Just to let you know, your comic you just posted is really relatable, you aren’t the only one, I’m a person that tends to not have a reaction when people die, yes they’ve died but it’s just a way of life, and going to funerals as a kid wasnt all that shocking to me
The only deaths that truely got me choked up and mourning were past pets and a miscarriage in the family (the only actual person I mourned, and it was because they never even got a chance to try)
I know that you probably are feeling guilty that you aren’t sad, I feel the same way a lot of the time when it comes to situations like this, but just so you know
Just because you aren’t mourning the proper way, or mourning at all does not make you broken
You are still a valued and cared member of you family, if your friend group, of your community, and the notion of not mourning properly will not change that
I dunno if you needed to hear this, but anytime I’ve had to deal with a passing family member that my brain just, didn’t want to mourn over them in any way, I always wanted someone to tell me these things
Hope you feel better soon, and hope this helps in any way!
PS- you don’t have to reply in any way at all, you can delete this ask if you want, or keep it in you ask box to look at as many times as you need <3
Now that the funeral is over I can sit down and answer this <3
I always thought as a kid that ' when I grew up I would understand' or if it was someone closer to me ' I would understand' and now that I am grown up and it was someone...well, somewhat closer to me, I can say that I still don't understand. But that's okay!
It took me like three whole days to realize that other people experienced this ( From this ask and from some really lovely comments on the comic ) and that hey, I'm not a horrible person for it after all!
And also it took the funeral for me to realize my siblings are the same exact way and its not fair to them for me to think I'm horrible :/ cause I don't think THEY or anyone else are horrible for it, y'know?
I will probably feel guilty about it again in the future, but for now I'm glad I made that comic because otherwise I would have felt a whole lot worse :)
This was a v nice ask and I'm gonna hold it close to my heart ;-;