Louis STILLACE
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Louis STILLACE
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i figured out i was ace when i was like 11, cause i heard the term from a death note fan fic of all things. im 22 now and am now this hybrid combo of pan and ace (bc its really hard to tell sexual attraction when you feel the same about basically everyone), but it does allow me to tell people my sexuality is "me just going at my own pace" bc puns and portmanteaus are fun
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My experience started off with me thinking I was straight, when I suddenly realized "hm no, both boys AND girls look the same to me, guess I'm Bi." Anyways, dated a dude after that, quickly realized I wasnt into dudes and was like "Guess I'm Gay then!" dated a girl for quite some time longer, realized "shhhit this isnt doing it for me either... WHAT AM I THEN?" and felt broken for a while. Realizing I was aro/ace was great! But, I joke sometimes that I ran the whole orientation gamut.
Hey, I see you might not be doing #stillace anymore, but thought I'd send this for the younger folks anyhow. I realized I was ace at around 16 shortly before AVEN existed. Felt weird and broken throughout hs. but then found the mailing list that came before the AVEN site & was like, "woah, other people feel the same way I do? This is an orientation?" It made me feel 100% better about myself to know I wasn't alone. I just turned 33 last month and I'm #stillace. It's not a trend, just who we are.
I thought something was wrong with me until I was 16, when I discovered the word asexual, which described me perfectly (despite people constantly telling me it was just a phase or I was just sexually repressed). When I was 19, I realised I was demisexual about a month after I started dating my partner, not long after he first kissed me. And I'm still demisexual, because I'm still only attracted to him. #stillace
I always knew I was different, my friends would tell me about the things they did or wanted to do with guys and it made me want to cringe or leave the room when they talked about it, and that was in middle school. So it was pretty tame stuff that was making me cringe. I was 13 when I heard about asexuality, and I knew it fit, but I didn't want that to be me, even if it did feel right. As I got older I just chalked it up to being too busy with school to care about sex or my attraction. (1/2)
When I graduated high school, I finally accepted that hey, I'm ace. And no, not all girls think about girls the same was I did, I was biromantic, too. I'm 20 now, and everything finally, finally makes sense to me and I'm so happy about it. (2/2)
30 yo gay ace trans man. thought i was bi with a preference for men for literal decades because all i knew was i wasnt physically attracted to anyone of any gender (and baby me thought that's the same as being attracted to every gender and pan hadnt caught on yet). figured out i was trans at 17 and discovered the ace label when i was 24. been on hrt for over a year now, according to exclusionists that was supposed to just be dysphoria and i'd stop being ace but lol nope still ace.