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Looking back, I was amazed with the sudden change I experienced from different aspects of my life. I personally don't believe that experience is the best teacher. Because the experience itself is not enough, but when you start to evaluate it, then you start to learn from it. So, evaluated experience is the teacher. Few years ago, i was a girl who's trying to explore things. I thought I am "matured enough" to handle things and prepared enough to the consequences that might happen. I was wrong. The wrong choices I've done resulted to a life of pain, hopelessness, and loneliness. Satan attracted me to worldly things and he used my emotions to be attached with people that I don't deserve. My heart started to be focused on the wrong things and people. I thought that was the "feel good" life. Again, i was wrong. And one day, i just found myself lost, lonely, hopeless, broken, unloved.. The people that I thought who will stay didn't stay. Everyday I would cry to God and ask forgiveness for all my shortcomings. When I go to church, I will just cry and say sorry again. It was one of the most painful moments of my life. When everything ended, when everything was gone, that was the only time I realized that I wasn't a good leader, disciple, daughter, friend and servant. I forgot to do my responsibilities and duties. Literally lost. And..One day I wake up and realized that I have to go back to my first love. I have to do something. I have to get up for myself. My tears were automatically falling down and my heart can't stop aching when I prayed to the Lord with all my heart. I renewed my commitment to Him, and asked Him to heal me. It took time for me to recover. I decided to ignore the past situations.. I decided to start something new. Satan used everything to bring me down; my family, my emotions, my weaknesses, everything! But when I became broken, the love of God was my remedy. The love of God was my comfort. His words healed my heart. Can i just say that.. God is so good and merciful! He destined people who will stay with me no matter what. I am so thankful with churchmates, cell sisters and my cell leader. They showed me how precious I am in the eyes of God. They taught me that I should not settle for less. They taught me to live a life of excellence, to be a better person everyday. They showed me the importance of God's calling for my life. When I engaged my life in God's works, i started to see and experience the best things. The life that I thought was perfect was just a deception from the enemy. It's the Lord who showed me the life to the fullest, and that life is with him. He is the only One who could satisfy our deepest longings and the one who could give us the love that we need. I am amazed how God renewed everything. He changed a ruined-story to a wonderful and worth reading story of a young girl like me. The miserable part was just a chapter, not my whole life. When I decided to let God hold the pen of my life, I started to feel that I am secured. Jesus is a story changer. Indeed, it's the best testing of my life because it became my testimony today. Thank you Lord for the turning point. Thank you for testing my character and for building it everyday. Isn't it true that we look back to our old lives, and we hope that bad things will not happen anymore. We want a time travel to change our wrong choices, words and actions. But our past experiences will build us. It will always teach us something, and it's up to us if we will respond. I realized that I should not focus on the mess, but the message of God in the situation. The mess that I've experince became a MESSage. That's how my God works. ❤️ May God be glorified! :)