#strawb rants

[strawbynrobyn]

A little gender conversation to the void

While I tend to present femme of soft butch on days out in public, I'm usually at home, in comfy clothes, lately- an oversized hoodie/pullover or duster/cardigan I got from cloak

Then I saw the term "dysphoria hoodie" today and it surprised me, one who has been chronically online since 2014, and openly queer online since 2019

The gender hasnt been feeling so fluid lately and it's making me a little nervous.

More rantings under the cut

Looking femme is not necessarily my fault, I just don't have a binder, I say to dismiss the thoughts of being anything other than nonbinary

I've wanted to "catch" breast cancer since I heard of its existence- that's not a normal thought- but cis and nonbinary people can get top surgery, that's not just for one demographic.

I don't like not knowing myself and knowing myself at the same time. I know the feelings I have but I don't know why I have them and it driving me up the wall.

[strawbynrobyn]

No but actually once I got the justice degree I realized I couldn't fucking do anything with it that was morally sound.

How does one work with a justice degree without becoming a cop and without law school (bc who tf has that kind of money)

[strawbynrobyn]

Fucking losing my mind bc I had the audacity to start challenging myself workout wise and my knee that hadn't fucked around in 2 years had me finding out today

So now I get to start over with physical therapy yet again