#still going through hell

[pageturnerbae]

I love my best friend.

I love them so much I am literally going to cry.

[thornthecurvygirl]

Still Going Through Hell... Nov. 21, 2012

I'm still going through Hell... For many reasons... Some is because I don't know how to express my possible feelings to a guy I like. 

I act timid at work. To well avoid weird convos. But cause I act timid I get treated like I'm fucking stupid. It pisses me off to almost no end. Ugh! I'm working my way through Hell. Fighting those demons. And being kicked around like a helpless pup. Mentally more then any thing.

Just because I'm my weird and one of a kind self. Doesn't mean I'm stupid! I can plan some thing out. And be on step two instead of five. Damn I'm working to get to step five. Cause I work 'slow' doesn't mean I'm stupid! SO FUCK OFF!!! Let me be me! 

Let me be timid, blunt, honest, courageous, or any thing else I want to fucking be!

GET IT?! GOT IT!!! GOOD!!!

I hate when people don't try to really under stand me! I got more trust issues then some people do! I beg for attention silently! I want to be loved with out the pain of being hurt and used! 

So what I'm basically saying is... LOVE ME OR HATE ME!!! EITHER WAY YOU'RE THINKIN' OF ME!!!