#spiderbitty

[wandersfall]

I think pulgoier and ? are just as clingy as roier and cellbit are. I think they stand right next to each other and hold hands. roier points it out to cellbit and says "just like me and you" and cellbit is less impressed. even if it is a little cute and it reminds him of him and his husband

[qhideduo]

minime!spiderbit = spiderbitty

[wandersfall]

Cellbit seeing ? with a tail and immediately starting testing as soon as Roier and Pulgoier are gone because?? Why wouldn’t he?? It isn’t real??? And ? not letting Pulgoier play with his tail later and Pulgoier tying Cellbit’s shoes together. I have a vision.

anon get out of my head i was literally just about to talk about that

because cellbit's obviously going to test it as soon as he can because what the hell? and obviously he's not testing on pulgoier because a) he's roiers and b) fucking spiders ew no

? never says much other than guapito, but I think that the next word he ever says is "no" when pulgoier tries to pet his tail and it pulls away. ? doesnt say why, because he can't, but he looks in cellbits direction and pulgoier gets the idea

cellbit finds his shoes tied together and also pulgoier staring at him and flexing its little spider legs, trying to be menacing. it normally wouldn't work because pulgoier is like two apples tall but cellbit hates spiders so he's properly freaked out

[wandersfall]

what is a minime if not some kind of monster? it's arguably alive in some way, it's made to look like you, to follow you, to do as you do. it's not human, it might be a machine. so what better word to use than monster?

but it's not a monster by any actual definition of the word, though, is it? perhaps it's just easier to refer to it as such because that way you won't feel bad when it dies or when you cause it pain just to see what it does. you don't need to feel guilty for dealing with monsters. nobody ever does.

nobody ever feels bad about prodding a monster to answer their questions, so why should you? can it even feel? does it know pain or love or is it just copying you? is it some kind of species made with the intention of blending in? is it even organic? or is it a robot? what is it for? why is it so damn important?

perhaps it's simply a monster because you can't understand it. it's just a monster because what else could it be? but is that fair to it? why does it matter if that's fair to it? it's just a thing, right? why do you care so much? it's not going to replace him. it's not going to bring back your son.

it's just some cheap replacement made to mock you, to look at you with your own eyes and remind you of what you lost. it's not you as a child, but it might as well be. it's you, smaller and dumber and relying on someone else to survive. why shouldn't it suffer the way you have? it's only fair. if it's really meant to copy you then it should feel what you've felt. it should experience the fear that molded you.

so why do you feel bad when you see that fear on its face? why do you recoil at the hate its lover feels for you? why do these things keep you up at night? this is what you wanted, isn't it? these are the answers you've been asking for, aren't they? so why aren't you happy with them? why are you guilty? why do you care?

why do you care, cellbit, when nobody cared for you?

[wandersfall]

ohmygod wait the minimes making cellbit understand his own trauma … making him realize there was nothing he did that made him deserve being taken away from his family and being thrown into a war … god. ur brain >>>

i think it's a fun way to do it, by making him enact some of the horrors he's experienced on a smaller version of himself, that external healing can then be turned inside onto him

I think there'd be a moment where cellbit admits that he feels better about being nicer to ?, and roier would turn to look at him and ask if he's being nicer to himself, too. and cellbit will groan because he's fallen into his husband's therapy trap

[wandersfall]

thinking of ? trying to read something in an attempt to mimic cellbit but doesn't understand anything besides noticing a few patterns...

that little guy cannot read very well! it still tries though, because it's meant to mimic. I'm sure ? could be taught how if it was needed to, but mostly it just recognizes patterns if cellbit asks it to find a book or something

it likes how paper feels though

[wandersfall]

Pulgoier is staring at him again, Cellbit can feel it on the back of his neck as he works. It's standing next to ?, the two of them holding hands while they wait for their instructions, and it just keeps staring at him.

He doesn't look back at it, he knows it won't say anything new, or anything at all, for that matter. Still, it's never any less unsettling to have a tiny version of his husband stare at him for minutes at a time, not blinking once and full of hatred.

And isn't that something to think about? A version of his husband hates him. It hates him with everything in its little body for what he's done, for hurting its own Cellbit. He supposes he can't blame Pulgoier for that, even if it leaves a bad taste in his mouth, Roier hates the Federation just as much for a similar reason.

Cellbit's had plenty of time to think that over, too. He hadn't slept the night he first made the comparison, and he's barely gotten any since, either. That's why he went out and got that book for ?, the little guy deserves something for all the shit Cellbit put him through.

Cellbit only looks back when he knows Pulgoier isn't looking at him anymore, and is instead looking at the Rubik's Cube ? is showing off. He gave it that, too, just as something to do. He knows it likes puzzles as much as he does.

Pulgoier turns and catches him watching, its hand still tightly clasped in the other's. It doesn't say a word, but it seems to be considering him again with the new information its gotten. Cellbit doubts its anywhere near forgiving him, but it doesn't make any threats before it focuses back on ? again.

Realistically, he knows it's not enough to make up for what he's done, but he hopes it's a start.

[wandersfall]

okay the murder arc could be fun in spiderbitty because imagine you're just a fed worker and cellbit and his little murder clone fucking Get You. like one moment you're walking and the next there's a tiny knife in your ankle and your cannibal coworker is walking towards you.

and cellbit's like, well I don't like it much but minimes are very good accomplices if you teach them. so now ? gets to add assisting a murder to its accomplishments