stormsbreadth replied to your post: I mean, I could talk about what’s bothering me,...
*is quietly supportive*
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geeneelee replied to your post: I mean, I could talk about what’s both...
I used to start sobbing and panicking if I even started talking to someone with the intent of talking about my personal feelings. It unfortunately requires practice, I’ve found, and never quite goes away.
Thankfully I’m not that bad. Or rather, I have practised. (I mean, I might start sobbing if I talk about something really sensitive/intense, but so would most people.)
rizplease replied to your post: I mean, I could talk about what’s bothering me,...
idk if this is helpful at all, but I sometimes open a word doc and stream of consciousness write until I expel everything, then delete it. Takes away the stress of having to make sense or be justified?
Mneh, that would mostly just feel like a waste of time to me? Or, I do that mentally, constructing conversations in my head, and idk how writing it down would help unless I was intending to share it - it would just take more energy I don’t have.
Partly because a lot of the time when I’m upset, my problem is that I’m really needy. I need attention and affirmation, but at the same time, I’m aware I’m reacting irrationally, and don’t want to subject others to that - especially when the onset was a lack of affirmation in the first place. But then if I were to write something down, it would be to reach out for that affirmation. I just... have a tendency to deny myself when I’m needy, because I already feel like I’m annoying regularly, and when I’m needy then I’m 500% more annoying. And my friends may not have the capacity to deal with that, and my (irrational) need for affirmation shouldn’t be more important than their well-being either?
And just... Uuughhhghh.ghgh.h.gh.gh... Conflicting emotions.
/ramble
