✦ Foreword: This prose has a current. If you feel yourself being carried, know that you are always free to step onto the riverbank. The observation is the point, not the drift. ✦
Why do you go into trance?
Because it’s the only time your mind stops.
The only time your body isn’t fighting.
You don’t go because you’re broken.
You go because you’re tired.
Because in trance,
you can finally stop trying.
But then something changes.
Because once you feel that silence,
once you feel what it’s like
to not carry yourself—
you start wanting it again.
And that’s when the question shifts.
Are you going into trance
because it feels good…
or because you don’t want to come back?