literally, it’s something I do everyday so it’s not a surprise. But as I got older I realized that it doesn’t have to be literal for it to be true. For as long as I can remember, I’ve never felt like I belonged. Even when I found a group of people I considered friends and felt safe to be myself around I couldn’t help but feel as if I was always 10ft away. And this feeling of me not belonging paired with life experiences that feel like a cruel joke where everyone got an instruction manual to be a human and I didn’t? It didn’t help and it’s only gotten worse as I’ve gotten older. I remember when I would make comments like “humans are weird” and referring to my body as vessel when I was younger. It didn’t last for very long as my brother would poke fun at it. But I can’t help but still make these “humans and their ways” type of comments in my head.

I’ve found great comfort in embracing these identities. They make me happy. It makes me happier that they’re related to my favorite thing ever. I do not have any memories of past lives or even dreams of such a thing. I do not experience the phantom limbs other alienkin do. I’ve experienced life in a way that the metaphorical has felt so real that it doesn’t feel figurative anymore.

I just know that I am an alien among humans, I’ve always have been. I’m an alien in disguise. One that longs for what is out of my reach.

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When I can afford a car, I’d like to get one that is white with a black roof and tinted windows

To me, these cars remind me of my favorite launch vehicle/rocket and I think that would be very cool for me to drive the closest thing to a rocket I could get

It would make my silly little space loving heart very happy

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Help an alien out with their otherkin identity

I consider myself Alienkin and somewhat spacekin because of my Alienkin identity but they’re being put on the probing table and here’s why

(Spacekin has been sorted out, see below)

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I recently learned of the terms Synpath and Otherhearted

Some people use it interchangeably some don’t. I personally interpret them as separate:

Synpath: Used to describe feeling a profound connection WITH something, but not AS it.

Otherhearted: To identifying strongly WITH something, but not AS it.

For the spacekin part of me I think Space Synpath is more like it. I do not identify AS space itself but I’m connected with space so strongly that it’s definitely more than just “I love it” I had a whole post about it, yall have probably seen it lol.

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Now that I know that I’m actually a Space Synpath, now onto my Alienkin type.

This one is still actually a little more complicated to me. To kin something is to identify AS something while Otherhearted is to strongly identify WITH something but not AS it while identifying as fully human.

Here’s the thing, I’ve never felt human, I do not connect with humans I’ve never felt like I was part of them just living amongst them. So I thought, okay alienkin because I connect with aliens in a way that feels right, it feels like me, I feel like an alien. I am not human but I feel like an alien.

But that’s where the distinction becomes important: Am I alienkin because I don’t identify as a human and am an alien or am I alienkin because my life experiences living among humans made me feel alien?

Could it be both? That’s a possibility. I do not experience any shifts or phantom limbs, I just feel like I am alien. Perhaps I answered my own question with that sentence alone. I’m not very active in the otherkin/alterhuman community, at most I’ll like and reblog posts I relate to but that’s kinda it? I suppose posting counts, but I don’t actually talk to anyone in the community.

I like having my facts sorted out and I like figuring things out via technicalities sometimes as it helps me understand things better. I’m not strict on this at all, again, I use it to help me understand things. This entire post is basically me trying to reach to the community that is more knowledgeable on the subject of otherkin and alterhuman experiences and their differences.

Here are bullet points in case it’s easier to follow:

I know I am not human in some way non-physically

Ever since I was young I never felt like I was human both from experiences in life and simply inside

I have a strong connection with aliens and space as a whole. I know that my connection with aliens comes from my extreme connection with space but I am aware that me being alienkin is also coincidental

I do not experience shifts, or phantom limbs, or dreams of past lives. I am aware that none of these are requirements for being otherkin but I wanted to add this anyways

I know that it may be up to me to see which one fits me best when it comes to terminology. I know that folks in the community experience different journeys and may have different definitions for different things.

So, in your opinion, my fellow otherkins and alterhumans, would you say I am Alienkin or Alienhearted?

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Need to make a ref for my spacesona, need to figure out the layout first Ough

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There’s something about seeing your constellation in person for the first time <3