#strawb thoughts

[strawbynrobyn]

While navigating the scrapyard of gender, one must also consider that maybe they are another's transition goals and take solace in that to keep the dysphoria away

[strawbynrobyn]

A little gender conversation to the void

While I tend to present femme of soft butch on days out in public, I'm usually at home, in comfy clothes, lately- an oversized hoodie/pullover or duster/cardigan I got from cloak

Then I saw the term "dysphoria hoodie" today and it surprised me, one who has been chronically online since 2014, and openly queer online since 2019

The gender hasnt been feeling so fluid lately and it's making me a little nervous.

More rantings under the cut

Looking femme is not necessarily my fault, I just don't have a binder, I say to dismiss the thoughts of being anything other than nonbinary

I've wanted to "catch" breast cancer since I heard of its existence- that's not a normal thought- but cis and nonbinary people can get top surgery, that's not just for one demographic.

I don't like not knowing myself and knowing myself at the same time. I know the feelings I have but I don't know why I have them and it driving me up the wall.

[strawbynrobyn]

Too bad that I'm 5'2" bc I would love to cosplay Kyoshi in a heartbeat

[strawbynrobyn]

If trans then why boob?

[strawbynrobyn]

Hot girl tummy troubles this, hot girl digestive issues that

I like to think of my body in Osmosis Jones and the guys working in literally the shittiest dept got unionized so they don't get overworked- which love that for them- but it means they have a guy hitting the FLUSH ALL button 30 minutes after I eat bc there's only so much they can deal with at a time.

[strawbynrobyn]

Thinking about how I would cringe every time mom would say "my daughter" and thinking that it was bc I was embarrassed to be related to her

Turns out it may have been the daughter part

[strawbynrobyn]

Quitting a second job with no plans on the future seems unwise but idk if I can survive- even with the notice I'm giving them

[strawbynrobyn]

Had a dream I was helping rehab some river otters and we were stressing bc they weren't eating but then I asked, what if I just made them burgers

Those burgers went so fast and then I got to hang out with them