#spencer c.

[exxpiredemily]

I’ve been spending a lot of my time talking to Spencer, and I wish I wasn’t. It’s not something I can help, though.

On the bright side, Norman is here now and maybe he’ll be able to distract me some. Ashley won’t have to take on the entire burden of me trying, and failing to ignore my ex.

[exxpiredemily]

I ended up not going to Spencer’s bus last night and for that, I’m giving myself a little pat on the back.

I truly believe our connection is something deeply magnetic, rather than sexual or romantic. We aren’t like other ex’s... we genuinely pull each other back in without doing a thing, and it’s a little scary sometimes. Very scary.

Yesterday, things were so awkward for the first couple minutes of our conversation, and all of a sudden, it just melted away. Before I knew it, we were right back where we were a year and a half ago, flirting and teasing, talking about old times and hinting at what it’d be like to do it again..

But he’s bad for me. He’s just no good. He told me he kind of has someone new. That it isn’t official, but I hope he’s good to her. I hope she gets the parts that I could only get in passing, a lot more often. I hope she gets used to his...”condition” 

He needs that. 

I want him to be happy, and I realize now that with each other, that’s something we could never really be.

Now, if he would just stop reminding me of the past, that would be terrific.

[exxpiredemily]

Spencer's here.

Why did it have to be Spencer? Of all the people in this big, wide, wild world. Why him?

[casssiopeiaaa]

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[lifewithoutcontext]

May you always soar on eagles' wings!

Spencer C.