#stranger (anonymous)

[devoted-royal-scientist]

What’s the story with the name bread loaf???

//SO!

Basically it’s very simple. When Bread Loaf was born… She was no bigger than half a loaf of bread!! 🍞

She was so tiny Gaster could hold her in both his cupped hands…

@skelehomie

[devoted-royal-scientist]

If he’s using Rony to keep himself from dying doesn’t she also feel hurt when he’s in the void or comeback from it? Or does the bond disappear like him and memories of him too? His condition sounds deadly for him to be risking someone else’s soul.

//owo

TBH I wanted to leave my reply at that because 1) we are still working on this and 2) it’s a really great situation and I don’t want to spoil it buuuuuut–

Like I said, in normal AU, Gaster is looking for a way to slowly heal his damaged Soul, but in the Tender Love AU with Rony, I’ve been thinking of how bonding would work in that situation.

Usually, monsters with damaged Souls avoid bonding because it can be dangerous especially if the Soul is dramatically unstable. 

Rony and Gaster were bonded before the Void incident, and before they were bonded, Gaster told her everything, confessing even the fact that he’d created Sans and Papyrus accidentally in his efforts to revive the Royal Children.

So, Rony knew what she was getting into.

Knowing that, Gaster was still really scared because he didn’t know what was going to happen when they bonded– if it was going to backfire and hurt Rony or if her Soul was going to be weakened by his, etc.

Essentially what began happening when they bonded was “power sharing” or “magic sharing”. 

In essence, Gaster’s damaged Soul can only put out, let’s say, 60% of his magical output, and most of that is being used to keep his form (see my other headcanons on Souls), so he has very little EXTRA magic to really USE to heal his Soul over time. He would probably have more if they were smaller cracks or if there was just one, but he really damaged himself (see Another Tale for details).

So, when he bonds to Rony, her Soul and his Soul essentially share magical energy so that they’re at the same “level” of power. If Rony’s Soul is at 100% before she’s bonded, she’ll run around 80% after bonding, so Gaster can be at 80% too. This helps to heal him slowly over the 20ish years they are together before Gaster falls into the Void.

The bond doesn’t disappear then. In fact, both Rony and Gaster feel a Soul-deep desperation to be reunited as an after-effect of the bond being slowly weakened over time, even though Rony can’t remember who she’s longing for and why she’s so desperately lonely.

But anyway, Rony’s Soul running at a lower level just makes her a little more tired and she can use less magic at a time, but it’s not deadly. If anything, it makes her “age” visually a little bit faster than most skeletons, and they take more naps together.

Post-Pacifist gets complicated because the bonding desire comes back full-force and Rony’s soul is definitely strained by it all, but she isn’t in danger of dusting like Gaster feared she would be.

(Also, I’m running this by @skelehomie​ before I post since this is all about Rony and G!)

Side note: I’m working on a visual version of explaining my Soul theory with this, but my SAI has been not working and hand pain so I’ll get to it when I can!

[devoted-royal-scientist]

🚼 - Does your character have or want kids?

Gaster created (for lack of a better word) Sans and Papyrus and raised them into adulthood before falling into the Void. They now live down the street from him and Asgore in his normal Canon verse.

In the Tender Love AU where Gaster is bonded and married to Rony ( @skelehomie ) along with his creation of Sans and Papyrus, he adopts Amos and later Henry through marriage and (Spoilers!) they have a biological child between them that Gaster carries. She doesn't have a name yet! We call her Bread Loaf!

[devoted-royal-scientist]

What discords are you on? What's your discord id?

//Sorry, anon! I don’t give out my discord to people I don’t know/don’t follow =D

It’s more personal than my tumblr and I prefer not to be in too many servers. If you wanna get to know me you can send me an IM or off-anon message! I know the tumblr IM is awful but what can ya do?

[devoted-royal-scientist]

What's it really like being a care giver or nurse? Do you have to deal with gross stuff? Are the patients difficult?

If you want reality, you’ve come to the right place. 

I want to start out saying that I won’t include lots of details simply because every healthcare setting is different, so I will share what being a caregiver means to me. These are my opinions and personal experiences and as such I hope you will not judge to harshly.

Ahem. *shuffles papers*

Let’s talk about Media. Although media gives us several different views of what being a nurse or doctor in hospitals is like, they either gloss over the gross stuff, or make it impossibly exciting.

Honestly, most of my shifts have gone without much comment. What you spend 50% (if not more) of your time doing is charting; documenting what you’ve done so there is proof you’ve done it, because if there’s no proof, it didn’t happen. 

Then, you have to stay within all the laws and policies put in place by the state (or country) and the facility/company you work in/for, and remember them all. In media, they tend to skirt the laws or break them entirely and it magically all works out because the patient lived, but when I see a scenario like that my brain sees all the things that could have gone wrong. In reality it’s not safe to break laws and policy because they are put in place to prevent errors which could lead to death. This might sound like a “duh we know” but you’d be surprised...

And yes, you have to deal with “gross stuff!” Patients are sick. That’s why they need a caregiver! Whether it’s vomit or blood or poop or unidentifiable yellow goop coming out of a wound, you have to deal with it all as a nurse-- AND on top of that, school your features into a blank expression, no matter how much your nose wants to crinkle at the stench coming out of that ulcer. Your patient has to live with that on/in their body! You only have to deal with it for a little while.

That also has a lot to do with my next point. Have you ever been sick? Are you the best person you can be when you’re hurting or in pain? Probably not. You’re probably horrible company or become very needy or a mixture of the two. Have you ever been in an awful situation where you had no control? Well, it’s likely that if you’ve had to stay in the hospital in any fashion it was not by choice, and certainly not within your control.

People can be difficult to work with, and even more so when they are in desperate situations. If you had to miss your sister or daughter’s wedding, miss a court date to fight for your house or your children, or had to have your 14th surgery on your shoulder because complications continued to arise, you might just be bitter and angry and take it out on your caregiver.

Most of the time however, patients have a general sense of kindness and even if they do lash out, it is only momentary and we get along in the end. Some people just need someone to listen to their story, to feel validated in their emotions and concerns, and so you have to have some level of empathy.

I could honestly go on for ages about what is hard about being a nurse/caregiver but I won’t. Most of the things I would say are hard to understand simply because you would have to experience them to grasp the impact of it all, but I will say that there are many, many aspects that come with having to deal with people that are magnified by sickness and desperate situations.

In conclusion you have to be willing to care for others despite the hardships that come with dealing with the scared, the sick, and the injured. You have to let go of any bias and prejudice you may have. You have to be kind when you’d rather be anything but. You have to learn self-satisfaction and to tell yourself “good job” because not every patient is going to see you has having done so, despite your best efforts. You have to be willing to serve, to care for, and to defend the person under your care as if they were a loved one.

So is being a caregiver easy? No. Is it rewarding? For some. Would I do anything else? Probably not, even if it’s harder than I expected since starting out.

That’s all I have for now, and I hope I answered your questions! I wish you a wonderful day!

[devoted-royal-scientist]

"Don't worry Gaster, I'll be back! I promise I'll come back and visit you!" But they never returned.

“…”

Gaster wasn’t holding out Hope for your return anyway.

[devoted-royal-scientist]

[/showers mun in hugs and knitted sweaters]

// ;;w;; Thanks anon…

It’s just been a long week and the person training me expects me know and do everything right 100% of the time and I’m feeling constantly intimidated…

My manager said they were gonna put me with someone else and rotate the trainees so that I don’t have the same person for my whole 8 weeks so… I look forward to that.

I mean, they weren’t horrible. They’ve so far let me be super independent and I’ve got three patients to myself (out of my eventual 5) which is great for me, but there’s like 0 positive feedback which can get incredibly frustrating.

And there’s also the… acting as if I otherwise don’t exist part and talking down to me part and grilling me about procedures I’ve had 1 day to take in and asking if I learned how to give report as I fumble out what my patient needs to the doctor because I’m nervous as heck which ends in the doctor hanging up on me–

…sorry. I didn’t mean to rant. I’m just… tired and frustrated. I hope I get someone who will at least not talk down to me or treat me like I’m stupid…