#starramble

[vanillastarrdust]

matching icons 4 me n da crew

make your own

[vanillastarrdust]

not to sound redundant but also i really dont wanna be alive lmao

[vanillastarrdust]

sometimes i wonder if i’m bisexual or if i just healthily appreciate women instead of tearing them down, but then i wonder if i secretly just have a lot of internalized homophobia and maybe i’m bisexual hiding under heteronormative ally practices bc i don’t NOT see why ladies are lesbians bc ladies can definitely be hot as hell but what if i’m just being complicit in sexualizing women?

like i used to just think i was ace because i had so much past trauma from sex that i was extremely sex-repulsed and now that i’ve had sex i didn’t think i was ace anymore but then i saw a post that said ace people can have and ENJOY sex and what if i’m still ace or even maybe just demi??? bc i don’t really look at people and be like “damn i want them to fuck me” unless i trust them a lot, but i can still look at people and be like “damn they’re attractive”

and then on top of that, i’m really uncomfortable talking about sex and my preferences because of my traumas and the taboo of even mentioning sex in my household growing up, but i still have had and enjoyed sex? would that make me sex-repulsed or sex-positive?????

[aster1a-star]

okay I think it's time to reconnect with society I have been feeling better

[vanillastarrdust]

and when you think of me, am i the best you’ve ever had?

[vanillastarrdust]

god i fucking miss him

[vanillastarrdust]

i always say i’m on good terms w my exes but 3 of the 4 guys i actually dated literally do not know how to spell my name lmfao

[vanillastarrdust]

i’m living the ghost of a relationship i know he doesn’t love me but we’re having fun as we are and i’ll be dead in hell before i give that up