#stillnothuman

[stillnothuman]

while some of us take a step back many have taken a step forward, to the conclusion of COP22 and Children's day - to our planet… ・・・・・・・・・ snap no. 09 of things i have learned #frommysoulmates - Leave the World better than you found it: It’s not just our right, it’s our obligation to do right by our home…

[stillnothuman]

how to grief

1. ignore reality 2. day dream all the day 3. imagine shit you want to happen but you know it can’t (ps time to pretend you are dating ryan gosling) 4. tune the tv to bad comedies or cartoons or prime time dramas you’d never watch 5. prepare to live in one place, along with your pets, couch or bed, move food/water plates close… cat naps all day.

[stillnothuman]

how do you run away from what you think you deserve?

face the truth

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intention vs motivation

i think there is such a thing... i think every choice and action we make battles intension and motivation as it progresses. you intended to do, then you did - did that intension rule the action or was there something else motivating your action. the most common way we can see this in our lives is in how people intend to do good, do something selfless for the good of another. then they do it and it becomes clear that the motivation was another, it was selfish and motivated by ego. for example: a woman finds that her sister is struggling economically. she intends on helping and lends her sister money. then after this she begins to share publically her 'good deed' and in ways we've all experienced makes her sister feel bad about even asking for help. the intend was good but she was motivated by a hero complex deep fried in ego. its so common. of course this does not excuse those who do things "for the good" and end up making the situation worse. but it's sad that it so common causing major dishonesty, misunderstandings, pain. again ad i've said before... selfishness is the cancer of the world.

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i've been wondering what is the purpose of sharing. how important is it if you share your thoughts, emotions, whatever with a family member, friend, lover. somehow... if you have the possibility- it is easier to tell a stranger your secrets than someone you know. perhaps both the stranger and the person you know will feel the same way about your secret, but you wont have to care about the stranger' opinion. what the friend knows, that matters. but all i really care about now is, does IT matter? TO SHARE! i know- brings the relationship closer... but so what? is it worth it, telling your secrets, wearing your heart on your sleeve, possibly hurting - juts so the relationship will be better. now lets consider keeping your thoughts to yourself. you avoid ANGER. misunderstandins, you avoid explanations, pain. while sharing secrets... not your favorite ice cream but secrets would most probably reveal the vast space of separation between you and your non-strangers. so wheres thr good?

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i'm not gonna worry, i'm gonna pray.

here and now

[stillnothuman]

when in dark waters, become a diver.

[stillnothuman]

wake up song,  10.31.14

all the ways that you think you know me... all the limits that you figured out had to learn to keep it all below me... just to keep from being thrown around every single time the wind blows i see it in your face. in a cold night. there will be no fair fight there will be no good night; to turn and walk away.

now we talk about a wasted future, but we take a good look around yeah we know it, it hasn't been for nothing 'cause we'll never let it slow us down every single time the wind blows i see it in your face. in a cold night. there will be no fair fight there will be no good night; to turn and walk away.

so burn me with fire... drown me with rain... i'm gonna wake up... screaming your name. yes i'm a sinner. yes i'm a saint. whatever happens here, whatever happens here - WE REMAIN.