#stormdepressed

[thedevilprobs]

Don't make me swear the ideals until I've had my coffee

[paladinstormblessed]

CW for mentions of depression / my thoughts about Kaladin

It’s not something I can really talk about with real-life friends, but I don’t think I’ve ever felt as seen as when I’m reading some of Kaladin’s chapters.

The description of seeing the world as if from behind a wall, the periods of functioning punctuated by depressive episodes, the need to always be doing something that is of use to other people, the way the people around him correctly identify his trauma but sometimes fail to see that there’s an issue that runs deeper, in his bones.

I think when I first started reading, my friend said something about SLA having some depictions of mental illness, but fuck. I didn’t expect it to be this intentional or this accurate to my experience. I’m very glad I started reading the cosmere.

[paladinstormblessed]

I should probably change the name of my Kaladin playlist bc if any of my irl friends see a playlist full of angsty songs dubbed “ks,” they may have some concerns

[paladinstormblessed]

“For the men chatting together softly, the change was in being shown sunlight again. In being reminded that the darkness did pass. But perhaps most important, the change was in not merely knowing that you weren’t alone—but in feeling it. Realizing that no matter how often your brain told you terrible things, there were others who understood.

It wouldn’t fix everything. But it was a start.”

—Rhythm of War, 430

[paladinstormblessed]

cw for talking about my mental health

I knew it was coming, but I think it’s very funny that reading the Stormlight Archive and resonating a little too hard with Kaladin Stormblessed is the thing that finally convinced me to go back to therapy