to get to the point when I'm finally a physician, seeing patients, paying back loans and still hoping the following year will get better. This processes isn't fun. Med school isn't fun. First year sucks. They say second year is much better. But then there are boards. They say third and fourth year are even better, but there's the stress of the match. This process isn't fun. They say it's better when you're in residency, but then the hours are terrible. They say it's so much better when you're finally an attending, but then people try sue you (even if you did everything right). No one told me about that stuff before I applied to med school. But then again...I didn't ask...it's hard to ask questions about things you don't know you need to know. I thought the hardest part would be MCAT and getting into school. No. It's all hard. Not the material. The material is great and interesting. The curriculum sucks, the amount of time you DON'T have to learn it all sucks. First year sucks. I'm doing pretty well in school too. My grades aren't bad and my GPA is pretty sweet. But I'm...getting sick of this. Exams EVERY WEEK. 2-3 exams EVERY WEEK. A week when there's only one exam is a rare gift. The schedule sucks. I'm getting sick of this. It's not like you have exams and no class or lectures to watch. Oh no...class is still mandatory...you still have lectures to watch. The material doesn't stop coming. It's 2-3 exams EVERY WEEK plus all the material you need to learn every week plus mandatory class and lab time. EVERY WEEK. I'm praying that when I finally get to be with my patients it will all feel worth it. I didn't believe there was anything else in the world that I'd rather do. But I can think of a few things now. I'd rather travel. I'd rather eat food from around the world. But perhaps I can incorporate this into my med life. Perhaps I will do endless missions as a doc. I gotta make it work, cuz I refuse to come out on the other side feeling like this wasn't worth it. If you think you're gonna do this for the money...I got one word for you...LOANS. The debt is terrifying. No turning back. If you think you're gonna do this to make someone else proud. Don't. They won't really care. And neither will you, once you're miserable. And I mean miserable. If you think it will be better when you get past the MCAT and actually get into med school. You're wrong. Don't play yourself.